..my battle stance..

Is this alright? To continue on existing in this way.. is this right? What are we doing.. day by day? That we can even paint tomorrow's sky, and today is so much like yesterday. Is this right?

To think that I just wrote about mum.. Sigh. Samson's mum just passed away. Sudden. Speechless. May God console the living ones. My prayer with him. Treasure yours!

A very nice story, in case you haven't read it! And so true =) And that's why I couldn't understand > this The story began when I was a child; I was born as a son of a poor family. Even for eating, we often got lack of food. Whenever the time for eating, mother often gave me her portion of rice. While she was removing her rice into my bowl, she would say: “Eat this rice, son. I’m not hungry” ------------ MOTHER’S FIRST LIE When I was getting to grow up, the persevering mother gave her spare time for fishing in a river near our house, she hoped that from the fishes she got, she could gave me a little bit nutritious food for my growth. After fishing, she would cook the fishes to be a fresh fish soup, which raised my appetite. While I was eating the soup, mother would sit beside me and eat the rest meat of fish, which was still on the bone of the fish I ate. My heart was touched when I saw it. I then used my chopstick and gave the other fish to her. But she immediately ref...

Ah.. that "One Litre of Tears" really had some unexpected after effect. Once again I got in touch with J-pop and found myself a gem. I am officially Yui's fan. She isn't particularly pretty or anything but her voice.. her voice is so cute I simply can't resist it. A stupid reason, I know. But that's exactly the kind of voice I would fall for haha. And she writes her own songs too. And they are not bad. Hm.. but she kinda reminded me of someone, though I can't exactly point out who and why. The first song, yozora no mukou, was originally sang by SMAP and I used to love the song very much. The second song was the soundtrack for "Taiyou no Uta", a movie about a young girl who got this fatal disease that makes her vulnerable to sunshine, a bit like vampire heh. Some genetic problem I suppose. Get a cute girl and give her a fatal disease and you got yourself a movie.

Another movie I watched during the weekend was Andy Lau's Battle of Wits. Watched it with Mbun, Vy, and Hady, who are pretty much the nucleus of the Chinese movie group =P The movie was not so much on the battle of wits, though there are some brilliant moves that Andy Lau's character, Ge Li, made in order to hold off the 100.000 army of Zhao. The city he defended, Liang, only had 4000 population. No contest, huh? But those 100.000 army were not here to invade Liang. Liang was but a small kingdom which unfortunatley was situated between Zhao and Yan, the much bigger kingdom which Zhao targeted. Ge Li argued that should Liang stood their ground for one month, Zhao would have to withdraw. Tired armies of Zhao would not be able to take Yan on. Anyway.. Liang sent invitation to Mohist, term for the follower of Mozi, asking for help. And this is the issue that the movie mostly touched on. And this is the reason why I wanted to watch the movie. Mozi himself was the first Chinese philo...

Hah I must be super outdated. I only got to watch Jomblo tonite. I dunno why but it failed to impress me that much, not the way I expected. Okay.. let me rephrase this. It was a good movie but I was expecting good laugh. Instead I got a movie which tries to teach us some wisdom. I would say half of what they say are true but another half are questionable. Many of the events that take place are not making sense, kinda forced. The case with Febi the mysterious girl is one example. But the worst is the part where Agus asks Lani out for the first time, only to tell her that he loves his 'official' girlfriend and thus he has to end his relationship with Lani, the third party. His argument, though he tried to make it sound great, is absurd. In all fairness.. he did say that love is absurd. There was simply no chemistry between him and his girlfriend. I find it hard to believe him when he said that "I love her". The characters are the main problem to me. I just can't fee...

Create in me a new heart One that follows You Place in me a deep desire To know You as I'm known Set my feet in Your ways To live worthy of Your call Draw me near to You Lord Every single day.. I just want to be more like You Walk with You Beside me Lord Won't You be my guide? Place Your heart inside my soul A heart that's ever true One that's after You *I don't know the real title heh, the song is sang in City Harvest's service. Nice lyric I think. That's all I want. All I can hope for. That You walk with me.

Remioromen is a not so famous band who started gaining popularity ever since their songs were heard in the "One Litre of Tears" drama. I think it's easy to like their song if you like the laidback pop-rock style which is typically J-pop. Sangatsu Kokonoka itself means Third Month Ninth Day, literally. Personally I love this song very much. As you listen to it.. you can somehow feel that Spring is slowly approaching, that the cold Winter is gradually departing. It's a celebration of life.

So what if there are less and less people? So what if all other numbers have passed at least twice? Can't be helped, can it? We can fix our eyes on that direction, hoping to catch the first glimpse of our long awaited number. Or we can observe the cloud drift, and smile at the vague signboards. Neither slower nor faster. All the same. Maybe taking any bus for the sake of trying would do. Maybe not. Maybe a change of busstop is all it takes. Maybe not. Ask me not. Never tried, never plan to. I do not know. Yet. This situation that I am getting used to, it still doesn't feel right. So I understand your anxiety. But you will be fine, somehow. Because I am, somewhat. Maybe if your happiness counts not on this wait.. Lay your smile on the one who waits on you. You'll be fine that way. *so mbun out of the blue msn me and said 'one by one, they are not single anymore.. anxious.." something along that line heh. and there was another case of a friend who is trapped in a tri...

As Aya's condition gradually worsen, she could no longer walk or stand anymore. She would sometimes choke when she eat and she struggled to speak. There was only one thing that she could do, albeit which much difficulty. She could still write. One day her mum visited her at the hospital and seeing her struggling hard to write her diary, her mum asked her to rest. But she said.. "Okaasan.. you said that I can still write right? That's the only thing that I could still do. I have to write what I have in mind now because that is the only prove that I am living today." Even when she could hardly hold her crayon, she would still write her diary. I do not know whether the movie followed the true diary content but in the movie.. Despite the diary began with her questioning why she had to be the one to suffer from this cruel disease, it sweetly ended with a word: "Arigatou". Thanking her parents and siblings for being there right to the end, thanking her friends for...

for me.. so long as you're the one saying it, no matter how slow you say it, i will listen.. and if you want to walk, no matter how slow it gonna be, i'll walk with you. - haruto asou, one litre of tears

I remember one cellgroup mate of mine, a medicine student, once said that as she learned about all kind of diseases, she couldn't help feeling relieved. Only then she realised that many things could really go wrong, horribly wrong. Only then she realised that she has been really fortunate. I can't forget those words of her. I couldn't resist it anymore. I watched the "one litre of tears" drama. Watching how a healthy 15 years old girl losing her ability to control her body slowly but surely, it's heartwrenching. In the beginning, she would only lose balance when she walked. Then it got worse as she occasionally fail to command her legs or hands to move. Gradually it became harder and harder for her to walk, hold things, write, etc. It's incurable and ultimately, she will not be able to control any part or her body. She will sleep and never be able to wake up anymore. This is based on a true story in Japan. Admittedly, the original story may not have that m...

Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything.. (1 Cor 13) Maybe one of the lessons that will take me lifetime to learn.

Hmm but I am tempted to watch..

Goodness.. so now those Korean singers are using initial as their name, K, J... were they inspired by death note? They should really realise that such name are not google friendly. Anyway.. this K sings the soundtrack of "one litre of tears", a jap dorama which is quite recent and very popular. People are recommending it but seriously.. I think I am too old to watch tragic dramas. The song is nice though =)

I just want to say that I still love my batch 5 folks. Seven years is not long enough to forget them. Iwan, Dudi, Erfingo, Suton, Ata, Bimas, Lukman, Daya, Dendry, Dolly, Chris, Yoppy, Samson, Pras, Sigit, Martin, Adi, Igit, Nonie, Vivy, Cen Ping, Yesie, Felicia, Lao May I still remember you guys seventeen years later =D

I must confess that I miss the traditional christmas celebration, the type where santa claus is still allowed to make his appearance and give away some candies. I still dun think it's wrong to have a fat old man in red walking around and lighten up the whole thing with his trademark "ho ho ho". it's just like inviting a clown to perform during your bday party, I think. I also miss the good ol' christmas drama the children used to perform. maybe i'm just being conservative here. Anyway.. another weekend gone and again.. I didn't have the chance to hibernate at home. Now I know why Sabath was created. Good thing that my Monday started with an Arsenal 3-0 win over Liverpool heh. I still wonder if God has anything to do with football match but I still have to thank God coz it makes my Monday much brighter. Also.. it's greatt that I finally get to play Final Fantasy XII. Woohoo..

have you ever tasted three quarters of happiness? the state of all but a quarter thing?

Gaq gitu updated ama lagu Indo apart from the moment dimana Owen enlighten me with some updated info heh.. but waktu pulank kemaren, lagi menjelang lebaran n denger lagu Surgamu by ungu (Moslem themed song).. i was impressed, n was thinking 'this band is not bad!' Well they are not really that original.. you could feel that they graduate from Peter Pan's school of music heh. Well my opinion doank seh. Ato jgn2 ungu yg duluan muncul. ANyway.. the two songs that gua rasa cukup keren dari ungu: Demi Waktu & Surgamu... (Demi Waktu has kinda killer lyric heh)

Hohoho.. this song.. SMA 1!!!! Gile jadi senyum2 ndiri.. soundtrack cinta pertama =P I still think Amara is beautiful, and so was everything that happened 10 years ago. Though I must admit that I was quite a fool back then. But then.. how else could it be that sweet? =)

I thought it wil be great if I can see you now. If we could eventually meet. It's about time.. so I thought. But if I were to find you now.. and if I were to fetch you now.. Will you like the battles I am fighting now? It's hardly a fairy tale. I am hardly a prince, never mind the shining armor. Well.. I live though. I live by faith. If that is good enough for you, then you are perfect for me.

But nothing special to mark the milestone heh. Just clips from an anime that I miss dearly. I miss the Saiyan family!! Yes.. Son Go Han is my favorite ^^

So you must have heard about that man who jumped onto Chinese Garden MRT track and died. Blinkymummy has been talking bout it for quite a while in her blog. The poor family (a polio wife and two Sec children), received donation worth 500k in total! She gave 100k to the Undertaker company who offered a FOC service to the family. Blinkymummy talked about how this company got free advertising by doing so, as the story was covered in the newspaper quite intensively. I wouldn't talk about how the company could have had other motive in offering the help. That's not my concern. Rather.. I am concerned about how there has been another case of someone plunging onto the MRT track sometimes after that first incident. Apparently the suicide rate has been quite high recently in SG. And maybe.. just maybe.. those desperate people looked at how this dead man got his family 500k by jumping onto MRT track. They got inspired and thought: "Hey.. why don't I give it a go?? I am useless a...