..my battle stance..

The way God works is.. as I try to observe.. very peculiar. He seems to dislike our habit of counting the eggs. Being human, I would now and then assess how many potential clients I have, how many of them would close the deal, etc etc. I notice that many times.. when I put high hope in some of the cases, it just doesn't work out in one unfortunate way or another. And many times.. when I just unassumingly do my part, and let God decides the outcome, things work out- in one amazing way or another. I asked for 2nd promotion before 2009 ends.. when i entered Dec 2009, I had few cases with high chance of closing in my hands. Counting my eggs, I thought I could not only get the 2nd promotion, but also hit my sales target by the end of the month. I was very excited. Unsurprisingly.. I got it wrong. The cases just didn't work out. And there I was, 29 Dec 2009.. totally accepting the fact that I will neither get the promotion nor hit the target. I got one more case in hand.. and yet.. I

This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It's adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike "What's next, Papa?" God's Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who he is, and we know who we are: Father and children. And we know we are going to get what's coming to us—an unbelievable inheritance! We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we're certainly going to go through the good times with him! - Romans 8:15-17 (The Message) Our adventure of faith with God is always a forward and upward looking journey. We don't look back. We don't dwell in the past. We open up our eyes with childlike expectation- expectation of a greater glory that awaits us, of a spectacular finish to the work of salvation that God has started in us.

My blogging rate has dropped significantly. For one reason or another. Though I often have much to say.. but seldom have the mood to sit down and put it down. The last two movies I watched was Blind Side and Jump. Blind Side is a feel-good story of Big Mike, supposedly one of the greatest left backs in NFL. Though the emphasis of the story is pretty much in Sandra Bullock's character, rather than Big Mike himself. Still.. the story gives good lasting impression as it ended with montages of the characters in real life. Jump.. well.. is not really a dance flick. It's a Chow-flick. It has Stephen Chow's taste of joke stamped all over it. Not a bad thing for someone like me who loves Chinese movies. I didn't expect great dance moves or anything.. though I expected Kungfu Hustle's level of stupidity. So I was little bit disappointed to find that the movie is not as stupid. But still.. pretty funny at times and for the girls.. I suppose they are more than happy to watch t

So this is what I got from the church for verse of the season; Isaiah 43:19. A call to stop dwelling on the past, be it glory be it failure. A call to step up to in faith. For a new beginning beckons. A new path is opened before me. A new stream of water is flowing into my life. A path that leads to Kingdom come. A stream that pour out exceedingly, abundantly beyond my wildest dream. But most importantly.. let Matthew 6:33 be fulfilled in our lives this season. That's the verse I personally receive from God. That come 31 Dec 2010.. we could assuredly say.. "I have seek His Kingdom and His righteousness.. above all".

Congrats to you bro!! Finally you close the second deal. May you have more to come ;) There is no secret to this trade. Only God's favor, determination, and patience ^^

Thank God for an extremely loyal friend and client. For a very nice house that we gotten. That we have seen that one, and then moved on to see so many others only to return to that very house. It's fated I suppose. That I decided to leave for Indonesia for a quality family time, and God still takes care of everything here. On the 30th of Dec.. we hit the 13th star. And if that manager of mine really meant what he said.. I will write about another good news sometimes later. Thank you God. Now it's 2010. Start over. From the scratch. With a new canvas, new dimension, new territory.

Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds and shall find me unafraid. It matters not how straight the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul. - William Ernest Henley A very moving poem.. a favorite poem of Nelson Mandela.. And yet.. one I can't agree with.. because.. God is truly the master of my fate.. He is truly the captain of my soul..

We will boldly fight and advance.. Amidst people's judgment and mockery. No we shall not rest our hope in men We will put our trust wholly in Christ we will have comrades, God-given team.. Nothing more nothing less And as always.. A lot of grace. Because I am never too strong to Resist falling and avoid failing. Because every morning.. I still come to God Needing His grace and forgiveness to advance. I have yet to receive my verse of the year But I already have one in heart. More later...

Finally.. A decade passed! A decade mostly spent in a foreign country. A decade of many things, highs and lows. A pity that 2009 ended with the sad news that.. Indonesia lost one of her greatest sons.. Gus Dur. My respect to you Sir! 'There is no eternal friendship, Nor eternal adversity; The only thing eternal is INTEREST. As long as we have common interest, We would be able to walk together.' - Kick Andy (Watching the show now) The last decade of my life has at least Confirmed the truth of his words. More later..