..my battle stance..

hmm... I begin to wonder.. if I have high blood pressure. I am easily worked up lately.. much easier. but I still find it funny how high blood pressure could result in you getting emotional. and i am still not going to let this rage control me. darn...

I am reading the book "Wild at Heart". One of the most striking points that the author made was that of how many, if not almost all, men are most severely wounded by their own father. You would have thought that your dad will be the one who believes in you when everyone else is doubting you. You expect him to do so. Coz when he does, you know that it ain't matter even if the rest are against you. So when it turns out that he is siding with those who doubt you. It hurts the most. It kills off your hope. It strips you off your courage and belief to be a real man. Because the man who is suppose to show you how to be a real man, the one whose approval matters the most.. does not side with you. He loves you.. yes. But a father's role is not simply to love and nurture. He is more than just that. He is your assurance, stronghold, strength. He leads you into adventure, he fights with you side by side, he shows you how to rescue a beauty. When your father of flesh and blood ca...

I felt sad and sorry somewhat. I knew I have failed their expectation. I thought I will be uber excited once I tendered but turned out that.. I felt sorry. After all.. this has been the best job I have gotten into. And my tough bosses have been the most life changing ones. Funny how all those tough people are the ones who change our lives. But I felt that this is the end of my learning here. I have to move on. Whatever that next step is, I have to make my move now. What if I got it wrong? I dunno. I can only ask God to lead me. A lil bit scared, a lil bit excited, a lot of uncertainties. Sounds like an adventure ^^ "Daddy.. tell me everything gonna be alrite". The Lord is my sheperd....

Was browsing through my photos folder. Looking back, I thought 2005 was a wonderful year. It's not that kind of "how I wish it stays the same" thought. It's just that.. I am feeling grateful. For all the friends who were once there. And are still here.. somewhat. How I never realised that 2005 had been such a wonderful year. For example, I never realised that my most memorable bday was my 2005 bday. I suppose I have to, once again, thank you all who were there. You know who you are. In a way 2006 has also been wonderful. After all, I went to Japan that year. But still, 2005 felt slightly sweeter. That's ironic if you consider the fact that I was jobless for 5 months in 2005. I wouldn't have believed that I would say this today. Everything is beautiful in its own time. How true is that. 2007.. I will want to look back in 2009 and says.. 2007 has been unforgettable. I have not grown much for the last 3-4 years. But this year, I have grown somewhat. I have learne...

silver maiden of night sky, aimlessly floating, scarlet shadow of wounded earth, endlessly pursuing.

intriguing. The more I think about this, the more I find it amusing. Little monkey is a special case. A case I have not encountered for the last 26 years. It is the case of perfect madness, of impossibility. I suppose by now, many people would have thought that I am in love. And they would have thought that little monkey is the culprit. But that.. is not quite right. Little monkey, you see, is an adventure. When I am in love, I seldom hide it. But little monkey, is not the case of being in love. Little monkey is a fascinating, dangerous adventure. It is a challenge to my sanity and logic. I am afraid no one will be crazy enough to be my comrade in this adventure. And therefore I could never share this little secret now. But I can promise you this.. My heart is still roaming in the wilderness.

Miracle after miracle, goodness after goodness. God has been doing great things in our life lately. And I see this in the lives of our church friends as well. This season has been a shower of grace and blessing. Now God.. please do not let us rest on our laurel. Instead, spur us to leap even higher. We still have about five months left in 2007. I am still expecting something greater, the grand finale. Limit break. Overdrive. *This is even better than romance*

Hohoho thankss God for the gift ^^ It certainly feels good ;)And much needed.

This... is a pretty good insight to the life of footballers. I know that footballers live in their own crazy world but still.. I feel sorry for any decent woman who marries a footballer like those Man Utd players. But then.. those footballers would have divorced any decent woman they were married to, switching to some pretty models. Anywayz.. Went to company's D n D last Friday. Was sabo-ed by my colleagues to get up on stage and dance to some bollywood song. And since I dunno most of those staff, and who cares about CEO =P... so I danced. Geez.. I still can't believe it. And it seemed like an effective bad publication coz today, I realised that many Indian staff who I didn't know smiled to me and told me they enjoyed watching me. I am not sure if that was a compliment but hey.. like what my boss said.. "send out positive energy"! =D Monday.. as usual.. has been a tough day. I felt that I was losing my heart lil by lil, working here. God.... please make this fast...

If you have no wings to fly I will dive to reach you.

I think I have had too much of this superficial world at times. The latest antique that I couldn't resist having a dig at is this "Wearing Green Campaign". So we are supposed to wear green for two days and in doing so, campaigning for the climate change crisis. Erm.. how exactly do you do that? I can understand that it is going to be cool to see this sea of green tshirts on the street. And I have no issue with that. But the earth? The earth gains nothing from this campaign. Well.. if everyone who commit to wear green this weekend will also 1. change all his house's bulbs to energy efficient bulbs. 2. change his electric appliances to energy efficient ones. 3. reduce his use of air-con by 50% 4. take public transport 5 days a week, whether he has his own car or not. 5. live a 'green lifestyle' in general.. Then yeah.. it works, it helps. So just.. stop.. telling everyone that we contribute to the better earth by wearing green for two days. That by doing this, w...