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I remember one cellgroup mate of mine, a medicine student, once said that as she learned about all kind of diseases, she couldn't help feeling relieved. Only then she realised that many things could really go wrong, horribly wrong. Only then she realised that she has been really fortunate.

I can't forget those words of her.

I couldn't resist it anymore. I watched the "one litre of tears" drama. Watching how a healthy 15 years old girl losing her ability to control her body slowly but surely, it's heartwrenching. In the beginning, she would only lose balance when she walked. Then it got worse as she occasionally fail to command her legs or hands to move. Gradually it became harder and harder for her to walk, hold things, write, etc. It's incurable and ultimately, she will not be able to control any part or her body. She will sleep and never be able to wake up anymore. This is based on a true story in Japan. Admittedly, the original story may not have that many dramatic moments and the girl was nowhere as beautiful. But the main idea was there.

So the girl asked her mother, "Why did the disease choose me? I can't accept it if it's only because of the word 'fate'"

"God is unfair", she said.

I was speechless. I was dumbstrucked. Yes... why did the disease choose this young girl? What if it happens to someone I love? Or myself? Many times.. I only focus on things that have gone wrong in my life. Seldom did I ponder on things that could have gone wrong but did not. My eyes were in horrible pain yesterday for an unknown reason and I was thinking.. what if I go blind? As I entertained that thought, I realised that for every single thing that I am unhappy about, there is another more important thing that God has taken good care of in my life.

Depressing drama.. a good one nonetheless.

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vy said…
'Choose', an interesting word... in a debatable way. =D
9:49 AM
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