..my battle stance..

despite all the sweet talks and inspiring speeches, many of us would end up surrendering to the thought of, "if only i have lots of money.." and it's sad that it's a fact, though as the wise say, "fact is not always truth" there are few type of persons who could see beyond this fact, the very little kids who do not know the value of money, the warring third world country civilians who would not even know if they will live tomorrow, and probably, the very old folks who have tried and seen it all.

well.. i thought for some of you out there who have been downloading or streaming naruto over the past three or four years like me, those who have been enjoying the excellent work of those dattebayo folks.. you may like to go to their website and read the press release on their intention to stop subbing the series. they have made some prank releases but this one appears to be the real one heh. and even if it is another fake one, i thought i would just like to say how thankful i am to these people, whom I never meet.. but have given me something to look forward to every thursday. anyway.. here's the press release:::: Welcome my friends, my enemies, and those whom I do not yet know. Let's sit and talk for a while, you and me. We haven't talked in some time. Let's explore the past a little, and chat about the present and future. Naruto has been around for a very long time now. When I started downloading fansubs in early 2003, Naruto was already past its 20th episode. I use

they all try to say it beautifully, but why.. why do i only long for your voice? the beauty of your every word, and your silence..

we had unexpected guests today. two women from the church of holy mother came. one middle aged korean and one somewhat younger chinese. if only they sent a pretty korean like bigung mama, i would have welcomed them in and listen to their preaching heh. after a few rounds of banter, the korean knew that she would be wasting her time convincing me. and i know that i will be wasting my time too educating her. because she will listen but will never understand. but at the end of the day, i can only feel ashamed.. that these people, totally clueless about the God they worship, yet fully committed to preach their 'good news'.

i will divide my sense of longing, into thousands of pieces, and fold them into paper planes.. sending them to you, hoping that you will come to me with the other half of the moon. - corner with love -

let's roll the dice once more, let's let the earth dance for two more rounds, let's see if our fate is really entangled. take the chance, shall we?

'do you want that badly to fit in?' the girl asked niko. that is the issue in 'sexy voice n robo' last episode. 'i will always think of myself as my own ally.' that is robo's final statement. 'maybe someday in future, just like stars that drift closer and then further apart from each other, maybe one day.. i will draw closer to him once again.' that is niko's final statement, even though she was almost in love with the man. in this world, there are people who are not meant to fit in. people who do things differently, love differently, and live differently. we may have walked our separate ways. but one day we will cross paths. because we share the same destiny.

i have not gone to blinky mummy's blog for more than a year. when i was working at ebooksys, i would check out her blinkymummy.blogspot.com every day. i thought she was one of the more interesting lady bloggers around. dun always agree with her, often disagree, but still.. she belongs to the category of ladies i tend to admire. the first time i read her blog.. she was a regular smoker. the last time i read her blog.. she was well in the process of quitting, living happily with her 'good fren' and cats. and today... well.. i was expecting to see a post of her usual daily life. only to find out that she is now taking her MBA at the UK with her 'good fren'. fwah.. i is surprised. sometimes you take it for granted that something would remain the same for yonks, only to find out that.. that is simply not possible. and it better be. because life is an adventure.

because my idea of year end movie is something like 'cape no 7'. and my idea of meaningful holiday is a train journey to tibet, or a road trip across new zealand. and my perfect home is a ranch or a vineyard. so i guess i will wait for the unlikely.

i love my country, but if my country can't be bothered, what to do? *shrugs* May God heals their chronic stupidity. and blesses them with at least half of Solomon's wisdom.

i like the pianists!!!! ^^

Great event, professional, great crowds. CHC being CHC, they even provide dinner for registered participant and free drink for all. Let's skip on the part we don't realy like about their way of doing things heh. Went last night, True Worshippers led the opening worship, and they did a great job. Don Moen sang two songs, followed by some testimonies.. and a supposedly famous Swede singer called Carole sang two songs as well. They sang a wonderful song titled 'the God i know'.. from CHC latest album. What I like about their songs is that they carry the vision of the church. Ulf Elkman was the preacher of the night, never a great fan of him but he is an energetic speaker with powerful anointing. Glad that he touches on the silly idea that is quite common in charismatic church. He said that you need to have relationship with someone for his annointing to be imparted to you. You can't just go to a Benny Hinn or any great man of God that you don't have any relationshi

ask yourself whether you have truly been humble, or have you been intentiously humbling yourself, knowing that others will respond with compliments to you. because even if most people can't see the difference, some people could, and honestly.. when you do that too often, it's quite sad to watch.

one of human's biggest enemy, is his/her insecurity.. i'm fighting my own insecurity all the time. in the past, some bad remarks or insults would hurt me. i was also easily affected by people's reaction.. friska's sharing today reminds me of that. i could have given up the ministry i love most.. and also my dreams. but i believe now that my days are secure in His hands. and that no matter what they say, it won't stop me from running my race of destiny. i am learning not to be concerned with what others think, and to fix my eyes and heart on what my Potter thinks. in fact i welcome all the humiliation and grinding, a chinese proverb says, 'iron continuously grounds become a needle'. with persistence, through trial, we will achieve greatness.

A b C D E F g h i J k L m n O p q r s t u v w x y z eight out of 26. and of all letters, C seems to be of the highest occurance.

no matter how hard you cry, no matter how much it means to you now, no matter how you promise, you will forget. as much as you'd like to make it forever, time will prove that you are simply being naive. because the world will forget. even if it acts like it cares.

few days ago darvin was telling us stories about the author of 'blue ocean strategy', the man who gave advises to Nintendo when they intended to create a new console to rival playstation. sony's console was definitely winning the lion shares of the market then and nintendo was living in its past glory. they could have come up with something as good as playstation but then.. the author argued, what's the point? so he advised them to target different segment of market- the working adults and even older folks probably. the result of his vision was.. Nintento Wii. I guess it's a wonderful thing to see the aunties and professional adults unwind after their hectic days with Wii. the console has its own strength that neither playstation nor xbox could touch. well done. blue ocean strategy itself is a business strategy book that promotes a systematic approach "for making the competition irrelevant". sounds awesome. it's clearly a departure from chinese' bu

all birds have eyes, but an eagle has vision. we heard about vision thingy many times, but pst daniel chua's sermon today was inspiring, and i pray that as kong hee always says.. let those words not only be inspiration but a revelation in our lives. because i have had enough of all those motivational talks, all those pep talks in camps, all those tears and fire that only last for few months. daniel chua's two days sermons are both heartwarming and heart-stirring. it's important to have vision. without vision, we will just be drifting along. and tonight we come up with a silly vision when we ate at "founder" bakkut teh. the vision is to have my photo hanging on that wall in three years time =P whatever it takes ^^

"hero is just adult's fantasy of someone they could never be" -niko (sexy voice and robo) this movie sure has many side points that are interesting, though may not always be totally true.

the measure of our strength is not tested through victories, but through defeat. the best soldiers are not those who never fall into trap, but those who have what it takes to overcome traps and falls.

.. .. because people will only listen to what they want to hear..

went to bayshore park today to meet a client. at the clubhouse where there is this canteen called.. erm.. dolphina? and it feels like.. ages and ages ago. oboiteru?

phew.. ilodge has been running and leaping, what began as a small project has started to become bigger and bolder. when we started, we had to say it times and again, "we don't own any room.. we are just facilitating the booking!" we don't earn much from those bookings (like $10?), we are pretty much helping people heh. but now.. we are about to have our first unit HERE TAdaaa!! no complicated business proposal or cashflow analysis or best-laid plan bla bla bla. three of us just jump into it.. oh boy.. we gotta start praying ^^ but i believe in the business that was founded with people in mind. i believe that when you conduct the business with good intention, God will take care of the cashflow, the money will come. and i will forever remember the advise by some guy interviewed by strait times. he said his mum used to tell him, "follow your passion, and the money will follow". well said.

Fun. With lots of wonderful casts and some babes ^^ Vanessa Hudgens could kill with her eyes and smile. Ashley Tisdale is entertaining. But if it were me.. I would ask Olesya Rulin to go prom with me instead. I guess Hudgens would be Lana in Smallville, while Rulin has that Chloe-ness in her. Not a fantastic beauty but yeah.. my kind of girl i guess. Final words: I don't know where to start but I know where I want to end. At the stage. The centre stage. Some people just come alive on the stage I guess.

my manager keeps telling us the same thing.. focus on the big thing. focus. focus! and i keep making the same mistakes, i waste my time on small things, on cases that aren't worthy of all the effort put in. because.. i guess when the small things are all you can see, it's difficult to let go of all these small things you are holding, in order to pursue a big goal that you have yet to touch and taste. many facts in this world seem to reflect truth in our relationship with God. often, we also need to be able to give up the small things that fill up our life, in order to give space to the bigger plans that God has for us. it takes a sound mind, and a big heart.. to do that. sigh..

Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom (Psalm 90:12) Some say that the question for david is not: "why did you sleep with Bathsheba?" but rather "why were you not among your armies in the battlefield?" so it's not the question of "why did you do that?" but it's of "why were you even there?" But maybe, even more accurately.. it's not "why are you here?" but.. "are you supposed to be here now?" Many times the question is not whether we are in the right place, it's not whether it's right for us to be or not to be in certain place.. but whether.. it is the right time to be or not to be there. there is time for everyting, it is said. there is time for kings to rest, but definitely spring was not the time for david to rest. it was the time for war. there is time for us to be seen in a pub or bar or night club, trust me. there is even time for us to be absent from church, heh

today i went for my haircut, again. so naturally.. i met caely, again. and i notice that she got a ring on her right hand's finger, whatever that means. ^^ and i realise that.. i really love watching her expression, when her eyes brightened up occasionally as she focused on her work. or when those lively pair of eyes blinked. i have weakness for lively eyes, they captivate me. she is a bit too skinny but.. i like the way she dress up everytime i see her. i love watching her thin fingers moving as she cut my hair. her makeup is alright, and i like the curls of her hair. isn't it good to be able to appreciate someone like that, without having any agenda or plan. sometimes it's good to be free. but i would love to fall in love soon. because it's better to share this world.

there are few things i can never understand.. a no-no in my dictionary. and this is one of them =P

Arghhh I am so gonna watch this moviee!!!! I must be crazy if I miss them... Still Together.. still Lost! what a poetic catchline.

if i have a time machine inside my drawer, i will ride back to the morning, of the day i would be meeting you.. and i will tell that 19 years old boy, you will soon be meeting, the little fairy of your dream. i will tell him,, you'll be meeting the only angel who could make you smile like a free sparrow. if i have a time machine inside my drawer, i will ride back to the morning, of the day i would be meeting you..

Sexy Voice and Robo. (japanese dorama dari mysoju, as usual) meskipun judulnya gituh, pelem ini sangat jauh dari kemesuman huehuehue. jadi buat yg nyari pelem mesum, pelem ini akan sangat mengecewakan. tapi buat yg pernah ntn geisha the movie, dan fall in love sama si anak kecilnya itu, spt saya contohnya, you might be interested to find out how she looks like setelah sdikit lbh gede. ga seimut dulu seh.. tapi tetep manis somehow. baru nyadar kalo dia lahir taon 93, jadi lebih muda dari member genk imut yg terimut sekalipun. dan cowo pemeran utamanya.... you will be surprised to find out who he is. Emank hebat aktor yg satu inih. tiap episod ngebahas hal yg berbeda2 ttg kehidupan, ada yg ttg cinta, ada jg yg ttg makna idup. "is it better to have unique talent and being different from the rest of the world.. or is it better to be ordinary, just like everyone else, with nothing special about you?" begitu kira2 salah satu pertanyaan si cewe ini.

just another thought on our behavior, being human. its a fact that we all know actually. humans tend to care more when they are given important position and responsibility. in an organisation, you can often see the huge difference in someone's attitude when he/she is handed an important role. well.. there are those who can't handle important roles of course.. but there are those who can only be at their best when they have such roles. the true blue sanguine who live for spotlight moments. the ones who usually don't attend regular meetings, are now the regular attendants, even encouraging others to join. the ones who talk about quitting are now cheerleading. =)

I think my bro's wedding gonna be the last wedding I attend this year. So sorry to Torisu-Chan that I won't be able to attend her wedding. Sorry sis.. i gotta be back here earlier than expected. gomennn... It's quite funny to have an uncle that is only 4 years older than you. and when that uncle is closer to your heart compares to your cousins, that is even more strange. And when that uncle marries your hiskul mate, and now you are calling her 'auntie', that's a total chaos heh. i think this uncle of mine, who i address 'bro'.. is an interesting person. he has his own shortcomings, and along with that.. his virtues. a filial son, a playful boy even when he reaches 30, a good heart, a cunning mind.. he can befriends anyone- from the light or dark side, never too bothered about pride or status. maybe he is a true wanderer at heart, a linghu chong. the wedding ceremony was okay.. him being him.. he wasn't too bothered with the details.. as long as it