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insecure

one of human's biggest enemy,
is his/her insecurity..

i'm fighting my own insecurity all the time.
in the past, some bad remarks or insults would hurt me.
i was also easily affected by people's reaction..
friska's sharing today reminds me of that.

i could have given up the ministry i love most..
and also my dreams.

but i believe now that my days are secure in His hands.
and that no matter what they say,
it won't stop me from running my race of destiny.

i am learning not to be concerned with what others think,
and to fix my eyes and heart on what my Potter thinks.

in fact i welcome all the humiliation and grinding,
a chinese proverb says, 'iron continuously grounds become a needle'.
with persistence, through trial, we will achieve greatness.

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