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OH NOOO!!! Whats going on here.. ANOTHER ONE?! *faint Yah anyway.. I dunno it can be that simple a decision to make coz it takes me forever just to come up with that ONE NAME so ya.. all the best frens.. I always believe that its better to miss out on the right person and stay single all your life, rather than to end up with the wrong person all your life. You will end up hurting two persons or even more when you got kids and they have to grow up watching their parents arguing every single day. Ah.. thinking too much is the very reason why I am still here I guess. Bleah.. next.. Oh yeah, actually I watched X-Men III last weekend and have to say that I was rather disappointed. Just bcoz Wolverine is a cool badass doesn't mean you can elevate his status and let my Cyclops die such a lame death! Jean's battle with Prof. X is a classic though. My fave character in the movie? Gotta be the furball, Beast. On a side note, just sent out my 'final' version of the library project...

Was going with other cellgroup mates to witness Vica and Dustin baptized. Congrats to them. May their life be changed and may they never look back anymore, running towards Him with all their might. AMen!! Then went to watch da Vinci code which was, I think, rather entertaining though I failed to see why Tom Hanks was chosen to play Robert Langdon. Sophie was perfectly portrayed though. Then here I am now.. trying to slow the time coz I still haven't had enough of my lazy weekend moment. I was thinking.. what if I stop for a moment, and get myself to look at you in a different way, from a different angle, the way and angle that allow me to fall in love with you? What stop me from doing so all this while? Is it the fear of admitting that I may well fall in love with you? The fear that it may actually work out? But why can't we be in love? Heh.. another pointless thought with no particular background =D

*Thanks lots lots to Cath who gave me this link which allow me to copy and paste this very nice piece by Gie. You can just sense his soul inside his writing, as clear and as braod as the morning sky. MANDALAWANGI - PANGRANGO Soe Hok Gie Senja ini, ketika matahari turun kedalam jurang2mu aku datang kembali kedalam ribaanmu, dalam sepimu dan dalam dinginmu walaupun setiap orang berbicara tentang manfaat dan guna aku bicara padamu tentang cinta dan keindahan dan aku terima kau dalam keberadaanmu seperti kau terima daku aku cinta padamu, Pangrango yang dingin dan sepi sungaimu adalah nyanyian keabadian tentang tiada hutanmu adalah misteri segala cintamu dan cintaku adalah kebisuan semesta malam itu ketika dingin dan kebisuan menyelimuti Mandalawangi Kau datang kembali Dan bicara padaku tentang kehampaan semua "hidup adalah soal keberanian, menghadapi yang tanda tanya "tanpa kita mengerti, tanpa kita bisa menawar 'terimalah dan hadapilah dan antara ransel2 kosong dan api ungg...

Suzanne Jung is getting prettier lately ^^ OH no.... one of these days I really should wait for her at the CNA studio with some roses =P Just because she has been something I am looking forward to every morning when I got into the bus. And and.. here is some clip of her interviewing some Korean hunkie and another Korean girl who make you melt too.. these kimchi girls are really something..

Hmm.. the last post was 14 days ago.. what have I been doing lately? Anyway, just finished the bible camp, phew.. I was quite anxious in the beginning for many reasons but everything went well and shall I conclude everything in "God is good" these three words? Ya.. God is good. There is just one question that remains. How much do I want to give for God? In all my weaknesses and love for the worldly stuff, I have to admit it's a bit painful to realize that the only answer He'd love to get is 'everything'. Well the truth is I have written some stuff in the last two weeks but always kept them in the draft for one reason or another. Even the above two paragraphs were taken from the last draft. I was basically talking about the unworthy phenomenon that is Dan Brown, but realizing that in the end, maintaining love and peace among your brothers and sisters in Christ is the most important matter. So let each of us act according to our faith and glorify God in doing so...

Rite.. first of all.. happy birthday linda!! my fellow editor and FA mate whom I have known for 5 years plus. I like playing RPG, and in RPG linda would be the kind of character with that unique flair and mystery wrapping her. Loves fairy tales and flowers.. I guess there is a little bit of Aerith in her. All in all.. wish you a great year ahead, with many many pleasant surprises along the way, and for every hurdle, let there be sweet promise waiting to be fulfilled. And that sweet one you are waiting for.. may the Great Love fulfill that wish also ^^ keep going strong sis. And o.. oh.. got a super duper surprising news yesterday.. I was like 'Huhh?'. then.. 'Ohh....'. then 'Huhhh?' then..'Ohh..ic..' then..'Huhhh?' again. Goodness I felt like a dumb. Coz the news was just too much for me to take. It just never crossed my mind but never mind.. congrats frens.. smooth path ahead ya ^^ Now let me just give you my opinion. I understand and respect ...

My working spirit is at all time low, and this stupid objective-C language give me all kind of headache just because it doesn't discard all the objects it uses automatically. God bless anyone who came up with garbage collector for Java. Heck I don't care about efficiency and performance, I just need to get my project done and DONE. Oh gosh.. Anyway, I was looking for a cab the other day when I saw this Indian couple fighting, or quarelling, as they were about to get on a cab. They kept quarelling and never got into the cab. So I just walked there and took the cab. The cabbie uncle complained about the Indian and I told him that at least they didn't get into the cab and fight inside his car. He laughed and told me that it was one of the Indian tricks for free ride. Not that all Indians are like that. But these tricks are used by Indians passengers and not, or almost never, other kind of people in Singapore. Please keep that in mind. It's just a story a cabbie told me and...

Two days ago was mother's day. Mother's day meant little to my family few years ago. My dad was the typical old school husband and father who didn't teach us the little things such as hugging and kissing your parents. While our family isn't disoriented, thanks God, we are not that warm either. My brother and I never really learnt how to show the gesture when you care about someone. So my mum would envy other mothers when she saw them being hugged by their children. She would want us to do the same. But we didn't even see our dad and mum hold hands and hugging till recently. My mum is such a romantic but my dad just doesn't have that in his blood. Not to say that he doesn't know how to be romantic. He just couldn't make the sense out of it. Why is that so? Because he grew up in a family where his dad (my grandpa) was the dictator with iron hands. It becomes recursive. If no changes happen to me, I will end up starting a family with similar problem. My chi...

And my birthday just past. And I am now 25. And I am really grateful for these people who have SMSed or MSNed or called or come to celebrate my birthday. Here you are in almost chronological order (my bad memory) and DEFINITELY not in any other kind of order. I am sure I will miss out someone but I try not to. - Sharon - Sista - Bombie - Iot - Riky and Hilda - Andre and Olip - Biena - Iwan - Linda, Owen, Edwin, Vivi, Erik, Plank, Rita, Mbun (the midnite troops) - Vera - Min - Ica - Henry - Dian S - Fenny - Darvin - Dian W - Oline - Vivy - Rani - Daya - Trisna - Cupang - Felicia and Irwan - Irwan Y. That makes it 22 sis and 12 bros. A 'healthy' ratio lol =P How that ratio never turn into a 'concrete result' is beyond me =D Thanks ya.. especially the nine kind souls who have made the effort to come midnite. Love ya.. I am sorry that I have not been participating in the midnite celebration this year. I never record this kinda thing before but I guess doing it will be good ...

Didn't blog much lately, other than some references to this and that, not because I have nothing to say, just that I can't understand what and how I feel lately. I can't quite tell whether I am happy or sad, content or discontent. Jio Mbun for buffet tomorrow, not because I so much crave for buffet.. heck I will be just as happy to settle for Seoul Garden, which was a place we often visited few years ago. I just want to.. I don't know what I want either. Maybe stuffing myself would help lessen the anxiety. My digestion system will have to work so hard that my brain will switch off for a while.. so the theory goes. It's like you got so much to say yet you don't know what to say. You want to break loose but.. break loose from what? I don't know. But I know that if I got a car and driving license with me now, I would speed down the road to.. I don't know, somewhere, anywhere. I remember sometimes ago I wrote almost identical thing. I was still working in my...

Pronunciation: (dē"ku-thekt'), [key] —v.t. to withdraw one's feelings of attachment from (a person, idea, or object), as in anticipation of a future loss: He decathected from her in order to cope with her impending death. source: www.infoplease.com

Good things happen recently ^^ Not so much for me though lol. Well, my NUS fren got engaged last week. She has been with her boyfriend for quite a while. Both are genius.. congratz2... Then yesterday was the most shocking one... coz I always thought all was just jokes.. congratz to the two FA frens of me. Surely love works in the most unpredictable ways. Of course the previous couple from FA was also shocking to me for different reason haha. Anyway, glad to see them happy. I dunno if Friday's dinner is gonna be good thing but I know that this is really going nowhere. Sigh.. so it seems that we are going nowhere while the others have moved on. Anyway, was having a great FA session last night. Eve shared on how God used her the night before to help cast out demons for her friend. So she was sleeping over her friend's house, they were chatting till almost 3 AM and then the topic became serious and her friend wanted to be set free from the devil spirit inside her. At first Eve was ...

Sometimes ago I watched an anime, where there is one funny character, who has always been on the search for the 'best place'. A place where he can live in peace and be happy. I thought I have found such place. A very nice place where I could seek refuge and find great companions. I thought so because the master of that place is indeed the best and the only refuge you could count on. So I thought the place must be the best place. I saw the old residents of the place; they looked happy and strongly bonded. I was never good at blending in but well, this place should be different. So I gave it a try. Time flew. Some of the old residents are now gone. Some of the newer residents have become as happy as the old residents I first saw. I am neither out nor in. Some residents are really nice; just like the master. But like every other place, a person like me would encounter some people who would give me those unfriendly stare, those 'you are good for nothing' stare. Well what ca...

Was talking to bro wanderer about the great servants of God, among them was Smith Wigglesworth, who God used to heal so many people but he himself wasn't healed from his kidney illness. Then there was John G. Lake whose wife died due to malnutrition. How could the God who provides for the sparrow abandon these servants of Him? I was thinking and asking God as I prepared an article. And as I was doing my favorite business in the loo, which is essentially my place of enlightening in many occasions, it occured to me that, well not to say that this is God's answer whatsoever, but it just occured to me, an illustration that might explain the above cases. It all began when I read this: Smith was saddened in the last month of his life, as he commented: "Today in my mail, I had an invitation to Australia, one to India and Ceylon, and one to America. People have their eyes on me" Sadly, he began to weep: "Poor Wigglesworth. What a failure to think that people have their e...

Thx to Mbun for this link I have not seen fann wong in tv for quite a while. It seems that her age start to show. She is 30 something. Not everyone like her, some people think she isn't pretty, some people even bitch about her being two-faced etc. I never understand how people love to bitch about this or that actress' bad character when they don't even know the person, as in personally. You can criticize her physique and that's fair coz you can see that. But her character? Anyway, glad that she will play in the next 9pm drama. I don't watch much of TV lately but then, I'll try to catch a glimpse of her once or twice a week. Oh and the new movie "Just follow law", I confirm will watch one. Sigh.. how fast time flies. It has been six years since I first and last talked to and shared stage with Fann Wong haha. Darn.. should have 'gan gan' kissed her! ^^

dia yang slalu kuingat takkan pernah hilang dari relung jiwa mengapa tak pernah dia sadari getar rasa di hati yang kurasa kini takkan ku bina semua rasa cinta ku padanya walau apa yang kurasa cukup pedih dan membara takkan ku paksa dirinya memberikan cintanya karna ku tau dia takkan bisa tinggalkan cintanya ohh and now kusadari ku hanya orang ketiga tapi rasa ini tulus akankah semua berubah ************************* ngelink dari sini

Baru denger dari dd gua soal pernikahan glenn n dewi sandra di bali. Pas dewi sandra masuk, glenn nyanyi 'you are my everything' nya.. pas wedding vow, artis2 ada yg ampe nangis.. fwah.. kynya dramatis banget =P Like that, I also want leh ^^ Unlike other stories, this time it is dewi sandra yang jadi kristen. Quite unexpected I would say. Jadi mikir.. ah.. uda deh.. jangan mikir!! =) Wish both of them all the best. Ga gampang buat menyatukan dua keluarga dengan latar belakang religion yang beda. May God bless their marriage! Sekarang lagi demen banget denger lagu 'Singgasana Cinta' nya Ada Band. Lirik n melodinya, ntah napa berasa mirip lagu Kamulah satu2nya si dewa19. N i like that kinda song ^^

So this fren of mine, LL, was down with flu yesterday.. this morning I suddenly got an sms LL : Can you ask me hw m i feeling today? Lol Me: Ha3 u r realy one of a kind, erm.. Hi LL, do u feel better today? Is ur nose stil painful? LL : Hmmm ok this is better.. Hi hi phoenix.. Yes i'm fine. Better today. Thks.. Lol lol She is amusingly funny sometimes ^^ One of those who do things juz coz they feel feel like it. Impulsive. And heck care about all the rules. Anyway that is a compliment ya. Get well soon, my fren.

I remember that sometimes ago some people in our very own Indon' students forum were discussing Singaporean's ignorance towards politics. Some pointed out that the lowly educated bus drivers in Indonesia are generally more aware of their country's politics than the white collars here. And some of my fellow Indonesians are so damn proud of that. Politics. What a big word. Those youngsters who had the chance to meet Lee Kuan Yew brought up the same issue. They fear for the country's future as Singapore's young generation nowadays are mostly clueless with regards to the country's politics. They blame the PAP's dominance and they ask for a level playing field to allow opposition parties to grow. This world is all about finding the unlevel playing field where you gain advantage over the others. But I won't dwell on the naive questions they brought up. What impressed me was LKY's remark on that word, politics. What is politic? Is battling it out with oppos...

Thanks to bro wanderer for asking me something about my Fish Liver Oil story ^^ Which made me realise that I was just making excuses with regards to "I am not for her" thingy. So I took that part away. But that one word which is the reason she is not for me, at least for the moment, is not just an excuse. It is one thing that I would not trade for anything this world can offer. Yes not even 18 years old Noriko Sakai would do, mind you. A song says that to give that up I'll be a fool =) So we are friends now and that's all about it. We went to watch Ice Age 2 today and I felt comfortable so I think we are cool. Yes yes.. we break the pact to not meet with each other =P But really, that's all about it. So I guess that's the end of Fish Liver Oil saga. Good things do happen when Spring comes =) Thanks God ^^ Anyway, went for my first wakeboarding try out last weekend and as always, I am slow at mastering this kinda stuff =( It's okay, will try harder next tim...