one thing that i ask..

didn't know that i would be that tired last night,
cold sweat was all over me by the time i reached home,
and my sleep was far from comfortable,
i was struggling to breathe at 4AM,

the one thing that crossed my mind when i woke up in the morning was..

"i gotta sms CK or whoever it is, and ask him to replace me.. "

but the next thing that crossed my mind was ko omar's sermon on Your house.
even if i wasn't serving today,
even if i am not doing a good job..

how could i not long for Your house?
as it is written, "the zeal for Your house consumes me",
so it shall happen.. i thought.

forcing myself to shower, i felt that strength started to flow in.
i know that it's You.

even if the strength was only enough to carry me thru the service,
that was enough.

for i would rather boast in my weakness, instead of my strengh.
for in my weaknesses, Your grace shines thru.

when You let the lowest of them all to stand in Your sanctuary,
what else could i ask for?

nothing but this..
that i would dwell in Your house all of my days.