..my battle stance..

When I was about to prepare songs for worship leading at Tung ling, I thought about my Dean who loves hymns. And I don't have hymn this time around. When I was about to tell my parents of my plan for next step, they were faster to tell me something that basically the opposite of my next step. When I was trying to share about my burden with others, well.. I regretted doing so many times. Instead of helpful counsel, you got judgment. I am concerned.. that Dean would not like the songs. that my parents would be disappointed with what I was about to tell them. that others would think badly of me. but I am convinced.. that what God like.. is more important. that what God want.. is more important. that what God think.. is more important. that God.. is more than enough

Just when you thought you have mastered the steps, He shows you the whole new moves you never knew before. This journey of faith is never boring. The journey of getting out of the boat, of walking on the water, of drowning occasionally, and being picked up by His strong and gentle hand.. is never dull. The only time it gets boring is when the water has calmed down, and we move back to the safe and comfortable boat. And we forget the excitement of walking on the water. Yeah I have become afraid of trouble and difficulty. All we ask for is a long peaceful journey on still water. Or even better.. we just want to stay safe at the harbor and see the day pass by. Yet all we need to soar.. is that bit of storm, and His ever present hand to pick us up. How comforting it is to know that His grace is sufficient for us. And His strength is made perfect in our weaknesses. What a grace.. what an undeserved favor.

been a fruitful week. by Your grace alone... my Lord is my good shepherd. i shall not be lacking..

I feel like taxi driver sometimes.. like today. Drive here and there, rushing my way, rushing my lunch, missing my nap. And that's when I often remember that indeed.. the less possession we have, the more freedom we have. Oh well.. it's 9:17PM now. Spoken to numerous agents, owners, buyers, bla bla bla. Move from house to house, from one mood to another, but generally.. bleah.. But God knows how to cheer us up indeed. Like the way He know how lazy I am, that if I have to make my way to ATM I would have postpone my tithing to next month.. so somehow.. He prepares for me.. just enough money here and there.. exact amount.. to tithe tomorrow ^^ yeahh!! So exact that my wallet is now perfectly empty hoho. That too.. is freedom =) Oh and the last person I spoke to today on the phone.. wasn't a 'bleah' agent. this agent is candid and friendly. glad that's the last one I spoke to. So.. life is good! God is even better! Time to call it a day.. and even on a day like this...

Ever wonder how it feels on a day.. when you feel that you have really tried your best to do what you have to do.. and eventually, you reach home to the realisation that.. none of these things were good enough.. and you are owing everyone and yourself a better performance.. everyone except God of course. hm.. so on such a day.. it could be God's strange way of cheering you up.. by letting you cross path with the guy who walked away with more than 10k of your money. i never ever ever saw this guy though i travel a lot in this little island. but today.. suddenly there was this mini van. with familiar company name on its back. and very familiar handphone number. for a moment i was excited.. without realising, I tailed him to AYE.. like HK action movie.. and after a while.. I slowed down. wondering.. what do i do then if I manage to corner him? demand a payment? say 'Hi'? what's the purpose? every time I thought of chasing him down.. I remember God's grace.. that if He ...

Oh gosh.. I think I just can't afford not to have a go at this movie haha. Well.. have to admit that when I look at the 5 level guide sent by sista, I was kind of like.. "Wow... cool juga yah". But still.. first impression matters. And I still stand by my personal, very personal, opinion that.. The movie is not THAT good. It's good.. better than Green Zone kind of movie.. But to me.. Inception is.. "the process of reinventing "Shutter Island" by adding in the element of Hollywood special effect (a good one indeed), mixing it with the usual summer blockbuster recipe (lots of action and little chance to ponder), and making it complicated with more layering". That's all. The concept of inception itself.. is not that amazing. I don't think you really need to enter someone's dream and go into all those troubles just to plant an idea into someone's mind. Adam Khoo did it without so much hassle. I felt it was like some of those rides you f...

Oh well.. not really a suitable title haha. But anyway.. that's one of my fave comic strips. It was introduced to me 10 years ago by our english course's teacher at NUS. You can spot the comic everyday at Life Section. Actually what I want to say is.. Congrats.. congrats.. congrats.. congrats...!!! I receive pregnancy news one after another. I am sure it's going to be a wonderful journey for all of you, though it can be 'blue' at times =P well that's not my word, that's the wisdom from that comic strip.

today.. suddenly i remember the night we were at that wonderful bar in Bangkok. the conversation under the open sky.. the lightheartedness.. i was really smarter back then =) how true is the Ecclesiastes wisdom.. what a vanity.. indeed.

don't miss today's "mega-articles" in Strait Times, LIFE section, on megachurch phenomenon in Singapore. I think the writers are Christians. I find the writing to be somewhat.. evangelistic heh. love the concluding part. indeed.. despite the pro and cons, megachurches serve their particular purpose in God's grand plan. there is certain area, certain season, certain way in which God works through these megachurches and their so-called 'feel good gospels'. but, i find myself agreeing with the article that one day.. this megachurch trend with cutting-edge technology, rock concert style of worship, and "feel good gospel" thingy.. would give way to that good ol message of the Cross. one day.. we will outgrow all these and come back to the simple heart of worship. it's not about whether we are rich or poor, or whether we are suppose to suffer or to be healthy-wealthy.. maybe.. it's simply about submitting ourselves to His lordship, in the bless...

When the only thing I can rely on, is Your unfathomable grace..

He will rise you up again... Can I hold on to these words God? -_-;

The Temperature of a Church's Spirituality is not measured by the decibels of the worship session. It is measured by the conversation of the congregation after the service ends.

When we are drawn to God's presence, we would inevitably fall in awe of His holiness as we embrace His love. That.. is worship.

if there is one potent danger we ignore the most in the body of Christ.. it would be the danger of gossiping.

Beautiful... =)

2010 is a Brand New Start, a Brand New Chapter. And therefore we begin with rest. Rest in God's presence as He unfolds the story. A way in the desert, stream in the wasteland. There are desires, and hopes, and prayers. But above all.. there is God's heart. And this is what we are after. By your grace alone.. Father.. we shall see thru the second half of the year. A month ago I felt I have terribly underachieved this year. But today.. as God restores my faith.. as He gently lay me down on lush meadows, I feel I have every reason to rejoice. What a Savior we have.

Heard that good news yesterday. About one or two days after you appeared in my dream, which was rare. Happy for you, friend =) Without wanting to presume too far ahead, I thought.. it's funny that in a way.. there is similarity in the pattern of our happy ending hehe. So.. all the best.. may God.. the author and the finisher of our faith journey, be all sufficient for your brand new chapter in life. Omedetto..

One week away.. Had a considerably good break at Jakarta, though the horrible traffic jam threaten to spoil my mood so many times, I still love my country.. I still love the colorfulness of our country. It used to be very clear- I liked Singapore 10x more than I liked Jakarta. Now.. after 10.5 years, I am torn between the two. But anyway.. as what ko Harun shared in our cellgroup, the main thing.. is to know our position. And I feel that my position is still here. For now. The main thing for the next 3 months will be Tung Ling. Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland. - Isaiah 43:19 That was the verse that brings me there. Now.. please pray for me that I will perceive this New Thing He is doing. Please pray for me that I will have real hunger, and be filled. That I will not lose my courage even when everything else looks discouraging. Tomorrow...