..my battle stance..

I guess you know that you are so close to being nerd when you write a story, title it, add something to it and add something to the title like a software version. @-@ Good Lord...

just endured another frustating phone call session with muhibah @-@ me: hi. i'd like to check what are the available flights to beijing on thursday. the cheapest ones? muhibah: return or one way? me: one way muhibah: okay hold on ya.. me: okay muhibah: student? me: ya.. muhibah: okay hold on ya... so i waited... muhibah: i got this Garuda promotion, 3xx SGD (forgot). me: oh great. what time is the departure? muhibah: oh wait.. this is for workers only. sorry me: oh okay muhibah: hold on ya.. waited again.. muhibah: you want direct flight? me: ya. is there cheaper indirect flight? muhibah: ya malaysia airlines. direct flight would be Air China, SQ and Garuda. Air China is 5xx. me: what time is the departure? muhibah: 1 AM. But this one doesn't fly daily. Only Monday, Wed, and Friday. me: but i am looking for Thursday flight. muhibah: oh okay.. thursday.. hold on ya.. and i waited again.. muhibah: I got Garuda 660 SGD. me: what time is the departure? muhibah: this one is.........

"Tau ga Win? Hampir setiap kali waktu aku lelah, kututup mataku dan berbisik dalam hatiku 'angin..' entah dari mana.. lalu.." "Lalu beneran ada angin yang berhembus?" Winnie tertawa. "Kamu ini.. ntah terlalu imajinatif, atau keracunan gara2 kebanyakan nonton. Kan ada tuh, pelem korea, windstruck.. pasti kamu terinspirasi cowo itu deh." Aku hanya tersenyum. Winnie memang sudah terbiasa dengan segala hal yang tidak masuk akal, yang ntah kenapa selalu mengikuti hidupku. "Ya uda, kita buktikan sekarang. Gimana?" tantangku. "Serius?" "Definitely." "Baiklah bocah angin.. hembuskanlah anginmu" Winnie menutup matanya. Kutatap dia. Hanya saat matanya terkatup, saat matanya berpaling, aku bisa menatapnya dengan jujur. 'Tuhan.. anginMu..' bisikku dalam hati. Sedetik. Dua detik. Lalu angin pun datang. Angin yang lembut tapi pasti. Angin favoritku. Rambut Winnie mulai menari, dan juga bibirnya.. Senyumnya yang ter

Alright, love connection seminar was a job well done, at least I believe so. We got more participants than we expected, considering that we only got er.. less than 10 last Sunday, it is yet again a miracle. We weren't prepared, quite jumbled up on the presentation slides but every speakers really did well to communicate with the audience. I am really glad that God has sent these friends who are so supportive. Can't thank them enough. First was the No Apologies workshop and now this. In any case, I can only pray that those participants went home blessed. really glad seeing those innocent teenagers, and those questions.. pure innocent. and ultimately, may my dear God smiles upon us. I love handling Q&A but I am not really that good with being MC.. so yeah. next time, better get someone else. Wait.. did I say next time? Well if there is next time, I better make it clear with my youth pastor that seminar is never a touch n go. Preparation.. research.. never take them lightly. L

Baru baca satu blog temen, tepat nya orang yg gua kenal doank seh dari jaman di raffles hall dulu, yg lagi protes kalo dia dikasi training sama company, where dia surrounded by stupid people. Dan dia bilank, dia palink benci stupid people. Cowo dia kasi satu advice yg gua rasa bagus banget "kalo loe ga punya something gud to say about someone, mending jgn omong" Ga tau seh.. sejak masuk NUS, n lalu kerja disini, gua sering banget ngeliat orang2 yang seperti itu. mgkn krn yah.. yg disini ini rata2 anak2 pinter n jenius n talented. jadi being stupid is almost like a sin bagi sebagian dari mrk. remark kaya "stupid" n "idiot" itu sering gua dgr n it hurts me whenever i heard that. okay.. for the sake of objectiveness, maybe i'm biased coz i'm also stupid ^^ dulu pun waktu gua maseh di indo, dikelilingi temen2 yang 'amburadul', kita biasa banget bisa ngatain "goblok" ato "bego" dan sejenisnya.. tapi kita ngatain dengan nada y

Burn Words and Music by Andrew Yeo Verse: Jesus You are my everything I am amazed by the love that You’ve shown At the cross All of my sins have been washed I will embrace this love You’ve given me To please the heart of Yours Bridge: And I fall into You Empty my all, I’ll run to You Chorus: Purge away my sins Make me whole again Burn within my heart A passion for Your name Cleanse me of my faults Make me pure within Deep inside my heart Renew the fire again Burn in me the fire -------------------- only now do I understand 'the fear of the Lord' only now do I understand how much I need Your boundless mercy amazing grace.. how sweet the sound.. that saves a WRETCH like me.. i know i am not the best but i always thought that at least i am in a way better than many, i thought i have learned to live with some amount of integrity and i thought i have understood much, but it turns out that calling myself 'a wretch' is almost flattering i look at the mirror, and i see a fallen

*a comment posted on a blog I frequent, an old hym apparently. Loved the lyric Holy Darkness -------------- Refrain: Holy darkness, blessed night, heaven’s answer hidden from our sight. As we await You, O God of silence, we embrace your holy night. I have tried you in fires of affliction; I have taught your soul to grieve. In the barren soil of your loneliness there I will plant my seed. I have taught you the price of compassion; you have stood before the grave. Though my love can seem like a raging storm, this is the love that saves. Were you there when I raised up the mountains? Can you guide the morning star? Does the hawk take flight when you give command? Why do you doubt my pow’r? In your deepest hour of darkness I will give you wealth untold. When the silence stills your spirit, will my riches fill your soul. As the watchman waits for morning, and the bride awaits her groom, so we wait to hear your footsteps as we rest beneath your moon.

Hindarkan aku dari murkaMu ya Allah, sembunyikan aku dari geramMu yang menyala-nyala sesungguhnya dalam kesalahan aku dikandung, dan dalam pelanggaran aku diperanakkan, dan dengan dosa aku bergumul sepanjang hariku tulang-tulangku serasa remuk oleh gentar, dan hatiku sungguh hancur mengingat dukaMu jangan palingkan wajahMu ya Allah, jangan biarkan rohMu yang kudus beranjak dariku siapakah aku ya Tuhan, hingga layak akan belas kasihMu namun itu yang kupinta, kuberanikan meminta, maka dengarlah jeritku ya gunung batuku sekali lagi, ulurkan tangan kanan Mu angkatlah aku dari debu dan abu sekali lagi, hembuskan nafas hidup Mu bangkitkan aku dari jurang maut Hades nyalakan sekali lagi, api kudus Mu yang menghanguskan noda cela ku sampai habis biar sekali lagi bibir ini layak berkata, terpujilah Engkau ya Allah ku yang hidup *dari chapter 'daud dan batsyeba'

Korean version of love actually. Not that impressive but still, a decent v-day movie to watch. I like the girlfriend of the fireman. First saw her playing the korean horror, the tale of two sisters, as moon's elder sister. The snowwhite and seven dwarfes are really cute too. In a nutshell, must watch if you like Korean movies.

That Loh Hei, which means make lots of money or something like that, is terms used by the bad ass in Cantonese society, a slang that is not used to describe making money in proper and decent way. That was what my boss said when we were having our CNY company lunch last friday. The Jumbo's meal was great. I was stuffed. A free lunch followed by a dinner, also free, when I attended the singers meeting. See.. I have been getting free meals lately. This is no good. Today I had porridge buffet with friends at Joaquin, suntec. Got pig skin, trotter, and other parts, and all the sinful thing Chinese eat with porridge. For $13, its quite worth it. Then went to carrefour with mbun to buy things. Then something caught my attention. I was startled, I stood there like a dumb. A mum was laughing and talking to her probably 3/4 years old daughter. The mum was really pretty and her daughter, that was the little thing that paralyzed me =P Dressed in white, she was so angelic, and her rabbit teeth.

I AM CONFUSED!!! How on earth am I going to come up with this love talk seminar ?!! Why on Mars do I have to be trusted with this God?! And do I look like love expert?! Sigh.. You know, if I can do it my way, I would walk up to the audience, and tell them that 1. Everybody want to find true love 2. Many thought they have found it, and worse still 3. Some thought they got the key to it, but in fact 4. Few have really experienced that, and the sad thing is 5. None can teach you many things about love None can tell you if he(she) is the one, none can tell you how to guarantee your relationship to last, none can tell you how to not love someone you must not love, none can tell you what is the right way to pursue someone. Nothing is definite and the possibility is infinite. In everything you do, do it with God in mind. Don't be afraid to make mistakes or to suffer heartbreak, and enjoy whatever situation you are in. And now go home and have a nice weekend ^^ Less than 10 minutes I guess

This is a story that my friend said has been around for quite a while http://www.honeymoon-forever.com/carry-you.html But I never read it and if you never read it, read it first. As usual, whenever the story cause my tears to drop, it's considered good story for me =D It's so touching, or maybe I am just too soft for this. I wanted to put it in the youth newsletter but dian thought the theme is too mature, well I agree actually. Call me weird, but my very concern when it comes to relationship is not how to get into one but how to keep one. I know, for a 25 yrs old guy who hasn't got into any relationship for 5 years, I should actually be more concerned with the first problem. Yet.. I fear for my ability to remain faithful instead. So the question has always been "can this girl keep me faithful for the rest of my life?" instead of "will she fall for me?" !@#$ Anyway.. after reading the story, I told myself that if one day I really settle down, got married

"Ko Indraaa!!!" seruan cempreng itu menyadarkanku dari lamunanku. Lamunan tentang kejadian 9 tahun lalu. --1997-- "Ko Indraaa!!!" Serentak seluruh indraku tersadar penuh. Oh.. udah jam enam sore yah. Aku ngga sempat berpikir banyak. Seakan terprogram, tubuhku melesat ke kamar mandi, kucuci mukaku dan kurapikan rambutku sedikit. Mama yang menyaksikan semua itu hanya bisa geleng2. "Ndra... kamu kalo mama bangunin buat ngeles susahnyaa... ampun deh. Tapi begitu Pauline manggil 'ko indraa...' kok kamu bisa langsung bangun yah?" Aku cuma bisa tersenyum melihat mamaku menirukan suara Pauline yang cempreng. "Ko Indra... uda dicariin tuh!" terdengar teriak tetangga usilku. Wah kayanya satu gank kecil ini semua udah terbiasa dengar suara Pauline tiap sore. Setiap sore Pauline selalu lewat depan gank ku sepulang sekolah. Dia selalu berjalan bersama dua sahabat baiknya, Lola dan Rina. Dan setiap sore aku selalu akan menemani sisa perjalanan dia samp

Malem Lunar New Year, sama tiga temen yang sama2 terdampar di sg makan di goodwood park hotel. Buffet gitu. Yg paling enak itu...dessertnya!! kue durennya.. alamak... kalo istilah food maniac, food to die for =P ditraktir pula.. omong2 liburan 4 hari ini ntah napa dapet gratisan terus.. Tuhan kasian sama daku tampaknya =D Trus yah.. ke river hongbao and liat fireworks. Napa yah.. liat fireworks itu.. the atmosphere is just there.. how you wish besides you is that special someone. And pengen liat wajah dia yang diterangi fireworks, and pengen grab her hands, saying nothing while expressing everything there is. Sayang kejadiannya ga gitu malam itu lol =D Spanjang jalan, liat macem2 pasangan, dari yang tampak made for each other sampe yang tampak sebaliknya.. kadang suka mikir, apa yah yang menyatukan dua hati itu. must be something so simple yet something you can't buy with all your wisdom.