..my battle stance..

How do we measure a year? How do you? If we go by blogpost, 2009 has been the year I posted record high number of entry and.. 2010 is the year I have my record low. Apart from 2005 coz I began blogging here in dec 2005. I had one idea in mind for my one and only 'untitled' story in 2010.. But somehow I hv neither the enery nor the inspiration to finish it -_- Right now.. On the highly commercialised Christmas eve.. I am waiting for my flight, while enjoying a free foot massage at Changi. Not too bad I must say, apart from the fact that I dun hv ika by my side. Am curious to find out who will outlast this massage, me or the Indian beside me? Oh and in case u wanna know.. Changi is surprisingly quiet.. The plane looks half full only. I guess everyone r already where they sud be on this nite. Ah.. The guy lost the battle. I outlast him. I'm pretty good at being the last guy to walk away. Now.. A boyband-face-british-accent-angmoh come to challenge me. This one won't last l...

I suppose.. Sometimes the only way to survive all these is to act blur. Like what anita said,'act blur live longer'. Its tiring when u always think over things. Like how certain people behave towards u. Or what they say.. Damn, even believers say unbelieveable things sometimes. Once again I come to conclusion that.. We r all the same. Cheers!

God has been wonderful. I am glad I volunteered to be usher for TungLing Chinese SOM graduation tonight. I expected nothing as I thot I wouldn't understand the whole thing. Its chinese. But as I sit here listening to the sermon.. My heart warmed.. And strengthened.. In way only God could. And it speaks to me in a simple and gentle way.. The Word of the season.. Probably my main theme for 2011. Far from my explosive plan.. It's a message about Noah.. It's a calling to return to the basic. A year of.. 'Walking with God'. Teach me to obey Lord.

i was about to post an angry notes. but i suppose.. i don't have the right after all. sigh.. God's grace has been sufficient for me, even as I go thru these troublesome days. So I will try to be gracious as well. For each of you.. I pray that God helps you to be more responsible in future. Seriously.