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pregnancy x and x melancholy

for the uninitiated.. we have a neighbor next door.
a nice lady called michelle.
she would have been one of the pretty girls when she was younger.

quite incidental that we got to know her name around the time we watched that life-changing movie..
"you are the apple of my eye".
she could have been andreas' fallback plan if it doesn't work out with michelle chen.

well.. been almost 3 yrs. with probably less than 2 hour total of chatting time between us.
only occasional hi, have a nice day, and bye. 

so.. one day.. just recently.. she knocked my door.
(the last time she did that was to borrow my chairs).

looking for me. ehem..

and told me that life changing news...

"I am pregnant".

.....

In case you wonder..  she wasn't asking me to be responsible for this.
Of course I am not the father.
So why was she telling me this?
Coz she was thinking of looking for new place to rent.

Well life changing for her lah.. I mean.
so far we only know that:
1) she is a business owner. she owns a boutique in Orchard Rd area.
2) her mum come once in a blue moon to visit her. and her mum is a Christian
3) she had an office right below our OHGS. she told us how peaceful it was listening to TLG band practicing.
4) she had a good looking boyfriend.. who seem to be on long term MC since sometimes ago.
5) in short.. looked like an independent woman who has everything except the marriage headache.

And suddenly... this.
There is that.. 'vulnerability'.. in her eyes that I can't explain.
We always thought she is one of those independent lady who will never settle down.
Parenthood? Can't imagine.

Suddenly.. she is now calling herself an 'old lady who just need some peace' in taking care of her soon to be born baby.
No more party.. no more nothing (I hope she quit her smoking too for good).
And I hope I am wrong but seems like she is embarking solo on this.

That's some courage.. if she does go solo.
Just like a poor security guard lady that I met two days ago. Also a single fighter.
Somehow it just breaks my heart to think about some of these single parents.
They go into battlefield daily. The kids.. the bills.. and their own emotional struggle.

Still.. I congratulated her.
With all my heart.
Coz she has been brave. and the baby.. come what may.. is a gift from God to her.
I pray that she will open up her heart too to the Lord.

Should probably have a special ministry for them single parents.

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