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the what ifs

today, as I ponder on..
all the what ifs that we could ever think of,
I realise that they will never be answered,
and that's the beauty of life, of this race we are in.

what if I took that step,
what if I didn't take that decision..

I look at all kind of people around me,
some of them are now living lives I wouldn't have predicted before.
while many of them are pretty predictable.
and one or two.. are no longer breathing.

what if my cousin really suffered from rabies?
what if they took him to Jakarta instead of Singapore?
what if they didn't send him back to Medan?
would he be still alive today?

only God knows.

I think it's tiring when we live in these what ifs.
If we think there is better way ahead, well.. for goodness sake, just go for it.
If we think we just missed it.. too bad.. we gotta move on.

rather than answering the what ifs, maybe we should learn treasuring the present.

cliche it is..
as cliche as the unnecessary questions that trouble you and I most of the times.

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