..my battle stance..

If you've seen enough anime or j-dorama, you will definitely be familiar with this riverbank scene. Usually it's sunset. And I always wondered.. would I see such place when I visit Japan. Apparently.. these places do exist. And I think.. it's part of what makes Japan charming. So I always wish that one fine day.. these two persons will eventually lie down together.. basking in the warm embrace of the setting sun. under that orenji sky that makes them dream. where there is no agenda or rules to follow. only two free hearts that love freely. and two pair of eyes that have become soul mates. sharing a pair of earplug that sings their song of covenant.

woh.. finally.. it's that time again to look back. and to look ahead. and be grateful above all. looking back i just can't imagine.. this journey.. been a long one. for someone who once imagined that he would live a life like Chairil Anwar.. it's been way past the due date. looking ahead, I will remember the verse my mum always remember from Stephen Tong's KKR in Medan.. longg longg time ago.. before I was born. He said, "Forget(ting) the past and look(ing) forward to what lies ahead". (Phil 3 NLT) And what lies ahead? Probably there will be more twists and turns and wounds and tears.. but also.. more and more of His glory. and at the end of all those.. the glorious return of our Lord. may our eyes be ceaselessly fixed on that eternity that awaits us.

for so many times I tried to post something. but all I could think of is a negative feeling. Not that my life has been THAT miserable, good things happens.. here and there. And God is good.. always. But you know.. when certain incidents give you that overwhelming feeling that you seem incapable of writing anything but that. Which makes me wonder.. these successful people who are capable of maintaining optimistic thought at all times.. (which is probably only 10% of those who seem to be capable of such feat) how the heck did they do it?

Well.. whatever this is.. it is apparently.. famous hah. And of course... there is this!

At some point.. I can only sigh. I can offer nothing else and nothing more. Not to a bottomless pit of doubt. If all that I've given  means nothing more than the opinion of those naysayers.. At this point.. I can only sigh. :)