..my battle stance..

it wouldn't be proper not to blog anything on my bday hah. well.. this bday.. what can i say? extremely humbling experience indeed. I guess I had been living in my own imagination for the last couple of months. and God especially allow that little bubble to burst today, of all day. Maybe there will be a lot to learn this year. There is only 1 thing that I picked up from today's church service I attended. The thing that Jose Carol first heard of. It's called "out of depth". Perfect terms for the seasons I am walking through. but God, I know you are able.

At the beginning of the year I wasn't sure why I got this verse, though of course you'd be glad to get such a wonderful verse. Now I know that 2012 indeed is a year when more than any other year thus far, I need to hold on tightly to this verse.  Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me? - Jeremiah 32:27

there you are.. standing tall, alive and hopeful. white and everything seems to be right. and there you will be. the crushed autumn leaves, they were swept away by the winter breeze. all is white, all is right. and there you are.

There is still battle to fight and dragon to slay, love to cherish and life to live. sky is still blue and wind will still blow. There is still God. And God is still there.

ai qing rang ren wang le shi jian.. na shi jian ye hui rang ren wang le ai qing ma?

In Channel U there is this Taiwanese celebrity cooking show. I never watch it but last week they happened to invite this guy from the Fierce / Shrewd wife. So I watched it for a while. That week's theme also happened to be Taiwanese street snacks. Like "o wa cien" (fried oyster) and pig intestine mee sua. Oh how I miss Shi Lin ~ Anyway back to the show.. the host came up with this catch phrase: "Ni hai xin  Wen Rui Fan ma?" or. "do you still trust Wen Rui Fan?" They kept using this phrase throughout the show. Wen Rui Fan of course is the male main character in the series who was having marital affair with his wife's younger cousin. Well.. come to think of it, the first thing that is threatened or lost when there is betrayal in relationship is probably trust. The love or care would likely to remain for much longer. It may eventually fade away too with time. And definitely it doesn't take 1000 years, not even 1000 days in many ca...

I think you are either lying or you dunno what 'a thousand year' means :(

Am playing around with a new blog template and once I applied the new template, the few old stuffs were gone @@ But hor.. I like the flipcard mode!! :D and kinda slick look too. shiro phoenix kun! but for some reasons, I guess I'd rather not do the dynamic view. not for now. heh.

All those anxiety was for nothing at the end of the day. Humans.

Thank you to this website: http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/freya-lin for the translation.

In case you have not read this: Forbes Article on Warren Buffet 's 50 Billion Decision I bought Intelligent Investor incidentally. Went to a 2nd hand book shop in Peace Ctr and the friendly uncle recommended me that book. But, unsurprisingly, I could only understand like 10-20% of the content. Maybe need "Intelligent Investor for Dummies"

for anyone who have enough experience of seeing or hearing first hand how marital affairs take place, you would appreciate the accuracy and relevance of the script in this Taiwanese drama. The script is very well written (so far). It's just so.. true. And the wife character is very, very touching. A simple, modest woman who devotes her entire life to her husband and daughter. her character is, ironically, the typical character of wives who become victim of marital affair. Update-> On ep 16 now and the docile wife has begun to shine as she stepped out of the castle she called 'home'. That's how it should be. Marriage should not have stolen life and dream out of her. Neither should she have surrendered those.

He was not my pick of the season when he was running for Idol Season 8. But hey.. this guy is a rare good gem amidst the perverse noise in today's music. *talk as if I know*. But seriously.. most of those chart topping songs.. if you look at the lyrics.. they are just.. you know. Don't get me started with JB and all those freak trending in twitter related to him. Though to be fair he didn't start it. So here goes.. Kris Allen. The guy who stands for his vision of Love. And hopefully so for the rest of his career.

No I am not talking about tithing. I am talking about.. my beloved Donald Duck mug. I am not a big Disney fan but during my high school time, girls were crazy about 'kertas file', if you know what I mean. Those papers with nice pictures of Disney characters, Anime characters, etc. But mostly are Disneys. so inevitably certain friends would want to share their collections with you. and they would ask which is your fave Disney character. and after much thought, I realised that I did like one figure very much. And that's the unlucky, poor, persistent Donald Duck. So I got this Donald Duck mug gift from my brother. And I like it very much. But I got one problem. I dunno where or how to find a suitable cover and er.. saucer? (alas mskdnya), that complement my mug. I went to Ikea and they had everything but 'alas'. And when you drink iced drink, you would realise how troublesome it is without alas. It's probably just a small part. But it makes a lo...

It's Good Friday. Inevitably, we are drawn to the image of the cross. It had been on my mind for the last few days. Christ and the cross. One of the things that came to me was this: Jesus was essentially God. And by that it means.. God died for us. Who would have believed such a statement? if not for the benefit of hindsight and bible, we too would have cried out 'blasphemy'! the YHWH whom the Jews feared, walked among them and helplessly nailed on the cross of shame. the Holy of Holy.. at the cross of punishment. At the cross.. the most spectacular moment in history took place. From eternity to eternity, those hours when Jesus was on the cross.. was the only moment when the Son was separated from the Father. He took on the full impact of God's wrath and punishment over our sins. And He died our death. For the reward of sin is nothing but death. It wasn't dove or lamb or even any prophet up there. It was the Son of God Himself. For what...

Okay.. Now I know why bombie was frustrated with the new layout. This is crazy blogspot -__- How can you guys mess up with the user interface like this? I don't care if it's just me needing to learn how to use this. But when a new user has to use a lil bit more of his brain to find out how to use your interface, you gotta know that you fail already. But well.. I dislike fb timeline too. Seems like most people like it though.

I was thinking of blogging about my day but I guess I am too tired to type it. Had more than an hour battle with a stupid monster called behemoth king on my final fantasy game @_@ Kept losing to this badak gila. Siao gi na -__-" Speaking of ff, only when I searched wiki today that I found out why the game was named final fantasy. It was inspirational really, to think that the biggest name in Japanese rpg history, was titled that way because it was suppose to be the creator's final attempt at making game. The company didn't do well and he didn't do well. Had that game failed, he would have quitted making game. And I would never know Aerith. And very likely, I would have not played rpg at all. So.. I guess it's a good old lesson. Never give up our passion no matter how many times we fail. The next attempt might just be the one that make history.

Caught 'Capitalism- A love story' on HBO. So this guy Michael Moore is doing a film on what capitalism have done to America. One interesting scene is when he took the yellow er.. barrier ribbon?.. with writing "Crime Scene. Do not Pass" that you often see in movie and he put them around buildings where Wall Street big shots like BOA, AIG, etc area. A good, thoughtful film. And in the closing, a country song about Jesus Christ played. It was intriguing to me. And it asks me a simple question I am not sure how to answer. Would I have loved His teaching if Jesus were to walk the earth today?

I think this movie deserves a posting here thanks to one memorable scene. When the little girl Rue died, Katniss Everdeen gave her District 12 respect sign (the three middle fingers thingy) to the camera. People of District 11 who were watching this returned her salute sign. This incident sparked riot in District 11. I didn't understand this sign when District 12's people directed their sign to the Tributes. But Katniss explained that sign in a wonderful way when Rue died. I thought she looked cool and heroic there. At that point I realised where this story was going. And I may be wrong but I feel that the novelist must have borrow inspiration from some Japanese movies such as Battle Royale. But anyway I am glad that this isn't just about a good looking boyfriend who needs blood to maintain his immortality. I am glad that Katniss is a revolution leader in the making. For a moment the riot scene reminds me of our own country's latest 'BBM' incidents. Unfortunatel...

yet another roller coaster week. ups and downs in all sort of way. from football results (by that, I solely mean Arsenal) to works to personal state of discipline. well.. Saturday was over about half an hour ago. so, it's officially April now! that's FAST! met with hadi, ono, and rimbun for dinner. hadi is now holding pink IC. I am happy for him now that he gets to become a citizen in this country that he calls home. But at the same time I feel sad that he has become disilussioned with Indonesia to a point that he doesn't want his kids to be associated with Indonesia in any way. It's sad that he never feels welcome in the country where he was born. And as much as I love my country, I can symphatize with people like hadi. Especially those who experience first hand the '98 riot. And no.. you can't just tell them 'it was all in the past' in the name of harmony. It takes Jesus to heal this nation. It takes Jesus to reconcile these people. And it takes us, Go...