..my battle stance..

lalu bila dia tertawa...

So broken, and shattered.. I drag my bended knees closer to my Savior's feet. Won't You make me whole? Won't You breathe in me? Stay with me.. my Savior friend. And I will be alright.. And all is well.

Nice sweetie song.. Heh.. the song is gud but more importantly, got Ariel Lin ^^ I guess I really like this girl. "Wo men tai jue jiang, lian tian dou bu ren fan dui" We're so stubborn that even heaven can't bear to go against us and.. the best japanese dorama OST, for me personally.

--OST of Tian Wai Fei Xian-- The bridge in front of the restaurant, maybe we both can't get there A bitter laugh with no reason, only torture The embrace that I've practices for many times, we can't see after sunrise Can't stay by yours side until you're old, until you're old I don't know, who else can you rely on like me I only hope, you will remember how good I am After sunrise, I can never hold your hand anymore After sunrise, I will gradually leave your dream I don't dare to say, I just can't say goodbye After sunrise, what reason do I have to make you stay After sunrise, the only thing left is loneliness Don't be sad, let all the pain be silently withstood by me I thought I would be able to achieve it, hold you until the sky and earth turn old Loving you, I feel proud, anything is good Anticipating your embrace, maybe the chances are too slim Pouring tears with a bitter smile, how am I to escape? How can an empty dream write our "from n

It ain't what you don't know that gets you into trouble. It's what you know for sure that just ain't so. - Mark Twain Sometimes the most annoying people are not those who do not understand you. It is those who are so sure that they understand you but they actually don't. And often, we don't realise that we are actually playing that annoying role. If only we always remember to speak less. It is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt.- Mark Twain

Heh remembered that day, having dinner with some subroto fa mates.. n linda was saying that my type is someone like "usagi tsukino". It's one of the strange things about me that some of my dearest friends would know. Just rewatched some of her clips in youtube n hey.. I still adore her =P But all my life.. I have only one friend who is an 'usagi tsukino'. I never had any doubt that she is my favorite. And she.. is not an option, anymore. Or she never was. Will there be a second one?

LOL... Cath.. kawaii datte bayo.. thx to ivan for the photos... ^^

One of those men who defined my teenagers' music ^^

dan jangan berakhir..

Here.. is an essay written against John Eldgredge's controversial book, Wild At Heart. The essay is quite heavy on theology, but it certainly worths reading to balance ourselves if we were to read Eldredge's book. I believe Wild at Heart is one of the best books I have ever read but all the same, I always felt that it is also one of the most dangerous ones. John Eldredge is one of those blessed with talent to come up with words so powerful you will nod your head in agreement without digesting them, most of the times. And that's why I love the book so much. But I suppose Eldredge is only human. He, like many other servants of God, has the tendency to swing towards the extreme of his own belief that sometimes, they (or we) fall into this trap of 'creating God in our own image'. I believe that the essay in itself has flaws and my own opinion, definitely, also has flaws. Geez I am not even a Theologist. But ultimately, none of us has that complete wisdom to understand G

You shouldn't be too serious about the shame that comes with your failure. Or the glory that comes with your success. But in repentance, and thanksgiving, that is where you shall put your heart into.

Woah.. thankss to Owen for the tic. Got to watch Glenn's concert last Sat. I missed about four songs thanks to the dumb fireworks and everyone else who jammed the traffic =P As for the concert.. I must say I was impressed. I mean I know he is good but all along, I sort of thought that his main strength was his very high range and good falsetto, that's all. But man was he GOOD! ^^ ANd the crowd was definitely great, Glenn even had to stop singing many times.. they were juz uber loud thruout the concert. When Glenn sang 'you're my everything', the musicians were pointing their fingers heavenward, and so do we =P For a moment, it felt like a worship session lol. And I just remembered how much I love to watch concert. To see those singers singing and expressing their emotion onstage, and how the crowds are jumping to the beat, that sort of atmosphere is always kinda magical to me. Oh and one shocking fact we learned that nite.. Taufiq, that Sing Idol fella, is tall and

The rain had just stopped. The wrenching sound of raindrop had also faded out. Calm.. But the heart.. It was still beating. Sorrowful heart of the man. It had to continue beating. And as long as it beat, the man had no choice but to endure the pain. Amidst the pain, he smiled. The girl was still stood there. Motionless. Her tear had been washed away. But her pain.. Rain certainly could not stop a heart from beating. She was also in pain. Amidst the pain, she also smiled. Before them was a priest. Marriage. They were ready. Yet they had to wait, painfully wait. Because the world was not ready. Not before the 13th hour. Thus they waited. They simply refused to let go. Not before their heart went to rest.

"It will be strange if a woman makes up her mind and does not change her mind afterwards." - Gu Long

A j-dorama that I love. An ending that I love. You will hug me. You will leave. Not with me. "Take care. Be happy." At the end.. the simple wishes are the only words spoken. Coz all the most important feelings, all the words that I am dying to cry out.. they are no longer relevant Taking that picture from behind.. I suppose I love that bittersweet feeling. The flavor of 'ending'. One day I will love.. someone who's by my side.

Exodus 15:3 The Lord is a warrior ; Yahweh is his name! I always remember the scene towards the end of Narnia where Aslan was making his way back to wilderness with such grandiose pose. He was majestic. The children had wanted to make him stay but were told that the lion is never to be tamed. Our Lord is a wild warrior. And we.. are the childrens of the Great Warrior.

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. Whoever came up with that line.. he was a genius =P Woohoo.. my boss has turned against me now that I am quitting. I have been so close to strike back but.. I know I will lose my battle if I do so. Hmphh.. humility..

inilah yang kupunya.. hati sbagai hamba, yang mau taat dan setia padamu Bapa. kemana pun kubawa, hati yang menyembah.. dalam roh dan kebeneran, sampai slamanya. This song has been my favorite song, lyric-wise. It is the song I will sing everytime I feel mistreated, or angry. Especially when it involves my fellow church mates. In all honesty, church is not much different from working place. Let me rephrase this: adults church is not much different from working place. We bring what we have learned in our workplace to the church. We operate church like an enterprise. But this song.. it reminds me that after all.. I am only His servant. This is a lesson I keep learning, now and then. Because my ego is not dead yet. Neither is my pride. I am battling them every day. Sometimes I lose. Sometimes I win. So when I am on the verge of losing.. I will sing this song. This is all I have Lord. The heart of a servant. And all I really want.. is to obey and be faithful to my Father.

Lalu terpikir pagi ini, tersadar dari mimpi tengah jalan. Rasa yang kamu simpan, bukan yang ku nanti. You don't see me that way after all. All the wrong hearts I have been longing for. Why can't I be a lil bit more special to you?

the koreans.. I wonder if they ever thought of the chance of getting kidnapped when they volunteered themselves. The hostages are all ill now and some of them are seriously ill. That's what the taliban said. I was thinking of naruto's ninja squad when I read the news about how these kidnappers break themselves into small groups. As such, it will be very difficult for the rescuers to free the hostages altogether. It will be great if we have konoha ninjas to save those hostages heh. But obviously we don't. And for a good reason. There is God. This story of Paul came to my mind as I prayed for these hostages. So I prayed that just the way Paul was set free from the prison, God would deliver them. Each and everyone of them. That those Taliban would see how our God moves the earth to save His people. Let's pray together for them. I don't really believe in online petition. But I truly believe in God's mighty hands.

I am so not going to let you go. I don't even want to consider the probability. Aku suka dia.. banget ^^