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Half Way Note

Two years ++ since covid said hello.
I can hardly remember how life was back then.

Not only did we live without mask back then.
We could travel around without having a demanding toddler to entertain too hah.

Indeed the flavor of life, the 'suan, tian, ku, la' are perfected in a married life.
No wonder they have that game when you gate crash, getting you to taste all kind of weird stuff.
Because indeed.. you would not have imagined how it tastes like.
The full spectrum of marriage, kids, and everything else that comes with it.

I told my wife recently, during one of those late night chat we had after the boss toddler was asleep and the clock just stroke 12..

'I don't get it. How did I have so much time back then?
There was a year where I spent 3 weeks in Europe and almost 2 week in Korea. 
Plus some weeks in Jakarta and Bali. 

Now?
I don't even look forward to holiday. I  can't imagine going for 2 week break elsewhere'

Indeed having kids change everything.
In the year after we married, we managed to squeeze in Europe, Bali, Jakarta, and Vietnam.
So glad we made those trips.

The year 2020 and 2021 was pretty ok because the world pretty much slowed down.
Even though we had a newborn to deal with, God was gracious to let us have plenty of time to deal with that.

I find 2022 particularly tough as life starts to up its tempo again.

I guess when everything is in its full swing, like next week, when our kid is back to school and we are back to our daily never ending tasks, I will revert back to that guy who just wants some good sleep and idle time.

I just didn't have the heart for more.
Be it writing, play guitar, reading manga, planning holidays.

In this fast pace city, where you could barely make it with $10k a month,
there is that constant pressure to do more.
Somewhere, somehow, imagination dies and passion fades away.

I suppose the fact that my work doesn't have guaranteed pay and fixed time play a part too.
But it is what it is. And everyone else would have their own insecurity to deal with too.
We have chosen the path. We must now live it with gratefulness .

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