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I love this place. But I wonder if the certainty that I live in everyday has taken away my strength and determination.

I love the people I got to know for the last 6 years. Some of them are better than anyone I have ever known for 25 years. Some of them may just be the best I would ever get to know throughout my life. But I wonder.. even if I were to stay here, will they not leave this place one day? Even if I treasure them that much, would they..

Even you would leave. And you. And you.

I don't like to be left behind. But it's also hard to leave behind those you treasure.

How ironic..

About 9 years ago, I was lying on hospital bed, staring at the window as I spoke to my mum, "I will one day make my way to Singapore; I will succeed and I will bring you and dad to Singapore to live a peaceful life as you grow old."

She was smiling. She remembers that promise till today. And so do I.

Singapore may not be the most beautiful place to live in but it was, at that point of time, a place I admired. Everything was in order and everything was neat and clean. So I made it a dream to study here and God granted that wish. The rest was, as they say, history.

Sigh..

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