..my battle stance..

One of the friends I know throughout my 10 yrs time at our church is this guy, Txx. He is not my closest friend. But it's amazing how many friends he has referred to me. I don't think I was doing that much when I helped him to secure his house. But he told me it was just automatic for him to refer my name when a friend asks him about property. Which is always something I am very grateful about. I have other friends who are much closer to me, and yet.. they don't even consider asking my help. Or they might have considered, and then decided not to for one reason or another. Maybe they felt I am not qualified enough. Who knows ^^ Only when you are in this position.. you learn that 'closeness' with a friend.. is often a matter of mutual benefit and interest. rather than loyalty or trust. I still dunno why Txx would trust me to the extent of referring me to his friends. But I know it's by God's grace that I am still here... and by God's grace that I still kno...

Finally.. it's over. i imagine it must have been an emotional moment for the CHC members who have so amazingly given their all for this big event. It was much bigger than anything our church has ever organised. Some of the most awesome men of God were there. There are those who actually were not exactly as what I expected. And there was Reinhard Bonke who was beyond my expectation. Was totally blown away by his message. Would love to share his message in our cellgroup.. but everything really.. depends on the appetite of those who listen as well. Even the most delicious sashimi will look sickening right after your big big buffet. If you are not hungry, you won't need food. Sometimes I may think that I am full.. while my spirit is actually starving. I may think that I am loaded while my spirit is poor. That's why I decided to force myself to come for this conference. at least for some of the sessions. because I know I need to let myself be exposed to these people who are trul...

most of us.. only know what we do not want. but knowing what we do not want doesn't mean a single thing. we are born with that ability. the question is.. and have always been.. what do we really want? how do we move, act, or even just pray.. if we don't know.. what we really want.

One thing good about my manager is.. He is a faithful disciple of God heh. He sends us devotional every week. This is the latest one.. Trusting His Unfailing Love. Praising Him Forever. - Ps 52: 7-9 " 7 "Here now is the man who did not make God his stronghold but trusted in his great wealth and grew strong by destroying others!" 8 But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God's unfailing love for ever and ever. 9 I will praise you forever for what you have done; in your name I will hope, for your name is good. I will praise you in the presence of your saints." David was talking about 2 different types of man. One trusted in his great wealth and the other, which is himself, chose to trust in God's unfailing love, praising Him forever for what He has done in his life. Dear God, when we are faced with people who are boastful and evil in their ways in our daily lives, may we chose to remember Your unfailing love for us, and what You...

With You I'll walk.. this Narrow way... (God of my forever, City Harvest Church) di dalam dunia.. ada dua jalan... I still believe in this song.. as much as my flesh wish for something else.. I know.. that your grace will enable me to walk this narrow way with you.. and finish this race.. gloriously.

Trust.. does not ask for proof or explanation.. Trust is a silent confidence in someone. It is the ability to choose to believe in the most positive motive of someone's behavior. A kid would cry when his father hit him with a rod. But he would wake up the next morning looking for his father. Because he trusts his father. He does not need to try to trust. He simply does. Being adults... to ask the same of the other party.. will be almost impossible. But to be able to establish such trust.. will make the relationship invincible. Ironic that we often ask God for direction, we ask him to lead us.. while at the same time.. we don't really trust His words. We don't really like His ideas. No wonder then.. that sometimes when we seek His voice.. all we got is.. Silence. We don't realise that what we really wanted from Him was His silence after all. Because if he says "Do not worry". We say "No you don't understand.. God" And when he says "I heal the...

for hands to write, heart has to be liberated. for hands to write, heart has to be free as wind. it's better to leave the page empty, rather than writing with a chained heart.

Ada orang sok ganteng yang gayanya makin lama makin minta digampar! blame this on the heat -_-"

http://www.relevantmagazine.com/life/relationship/features/21527-you-are-who-your-friends-are Good article to read.. Hard act to follow.. But yeah.. We can

Cool..

the true joy of ministry is found mostly in serving those who have the least.

Alamak.. so this song.. that always caught my attention everytime it played on 93.3 is... Jerry Yan's song =P hoho..

There are no crown-wearers in heaven who were not cross-bearers here below. Charles Spurgeon

Joke would have lost its meaning when it has to be explained. So they said.. So are some of the important things in our lives.

All along. That's the lesson I've been getting lately. I was panicking yesterday when I realised that run out of namecard and yet I was there at the showflat already. So I quickly searched high and low for extra namecard stocks in my car, wallet, everywhere. To no avail. So I rushed back home to pick up a box of namecards, went back to the showflat bla bla bla.. only to discover, eventually, that: 1. I had extra namecards inside the very suit I have been wearing all day long. 2. I didn't get the chance to serve anyone anyway, coz my shift ended at 5pm and it was a quiet day at the showflat. And on the same day.. I messaged a company for the cheque that they supposed to have sent a month ago. But I haven't received it. Their answer is: We don't have any record of the cheque anymore. please sign an indemnity form and ask your director to sign too, for us to reissue the cheque. I was like !#%!#$%@!# First.. they misspelled my name on the cheque. That was after they too...

We can afford to lose, to fail and to fall.. but we can't afford to shift our gaze.. from the destined greatness that awaits us. no we won't fold these wings, even if it's breaking, we will still aim for the sky and not holding back.. not till we reach our eternal home.

Today I attended a new agent course's graduation in my company. And they played this song... heh.. If we hold on together... by Dianne Rose. And all of sudden.. in that dark room.. with this song playing loudly.. I felt like I was being brought back to 2000. Y2K. We were singing this song like mad under the night sky.. We.. the Rafflesian..were singing emotionally.. as we celebrated the rite of passage, the hall orientation that came to an end. We held on together that day. A bond that was born out of days of hardship and friendship. All was sweet.. even when I remembered it tonight.. it still felt sweet. But as you could see.. we did not hold on together. Ten years could do wonder.. really. Raffles Hall was a distant memory. So was PGP.. the canteen and the kitchens. SOC to me.. today.. is no longer relevant. System.out.println ("I haven't written this for so many years");

it was something that could only happen once in a lifetime. and therefore.. thank God.. thanks to you.. and all of you.. that it was something wonderful, something special. it began with a memorable cat and mouse game that we unintentionally created as I tried to be smart. Sorry dear.. and my bro.. it caused a lot of problem to the two of you. thank you for everything =) the night was special. the song (woa.. terharuu)... and the very corner.. where it all began a year ago. and YEAH.. my giant burger cake was awesome! and the BAG!! love ittt!! ^^ and another COOL gift from Universal Studio from my bro ^^ Love ittt!!! and our pixar date... The adventure is UP there!!!! and thanks everyone for making the effort to be present with your torture. and thanks to all of you who remember to leave msg on my wall coz though it may seem easy.. it's something I often fail to do to my friends -_- thank you God for every little thing that would have taken away a BIG portion of my happiness have t...