..my battle stance..

I have been asked at least five times.. 'so do you regret moving to this new place?' Well.. I didn't regret it. My time was over. I was living easy life for 1.5 years and I couldn't stay that way. So I moved. But few weeks here, I realise one thing. This is also not where I belong. Nothing to do with the workload, the boss, or whatever. I mean.. I think this learning curve is really good for me. It was a shock to my system but it was a good thing. I just kept learning everyday. There were so much to learn. And my boss.. she is rather interesting. You always learn from her.. she really knows a lot. But.. ultimately.. It doesn't mean that I belong here. Coz I think this 'where I belong' issue has nothing to do with the quality of the place, the salary, or career prospect. At least now I understand this. We watched 'freedom writers' last Sunday. I thot not many would be interested so to have 11 people was fantastic heh. As always, rancu palink dependabl...

Waktu terus menambah laju, kau dan aku, kita terus terseret ragu. Atau mungkin, sekedar mengulur waktu. Menanti kepastian yang seperti dulu. tapi cerita dulu.. bukan tentang kita.

He died for me, whom He had not seen. So I'd live for Him.. whom I have not seen.. yet.

Woah.. finally.. I am done with flash and all those presentation stuff. Good riddance ^^ But honestly, I am at the same time thankful that I got to do this project. At least I can now say that three weeks into my new job - I had taken part in preparing my CEO annual ministry speech - I have had my dinner tabao-ed by my CEO - and I had seen all those ended well. My CEO stood out with his colorful slides and everyone were happy. He personally thanked us for the effort. Yeah =D and I thank GOd and my great teammates who really worked hard to make sure it got delivered. And I had outdone myself yet again. I fell asleep yesterday as our Minister was delivering his speech. ANd I was sitting in the first row coz I had to control the presentation slide. Win oredi -_- The lady MC was staring at me in that 'i am gonna eat you alive' kinda way. Can't help it.. I was soo tired. Anyway.. Now my real job starts and it seems that it will not be easier than the flash presentation. Move!

Old skul hiphop, and one of my all time fave. The song came to my mind as I was talking to my bro bout the new movie, 'Freedom Writers'.. which is so my type of movie. And Hilary Swank is.. so my type too..somehow ^^

oh gosh.. been tough, these few days. the job remains interesting, unpredictable, and thrilling. still working on my flash presentation and i came to realise that photoshop is truly the beginning of wisdom. its okay.. somehow I am confident that I will be able to work it out. The good thing about having a killer boss is that your team would become more united. then there is family.. which well.. have always been happening. another mountain, another prayer, another miracle. I so believe in that. and then my good friend aka my PC. i was being a smartpant last night, trying to identify the viruses that I suspect was residing in my PC. ended up removing my ethernet driver. doh. great! what else? i have also neglected some clients including stella n alfon who are actually in need of new home urgently. i feel bad but things were just going nuts lately lol. I could barely cope. I think it would be great to have a secretary now ^^ Which is probably why secretary could sometimes be more attract...

and my saturday is gone, havent done anything on my project. i need to be gungho tomorrow, really need to.. I wonder how I could cure my procastinating disease. am chatting with fish liver oil and she was saying something tat shocked me: "hey its our one year anniversary" no lah.. we got to know each other on japn trip last year this period. japan spring season. that's it. having said that.. i do miss japan. alot.... have also been thinking a lot.. bout people's expectation on us. have you ever thought of how you could spend your sunday-saturday not being your own? like.. you don't get to go out there n be yourself, 100%? i dunno.. is that bcoz ur true self will not be that likeable? or is that bcoz u have not found the rite place where u belong? maybe 20 something is the period where u really think about such stuff. when u were kid, as a blogger said, u were sure what you want to be. a policeman, a doctor, whatever. u change ur mind at times but u were sure of it...

Eh just realisedd it.. cannot suka-suka blog my work stuff nowadays.. heh. You never know ^^ ANywayz.. I think it's rather inappropriate to bitch about work also. So let's leave the bad things inside and share the good things instead. GOod thing is... the newspaper is talking bout the adjusting of public sector's salary this year. Hehe.. wonder if I will be affected ^^

What about.. Chris Tomlin?

Am listening to the soundtrack of "Turn left turn right". It's my last day of break and tomorrow gonna be my first day working in a new environment, doing things I have never done before. A bit nervous but.. years of programming teach me some important lessons. All bugs will be solved eventually. And so will all problems. It feels kinda sad u know.. to think that there is chance I will never do any programming anymore. It's like saying goodbye to the 4 years effort at NUS. Watched Stomp the Yard and gosh.. love it =) I wish I have dance genes in me ^^ Oh yeah, tried another top ramen stall last Sat. Needed to meet Mbun to ask him some stuff I need to know for my new job, n we had ramen at gallery hotel. This stall serves the Sapporo noodle which is known as the finest noodle in Japan, or so they claim. Well.. I kinda believe it coz Suneo (or is it Tsuneo?) used to fly to Sapporo with his parents only to eat this noodle heh. Then our cellgroup also went to Ignite las...

all i'm asking you, is don't write me off.. just yet.

My belated one ^^ One of the girls is quite sweet heh.

yeahh!! finally.. my last day at my office. this part of my life.. this period where i am working here.. is called.. "Nap". gonna miss my nap time, gonna miss these nice and laidback people. thank God for all this and I pray that my company will go from strength to strength, get IPO.. n conquer Adobe Acrobat ^^ i felt like walking in the memory lane these few days. it was juanni on sunday and yesterday, it was babi and her sister, via. they were on transit here for one day so i met up with them at lucky plaza's mc donald n had gud time chatting, with via especially. i realised that while i still think that via is an attractive person, i no longer had any special feeling and neither did she. so time really changes things. but it was a lil different with babi coz after all.. she was babi.. even though i said it differently, even though i told her that i didn't see us being together.. so knowing that she was already engaged and was getting married.. well.. i must say it ...

fwah.. n its sunday nite, i can smell monday. didnt really have chance to rest these two days. i finally managed to pushed myself to jog yesterday (by jog i mean 20% running and 80% walking). though i practically nullified all the effort by having dimsum buffet in the afternoon. bleah.. then yeah.. the rest is.. as rancu said hoho. ayo ncu kita jogging minggu depan, saya liburr ^^ tapi inget.. stamina saya rendah, berat di perut =D didnt know rancu bisa ngambek juga =P gomen ne... n today, met with juanni =) i am not sure if she had changed but parts of her were still the same. she still looks.. refined and confident. and i'm not sure if she has been using the same shampoo for the last 7-8 years but her hair still has the same scent that I used to love so much. I still lovee it now ^^ anyway, hope you are settling here nicely sis.. she said i haven't changed at all. all my friends who hadn't met me for 5-6 years would say the same n that means.. i dunno.. maybe i sud upgrad...

During last cellgroup, we had a very interesting debate on justice vs mercy. if someone break the law, do you advice him and give him chance, or do you hand him over to the law enforcer? i think there is no absolute answer to this because you really have to take into account how severe his act is, how severe his punishment will be, etc. We still need to be wise but generally, I tend to prefer mercy over justice. And that surprised dian. Heh we ended up continuing our discussion the next morning over the msn. She simply thought that it was only natural that you make sure that the wrongdoer get his due punishment. I think she was right in the sense that law need to be enforced. Otherwise our society will be in chaos. It's important, I think, to know that God is both merciful and just. He is both forgiving and punishing. Both mercy and justice are part of God's personality. That's why, I said that there is nothing wrong with dian's opinion. So if I were a policeman and I c...

erm just browsed around n found aya matsuura's clip. it reminds me of dendry, who used to be a big fan of aya matsuura, goto maki, and their morning musume girlsband. morning musume is one of a kind girlsband where every year they would have new member joining and old member leaving. if you think these girls look silly, you should know that morning musume are meant to be childish and cute. they often sing songs that are very much like children songs. i dun really like the band but they are quite entertaining at times. and aya matsuura.. she is quite cute heh.

I think around 19 ppl came for the cellgroup yesterday. Got two new faces, david and sanny. Hope to see both of you again next week and next next weeks ... We had farewell for our efrata. Yet another member leaving singapore. I can only pray that God leads her to greater things in Indon. We proceeded to watch our unedited video that was meant to be a surprise for her. Hoho unedited videos are always funny. Yes ran.. do burn one copy for me too hehe. Would love to keep it. The choco banana was great, don pie marvellous as always.. went home and felt so exhausted somehow. there were tremors yesterday and read in the news how some of the office workers cried out of fear. singapore is certainly not ready for such things but natural disaster is not something you can stop using technology or other man-made stuff. i guess in the end, we still have to count on the mighty Creator of the universe, the One who calm the storm and rule over the flood. Another sad news.. a supposedly safe garuda pla...

There was an earthquake today at around noon rite? My office also felt it.. my colleague who sits beside me told me that even the chairs were moving. So where was I? I was having a good nap beside him, not feeling a thing. Champion! -_- Seriously.. I need to consider getting an alarm that would ring when it detects earthquake in case you know.. I am sleeping alone in a hotel room and there is an earthquake. Gosh..

Ah.. it's 11:36 PM but I am not forgetting my monday clip. And this one, I love it ;) I've been living with a shadow overhead I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I've been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need em again someday I've been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mind All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love Oh oh oh I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine I've been searching but I just don't see the signs I know that it's out there There's got to be something for my soul somewhere I've been looking from someone to shed some light Not just somebody just to get me through the night I could use some direction And I'm open to your suggestions All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through wit...

the movie reconfirm a fact I start believing in: if you want to be up there among the greatest, you have to be prepared to be at the lowest, damnest point of life. And it's something, sadly, I may not have enough courage to do. Chris Gardner was pursuing his dream job so singlemindedly that he had to lose his wife and he even had to stay inside a locked toilet with his son as he was left with 21.33$ in his pocket. If it was me, I might have gone to look for a job, any job, that would at least provide me with enough money to stay alive. Not to say that his path is the one we all have to take. No I don't believe that all of us are meant to be stockbroker, drive ferrari, and stuff. And no.. I don't believe that his happYness is our happYness. I think we can live a 'salary man' life and still be glorifying God through different means. But the point is.. there are some people who are like Chris Gardner. Those who have a strong vision to be somebody great. Those who are p...