..my battle stance..

I am.. missing.. that little monkey.. somehow.. Sigh..

Good morning world!! It's Sunday, it's sunny.. and it's inevitable that on a day like this, something beautiful will happen. We are without place to stay but on a day like this, God will provide us with the place, even better than anything we could ever imagine. I haven't got my voice back properly but on a day like this, God will annoint my throat to serve Him with all my best. I still got loads of homework to do for Monday but on a day like this, God will enable me. On a day like this, we will celebrate the Lord ^^

One of the most memorable camps I ever had. God's presence and work was so real even from the first nite. Can't really write them down but gosh... ain't God awesome??! We were praying that each and everyone of our cell members would experience awesome presence of God and from what I could see.. we all were so blessed by the camp. Someone got the baptism of holy spirit but she said it's still a secret =P Too bad we didn't have the chance to see Rancu acting hoho =D Oh but Alex... you rock man ^^ For rancu it gonna be her first and last before she goes to malaysia so I hope you had a great camp yah =) As for Liana.. we believe that God always has His plan and perfect time. So be patient sis! And the following.. is about the three daughters of God who made such a brave decision to follow Him undignifiedly The second nite, after the annointing session, we felt the strong urge to ask the four members of 'genk imut'-our ever so adorable cell members, whether they ...

if You can use anything, won't you use me?? Take me and break me and mould me and make me! You died for me so I am living for You.. I am living for You.. living for You!!

It's funny how I watched Spiderman 3, with all its teaching about choices, and I ended up only remembering this line Peter Parker said in the beginning of the movie: "And I am in love.. with the girl of my dreams" So.. ga penting.. but well.. that's the most memorable line for me ^^ Maybe coz I had been dreaming strange dreams lately. Heh. Or maybe.. I thought it will be surreal to wake up one morning and finding yourself in love with the girl of your dreams. What's the chance of that happening?

A sweet song by Cao Ge and this sweety that I never seen before. The way she says 'wo yuan yi bian chen ni de zhu ying tai", especially the 'zhu ying tai' part.. is wayy.. adorable. The song itself is a no-brainer stuff, about two persons wanting to confess their love. They cross Romeo-Juliet with Liang San Bo- Zhu Ying Tai, which is not too original either. But then.. my ears quite like the sound of it =)

It was 10 PM, three of us were sitting there, inside the empty office. And my senior, whom I thought was enjoying her job all this while, mumbled: "I feel so tired.. yet I keep working. Sometimes I wonder; what am I doing here?" To which I replied.. "Good question".. and we laughed. It was unspoken.. but we both know.. our cheese is not here. What I couldn't understand was that.. how did she survive her two years here? Over the past two years, 9 out of 10 times she took MC, she would still come for work. Maybe the pay was good. Maybe she needed that for her wedding. But now that she was married.. and she had to keep her husband waiting for her till 10 PM to have dinner together.. she started asking that classic question. I used to tell this to friends who work overtime, stay over at their office.. I used to tell them that it's not worth it. My other senior colleague put it this way: "You sacrifice your health for wealth, so that you can use your wealth ...

there are times when people are being kind, coz they try to make up for something. you could have told them 'there is no need to do that'. but maybe sometimes it's better to pretend that you don't know what they are trying to do. so that they would feel better. and life goes on.

26. It's like the 2nd chapter of life. Asssuming we live for 75 yrs.. I am now embarking on the next 25 years of life. The first chapter was about parents, childhood, sibling, school, puppy loves, loves, and a lil bit of work. The second chapter.. I guess its about family still, and work, love, marriage, children and money. Well that's the typical route. But I still hope that its really about dream fulfilled, a life partner, and all the best of my time with God. If I were to waste my life for Him.. this is truly the time- it is probably the best part of my life. Coz I really want to live to be remembered. Even if I am not THAT outstanding today.. I still want to live to be remembered. Back to the word 'birthday'.. Last year I listed down all those who wished me happy bday but this year.. its kinda tough coz it happened to be Sunday and met a lot of ppl and u know.. anyway.. Thanks to everyone who remembers.. I know I am lousy with this kinda stuff.. I often forgot peopl...

I am very sad today @_@ Took no. 54 as usual to my office.. halfway, a mother with her 4-5 years old lil boy got up and the mother sat beside me. Anddd.... the boy started grumbling. "I dun want to sit with the UNCLE" AGAINNN and AGAINNN and AGAINNN..... and its not like he was whispering lor... everyone nearby could hear that and the girl sitting on the opposite side moved in to give space. AND I dunno why his mum took so long to move him there. ALSO, why did she need to specifically ask: "do you want to sit there?" Of course that lil boy nodded. Darn.. I would have smacked down the boy if we are in a cartoon world -_- Heh but seriously.. maybe its time to admit that I am slowly but surely stepping into the realm of 'uncles' and 'aunties'. Now.. I only need to make sure that I got to marry a beautiful auntie.

So here are few holiday options we can go for: 1. Guilin and Yangtze river, China 2. Scandinavia 3. Caribbean Hmm.. why does option 1 sounds so out of place? Yet it could be the one I go for.. coz no 2 and 3 would do much more damage to my saving. We gotta see another part of the world this year. And by another part, I mean somewhere beyond south east asia.

I am losing my melancholic sense lately. Seriously. And I just couldn't give myself a time to sit down and blog away without worry. Jobs and my ministry commitment are always on my head. I kinda miss the part of my brain that supplies me with all kind of wonderful, useless, and amusing thoughts. At this rate, it will be tough to be the next Jay Chou before I reach 30 ^^ Missed out on '300' but nevermind.. we watched 200 pounds beauty and believe it or not, the biggest reason I wanted to watch the movie was the scene where Kim Ah-Joong got up to sing Maria heh. But overall its a very good movie heh. Quite touching also towards the end. My only complain is the relationship between her and the guy.. it was never convincing. Had our first blessed' bbq last friday at rancu's place. Woah tanglin view is sooo nice... thxx ran for being such a good host. Love the folks. Love the food.. and our chef was certainly doing a good job. So sad that some of you will have to leave t...

I have been asked at least five times.. 'so do you regret moving to this new place?' Well.. I didn't regret it. My time was over. I was living easy life for 1.5 years and I couldn't stay that way. So I moved. But few weeks here, I realise one thing. This is also not where I belong. Nothing to do with the workload, the boss, or whatever. I mean.. I think this learning curve is really good for me. It was a shock to my system but it was a good thing. I just kept learning everyday. There were so much to learn. And my boss.. she is rather interesting. You always learn from her.. she really knows a lot. But.. ultimately.. It doesn't mean that I belong here. Coz I think this 'where I belong' issue has nothing to do with the quality of the place, the salary, or career prospect. At least now I understand this. We watched 'freedom writers' last Sunday. I thot not many would be interested so to have 11 people was fantastic heh. As always, rancu palink dependabl...

Waktu terus menambah laju, kau dan aku, kita terus terseret ragu. Atau mungkin, sekedar mengulur waktu. Menanti kepastian yang seperti dulu. tapi cerita dulu.. bukan tentang kita.

He died for me, whom He had not seen. So I'd live for Him.. whom I have not seen.. yet.

Woah.. finally.. I am done with flash and all those presentation stuff. Good riddance ^^ But honestly, I am at the same time thankful that I got to do this project. At least I can now say that three weeks into my new job - I had taken part in preparing my CEO annual ministry speech - I have had my dinner tabao-ed by my CEO - and I had seen all those ended well. My CEO stood out with his colorful slides and everyone were happy. He personally thanked us for the effort. Yeah =D and I thank GOd and my great teammates who really worked hard to make sure it got delivered. And I had outdone myself yet again. I fell asleep yesterday as our Minister was delivering his speech. ANd I was sitting in the first row coz I had to control the presentation slide. Win oredi -_- The lady MC was staring at me in that 'i am gonna eat you alive' kinda way. Can't help it.. I was soo tired. Anyway.. Now my real job starts and it seems that it will not be easier than the flash presentation. Move!

Old skul hiphop, and one of my all time fave. The song came to my mind as I was talking to my bro bout the new movie, 'Freedom Writers'.. which is so my type of movie. And Hilary Swank is.. so my type too..somehow ^^

oh gosh.. been tough, these few days. the job remains interesting, unpredictable, and thrilling. still working on my flash presentation and i came to realise that photoshop is truly the beginning of wisdom. its okay.. somehow I am confident that I will be able to work it out. The good thing about having a killer boss is that your team would become more united. then there is family.. which well.. have always been happening. another mountain, another prayer, another miracle. I so believe in that. and then my good friend aka my PC. i was being a smartpant last night, trying to identify the viruses that I suspect was residing in my PC. ended up removing my ethernet driver. doh. great! what else? i have also neglected some clients including stella n alfon who are actually in need of new home urgently. i feel bad but things were just going nuts lately lol. I could barely cope. I think it would be great to have a secretary now ^^ Which is probably why secretary could sometimes be more attract...

and my saturday is gone, havent done anything on my project. i need to be gungho tomorrow, really need to.. I wonder how I could cure my procastinating disease. am chatting with fish liver oil and she was saying something tat shocked me: "hey its our one year anniversary" no lah.. we got to know each other on japn trip last year this period. japan spring season. that's it. having said that.. i do miss japan. alot.... have also been thinking a lot.. bout people's expectation on us. have you ever thought of how you could spend your sunday-saturday not being your own? like.. you don't get to go out there n be yourself, 100%? i dunno.. is that bcoz ur true self will not be that likeable? or is that bcoz u have not found the rite place where u belong? maybe 20 something is the period where u really think about such stuff. when u were kid, as a blogger said, u were sure what you want to be. a policeman, a doctor, whatever. u change ur mind at times but u were sure of it...

Eh just realisedd it.. cannot suka-suka blog my work stuff nowadays.. heh. You never know ^^ ANywayz.. I think it's rather inappropriate to bitch about work also. So let's leave the bad things inside and share the good things instead. GOod thing is... the newspaper is talking bout the adjusting of public sector's salary this year. Hehe.. wonder if I will be affected ^^