..my battle stance..

"Kanchi was standing there as Satomi bent down to tie up his loose shoe lace. And from the opposite direction, a familar figure was walking towards his direction. It was a busy morning in Tokyo but his eyes can't miss that person. Because that person was Rika Akana. She didn't seem to realise his presence but he couldn't seem to ignore her presence. Should he call her? Or should he let the past be the past?" That is one scene in Tokyo Love Story that I could never forget, and excluding Oshin, that drama was my first Japanese drama. It's really a bitter sweet moment when you come across such situation. Should you call her? Should you pretend that you don't see her? The following scenes were even more memorable. "Do you ever regret it?" Rika asks. She was refering to that fateful day few years back. Rika gave Kanchi a deadline to make up his mind, whether to choose Rika who was his present or to choose Satomi who was his past. Rika was waiting for ...

Vy quoted this song in her msn nick, decided to ask for the song and woah.. I looveee it! ^^ Nightminds Vocal: Missy Higgins Just lay it all down. Put your face into my neck and let it fall out. I know, I know, I know, I knew before you got home. This world you're in now, It doesn't have to be alone; I'll get there somehow. 'Cos I know, I know, I know, When even springtime feels cold. But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see, So we can both be there and we can both share the dark. And in our honesty, together we will rise, Out of our nightminds and into the light at the end of the fight. You were blessed by A different kind of inner view: it's all magnified. The highs would make you fly, but the lows make you want to die. And I was once there, Hanging from that very ledge where you are standing. So I know, I know, I know It's easier to let go. But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see, So we can both be there and we can both share the dark. And...

Just realised that I haven't completed my Japan trip's blog. So I reopen my pictures folder and sigh.. those pictures.. they remind me of Japan. I miss my Spring, badly..

most beautiful.. most inspiring.. the incredibles.. wish you both a love-filled family with joy and laughter that never cease ^^ *image by owen*

If I have to try all I could to snatch you away, and if there is one thing in this universe that could change your heart, even if you would hate me for trying, I think I would consider heading that way. And the only reason why I didn't, was because I could see that you are happy now.

Have watched Goong till episode 12 and its getting better and better.. and I have totally fallen in love with Chae-gyung (well, Yoon Eun Hye too), a character which only exists in movie and drama I guess. And I hate Yul, not because I don't like Yul but because such a comforting guy will never get the girl in Korean drama. No.. the winner will always be the 'selfish jerk'. Ya ya.. she will keep cursing him 'selfish jerk', keep telling the nice guy how she could have fallen for him, and end up choosing the jerk. And I am sort of tired of watching the same pattern happening again and again ^^ Oh I would love to be proven wrong by Goong.. I don't see how that is possible though. Anyway, grabbed a clip from youtube, the power of internet! It's from her time with baby vox. Low quality vid, she doesn't always look gorgeous but that's the whole point of liking her ^^

Was chatting with Ica.. we were discussing Goong. Nice and funny drama =) So much like fullhouse. Thankss lin for burning the dvd, Chae-gyung really bright up my days ^^ I said that I like Hyorin, that I would prefer to date the elegant Hyorin but will choose to end up marrying the kind and clumsy Chae-gyung =D But she said that Hyorin was kinda evil. And we end up discussing whether people are born evil or good. Some people believe that no one is evil. Maybe by believing so, we can safely say that we ourselves are not evil, basically. But I choose to believe that we are born with instinct to be evil, we are a slave to that instinct. Ultimately we are born with sin and sinful desire. Kids learn to lie and to be jealous, even if no one teach them to do so. That was why there is this verse in the bible that said "what I want to do I never do, what I don't want to do I do", something like that. As much as we want to be good, we often give up and choose the dark path. And whe...

Actually tadi uda complain panjang lebar ttg salary but geesh.. God reminded me of the time I was looking for job and erm.. I guess I can't complain now. Scrap it. Thanks God for the lil surprise today. Anyway, Renaldo's apple strudel yg kita makan buat tea break hari ini was heavenly. God I want to learn to bake this strudel ^^ n I want to open a bakery! Ya that is one of my amusing dreams. To open a bakery! Of course I have other more amusing dreams such as opening an orphanage, and better still, stay in a rural area in a country where I can have a vineyard. Haha.. dream on ^^ Eh but.. somewhere I read that gardening is one of my talent.. oh well.. Been thinking and pondering on my future plan this few days.. not easy really.. especially coz I have been rather laidback and that being my nature, I am easily content but I guess I will be making some decisions. Let's begin with answering this : What is the one thing that I can excel in and pursue in my life? Hmmm... what?

I was thinking, maybe it's important, though it's not a must, that a person is able to understand and to a certain degree, appreciate the world of his/her soulmate and how things work in that world. That is not to say that you have to marry the person with similar trait, job, nationality etc.. but I guess it's important that no matter how different we are, we can sort of learn to love our partner's world. That we can see the beauty of their world. To begin with the most basic thing, I think it helps a whole lot that you can understand your partner's sense of humour, that you can laugh along. Trivial as it seems.. laughter is very important in a house. Can you imagine marrying someone whose humour turns you off everytime? I dunno.. that just doesn't feel right to me. Okay maybe that can be solved by telling your partner to stop trying to be funny heh. I think it's also important that you can appreciate your partner's talent or hobby. I mean.. a footballer...

Can't help it.. it's world cup season and football is just all over my head. And it begins with Roy Keane's retirement story. Strange that I first read about it from my favorite arsenal website, http://www.arsenalnewsreview.co.uk Myles Palmer may be hyperbolic and biased at times, but he has such an interesting writing style that I look up to the man in a way. And he being an Arsenal fan is never shy in admitting that Arsene Wenger is clueless when it comes to tactical move and he is more than happy to praise Wayne Rooney's surreal skill. He quoted this very interesing paragraph from Keane's autobiography, recalling the Man Utd defeat against Leverkusen in CL. "Afterwards in the dressing room I looked around. It wasn't hurting some of them enough. Laurent was sitting there gutted.I felt sorry for Seba.Cost £28 million, became the scapegoat for our season. Some of the others were getting away with murder.Blame Seba. Too easy. Wrong. Glory, believing the publ...

It's World Cup! The last World Cup was 2002. We were still at PGP. Watching from the TV lounge.. ah NUS memory. I guess the South Korea vs Italy match was held when I and some other friends were practicing for this erm.. National Youth Parade or what.. darn can't remember the exact name. All in the name of in-campus accomodation. Oh.. that's yet another nice memory. How come the past always felt much sweeter? ^^ Tracking back even further, World Cup 1998. I always remember the little guide book I and my bro got for free.. the guide is totally er.. misguiding. It described Paulo Maldini as "possibly the best attacker in the world at the moment". And we, being a little newbie to the world of football, actually believed it that time! Oh and the first time we heard about Zidane, we thought his name was actually Zidane Zidan.. 1998's Zidane was basically sensational. Ronaldo's mysterious illness the night before the final was something few will forget. The Phen...

Thirty over arrow have pierced his body. Blood dripping. He stands still. His heroic aura is so strong that the soldiers around him can't help admiring. That man is Zhen YuShen. 'Spit on the Emperor's face, Break through the gate of Hell'. This is the famous saying in the realm refering to Zhen YuShen's heroic. Five years ago, the realm was shocked upon hearing the news that a brave young man has sneaked into the Palace and made his way into the Emperor's court. The corrupt Emperor was despised by many but no one can do anything about him. This young man, however, managed to stroll into the Emperor's court as the regular morning meeting with the ministers was held. He spat on the Emperor's face. "Today there is only my saliva on your face. If you don't change your way, the next time I am here, you will feel my punch on your face. And I will make sure you meet your ancestor with that punch." That is the warning he gave to the Emperor. No one...

Quite many things has happened in the last few days, problem in office among them, and I think I have been disappointing, made mistakes I shouldn't have made but I am fighting back now, yes I am! Please remind me to keep on fighting, keep on going. God knows how weak I am on my own.. so please, carry me one more time, and fight alongside me one more time. Not giving up, don't give up on me. Anyway, when I was doing the MyersBrigs (whatever the spelling) quiz, there was one question I wasn't sure of answering, whether I prefer to begin or to finish something. Now I know that I prefer to begin something. I find my interest wane as things are heading towards completion. That is really bad, especially when you are a software engineer, you just have to take care of all the details and possibility of errors and bugs etc, bleah... I find excitement in coming up with the big picture, in constructing the main structure of the software but I have problem in working on the details. Si...

OH NOOO!!! Whats going on here.. ANOTHER ONE?! *faint Yah anyway.. I dunno it can be that simple a decision to make coz it takes me forever just to come up with that ONE NAME so ya.. all the best frens.. I always believe that its better to miss out on the right person and stay single all your life, rather than to end up with the wrong person all your life. You will end up hurting two persons or even more when you got kids and they have to grow up watching their parents arguing every single day. Ah.. thinking too much is the very reason why I am still here I guess. Bleah.. next.. Oh yeah, actually I watched X-Men III last weekend and have to say that I was rather disappointed. Just bcoz Wolverine is a cool badass doesn't mean you can elevate his status and let my Cyclops die such a lame death! Jean's battle with Prof. X is a classic though. My fave character in the movie? Gotta be the furball, Beast. On a side note, just sent out my 'final' version of the library project...

Was going with other cellgroup mates to witness Vica and Dustin baptized. Congrats to them. May their life be changed and may they never look back anymore, running towards Him with all their might. AMen!! Then went to watch da Vinci code which was, I think, rather entertaining though I failed to see why Tom Hanks was chosen to play Robert Langdon. Sophie was perfectly portrayed though. Then here I am now.. trying to slow the time coz I still haven't had enough of my lazy weekend moment. I was thinking.. what if I stop for a moment, and get myself to look at you in a different way, from a different angle, the way and angle that allow me to fall in love with you? What stop me from doing so all this while? Is it the fear of admitting that I may well fall in love with you? The fear that it may actually work out? But why can't we be in love? Heh.. another pointless thought with no particular background =D

*Thanks lots lots to Cath who gave me this link which allow me to copy and paste this very nice piece by Gie. You can just sense his soul inside his writing, as clear and as braod as the morning sky. MANDALAWANGI - PANGRANGO Soe Hok Gie Senja ini, ketika matahari turun kedalam jurang2mu aku datang kembali kedalam ribaanmu, dalam sepimu dan dalam dinginmu walaupun setiap orang berbicara tentang manfaat dan guna aku bicara padamu tentang cinta dan keindahan dan aku terima kau dalam keberadaanmu seperti kau terima daku aku cinta padamu, Pangrango yang dingin dan sepi sungaimu adalah nyanyian keabadian tentang tiada hutanmu adalah misteri segala cintamu dan cintaku adalah kebisuan semesta malam itu ketika dingin dan kebisuan menyelimuti Mandalawangi Kau datang kembali Dan bicara padaku tentang kehampaan semua "hidup adalah soal keberanian, menghadapi yang tanda tanya "tanpa kita mengerti, tanpa kita bisa menawar 'terimalah dan hadapilah dan antara ransel2 kosong dan api ungg...

Suzanne Jung is getting prettier lately ^^ OH no.... one of these days I really should wait for her at the CNA studio with some roses =P Just because she has been something I am looking forward to every morning when I got into the bus. And and.. here is some clip of her interviewing some Korean hunkie and another Korean girl who make you melt too.. these kimchi girls are really something..

Hmm.. the last post was 14 days ago.. what have I been doing lately? Anyway, just finished the bible camp, phew.. I was quite anxious in the beginning for many reasons but everything went well and shall I conclude everything in "God is good" these three words? Ya.. God is good. There is just one question that remains. How much do I want to give for God? In all my weaknesses and love for the worldly stuff, I have to admit it's a bit painful to realize that the only answer He'd love to get is 'everything'. Well the truth is I have written some stuff in the last two weeks but always kept them in the draft for one reason or another. Even the above two paragraphs were taken from the last draft. I was basically talking about the unworthy phenomenon that is Dan Brown, but realizing that in the end, maintaining love and peace among your brothers and sisters in Christ is the most important matter. So let each of us act according to our faith and glorify God in doing so...

Rite.. first of all.. happy birthday linda!! my fellow editor and FA mate whom I have known for 5 years plus. I like playing RPG, and in RPG linda would be the kind of character with that unique flair and mystery wrapping her. Loves fairy tales and flowers.. I guess there is a little bit of Aerith in her. All in all.. wish you a great year ahead, with many many pleasant surprises along the way, and for every hurdle, let there be sweet promise waiting to be fulfilled. And that sweet one you are waiting for.. may the Great Love fulfill that wish also ^^ keep going strong sis. And o.. oh.. got a super duper surprising news yesterday.. I was like 'Huhh?'. then.. 'Ohh....'. then 'Huhhh?' then..'Ohh..ic..' then..'Huhhh?' again. Goodness I felt like a dumb. Coz the news was just too much for me to take. It just never crossed my mind but never mind.. congrats frens.. smooth path ahead ya ^^ Now let me just give you my opinion. I understand and respect ...

My working spirit is at all time low, and this stupid objective-C language give me all kind of headache just because it doesn't discard all the objects it uses automatically. God bless anyone who came up with garbage collector for Java. Heck I don't care about efficiency and performance, I just need to get my project done and DONE. Oh gosh.. Anyway, I was looking for a cab the other day when I saw this Indian couple fighting, or quarelling, as they were about to get on a cab. They kept quarelling and never got into the cab. So I just walked there and took the cab. The cabbie uncle complained about the Indian and I told him that at least they didn't get into the cab and fight inside his car. He laughed and told me that it was one of the Indian tricks for free ride. Not that all Indians are like that. But these tricks are used by Indians passengers and not, or almost never, other kind of people in Singapore. Please keep that in mind. It's just a story a cabbie told me and...