..my battle stance..

Wah.. long time never talked about the movies I watched. And sista's movie website has also been in hibernate mode for some time ^^ Hmm.. let's try to trace back: - Bodyguards and Assassins: testosterone-charged movie. for lovers of chinese movies, it's fun to watch. great actions, and lots of stars taking part. - Avatar: Great movie, good story, awesome imagination. Live up to expectation - Storm Warrior: I am a great wuxia fan but I think they could have made a better story for the movie. - Couple's retreat: Not my type somehow.. the lines are so typical at times I could imagine coming across such line on a typical Christmas drama at Church. - An Education: My type somehow.. Can be boring at times but have some good lines and morales there. Do I miss any movie in between?

yeah.. i am in the mood for writing. it's year end. even though i don't suffer the dragging-my-feet-to-office syndrome, or the why-is-it-monday-again sickness, but still.. i am experiencing the feel-like-pampering-myself symptom. i suppose that's what you feel when it's year end sometimes. but well.. for some reasons.. i do feel like writing. by the way.. i guess i have broken my own post record this year. never had we gotten so many posts in one year time. it reflects the goodness and happening-ness (no such word in actual) of 2009. all in all.. God has really provided.. true to the verse that I got for this year. the verse that is now still hanging on top of this blog. all in all.. I have tried to initiate good gesture now and then.. not enough but.. well.. this selfish guy is trying. next year gotta be better. all in all.. I've learned to acknowledge the fact that I am just a flawed man, I have neither the right nor the time to spend on judging others. Learned..

Another random post. Just read forum at salary.sg And found this thread where people talk about how to get rich (I suppose that's like the number 1 topic for those in their 20s and 30s.) And just randomly took one sharing by a forum reader there. - How did you make your first million? Made my first million i think around 30 or 31 years old. Graduated from uni in 1999, started own business in 2000 and have been running it for 9 years now. Am 34 this year. My family saves a lot. We save about 80% of total annual income. - How long did you take? About 6 years to make the 1st. 2 years for 2 second and 1 year for third. Make about 1M per year now. Probably can increase it to 2M per year over the next 5 years. It is very true that the 1st is hardest to make and the subsequent easier. - If you were to do it again in today's context, how much time do you need? Would you do it differently and how? Well, i make my money mostly from company profits and pay. My 1st company took 5 years to

When I came to Singapore 13 years ago.. I had one thing in mind. To look for Noriko Sakai's CDs and photo albums. She was still quite popular back then, though not the most popular one. She never was. Although she had quite a number of faithful fans. Like me. And today.. the only thing you hear about her... is the news that she is jailed, for using drugs. Sigh.. how things change. And then there is this not-so-famous singer-actress Stella Ng. I think she made it into some movies few years back. And was in the videoclip for Meteor Garden's OST (by Harlem Yu). Today? The latest news is that she is being sued for bankruptcy by Awfully Chocolate. But no need to pity her.. because she is not a bankrupt at all. Her 'Black as Chocolate' cake stores are doing great in Taiwan. She is most likely a millionaire now. Found her news here Not bad at all.. she wouldn't have made that much if she were to stay with mediacorp, competing with Jeanette Aw, Felicia Chin, etc. Noriko Sak

Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vines; even though the olive crop fails, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the fields, and the cattle barns are empty, yet I will rejoice in the Lord! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation! Habakkuk 3:17-18

We are going to enter the last week of 2009. While the year.. overall.. has been great.. beyond words.. the last few weeks have been challenging. It is as if.. 2010 has begun. the year that will bring life-changing revelation.. and following it.. freedom. freedom from what used to be our 'world'.. our 'paradigm' and 'borders'. and yet.. there is price to pay. and there is refinement to take place before that. so.. here we are. doing our best, hand in hand, to walk on. and as things get wrong, we would fix it, by God's grace. so that.. we would close this chapter, this year, with a glorious last paragraph.

I am still young and inexperienced. I will still learn a lot and see a lot more. But so far.. I have drawn a conclusion that I kind of believe.. will remain true till my last breath. That.. it's all about and because of grace. I used to think that NCC put too much emphasis on grace but then.. Now I begin to see that.. you could never put too much emphasis on grace. Because without grace, none of us would have what it takes to stand before God. Some jobs.. like mine, and also those in the banks probably.. allow you to meet many kind of people from all kind of background. and you get to see how these people deal with the one thing that.. is probably the biggest challenge to our character: money. and you realise that.. whether or not they are Christian.. sometimes has little to do with their wisdom, character and integrity. the only saving grace that we have is.. the grace of God.

We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls. - Mother Theresa

Another interesting mystery recently here And previously, was a story of a missing Indonesian lady who was then found dead- the lady was the sister of our friend's makeup artist. And before that.. was the guy who died on the day he got married. And tracing back further.. was the death of David Hartanto. Hmm... mystery..

Peter fairly exploded with his good news: "It's God's own truth, nothing could be plainer: God plays no favorites! It makes no difference who you are or where you're from—if you want God and are ready to do as he says, the door is open. Acts 10:34-35 How much do I.. want.. God? How ready am I to do.. what.. He.. says?

on the pulpit we say "God loves you for who you are" but after the service.. we are back to our judgmental self towards people. we should have said.. "God loves you for who you are... I don't"

Just randomly picked a new anime to watch. Tegami Bachi- Letter Bee caught my attention. I guess I like the drawing style.

Maybe I say too much at times.. because often I don't know whether I have done enough.. to let you know that no matter what.. I will always want the best for you- and I will give anything for that. I still want to walk the next millions steps in this life with you.

It's always the living ones.. the noisy and annoying ones. the death is lying peacefully down there. and yet.. the living ones.. they are noisy. they are noisy coz they have yet to understand. they would have stayed peaceful and serene had they understood.

'the message' version of the bible has a wonderful introduction on the book of Acts. written by Luke, the same doctor who wrote the Gospel of Luke.. it was really a continuation of the story told in the Gospel.. as if it carried on to the book of Acts without interruption. there is a reason why the book was found right after the Gospel. so that we do not merely become in awe of Jesus' wonderful works and stop at that. so that we know that His apostles did not stop at the point of believing. they acted! acted on their belief and love for Christ. "we can't stop TaLking about what we've seen and heard".. that's what the book of Acts was about. for me personally, it's a challenge to come to this point.. and yet.. I understand now that no matter how much I think I love him.. if I don't speak of Him enough.. if I don't act upon his words, upon my faith in him.. i simply don't love him enough.

Arrghh..... this is arghhh.... Liar Game Season 2 is out!! One of the brilliant doramas that opened up my mind ^^ Hope the sequel live up to the hype

This is novena. And they are playing macarena. This is velocity. And in front of me, a cup of spinelli. Well.. It's not difficult to make words rhyme. But.. What about souls? How do they bind?

I am praying that God would teach me how to look positively at people whose characters I have difficulty to appreciate. and how to believe to its utmost best the intention of people whose behavior I have difficulty to approve. not sure how long it will take to learn those.

I saw God before me for all time. Nothing can shake me; he's right by my side. I'm glad from the inside out, ecstatic; I've pitched my tent in the land of hope. I know you'll never dump me in Hades; I'll never even smell the stench of death. You've got my feet on the life-path, with your face shining sun-joy all around. - Acts 2:25-28 (The Message)

yang terhilang dan menanti di ujung sana..

those who want to be popular.. cannot hang around with the absolute truth. those who want to stick with the absolute truth.. cannot be popular. well the above two lines have little to do with the japanese dorama that vivy successfully recommended to me actually. i just felt like starting with those words. the dorama was about a kindhearted teacher who could kill with a touch of his hand and a mysterious death-row prisoner who could heal any kind of wound or sickness with a touch of his hand. those who watch Inuyasha would notice the resemblance. i don't see too much of a problem with a guy who could kill by touching. maybe because we grow in a country full with stories of some witches who could kill from afar. but it's definitely problematic when you have someone who could heal with his touch. the world would bow down to him.. there are people who would do anything, including killing, to be healed. and i like how this dorama, like some other japanese serials, fleshes out the ug

today is important. today could well be the last day I stand and minister in worship team for the youth congregation i have been part of for the last 10 years. wow.. 10 years. but those time.. if anything.. only says one thing.. God's faithfulness. And along with that faithfulness.. grace and forgiveness. may God lead this congregation to greater things over and beyond their expectation. as for me.. as long as i live.. i will be his worshiper. i dunno about future.. but i know it's in his mighty hand. so.. here we go.. 2010.. a year without boundaries.

Attended a briefing session on trainee forex dealer program that was on the Classified job section two weeks ago. They advertised the program like a proper trainee program but.. my skeptic side has suspected that it was another forex trading course, which is no different from those internet marketing courses I encountered back then. And so it was. Asked my friend who is in forex dealing department in a Japanese bank to give his comments. He thought the program was very good. And the presentation was convincing. I seriously think of joining. But I have issues with few things. First and foremost- the fact that they are not being open with the fee that comes with the program. they advertised the stuff like a job opening whereas in fact.. they are looking for business. The way they trick people into coming to their presentation showed one thing: lack of integrity. They may truly have competence and good track records but.. a teacher who lacks integrity can only produce a student who lacks

Yan Hui adalah murid kesayangan Confucius yang suka belajar, sifatnya baik. Pada suatu hari ketika Yan Hui sedang bertugas, dia melihat satu toko kain sedang dikerumuni banyak orang. Dia mendekat dan mendapati pembeli dan penjual kain sedang berdebat. Pembeli berteriak: “3×8 = 23, kenapa kamu bilang 24?”Yan Hui mendekati pembeli kain dan berkata: “Sobat, 3×8 = 24, tidak usah diperdebatkan lagi.” Pembeli kain tidak senang lalu menunjuk hidung Yan Hui dan berkata: “Siapa minta pendapatmu? Kalaupun mau minta pendapat mesti minta ke Confusus. Benar atau salah Confusius yang berhak mengatakan.” Yan Hui: “Baik, jika Confucius bilang kamu salah, bagaimana?” Pembeli kain: “Kalau Confucius bilang saya salah, kepalaku aku potong untukmu. Kalau kamu yang salah, bagaimana?”Yan Hui: “Kalau saya yang salah, jabatanku untukmu.”K eduanya sepakat untuk bertaruh, lalu pergi mencari Confucius. Setelah Confucius tahu duduk persoalannya, Confucius berkata kepada Yan Hui sambil tertawa: “3×8 = 23. Yan Hui,

i will learn to remain silent.. that's how i want to end my 2009. to learn how to remain silent.. even when i have reason to advise or criticize. i will learn to let time show.. whether i got to learn or you got to learn. and for some of my dearest ones.. i really hope if it turns out that you got to learn.. that you do learn. i am trying my best.. so you won't have to hear a word from me. and so you can take your time to learn at your pace.. but do learn. because the day will come when the harsh truth hits you hard truth that you gotta grow.. and grow fast because patience is a luxury in this flat world.

"trusting me, you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I've conquered the world." John 16 : 31-33 (The Message) and here is the unshakable truth.. that with Him.. we are more than conquerors!

so for the 2nd time in a year, our tv decided to shut himself down. we don't know why.. we are more concerned about how.. how much it costs to revive him. and it's a lot! so i called my colleague and ask for contact who could repair our tv. this colleague of mine.. end up sharing her testimony, which she always does. she told me she has taken it easy on her business side of life. she no longer chases after every big and small deal and try to close them. she wants to.. travel as light as possible. because she said.. this is the end time. she couldn't afford to spend all her time on these worldly matters. what's most important to her now.. is the kingdom. she has once almost lost her own salvation, she said.. but God pulled her back and from that time onwards she decided that she would never trade God with anything else. our conversation reminds me of 2012 the year may not be accurate-- but the message is! "the end time is NEAR.. and it gonna get UGLY" for all

I find it pointless to argue with Or to convince someone Unless he/she is interested to listen There is no need to prove our point. Afterall.. If we were right, Time will prove our case, now or later. If you want to be 'right' most of the time It's easy.. Just follow majority But then.. You will find yourselves Difficult to stand me

Watched 'faith like potatoes' yesterday. It isn't as engaging as fireproof- the last movie screened by young adults group in our church. But being based on true story.. It is truly a great story I suggest.. Read the book. The message in the movie.. And today's Pst Kong sermon has been speaking to me In the same affirming way regarding 2010. One word: FREE

the dagger is cold. the eyes of the person who holds it.. are even colder. the holder is a widow. the dagger is an orphan. he died. he has eventually died. certainly not because anyone is faster than him, and not because anyone is more formidable than him. he died because he surrendered. to the speed of time.. and invincibility of death. not because he wanted to.. simply because he was a human. so here they are.. the widow.. and the orphan. the orphan is lonely. the widow is even lonelier. not because she wants to.. simply because she is a human after all. ----- I Miss Reading Gu Long's Words ------

I forgot which preacher said this.. but he said it well. our life journey.. is the one filled with the "but God" events we were in the valley of death, with no hope and no way out, surrounded by sins and failures and sickness.. but God.. He stretched His mighty right hand and pull us out. we were blessed in all aspects of life, and we got carried away, we drift away from Him before we knew it, we have walked back to the valley of death, surrounded by guilt and failures and sickness.. but God.. He stretched His faithful right hand and pull us out. for every seemingly desperate situation we are in, we can always safely proclaim in faith that.. there will always be "but God" waiting to happen.

It feels weird today. It's Saturday. But I have no viewing to arrange. Yet I am setting myself minimal of three cases to close this month. Mm.. reasonable? Well.. God-able. Rite.. I am going to give you some insight on a book that I borrowed from Darvin. It's titled "Speed of Trust", by Stephen M. R. Covey Written by the son of the legendary writer who wrote the "Seven Habits" book. All decent man and woman should at least have heard of the legendary book. Never read that legendary book.. but Speed of Trust is a very good book that.. to certain extent.. it impacts me the way "Wild at Heart" did two years ago. Basically this book speaks of the importance of "trust" element in our lives, our organisation, business. because all these.. are in essence.. relationships. Well.. at personal level.. this book impacts me so much because.. being in my job.. being myself character-wise.. I seriously need to relearn the way of.. completely trusting my

I am currently listening to hot and cold reading in action.. I didn't know it could be that convincing to some people ^^ that's despite the reading being carried out by an untrained person. no wonder.. psychic works wonder heh. oh well.. just a thought. after years and years listening to people talking about the SAW series.. and never watched any.. i finally watched the first one today. SAW VI the first 10 minutes was soo amazing.. that jojo couldn't stand the movie to the point of walking out of the cinema hall and went to watch another movie next door. she never knew that the rest of the movie was not as gore. overall.. I liked the movie. good story line. Fwah.. sleepy.. zzz..

Obama has actually been in charge for one year.. till I look at the newspaper today and saw a small headline that says so. Has it been THAT long? I also didn't know that there was this Andy Lau movie that was shot in Singapore. An old old movie that features Andy Lau, Alan Tam, Liang Jia Ren (those that knows HK movie will know that they are big names back then).. and there was Eric Tseng, who, during those days, used to be playing some goofy characters. I randomly switched to Celestial channel today and I saw Andy Lau. So I stayed on. And then I saw the word 'Sentosa'.. then there was the island. then I saw cars and bikes crashing and exploding around City Hall and Raffles Place. They were having some scenes at Raffles Place MRT, Orchard MRT too.. Quite interesting.. looking at those familiar places.. in its 80s condition with its 80s style crowds. Hm.. it has been THAT long.. From 80s to today From 2008 to today.. We gain some.. and lose some. There are some lost that we

we don't need to understand there are miracles, miracles.. let the monster see you smiling!! yeah life is beautiful.. our hearts they beat and break

Arsenal will win trophies! Finally ^^

together.. - it takes two -

is new every morning.. - it takes two -

thank God for the fulfillment of my 12th case before the end of this month. i was proclaiming by faith the other day when I closed the 10th case that the 11th and 12th will follow before the month ends. it's indeed very true that the power of our words is phenomenal. because we are created in God's image and as we know.. everything exists because of the Word of God. the only problem is that i don't often use it. but i do think that you also need Holy Spirit's guidance and wisdom.. as to how and when to use it. because.. if i were to proclaim that before I eat my dinner today, someone will come and give me a $100k cheque.. I am not sure it will work. not to say that it is not possible.. but the question is.. is this what God wants for our goodness? anyway.. so.. the 12th case is not exactly completed but let's pray and speak out the words that.. by God's perfect protection.. we will complete this one as well. thank you Dad =)

thank God for the 11th arrival, and i realise that after all these.. i am still coming back to the similar point. that the most important thing is that God would bless the house and its dwellers. it's not the question of 'do i get the best price?' or 'will the price go up or down' it's essentially the question of whether 'will we dwell in peace and blessing' and by the grace of my God of abundance and mercy.. i am releasing the blessing of 'amen' to you all. blessed be you all.. who have shown generosity to me. God will show his generosity to you even more. and to you who have kept me in prayer.. God will show his generosity to you just as much. Yosh.. march on!

Yeahh... Look forward to 11th and 12th before the end of the 10th month. yoshh.. two months left to achieve the 2009 target. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!!

Thank God for His continuous provision That somehow.. Another case closed last week. As usual, I pray that the house will be a blessing to my buyer, A friend who... again, isn't particularly close to me. That's the funny thing about business. As I sit inside darvin's car and blog this (Thank you vinn for lending me ur car, It helps me close the case hoho) I begin to realise more and more that... God's favor is the reason I could go this far. I guess all the problem and pressure Had sort of got me disorientated But when I look back, And when I hold your trusting hands... I find my smile returning, "God is so gracious And u are so precious to me" so I thot.. So I smile

The more you grow, The harder it is to be happy. Heh.. The last sermon reminds me of that. I think partly its down to the fact That you get to understand more truth, And many 'happy things' turn out to be pointless Vanity of vanity Suddenly you find it pointless to Try to warn or advise these people What for? They are happy the way they are. They can't take too much truth. People.. Don't want truth. Because truth reveal the ugliness of their lives. They want hope.. Even if it's delutional. And they want company.. Even if they are blind.

I was introduced to this new word. http://yudhim.blogspot.com/2008/11/ciri-ciri-alay.html That's what apparently it means. heh.. Well.. frankly speaking.. I am not the great fan of the so-called 'alay', but I do find these people who make fuss out of it.. are just taking pleasure of self gratification that equally.. 'alay'.. imo.

I was searching for songs for YRC.. and as I glanced through album after album.. I realised that.. there are so many songs in Hillsongs' Blessed album that I really love. I never really remember what the album looks like. But for some reasons.. I love almost all the songs in this album. Blessed.. is also the name of my dearest family. Blessed.. is also.. the absolute, unchangeable state of our walk with God.

God of more than enough God over the gates of hades God over the batallion of angels God of the outcasts and broken God who turn impossibility into miracle God over time, space and the fifth dimensions God of the was, is, and is to come Is above all The loving Father who Never get too tired of Waiting for the prodigal son To return home There won't be question asked Or explanation expected Not even mentioning of the past The only thing you will hear is 'Welcome home son'

If you can truly.. really.. find true happiness apart from Jesus.. then you don't need Jesus.. and you don't need to be Christian.

October 1st 2009- Entering the final quarter of 2009, the world seems to be recovering from global economy meltdown. The stocks and equity market in Asia is redhot, people seem to have forgotten Lehman brothers and subprime crisis. Having dominated the world in last year Olympics, China is now on its way to be the world leader in economy, a scenario that has long been prophesied by many. Singapore? This little island just experienced little earthquake yesterday. Padang was again the main victim. Few days ago, we just had another F1 race which, according to one taxi driver, meant little to the heartlanders. I suppose they are more interested in mcdonald's hello kitty compares to Lewis Hamilton. Me? I am learning a lot lately. Partly because I got real estate exam next week. Partly because I got a new gadget. Partly because I can no longer stay where I used to be. I could delay the departure, but it has to take place eventually. And I am learning a lot, because I have a wonderful new

for so many things that start brightly as the morning star only time would stand to testify whether it will vanish or explode into eternity

Magnificent. You guys did such a great job. Proud of you all =) More to come.. more to come.. Go TLG!

Woah.. another unexpected case closed. Just like the Tribeca case.. I still need the signature.. and my heart kept thumping.. what if this.. what if that.. Call it paranoia.. or lack of trust.. but listening to some horrible swindling stories in this property business.. I can't help worrying. But at the end of the day.. I want to learn to completely trust in God's protection.. and to be completely at peace. knowing that He is in charge and He will bring this case to close. Sigh.. sometimes it's easier said than done ya =) nonetheless.. i will learn to be still. and know that He is GOD. and I will praise my God.. for He has shown His faithfulness once again. pheww... right after that roller coaster moment.. A message arrived.. along with the messenger. a surprise that makes me smile.. truly grateful knowing that i am greatly blessed ^^

I just read some stuff.. Two pieces of thot, from two different persons, both of whom are friends dear to me. The first one sounds like an advise from a good ol friend. Thank you.. whether you mean it or you don't =) I am a slow learner, if you ever notice. So.. be patient with me.. and pray for me.. would you? ;) The second one reminds me of this beautiful truth.. of possibly 9-10 people who are truly close to my heart, three quarter of them are not the ones I see in church, three quarter of them are not the ones I meet most regularly. i am not sure if i use the term 'close to my heart' correctly. by that.. i mean.. those who do not need to try hard to put themselves on my shoes. they just got it.. in one way or another. maybe when we meet someone too often, when we know someone for too long and we care too much.. we end up knowing more and understanding less.. i dunno... (^_____^) maybe sometimes distance keeps us in perspective, because we could see the bigger picture..

gloomy evening.. down there.. they are chanting. chanting for the dead. right here.. i am thinking. thinking of the living. life turns out to be slightly more complicated than death.

Lee Kuan Yew works in room with 16 celsius degree temperature. So I was told.

it must be the raining season again.. coz my eyes start to get annoyingly itchy again -_- dunno what to do with these eyes

ni shi wo zui mei de xiang xin =)

Ring… Caller: Hi there, I would like to find out how long it will take to fly from Singapore to LA? Reply: ONE minute Sir. Caller: Fantastic! Thank you! Heh.. I found this funny, its from zuji's email. Reminds me of a real conversation between a taxi driver and his passenger. I mentioned to a taxi driver that sometimes I am amused by drivers who ask me which way i wish to take to reach my destination. When I ask them which is better.. they would tell me "up to you lah". I was like.. "hello.. who's the driver here?" And this driver told me he once asked a Caucasian passenger this question. And the passenger replied, "Can you fly?"

Nevertheless I am continually with You; You hold me by my right hand. Psalm 73:23 Fully conscious of his own lost state and of the deceitfulness and vileness of his nature and thoughts, King David sang, “Nevertheless I am continually with You.” “Nevertheless”—notwithstanding all the foolishness and ignorance that he had just been confessing to God, David knew beyond a shadow of doubt that he was saved, accepted, and blessed by the constant presence of God. What this means for us is that as believers, we too need to be like David and know for a fact that since we belong to Christ, we are continually with God. Continue to read HERE Another daily devotional that I believe will bless you as much as it blesses me.

we can forgive you, because we are strong enough, and we hope one day you will be strong enough, to forgive yourself. maybe only with the passing of time, we could look back and understood, how foolish we were, and how we have grown somewhat wiser now. we don't retaliate, because that's God's business. and we believe that God is gracious enough, to always forgive you.

"There is a meaning behind every action of a girl" - Karin, Say Hello for Me. Happened to watch this j-movie last night. A simple feel-good movie with some nice music and skies.. those you expect to find in japanese movies. There are stuff in the movie that got me thinking. In our lives.. we meet, get to know, and make friends with lots and lots of people. And for each of them.. there is that particular scene, time, place, and situation.. when that person first, truly.. enter into our lives. it's not necessarily the first time you get to know each other's name. it's the time that person officially gain a spot in your heart. and then for certain people, there will be another moment.. when you finally keep them in the most sacred spot of your heart. i used to wonder.. how would that moment be.. for my encounter with the one i have been waiting for.. turns out that.. it's truly worth the wait.

Bro Niko said a simple stuff that still lingers on my mind today. I am one of those who are guilty of sometimes dozing off when he preaches but actually, that has more to do with his tone rather than the content because his preaching are often good. today he said.. righteousness brings peace.. and peace.. brings joy. but where does our righteousness come from? God Himself.. is our righteousness. (psalm 24:5) God.. as we know.. is what the world will never take away from us. no one and nothing could take Him away from us and thus.. no one and nothing could take our righteousness, peace and joy from us. we face persecution and judgment every day and yet.. Yet amid all these things we are more than conquerors and gain a surpassing victory through Him Who loved us. For I am persuaded beyond doubt that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor things impending and threatening nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be ab

football is the most important unimportant things in the world. so myles palmer said. i simply have to agree. i just watched my beloved arsenal getting hammered. after the first few impressive games, they suddenly turned into rubbish. but it's okay.. coz we got many things that are more important in life. so i'll just wait till they become good again. went to another wedding today. this one is without fancy performances we have been seeing for the last 4-5 weddings. suddenly it felt weird haha. but it's good coz we go straight to the important matters. and it finished at 10 PM instead of 11 something. i realise that i have not been congratulating anyone in my blog but well.. the couples are not reading anyway.. and i suppose for the ones who read, you are my close friends who have received my wishes after all. been talking to friend(s) who are thinking of quitting their job and start their own business. some ask me how it was like when i quit and became a property agent. we

Sounds like a good one ;)

In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe. (NLT) At day's end I'm ready for sound sleep, For you, God, have put my life back together. (The Message) Psalm 4:8 Oyasumi ;)

You're blessed when you've lost it all. God's kingdom is there for the finding. But it's trouble ahead if you think you have it made. What you have is all you'll ever get. You're blessed when you're ravenously hungry. Then you're ready for the Messianic meal. And it's trouble ahead if you're satisfied with yourself. Your self will not satisfy you for long. You're blessed when the tears flow freely. Joy comes with the morning. And it's trouble ahead if you think life's all fun and games. There's suffering to be met, and you're going to meet it. Luke 6: 17-21, 24-25

i was looking for a pair of socks this morning, apparently.. that is only slightly easier than solving physics Olympic questions. there was 17 socks in my drawer, and none of them are a pair. i wonder what happen to their partner. and why don't they disappear together? the missing socks is the mystery that i have yet to understand in my entire life. another mystery that is slightly less challenging, is the one-dollar-kids. few days ago, we met a kid who seemed to be playing happily on his own, and then out of sudden, he smiled to us, and then asked for 1 dollar. he was lucky, i had 1 dollar in my pocket. today a girl seemed to be playing happily on her own, and out of sudden, she spoke to me, and then asked for 1 dollar. she was unlucky, i told her i have given the 1 dollar to her friend. she was bemused, "which one?" she asked. "it was a boy, i dunno" i told her. i wonder if they work under the same 'company'. their technique was similar, a bit like the

it's more easy to feel for someone's sadness, than to share his/her happiness. we, human.. are truly.. fragile and flawed. that's what you would realise when you read book like 'love worth giving'. and after reading it, looking at yourself and realising you are still pretty much the same.. slightly better but not entirely.. you realise that the book is not enough. so more important than all these.. is to forgive and be forgiven. because we won't see a day when everyone is good enough that no one need forgiveness from anyone anymore. not until the end of this world as we know it.

Not too emotional, but interesting.. It makes you wonder if it's better to know the future, when you can't really do anything to change a single thing. And what if you do not know the future? Will you take the chance to love? You would. You love.. not because you know.. but because you believe. Time Travel and Love.. are both inexplicable, and fascinating.

One of the most intriguing biblical questions for me is: Who is Melchizedek ??? or rather.. What kind of being is Melchizedek? The bible says that Melchizedek had no beginning or ending. He had no record of genealogy. And yet.. he seemed to be human. Supernatural one, apparently. In many ways.. he was the blueprint of the coming Savior, Christ. But they seem to be different people. So.. if Melchizedek is human, not Christ, and has no ending.. that means.. there is a chance that... he is still living among us? :P

For an encouragement read this

this path we are taking, it's not easy and at times.. we are bleeding with wounds and yet.. we are standing still. for even though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death His perfect love is casting out fear! all of our lives.. in every season, He is still God.. that's why we are singing.. that's why we surrender in worship. for beyond the storm and rain, there is rainbow waiting and following the darkest hour of the night, is the blue morning sky

just spoke to a 'friend who decline to be named' regarding her problems with her so-called boyfriend. well.. not really problems.. just some issues that they need to agree on. one of the funny stuff she mentioned was the 'love vs career' issue. she said.. "well we girls do like guys who focus on their careers.. but then.. we also hate it when they prioritize their career and break their promises to us". so this is what i believe.. "we are all simply trying to do our best for the ones we love. but the way we do it.. it's different from one person to another. just because he put his career first does not mean he loves you any lesser. and just because a guy put his love first does not mean he care about his career any lesser" we are only imperfect human, you see.. and in attempting to love.. we try, stumble, broken, got up.. and try again. if the world ain't applauding our love.. so be it. coz we are no heroes, no saviors. well maybe you got som

And what about the laughter The happy ever after Like voices of sweet angels Calling out our names

the inseparable three

Therefore keep watch because you do not know when the owner of the house will come back—whether in the evening, or at midnight, or when the rooster crows, or at dawn. If he comes suddenly, do not let him find you sleeping. What I say to you, I say to everyone: 'Watch!' Mark 13:35-37

and this is the season.. of making a promise for a lifetime.

i saw something tonite. something that kind of surprised me. naturally, opinion after opinion came out from my mouth. moments later.. i decided that i should shut up. because one need to earn his right before he could criticize, that's what the guy who taught in leadership seminar said. i would never forget his words. i didn't do enough to earn that right. so i would just shut up, hands off.. and move on. let those who have the right to take care of the matter.

Jesus said, "Mark my words, no one who sacrifices house, brothers, sisters, mother, father, children, land—whatever—because of me and the Message will lose out. They'll get it all back, but multiplied many times in homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, children, and land—but also in troubles. And then the bonus of eternal life! This is once again the Great Reversal: Many who are first will end up last, and the last first." (Mark 10:29-31) here's the fascinating way of the Kingdom. you have to sacrifice everything in order to gain more than everything.

just caught 'Wait till you grow older' on TV.. this is the third time i watch the movie. and tear helplessly escaped my eyes for the third time. hah.. it somehow feels good to know that after all these years.. there is part of me that remains the same. tear can still helplessly drop heart can still completely fall

Blessed be my El Shaddai.. the God of 'More Than Enough'!

Just now.. my manager sent an email which among many things, he congratulated me for my performance this year. as much as i love the sound of these praises, i am fully aware that this is not what makes me grow. the turning point for me was when i was told by my fellow colleague that.. "to be frank.. you had a very poor performance". he would never know how much those words meant to me. those harsh words are the things that made me grow. so was my beloved lady boss at the last company i worked for (a.k.a. bos ayam). she was the one that made me grow, instead of my other friendly bosses i worked under before. the good stuff are often bitter. and often God let us face those bitter experiences. He allowed David to fight lions and bears alone. He allowed David to persevere with his brothers who loved to mock him. because He knew that one day David would have to fight a battle only he could fight. He is preparing us for a different giant. A giant nonetheless.

today i went to CHC again.. and again.. i found something there.. something that spoke to me deep and loud, something that awaken the spirit inside. it's these 'beautiful little coincidences' that brought me back there.. times and again. even though i did not intend to be part of them. these 'beautiful little coincidences', if i were to be honest.. are what we would call 'destiny' and similarly.. that is how i am so sure of another thing =) because all these little 'coincidences' when put together.. they form a word 'destiny'.

urgh... it sucks when you miss a deal like this. but... i suppose it's a good wake up call. failure is down to two factors: luck and incompetence. we can do nothing with the first one. but the second one is definitely for us to deal with. this race is far from being over. we have yet to reach the paradise fall. gotta raise my bar.. focus, and accelerate. be hungry, be damn hungry! fighting!!

last Sat.. Isaiah told us the story behind this song. I knew the story, I sort of knew the song.. but never knew the relationship between the two. it birthed out of the story of a journalist who went to interview an old lady. this old lady has just lost her third and last son. he had three son, all of whom followed the Lord's calling to serve in Africa. one by one they went, one by one lost their lives in the mission. the journalist had one question. "do you have any regret?" "yes.. i do.." she answered as she walked away in tears. she paused. turned around. and she said this to the journalist, "i regret that i do not have the fourth son i could give to my Lord." Love so amazing so divine Demands my soul, my life, my all..

we have heard far too much, our heart have been moved far too many times, we have reached a point.. where our utmost need is neither to hear another word nor to be moved once more.. our utmost need is to.. move.

Woaa.... a package from krypton

At that moment, the Temple curtain was ripped in two, top to bottom. There was an earthquake, and rocks were split in pieces. What's more, tombs were opened up, and many bodies of believers asleep in their graves were raised. (After Jesus' resurrection, they left the tombs, entered the holy city, and appeared to many.) The captain of the guard and those with him, when they saw the earthquake and everything else that was happening, were scared to death. They said, " This has to be the Son of God! " Matthew 27:51-54 (The Message)

"Ada sesuatu yang kuingini dari Panda.. makanya aku berhubungan dengan Panda siang ini" Ranu

and i dunno why..

soredemo ii.. soredemo ii to omoeru koi datta

I kept thinking.. why He never sent the twelve legions of angels and brought everyone to their knees. that would be easy. I suppose it's because.. primarily, He wanted us to choose heaven not because of the fear for hell or His absolute power. but He wants us to choose heaven.. because we.. by faith.. decide to love the God unseen. we decide to choose Him.. to be the One we spend eternity with.

Do you suppose that I cannot appeal to My Father, and He will immediately provide Me with more than twelve legions [more than 80,000] of angels? But how then would the Scriptures be fulfilled, that it must come about this way? Matthew 26:53-54 (Amplified Bible)

rang wo lai dang ni de shei..

愛我　非你莫屬　我只願　守護　由你給我的幸福 愛我　非你莫屬　也許會　笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦

mati si mbah surip !!!?? ck ck ck..

and then i see you.. and everything is alright. you know i can do anything..

one of the weird songs that.. somehow.. I don't really understand. I think I understand partly.. but then.. not really.

Well.. often, others seem to think they know your problem. but they are only reading the surface. their understanding is two dimensional at best. they are not even close. but you don't expect them to understand, because after all.. your problem may mean nothing to the others anyway.. so that's when the things get complicated and tiring mentally. so sometimes.. you just wish to stay quiet. because when you don't open your mouth, chance of things going wrong is lesser.

Because we can't say the words yet, Quietly, I touch your hand (taken from vy's blog, Ranma's OST)

This time.. is a diary written by Andre on our 4 days trip to Saigon =) It was one of the most unusual trips I have ever made. Me, Andre, Jo, Darvin- the four awesome jomblo (during that time). I always remember that the first phonecall I get when I reached Spore was from dianaw.. with report that she was officially in relationship with alfonso! dianaww... dianaww... gua tinggal 4 hari ke saigon, uda kudeta dikau =P Email Sent by: Andre Date: Jun 2 2005 Subject: Back from Saigon Day 3: Big day!!! Kita hari ini pegi tour ke “Chu Chi Tunnel”… Seperti biasa lagi, kita breakfast, kali ini kita bisa breakfast ber 4 dibanding dua2, soalnya kita udah ketauan tadi malem, jadi udahbayar extra and dapet breakfast. Hari ini si tour guide yang jemput rada telat, dia dateng 8.30am yang mana harusnya dateng 8.00am. Hari itu tournya orangnya lebih banyak, ada 11 orang termasuk kita, dan 10 orang cowok n satu cewe. Si tour guidenya gak se-funky tour guide yang kemaren, namanya dia klo di inggrising

Happy birthday to Sista.. my most.. trustworthy.. dayang ^^ A slightly late one. I have to surrender you now to a good man haha. He is not only good.. he is blessed to have you. And so are we.. we are blessed to have such a reliable sista. I can always count on your words and promises. And in many ways.. you have been such a help in times of need. My God, our God.. El Shaddai.. shall bless your life with love and joy each day. And for dianaw.. congratulation for your upcoming wedding =) An early one.. to my.. most apa ya.. basically my favorite dayang =P Favorite because you are most fun to fool around and talk crap with lol. And of course.. because you are one of the three musketeers hoho. Darn.. i also have to surrender you to another good man. This is not fair =P my prayer.. that you will lead a blissful marriage life, in its sweetest and simplest way.. just like how you always like it to be. Now.. get ready for the happening weekend. Followed by.. a woohoo week where I will be clo

God is most magnificent in the eye of wild storm. no matter how much we love peace we can't deny the fact that what he gives us are battle gears- the sword, shield, helmet and armor. it seems predestined that this love affair involves battlefields. after all.. the Prince of Peace made peace between us and the Almighty, by leading His one man army on a battle against death, against the rest of the world and hell in full force. He went into the devil's headquarter, turned their base into a huge mess, and returned victorious. This is our God.

Cinta Tak Pernah Salah - Tangga Ternyata cinta takkan pernah salah Tak pergi kemana Ternyata cinta takkan pernah salah Tak pergi kemana Takkan ku jera tuk jatuh cinta Jatuh cinta kepadamu setiap waktu Setiap ... waktu ...

Be My Wife - Tangga

Saat semua resah meluruh sayapnya Saat yang kumiliki hanya nafas ini Sekaranglah itu, beginilah aku Hanya detak jantungku yang mampu jujur kepadamu Sementara lidahku beku dan keluh Setengah mati ingin menghilang Bukan Lagu Cinta- Marcell feat Karen

i guess it's understandable how a good man could turn into a villain like 'two face' in the 'dark knight' movie. coz some good people are so full of act it's sickening.

Gmail is brilliant. (I am not paid to say this) I was looking at my inbox (with 2975 mails unread, no need to guess the total mails i have). And I wondered.. what are those unread mails about? Then I found myself traveling back to the past.. scanning through stuff that bring back memories. And I realise once again.. my memory is too weak to capture perfectly these moments. I could never recapture the feeling we had that very day. No matter how much I love them, my memory is simply too weak to be faithful. Nonetheless.. reading thru these emails is like opening up the photo albums.. photo after photo of the past. So let me share them here (randomly). Starting with this one by makangrup, the now extinct group consisting of darvin, ata, jo, hery, elsa, dian, fenny, iwan, andre, me (miss anyone?) Email sent by: Ata Date: Jan 11 2005 Subject: Project 8: tantangan 8 biji - tiada henti Ya selamat pagi anak anak, Seperti telah di bahas kemaren, hari ini kita akan mengadakan menyaksikan tekat s

love is patient sigh.. it all begins with patience. .. coz love is patient phew.. patient.

the almighty who is beyond everything and anything we could ever define in human language. And I will say of the Lord.. my God.

dalam sunyi dan dalam diam bibir terkatup dan mata yang terpejam jantung ini mengerti dengan pasti cinta mengalir menderu dalam nadi

used to think that it doesn't matter whether this life is long or short. but i am scolding myself now for that. well.. i still think that life does not have to be long in order to be meaningful. but.. i am now praying that i will live long.. long and healthy. long and meaningful. because i realise that life can indeed be beautiful, and when you have 1001 things you wish to do with someone, life better be long.

Selagi semuanya memang sempurna. Selagi semuanya baik-baik saja. Aku merekam detik itu dan menggenggamnya erat-erat. rectoverso- dee

Yeah.. seems that the first promotion beckons. So the next leap is.. to achieve the 2nd before January 1st 2010. By God's grace, I will achieve this. Fighting!

"Wherever we've been, wherever we're going, I'm content in this moment, knowing that we travel one more day together as.. whatever." rectoverso- dee

Hujan. Bukankah kamu bilang, kamu suka mencium bau hujan? Kamu juga suka berdiri diam diguyur hujan lebat. Kamu.. "Dia paling suka hujan." suara gadis itu menyadarkanku. Yuri Kinamoto namanya. Cantik, tapi bukan itu.. bukan itu yang menjadi daya tarik terkuatnya. Matanya. That starry eyes. Tatapan yang seakan sanggup menelanjangi dan mengerti setiap rahasiaku. Tatapan yang begitu penuh dengan hidup. Tatapan yang seakan menawarkan untuk menanggung setiap beban hatiku. Eyes of the goddess. Aku mengangguk. "Dia cerita?" Dia menggeleng. Lalu tersenyum. Matanya menerawang jauh. "Hari itu.. aku sedang berjalan pulang dari sekolah. Hujan lebat, lebat sekali. Kamu tau kan di Jepang selalu ada satu bulan di musim semi dimana hujan turun terus menerus?" Aku mengangguk. Kamu pernah bercerita tentang itu. Yuri melanjutkan ceritanya. "Lalu aku melihat si bodoh itu. Dia sedang berdiri seperti patung sawah ditengah padang bunga kami. Tangannya membentang seperti ora

Sekalipun segelas air putih, tak lebih indah dari pangeran dalam mimpi. karena segelas air putih, setia menanti tanpa perlu kau bermimpi. Sekalipun segelas air putih, butuh semasa untuk punya arti. namun lebih baik segelas air putih, karena demikianlah cinta kan abadi. *termakan novel pinjaman*

Braddellites are still struggling against the mighty virus. So are the people in Darvin's house, and Delwin whom I met today. Flu is the trend nowadays. And Braddell has slowly grown into a prestigious international residential destination. We got many good looking caucasians patronizing our dearest coffee shop, 'Jalan Benar'. And today, I met a young couple at my block's elevator. The guy said, "How r you doing?" To which I only nodded, smiled. Then they start chatting.. in Japanese. *norak mode on* We got Japanese neighbor!!!

Click on the image to enlarge Die Hard 1 Die Hard 2 Die Hard 3 lol i was forwarded these stupid comic strip yesterday. the more i look at it the funnier it gets.

two years had passed. just watched harry potter. and realised that I am still waiting for the next Stardust to hit the cinema. i am still more in love with stardust kind of story. and i am still in love with the song You light the skies, up above me A star, so bright, you blind me Don’t close your eyes Don’t fade away, don’t fade away, oh Yeah you and me we can ride on a star If you stay with me girl We can rule the world Yeah you and me we can light up the sky If you stay by my side We can rule the world so.. stay =)

Natalie had been working as parttime waitress in this cafe for three or three and half months. She had seen different kind of people coming and going. She had also seen the same kind of people who would patron the place now and then. And then.. there were also certain type of people that would always be around every day, without fail. One of them was this man who came by everyday at 4 pm and would always choose the same corner table and would always be around for two hours. He came at 4 pm and left at 6 pm every day, rain or shine. Natalie thought that the man must be either a spy or a freak. She never paid special attention to this guy initially. One fine spring day, this man came with a little girl. He broke the pattern! He had never been with anyone before, much less a little girl. Natalie was curious. She knew that she had no reason to be curious and yet, she found herself walking towards that man's table. Now that she stood right there, she didn't know what to do or say. &

that scent is such a wonderful thing

abis baca cerpen nya si dewi lestari. cerpen yang menemani lagu terkenal itu.. malaikat juga tahu. dan si penulis mengungkapkan satu kebenaran yang erm.. sangat benar. si wanita dicintai dua pria. pria pertama yang mencinta dia lebih dari sepenuhnya, pria pertama yang mencinta dia tanpa punya pilihan untuk kemungkinan yang lain. dan pria kedua yang mencintai dia.. mungkin sepenuhnya, pria kedua yang memiliki pilihan.. lalu memilih dia. si wanita mencintai satu pria, pria kedua yang memiliki pilihan dan memilih dia. karena si wanita tidak ingin dicintai oleh seseorang yang tidak punya pilihan. sekalipun boleh diadu cinta kedua pria itu, malaikat juga tahu, siapa juaranya. karena kita tidak selalu memilih dia yang paling mencintai. seperti halnya kita tidak selalu dipilih dia yang paling kita cintai.

There is only one explanation to the 8th one: prayer. My mum unfailingly pray for me every day for the last 28 years. (the only person whose love i have given up competing against.. i simply won't be able to love her more in return). Sometimes, when she told me over the phone that she prays this and that for me.. I would just take it for granted. But for the 8th case.. what can i say? A complete stranger left a message: 'i want to sell my property'. There were so many agents in the website and they picked me? Some unbelievable events took place. two days after i visited his place, his neighbor came knocking, wanting to buy his house. i have not signed any agreement with him. only verbal agreement between us. he could have dealt directly with the buyer to avoid paying me comms. instead he told the buyer, "i have an agent, pls liaise with him". I was like.. "whaat.... " when he told me that. i didn't expect such loyalty even from a friend, (coz i doubt

I have reasons to wish for the time to fly fast and furious. And I have reasons to wish for the time to waltz slow or even stand still. Sigh..

Hear my heart it's calling to You my never-ending none that I desire but You... - All for You (TW Youth)

If this love is a crime, I would rather be convicted.

The oldest known anime in existence was screened in 1917 - a two minute clip of a samurai trying to test a new sword on his target, only to suffer defeat. (source: the crunchyroll takeout)

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." — Dr. Seuss "A woman's heart should be so hidden in God that a man has to seek Him just to find her." — Max Lucado soo ka..

It is beyond comprehension, why someone who speaks to the God of universe daily, live in the wonder and beauty of His perfect creation, would trade his paradise for a bite of fruit? But thankfully, such 'foolishness' was surpassed.. when history recorded that the God of universe decided to leave His Heavenly throne to save the day. He traded His life for the life of a wretch like me. Even though I had traded Him for a bite of fruit.. countless times.