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Two in One

Sometimes I feel that there are two persons inside me, two contrasting personalities. I wonder if I really have split personality problem =D

On one hand, I am someone who think really carefully before I act or speak. I plan everything and I make sure that I am ready for any possible consequence.

On the other hand, I am impulsive and I follow my heart. Just like the fact that I suddenly decided two days ago that I wanted to return to Jakarta. I took my five days leave, book a tic, and off I go. I often do such things. Sometimes I said things that I knew the other me would not have said.

On one hand, I am composed and restrained. On the other hand, I can be an unrestrained expressive persona.

Twenty years ago.. the restrained side was not born yet.

Overtime, I feel that the restrained side overpower the carefree side. There are times and places where I feel liberated and that is when the unrestrained side emerge and take over. But that is a rarity.

I guess it was down to the roles I have been playing all along. Being the oldest child, the so-called model student, etc. Hey.. I guess most of us experience the same thing. This split personality thingy. Being adult is not that fun after all. I knew it! =D

Comments

ya me too ! :) i am split too..i am both linghu chong and yue bu qin :(
vy said…
Huaha, maybe yah. For me, I call that "context-dependent". =D And sometimes it's probably just mood... hmmm.

So you're in Jkt now? Well, enjoy the holiday. ^_^
phoenix chix said…
Heh.. context-dependent? It sounds much better that way =D

Nope.. going back on Saturday morning. Thanks vy =)

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