..my battle stance..

If you've seen enough anime or j-dorama, you will definitely be familiar with this riverbank scene. Usually it's sunset. And I always wondered.. would I see such place when I visit Japan. Apparently.. these places do exist. And I think.. it's part of what makes Japan charming. So I always wish that one fine day.. these two persons will eventually lie down together.. basking in the warm embrace of the setting sun. under that orenji sky that makes them dream. where there is no agenda or rules to follow. only two free hearts that love freely. and two pair of eyes that have become soul mates. sharing a pair of earplug that sings their song of covenant.

woh.. finally.. it's that time again to look back. and to look ahead. and be grateful above all. looking back i just can't imagine.. this journey.. been a long one. for someone who once imagined that he would live a life like Chairil Anwar.. it's been way past the due date. looking ahead, I will remember the verse my mum always remember from Stephen Tong's KKR in Medan.. longg longg time ago.. before I was born. He said, "Forget(ting) the past and look(ing) forward to what lies ahead". (Phil 3 NLT) And what lies ahead? Probably there will be more twists and turns and wounds and tears.. but also.. more and more of His glory. and at the end of all those.. the glorious return of our Lord. may our eyes be ceaselessly fixed on that eternity that awaits us.

for so many times I tried to post something. but all I could think of is a negative feeling. Not that my life has been THAT miserable, good things happens.. here and there. And God is good.. always. But you know.. when certain incidents give you that overwhelming feeling that you seem incapable of writing anything but that. Which makes me wonder.. these successful people who are capable of maintaining optimistic thought at all times.. (which is probably only 10% of those who seem to be capable of such feat) how the heck did they do it?

Well.. whatever this is.. it is apparently.. famous hah. And of course... there is this!

At some point.. I can only sigh. I can offer nothing else and nothing more. Not to a bottomless pit of doubt. If all that I've given  means nothing more than the opinion of those naysayers.. At this point.. I can only sigh. :)

The week has been anything but ordinary, nothing but grace. I have never worked on so many cases at one time before. And none of those cases were result of my own creativity or hard work. God's generosity.. it's amazing. And in the Batu preacher's (the way brother John put it) word, it's restful. Don't get it yet.. but maybe I don't need to really get it. I just need to believe it. The mystery of the Father's heart. He is good. He is good. And after such a high.. you will wonder whether you are in for some lows. But God reminds me that simple prayer. Jesus teaches us to ask the Father for our daily bread. He is a Father who does not  come to meet us this morning with merely yesterday's leftovers. Nor does he come to us with tomorrow's promises. He, first and foremost, comes to us with today's portion. A fresh, new portion of his love, his grace, his mercy. A fresh new revelation of Christ, the daily bread himself. the living w...

In today's era of plastic surgery, photoshop, and NLP.. sincerity is a rare commodity. or obsolete.. for some. those who are still sincere with their words and acts.. they are either one of those friends who don't seem to get too much attention on his fb page.. or.. those people found on Silver Lining Playbook. The other day I spoke to my brother about one of his SMU friends. my brother described this guy as a 'true blue SMU' man. I met this boy. I pointed out to something that he said in our previous phone conversation. Basically I was trying to tell him that he has not been honoring his words. He said, "oh maybe you have over-expectation on the subject.." I was like.. Dude.. don't play this game with me. Anyway so I just gave that are-you-kidding-me-smile hearing those words. Well he is actually a decent chap :) Afterwards he quickly admitted that he had underestimated the matter. That's better. You know.. why can't peopl...

Another ted talk. the guy was kind of a legend as UCLA basketball coach. Born 1910. Signed off 2010. Quite a life! :) Well I think that's what being 'coach' should really mean. And here's the Coach's pyramid of success btw.

things have come full circle (or cycle? my English skill is getting worse). the first property sales that I transacted was dated 2009. the client was one my precious batch 5 friends. now some of them have moved on to buy their second or third properties. some are about to sell the property they first bought. there is this.. dunno-how-to-describe feeling.. when I think of that. how the same property that they bought thru me is now going to be marketed for sale. some old birds may have gotten used to such things. but for me.. I still find it.. you know... And I am glad knowing that they could make good profit out of it. i went into property not because i am talented or passionate about sales. but i love.. the idea of... finding and buying houses. it's like the holy grail for my family for many, many years. there is this newly renovated house in front of our beloved stroberi road apartment. i just loovee looking at that cozy house. and i thot.. one of these days i...

one day.. you will run out of excuses. and i will run out of reasons. one day.. we will run out of theories and words to quote. one day.. only honesty will do.

Love today's daily verse :) A fitting closure to the month of 'love'. [ When We Practice Real Love ] My dear children, let’s not just talk about love; let’s practice real love. This is the only way we’ll know we’re living truly, living in God’s reality. It’s also the way to shut down debilitating self-criticism, even when there is something to it. For God is greater than our worried hearts and knows more about us than we do ourselves. 1 John 3:18 MSG

Two persons, knowing that they have every chance of hurting one another, knowing that 'till death do us part' could be a fading memory in years to come, knowing all the chance of breaking and losing.. and yet.. still brave enough to take the plunge, while whispering, "you are worth it".

You wouldn't think that a Taiwanese Idol Movie Drama with such title would be good right? After all they go for a girl named 'Angelababy' for their lead actress. (make no mistake though, she is popular- and not difficult to see why) And you wouldn't think they would come up with decent OST right? But they sure got some good lines there, especially when it comes to some theories about relationship. I find myself nodding in agreement here and there. And then.. the OST.. Just as how the narrator said at the beginning of this clip.. It does.. touch.. a heart. Enjoy the translation below :)  Maybe you will love the song too. Translated by Tianlu @ chinesepandamusic.wordpress.com. Love you you I’m like a lonely fisherman. I can’t say what love’s warmth is. I want to give you happiness, But you try to protect yourself. Turn the corner. Only the barrenness outside the tide is left. Love you you But I got lost in the ocean. I can’t find where my hea...

Happy Lunar New Year folks. As I ponder on the thing called new year, here are the Words that were presented before me. God.. He is excited now isn't He? As we said it in 'foem'.. God is on the move!! The Spirit of God , the Master, is on me      because God anointed me. He sent me to preach good news to the poor,      heal the heartbroken, Announce freedom to all captives,      pardon all prisoners. God sent me to announce the year of his grace—      a celebration of God’s destruction of our enemies—      and to comfort all who mourn, To care for the needs of all who mourn in Zion,      give them bouquets of roses instead of ashes, Messages of joy instead of news of doom,      a praising heart instead of a languid spirit. Rename them “Oaks of Righteousness”      planted by God to display his glory. They’ll rebuild the o...

baby i hate it when you use me as an excuse. but if that makes you feel good so be it.

There was a time when we would discuss (or argue) over the above terms for days. Well.. not anymore. Some of the male participants (read: diver) have successfully reached the bottom of their ocean. And some of the female participants (read: ocean) have gladly embraced their diver. The coconut trees? Well gotta ask bombie for that. And what about the lost divers and undiscovered oceans? Well.. it ain't matter anymore for them as well. So reading someone's blog (unsurprisingly, a 20 something girl) on relationship.. it made me smile. She could go on and on and on about every aspect of relationship. But this wanderer has run out of words. I don't think she will get it now either. Let it be. I just want to say.. I am thankful today. Thankful to see how some of my friends are celebrating their anniversary. And I am praying tonite.. that decades later.. if facebook is still around.. and alive.. I will still see them posting happy anniversary photos on their wa...

Simply.. grateful. This is a good day.. after all.

I think this is good. Watched this with Andreas just now. And then I decided to share it with that special person that came to mind. And now.. I hope you find it useful too. *psychologist note (thanks to Andreas): A genius is said to have IQ 2 standard deviation up from the mean (average IQ of normal people). So having your IQ reduced by two standard deviation means you are no longer gifted at best. Or in worse case.. you are intellectually challenged.

Wow wow... “If you get rid of unfair practices,      quit blaming victims,      quit gossiping about other people’s sins, If you are generous with the hungry      and start giving yourselves to the down-and-out, Your lives will begin to glow in the darkness,      your shadowed lives will be bathed in sunlight. I will always show you where to go.      I’ll give you a full life in the emptiest of places—      firm muscles, strong bones. You’ll be like a well-watered garden,      a gurgling spring that never runs dry. You’ll use the old rubble of past lives to build anew,      rebuild the foundations from out of your past. You’ll be known as those who can fix anything,      restore old ruins, rebuild and renovate,      make the community livable again. Isaiah 58 (The Message)

When ika told me her cell group friends had been discussing myers briggs test.. I was like.. Hmm.... This sounds familiar. Yes.. our subroto family fa were discussing it too. in 2005. but i totally forgot what were being said or my result even. I remember darvin said that myers briggs result tend to change overtime. And my tung ling friends too. they said that the DISC test were more reliable. so i didn't give it a thought. but blogwalked to kim's blog and behold.. another one taking the test. It tickled me. like.. damn.. what was my result again? yeah.. i took the test lah~! and ... INTP. The Engineer -___- I was like.. what??? I thought i would be INFP? (with 53-47 ratio between F and T.. you can say I am in between). Well.. the En-gi-neer.. so what the %#$@^ am I doing for the last 5 years++ marketing property right? I was a computer scientist to begin with. I switched. Hah. Could have been the guy who founded twitter or instagram. Unable to acce...