..my battle stance..

I thought I would have blogged more this year. I was wrong. I expected a challenging year. I was right. A friend tweeted that 2012 has been her best year yet. And how often do I wish this for others on new year. But 2012 isn't my best yet. It is memorable though. And thru it all, God's been good. He preserves me and my family. And the highlight at the end of this year is definitely my brother's job. That's gotta be 'the' Christmas present. So here we are. The last day of 2012. God has left us with more questions than answers at this juncture. So much so that I am not sure what I need to pray for first this morning. In a simple imaginary world of mine, I wish I would land a job in Jakarta that earns $20-30k a month tomorrow. I wish I would start planning with my life partner too tomorrow. I wish at least one of these come true for goodness sake! Our friend Pi would have wished to be stranded on Pacific Ocean with his dream lover too. But s...

seems like the world's not going to end today. which means many things. for some of us who haven't got a single clue yet on our life partner, well... the search is back on. for some of us who are planning for their wedding days, well.. glad for you! the party is on. if, hypothetically speaking, you can choose whether or not the world ends today.. what would you choose? setting aside all the issues of fulfilling our destinies, calling, the unsaved, etc etc.. I kinda go for the end of the world scenario.

That's the theme of Mr Taleb's new book. Mr Taleb, of course, is the guy who shot into fame with his book 'Black Swan'. One way to be anti-fragile is to be receptive of change. Whatever it means. To accept that your beloved's feeling could change one day. To accept that that your feeling could change one day. To accept that everyone and everything could and would change.. one day. And that one day can be as random as it gets. Then you embrace that randomness as the beauty of life. That way your system would not break down when that change and thus disappointment kick in. Your damage will be minimal. Which reminds me of a quote from that movie "Turn Left Turn Right". That certainty is beautiful, but uncertainty is more beautiful still. So Mr Taleb is not that original after all. So I have learned this years ago. Unfortunately I have yet to master this. I don't know about you. And I wonder..  what is the strength behind anti-fragi...

I am about to move company with my friend, Brother John. I have been speaking to few of the leaders in our next company as we need to decide which division to join. At one point John asked me if we would offend one of the divisions. Because we initially seemed to be keen in joining them. But we gave up on the idea. Well.. what I like about working with John is that we are quite similar personality-wise. This is one of the examples. We tend to be over-concerned about how others would feel. But of course the good thing about working with others is this thing called feedback. So i told him not to be worried. Coz the other party may not be that bothered after all. But there are many situations where I can't rely on someone else for feedback. So I have to tell myself not to be worried too much for what the other party feels. Because while I am sitting here being concerned, that person may just be in the midst of having good time and well.. that sucks, folks :)

you should not care too much for anything, else you'd risk giving up on that very thing you care too much for.