..my battle stance..

Mike G's story behind his song, Healer. Amazing.. amazing... song. Amazing is our God. THIS IS OUR GOD!!! And he took on the stage and laid his everything on the altar. This is worship.

you were once, the reason he looked forward to the next beat of his heart. you are now, the reason he wishes his heart ceased to beat back then.

yeah.. another Ariel Lin's drama, this time she takes the role of Huang Rong. not a big fan of Guo Jing's story but then.. it's Ariel Lin ^^ I used to like this song, "waiting for you" alott... (I still like it now) but when i first saw the clip, i didn't know that the girl was Ariel, i didn't know Ariel Lin existed. I only thot that this girl.. she was not really beautiful, her potty face was kinda funny.. but strangely.. she just.. captivates.

The will of God will never take you, Where the grace of God cannot keep you, Where the arms of God cannot support you, Where the riches of God cannot supply your needs, Where the power of God cannot endow you. The will of God will never take you, Where the Spirit of God cannot work through you, Where the wisdom of God cannot teach you, Where the army of God cannot protect you, Where the hands of God cannot mold you. The will of God will never take you, Where the love of God cannot enfold you, Where the mercies of God cannot sustain you, Where the peace of God cannot calm your fears, Where the authority of God cannot overrule for you. The will of God will never take you, Where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears, Where the Word of God cannot feed you, Where the miracles of God cannot be done for you, Where the omnipresence of God cannot find you. --Unknown Author

talking about the word 'slow', it reminds me of some basic lesson we learn about change management. lately, there has been some, I would say, rather significant changes in our youth ministry. and unsurprisingly, there has also been a lot of resistances, conflicts, and sometimes, it could turn quite ugly. but that's natural. because as Newton says in his first law of motion, matters resist changes. people are also the same. i believe we should learn from the lesson and be better when we'd like to introduce some changes, even in church. you can't just come up one day and says 'we got a new direction', and instantly get everyone to drop their old habits and ways of doing things, and gets them to move towards your new direction. just because God says so. well. you CAN.. but be prepared to face resistance and deal with it. and when you keep making such changes, be prepared to lose their trust. that's unless your team is filled with people who, by nature, are

Some interesting news from today's paper. Cuil.com - A new search engine, founded by some of Google's most influential ex-employees. One of those considered to be serious contenders for google search engine, as they claim to have largest indexes and with the founder's experience in building google's search engine, they surely have the right technical expertise to back them up. Btw.. 'Cuil' is supposed to be pronounced as 'cool'. www.bbwcupid.com - BBW stands for 'big,beautiful women'. A dating site dedicated to 'large' people looking for love. Well.. there is also other type of specialised dating site like.. www.darwindating.com - this one is cruel lah, they claim to accept only beautiful people. Those with acnes can't join. Darn.. I am banned. Now onto a more serious problem.. Dark Knight is on course to beat Titanic's all time box office records here. Awesome. It was said that one of the main factors for the movie's succ

What scares me the most is not love at first sight, not that kind of crush that hit you all of sudden. But that increasingly comfortable feeling of being with someone, talking to her, watching her.. and you slowly begin to overlook all the stuff that you don't like in her, slowly cross all the lines you set before, you slowly begin to like the feeling of being with her, her presence alone comforts you. and you dunno why. you don't realise you have started falling. that's scary..

Ya since its weekend, I suppose it's only right for me to do some blah blah blah with my blog. 1st thing 1st, I wonder why this laptop goes havoc and stop responding everytime i go to sista's blog, since yesterday. Then.. Movies! I watch three movies in a week. Red Cliff, Dark Knight, and X Files. Red Cliff, watched it with no expectation and enjoyed it. But couldn't stand the voice of the guy who played Guan Yu. Zhao Wei was good ;) Dark Knight, everyone rave about it already so.. nothing to add ^^ X-Files.. sorry bay haha, the movie is not bad, really. but it could easily be one of the tv episodes. i expected some huge conspiracy theory, not a crazy Russian body mix-and-match. I almost thought I was watching 'Hostel'. And Hostel is much... better ;) But Mummy should be good.. though as Bayu said, no more babe this time. Btw.. How come I start to feel that guys in our cellgroups.. erm.. have some striking similarities deep down inside. To begin with... we are mostl

i asked a taboo question during our last leadership training. and the way the guy answered it, it was obvious that he was putting down the person who asked the question. his points were valid, but his motives were questionable. i wonder if that was an answer straight from his heart. in the midst of all bethany leaders, who uphold the value of submission to leaders, he couldn't have answered it sincerely. that was the moment i realise that this guy was no different from the rest. you see... when you are a leader, your greatest nightmare is to have your followers rebelling against your authority, to lose their respect and to be questioned by them. i used to and am still struggling to deal with this issue, of nodding my head while my heart saying no, just because the guy is a leader. but i learn that God values submission, for it symbolises your humility, willing to give in knowing perfectly that the other guy got it wrong. and i learn that God loves peacemaker, for they shall be call

When I saw Suri's nick, it reminds me of a book I read, a Christian book btw, which talked about why good boy always lose out to bad boy when it comes to love. and just as her nick said it, it was because good boys are boring. girls love to be thrilled, to be brought into adventure, and so on.. the so-called bad boy theory. of course there is also another book, not a Christian book, that discuss the issue of why guys tend to fall for b*tches. pardon the word. and at least i can say that it's quite true.. naughty gals are indeed interesting. but the point is.. i believe when you reach certain age.. you just outgrow such stuff. at least for guy, i can say that... you finally realise that you don't need to be a bad boy for anyone's sake, and the b*tch factor has also lost its importance in your eyes. the book I read did say that girls too would learn that good or bad boy is not the issue after all. but i dunno if that's true, coz i am not expert with girls =) the point

You know what I am thinking? ^^

Heh, this time are two pics from Toba trip, editing done by Ata ^^ after two session of girls pics, its guys showtime ;) Can't wait to get hold of the rest of the picsss...

I will not remember you, because I simply do not know how to take you out of my mind. If I do not even know how to forget, how could I ever use this word 'remember'? I will not let you go, because I do not know how to make you stay. A man who is powerless to make you stay, how does he know how to 'let go'?

so this is what they mean when they talk about 'birdeye view', look at things from up above, when all your problems will appear small and trivial. so it is do-able, and Yosh.. it works. look at life from that kind of perspective, i can begin to agree with that book that says 'don't sweat the small stuff' (and they are all small stuff). yeah.. i know that life can get worse than this, but when we get there, we will talk about it. it all began with my new habit of using timetable, now for every hour of every day i got it planned, steady hor =P but of course me being me.. i tend to drift away now and then ^^ hey.. what's life without variation? well the point is.. i begin to see that i got sooo many things to do, so many exciting stuff waiting to happen. yeah i know not all of them will turn out the way i like it but... the uncertainty is more beautiful still, a movie once told me that. for some people, when it comes to the fascination of life.. it's not about

for most of the times, i have dozens of issues to settle, and plenty of sleep to do, so.. singlehood is a blessing. but there is time when i just have to admit that, one plus one gives you more than just 'two'. it's not that it's miserable or sad to be single. and not the tingling feeling of 'needing romance' hmm.. how shall i put it? oh heck.. where are you??

Erm.. as much as I love her, I gotta say that I prefer seeing her act than sing, maybe it's just not your thing, girl. But anyway.. if even Jimmy Lin could turn into a decent singer after singing for a decade, well.. ganbattee!!!!

I have not been posting my pose of the week for two weeks now, Haven't got time to go thru pics heh. Anyway, for now, here are is a nice duet Vivy like this song a lot. Haven't got to sing it with her in karaoke hehe. But I really like this song, and Evonne is pretty ^^ ANother Evonne's duet, not as nice,

Oowwwwhh.. now I KNOW... always heard this song on radio, now i know who sing it. Lee Hom & Selina. Can't embed the clip. So watch it HERE

a friend mentioned today that he read somewhere, "what you are five years later, depends on who you got to know and what book you read" i quite agree leh. so yeah... i guess it reaffirms my need to start reading good books. though in today's world, many books are bestsellers and yet toxic. sometimes, i feel that the best leaders, the best experts out there, are not those who earn their living writing books and conducting seminars, teaching people how to be one. well that's besides the point. now.. the point is.. which book should i start with?

lately many things have happened, things that i know and things that i don't really know haha. and i thank God that as i go thru all these, i am all smile and i can calmly walk away, while fixing my eyes on my beautiful Savior. i am thankful to God that eight years ago He sent me to this youth community, i am thankful for every cellgroup sessions i have attended, every youth services i have attended, and every moment i am given to serve Him. i have grown, and above all, i have cultivated the core, the core of my faith and Christianity. And at the core of it all is.. my love for my Lord. for everything there is a season. so for some of us, my dear comrades, it's time to march on. this race we are running, it's still going on, different battlefield, different territory, but it's still the same core.. our love for the Lord. and this is our battle stance ;)

what is wrong with her? why is she exceptionally mesmerising? *eh today i just realised that someone in our church looks a bit, just a bit, like her =P

if this is the last road, and at the end of this road is separation, then we might as well light up the path, fill it with colors and laughters, make it bright, make it loud, let our breath be wasted, and each rush of blood be furious hit it hard, and let it bleed, every corner of memory, flood it, erase it.. tear, let it flow, let love be wasted here, let love suffocate our soul and take over sanity so at the end, we know we have loved, loved furiously, daringly.. we have it all. <'tian wai fei xian' mode>

A belated post, and dun think you would read this anyway haha.. but.. Good byeee Cindyyyy!!!! I still remember that sunny morning, by the beach, when you were hesitating between your fear and your heart. And you followed what you know was right. I will never forget that courage. Has been a blessing to know you sis. and have we told you that your voice is angelic? All the best yah, continue to shine and be blessing there. take care, God's servant ^^

Yesterday I browsed thru Max Lucado's books at Borders, and i was particularly interested in "Facing Your Giants', I randomly flipped to a page, and i was instantly hooked. the page that I flipped to, was about Abigail. ( I samuel 25 ) Now I suppose the two more famous women in David's life would be, the one that mocked at him when he danced before God's tabernacle, and the one whose beauty blinded his eyes that he committed his greatest sin. Abigail is probably not as often quoted. But Abigail is special. To me, Abigail is the most special one. I believe Abigail was at least david's second beloved, if not the most beloved wife. She was extremely wise. and this is what women sometimes don't realise, beauty is not the only thing that turn men on. and absence of wisdom would sometimes turn men off. unless that man is at geylang. =P So Abigail is married to Nabal. Abigail literally means 'the father's joy', and Nabal literally means 'foolish

Three things in life that, once gone, never come back 1. Time 2. Words 3. Opportunity Three things in life that can destroy a person 1. Anger 2. Pride 3. Lack of forgiveness Three things in life that you should never lose 1. Hope 2. Peace 3. Honesty Three things in life that are most valuable 1. God's love 2. Family and friends 3. Kindness Three things in life that are never certain 1. Fortune 2. Success 3. Dreams Three things that make a person 1. Faith and commitment 2. Sincerity 3. Hard work Three things that are truly constant 1. Father 2. Son 3. Holy Spirit and these three are one! --Author Unknown

Tian Wai Fei Xian. Whoo.. finally, its up on mysoju, the only taiwanese drama i am really really interested in. didnt manage to watch it on Channel U last time. I dun think Ivan will follow me to watch this one lol ^^ But for those who appreciates Chinese Ghost Story, or Liang San Bo Zhu Ying Tai, I guess they would love this series. it's poetic and at the same time, hillarious. And Ariel Lin.. she won me over with this show heh.

oh nooo my rainie is leaving 'wo chai, wo chai, wo chai3x'. no more yang cheng lin on tv. the farewell show for her is quite nice & touching, with comments from many including my another favorite, ariel lin ^^

it just occurs to me that, today, this moment, i and my fellow comrades, we are standing on the position where Ko Omar stood, eight years ago, at St James church. How he saw us eight years ago, is probably similar to how we see the young people in our church and cellgroup. and only now do i realise, it's truly not easy. only now do i understand that, the most precious quality in a church worker, a servant of God, is not talent, not even passion, it is the teachable spirit. Among Jesus' 12 disciples, only some who show outstanding talent and quality. but why did He keep the rest? and why did these 'average' disciples went on to become the legendary apostles, brought many lives to Jesus and eventually died for His name? because they were teachable, thus they were called His 'disciples', not worker, not servant, not follower, not believer. Disciple. if the person doesn't have enough talent, but is willing to accept his mistakes and learn, he can be outstanding

I have been watching quite a lot of drama lately. I hope it turns out to be an inspiration for me to start writing something meaningful. It better be. So between three dorama that I mentioned sometimes ago, I ended up finishing Zettai Kareshi first. Simply bcoz its lighter and easy to digest. The dorama started with a girl, Riiko, who finds herself stuck with a lover robot which is programmed according to her own input on how her ideal lover should be. The robot, of course, creates a lot of trouble for her, proclaiming to everyone that he is her ideal lover. And occasionally, he would come to Riiko and go, "Let's have sex Riiko!". Quite amusing. Towards the end of the story, the girl eventually fell in love with the lover robot who she names Tenjo Night. This is the part that Kon claims to be 'not making sense'. But as I watch the movie, I thought to myself, actually there are so many couples who don't seem to make sense to me as well. Just because a human fa

young man, if you were to really lose this one, trust me, you won't regret this. some battles are not for you to win. just like few years ago, the bolton games are not the ones arsenal would win. if you really want to beat bolton, you have to change. because the way you are, you will never win such battles. i don't think you are worse than anyone else, but the problem is, what i think doesn't matter. what you think also doesn't matter. this matter called love, does not need third party's opinion. if they believe they are good enough for each other, that's enough. if one day they realise they make mistakes, that's not your business. if one day they prove that they were right, that's also not your business. and we are coming back to the questions, do you really want to win? can you really change? do you want to? not that easy, isn't it? but trust me this, if you were to really lose this one, you won't regret it.

it should have been Son Gohan.. but well.. I quite like little Goku too.

Yeah.. here is your dose of special captions. This time we are bringing you the sisters episode.