..my battle stance..

Therefore keep watch because you do not know when the owner of the house will come back—whether in the evening, or at midnight, or when the rooster crows, or at dawn. If he comes suddenly, do not let him find you sleeping. What I say to you, I say to everyone: 'Watch!' Mark 13:35-37

and this is the season.. of making a promise for a lifetime.

i saw something tonite. something that kind of surprised me. naturally, opinion after opinion came out from my mouth. moments later.. i decided that i should shut up. because one need to earn his right before he could criticize, that's what the guy who taught in leadership seminar said. i would never forget his words. i didn't do enough to earn that right. so i would just shut up, hands off.. and move on. let those who have the right to take care of the matter.

Jesus said, "Mark my words, no one who sacrifices house, brothers, sisters, mother, father, children, land—whatever—because of me and the Message will lose out. They'll get it all back, but multiplied many times in homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, children, and land—but also in troubles. And then the bonus of eternal life! This is once again the Great Reversal: Many who are first will end up last, and the last first." (Mark 10:29-31) here's the fascinating way of the Kingdom. you have to sacrifice everything in order to gain more than everything.

just caught 'Wait till you grow older' on TV.. this is the third time i watch the movie. and tear helplessly escaped my eyes for the third time. hah.. it somehow feels good to know that after all these years.. there is part of me that remains the same. tear can still helplessly drop heart can still completely fall

Blessed be my El Shaddai.. the God of 'More Than Enough'!

Just now.. my manager sent an email which among many things, he congratulated me for my performance this year. as much as i love the sound of these praises, i am fully aware that this is not what makes me grow. the turning point for me was when i was told by my fellow colleague that.. "to be frank.. you had a very poor performance". he would never know how much those words meant to me. those harsh words are the things that made me grow. so was my beloved lady boss at the last company i worked for (a.k.a. bos ayam). she was the one that made me grow, instead of my other friendly bosses i worked under before. the good stuff are often bitter. and often God let us face those bitter experiences. He allowed David to fight lions and bears alone. He allowed David to persevere with his brothers who loved to mock him. because He knew that one day David would have to fight a battle only he could fight. He is preparing us for a different giant. A giant nonetheless.

today i went to CHC again.. and again.. i found something there.. something that spoke to me deep and loud, something that awaken the spirit inside. it's these 'beautiful little coincidences' that brought me back there.. times and again. even though i did not intend to be part of them. these 'beautiful little coincidences', if i were to be honest.. are what we would call 'destiny' and similarly.. that is how i am so sure of another thing =) because all these little 'coincidences' when put together.. they form a word 'destiny'.

urgh... it sucks when you miss a deal like this. but... i suppose it's a good wake up call. failure is down to two factors: luck and incompetence. we can do nothing with the first one. but the second one is definitely for us to deal with. this race is far from being over. we have yet to reach the paradise fall. gotta raise my bar.. focus, and accelerate. be hungry, be damn hungry! fighting!!

last Sat.. Isaiah told us the story behind this song. I knew the story, I sort of knew the song.. but never knew the relationship between the two. it birthed out of the story of a journalist who went to interview an old lady. this old lady has just lost her third and last son. he had three son, all of whom followed the Lord's calling to serve in Africa. one by one they went, one by one lost their lives in the mission. the journalist had one question. "do you have any regret?" "yes.. i do.." she answered as she walked away in tears. she paused. turned around. and she said this to the journalist, "i regret that i do not have the fourth son i could give to my Lord." Love so amazing so divine Demands my soul, my life, my all..

we have heard far too much, our heart have been moved far too many times, we have reached a point.. where our utmost need is neither to hear another word nor to be moved once more.. our utmost need is to.. move.

Woaa.... a package from krypton

At that moment, the Temple curtain was ripped in two, top to bottom. There was an earthquake, and rocks were split in pieces. What's more, tombs were opened up, and many bodies of believers asleep in their graves were raised. (After Jesus' resurrection, they left the tombs, entered the holy city, and appeared to many.) The captain of the guard and those with him, when they saw the earthquake and everything else that was happening, were scared to death. They said, " This has to be the Son of God! " Matthew 27:51-54 (The Message)

"Ada sesuatu yang kuingini dari Panda.. makanya aku berhubungan dengan Panda siang ini" Ranu

and i dunno why..

soredemo ii.. soredemo ii to omoeru koi datta

I kept thinking.. why He never sent the twelve legions of angels and brought everyone to their knees. that would be easy. I suppose it's because.. primarily, He wanted us to choose heaven not because of the fear for hell or His absolute power. but He wants us to choose heaven.. because we.. by faith.. decide to love the God unseen. we decide to choose Him.. to be the One we spend eternity with.

Do you suppose that I cannot appeal to My Father, and He will immediately provide Me with more than twelve legions [more than 80,000] of angels? But how then would the Scriptures be fulfilled, that it must come about this way? Matthew 26:53-54 (Amplified Bible)

rang wo lai dang ni de shei..

愛我　非你莫屬　我只願　守護　由你給我的幸福 愛我　非你莫屬　也許會　笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦

mati si mbah surip !!!?? ck ck ck..

and then i see you.. and everything is alright. you know i can do anything..

one of the weird songs that.. somehow.. I don't really understand. I think I understand partly.. but then.. not really.

Well.. often, others seem to think they know your problem. but they are only reading the surface. their understanding is two dimensional at best. they are not even close. but you don't expect them to understand, because after all.. your problem may mean nothing to the others anyway.. so that's when the things get complicated and tiring mentally. so sometimes.. you just wish to stay quiet. because when you don't open your mouth, chance of things going wrong is lesser.

Because we can't say the words yet, Quietly, I touch your hand (taken from vy's blog, Ranma's OST)

This time.. is a diary written by Andre on our 4 days trip to Saigon =) It was one of the most unusual trips I have ever made. Me, Andre, Jo, Darvin- the four awesome jomblo (during that time). I always remember that the first phonecall I get when I reached Spore was from dianaw.. with report that she was officially in relationship with alfonso! dianaww... dianaww... gua tinggal 4 hari ke saigon, uda kudeta dikau =P Email Sent by: Andre Date: Jun 2 2005 Subject: Back from Saigon Day 3: Big day!!! Kita hari ini pegi tour ke “Chu Chi Tunnel”… Seperti biasa lagi, kita breakfast, kali ini kita bisa breakfast ber 4 dibanding dua2, soalnya kita udah ketauan tadi malem, jadi udahbayar extra and dapet breakfast. Hari ini si tour guide yang jemput rada telat, dia dateng 8.30am yang mana harusnya dateng 8.00am. Hari itu tournya orangnya lebih banyak, ada 11 orang termasuk kita, dan 10 orang cowok n satu cewe. Si tour guidenya gak se-funky tour guide yang kemaren, namanya dia klo di inggrising