..my battle stance..

Oh goodness.. I always get this emotional feeling everytime I return to NUS. Do you remember the very first time when we met? I still remember the place. I even still remember the second time we met. I can somehow picture those moments. I really have difficulty in forgetting these. I remember the first lenghty conversation we had. It was the night of full moon. It was the night of mid autumn festival. It was six years ago. Right.. enough of you. So I went to NUS for cellgroup today. I had my dinner at the Engineering canteen, complete with a glass of $1.30 Strawberry juice. Then went to the busstop in front of Comp Centre. Sigh.. that very building was our holy grail when we were doing our five months English course. During the lunch time, we would rush for lunch at the Arts Canteen, then went to the Computer Lab at Comp Centre for our daily dose of internet. We couldn't be late because the China students outnumbered us. And staring at the old Admin Building, the old stairs; it was...

I don't feel like singing love songs. Suddenly. Who is the culprit??

sigh... I have not been able to finish writing any kind of story lately. Well.. rather than seeing them rotting in my draft folder, might as well publish these unfinished pieces for the sake of it heh =D --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I was standing there, watching the lovely couple, holding hands, strolling away. "Fancy the chick there?" that old man suddenly asked. He has been standing there for quite a while. I did not notice him. Rather, I did not bother to notice him. But his question certainly was direct. He got my attention. "What do you make of that chick Sir?" I asked in return. He seemed to ponder, or measuring something. "Three years." He finally replied. "Three years?" "Yup.. this kind of girl deserves three years of my waiting time." He said lightly. I couldn't help laughing. That was certainly not the kind of answer I expected. "Six years" I...

So my uncle, who is only 4 yrs older, has really hit it off with my highschool mate. It all began with his casual flirting, friendster navigating, cold calling. Now they have reached the point of "I hate to admit this but I think I am in love". His only concern is that he thinks she deserves someone better. Her only problem is that she has never and doesn't think she will ever meet someone as interesting as my uncle. They are so cute when they got into argument. And they got into argument all the time. The strange thing is.. despite my uncle's experience, he simply couldn't reject anything my friend asks of him. Despite knowing that my friend is somewhat unreasonable at times.. he would simply give in each time. He has met the type of person he should have avoided heh. But the good thing is of course.. the girl loves him too. When a girl tells you that "if you keep treating me this way, I think I will fall for you", you should know that she has started f...

Oh I am so in love with this song, and the lyric.. and I am so wanting to have that type of voice. brrr...

This is one of Jay Chou's songs in his latest album, and definitely rank high on my all time favorite list. The clip is a bit disappointing, but I love the song big time. Something must be wrong with me coz I cried when I listen to this song =P How shameful haha =P -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Ting Ma Ma De Hua | Listen to Mama's Words Qu: Zhou Jie Lun Music: Jay Chou ?: ??? Ci: Zhou Jie Lun Lyrics: Jay Chou Translation: eminemjamesuk & Ling - www.jay-chou.net Xiao peng you, ni shi fou you hen duo wen hao, wei shen me Little children, do you have a lot of questions, why Bie ren zai na kan man hua, wo que zai xue hua hua, dui zhe gang qin shuo hua When other kids are reading manga, I am learning to draw and learning to communicate with the piano Bie ren zai wan you xi, wo que kao zai qiang bi bei wo de ABC When other kids are playing games, I am leaning on the wall memorizing my ABCs Wo shuo wo yao yi tai da da de fei ji, w...

The first time we met and talk.. she was asking me a question. I had to answer, I just had to think of an answer even if I didn't know the answer. There are certain people in your life, certain people you should try to avoid if you could. Because when they ask something of you, you simply cannot refuse to do. You would do it even when you don't want to do it. Even when you know that you don't mean that much to them. Even when you know that they will sacrifice you for the slightest reason. You would simply do anything for this type of people. For me.. she is certainly this type of person. Someone I can't reject. I said that I have to try to avoid this type of people. But there is another problem here. I am forever trying, forever failing. From the first word spoken, the escape path had cease to exist.

I don't understand why but I was so spirited this morning. I woke up earlier than usual (though I decided to continue laying on the bed till 8.30).. I did not have to drag myself to work. I just felt good. Don't tell me I will meet someone special today =D I did beat Chelsea 4-2 in my Football Manager '06 game last night and felt SUPER afterwards. But that couldn't be the reason right? Oh but what a game! What a pulsating match! I was up against Ibrahimovich and Torres and had to endure Chelsea's barrage. My Trabelsi kept Robben quiet all night and Kompany was making last ditch tackles and Sebastian Frey was heroic. Oh.. anyway.. it's just a game, too bad. It's funny how the game describes our addictiveness level. Previously I only got that "remember to wash your underwear" level at best. But this time.. I have twice or thrice left the game on as I slept.. I have risen to a brand new level of addictiveness. Now its "remember to call your work ...

I have typed and typed and typed... Only to remove them all in the end. I am obviously dying to say many things. But many things left unspoken. Coz words.. they don't change a thing. Even if they would change many things.. They would not change you.

during our cellgroup session last nite, I got my cell mates to do this activity whereby we write our names on pieces of paper. each person will pick randomly a piece of paper, look at the name written, and write what he/she like about that person. And also, give that person some constructive advices. turned out to be quite fun with all the funny comments. most important thing is.. it should get them to notice each other more. and again, someone said that I love to smile. I often got this comment and sometimes I wonder.. coz I don't really realise that I smile that much. have I subconsciously smiled all the time? hmm.. in any case.. I think I should save the smile! =D

Had a bad day at the office today. Now I know how it feels to be up against some people who are out to knock you down. But again.. I just couldn't bring myself to be angry whatsoever. I thought, "One day I have to be bigger than you!" That's all.. When some people smile to me halfheartedly, I would purposely offer them my most wonderful smile =D Just so that they realise that I am much more good looking than they are. When some people try to avoid seeing me, I would purposely walk pass them, putting on that ignorant expresion. Just so that they understand that if they were to avoid me, they have to hide in the dark. Really.. the art of living is to laugh off my own misfortune. And I have been doing that lately hoho. What a great life I am having. And as I am enjoying my problems.. I realise that 1. There were always people who had it worse than I did. 2. Kindhearted people are always there. Not many, but they are always around. The world is a stage...!

Ohh something is wrong with my head. I kinda like my colleague who is a married woman with a kid LOL. Okay.. I am kidding. I just like seeing her coz I like her ponytail (why I particularly like ponytail is another mystery). And with that blue wind breaker on.. she is just somewhat adorable. When you are 25, still single, and the most adorable female in your office is a mother with one kid; you must know that your future lies elsewhere. =D

Ini ngambil dari blog orang:: Sepasang pengantin baru tengah berjalan bergandengan tangan di sebuah hutan pada suatu malam musim panas yang indah, seusai makan malam. Mereka sedang menikmati kebersamaan yang menakjubkan tatkala mereka mendengar suara di kejauhan: "Kuek! Kuek!" "Dengar," kata si istri, "Itu pasti suara ayam." "Bukan, bukan. Itu suara bebek," kata si suami. "Nggak, aku yakin itu ayam," si istri bersikeras. "Mustahil. Suara ayam itu 'kukuruyuuuk!', bebek itu 'kuek! kuek!' Itu bebek, Sayang," kata si suami dengan disertai gejala-gejala awal kejengkelan. "Kuek! Kuek!" terdengar lagi. "Nah, tuh! Itu suara bebek," kata si suami. "Bukan, Sayang. Itu ayam. Aku yakin betul," tandas si istri, sembari menghentakkan kaki. "Dengar ya! Itu a-da-lah be-bek, B-E-B-E-K. Bebek! Mengerti?" si suami berkata dengan gusar. Tapi itu ayam," masih saja si istri bersikeras. ...

Sometimes the biggest problem is when someone does not realise that he/she is the problem itself. And sometimes the hardest person to deal with is the one who pities him/herself, thinking that he/she is the most unfortunate person on earth. And when you have to deal with such person.. oh God.. please teach her to be thankful for she is blessed with MSN and thus this tough chat. And teach me to be thankful to be used to talk to this person ^^

"Studying" is something I have not done for God knows how long. But yeah.. last weekend, I decided to read up a bit on Java which I have not touched for almost 2 years. Goshh.. already I can feel some improvement in my life quality LOL =D Well.. this brain needs torturing. It has been hibernating for too long. And these muscles too.. need some torturing. GYM.. that's the word. Yes yes.. we shall see into it. On movie front.. watched WTC which lasting impression was the scene when Jesus made the appearance with a bottle of mineral water. The unexpectedly good movie, in my opinion, was Rob-B-hood. Very jacky chan! Much much better than "the Banquet" =P Oh and one movie I am interested in at the moment is "Severance".. it's about an office's team building outing which turned into a bloody survival game. Eastern Europe setting.. hmm a bit like "Hostel" I would say. I had free dinner yesterday! I must really mark down 8 October 2006 as the...

The God whose skill formed the cosmos, His love never quits. The God who laid out earth on ocean foundations, His love never quits. The God who filled the skies with light, His love never quits. The sun to watch over the day, His love never quits. Moon and stars as guardians of the night, His love never quits. (Psalm 136)

Ternyata orang indo skarang uda ga kalah, bahkan lebih hebat dari kita di Sg. Mrk punya begitu byk 24 hours cafe termasuk starbucks where you will see people hanging around di malam minggu. Suasananya not bad really loh.. n dimana2 bisa liat wajah2 orang sebangsa yang familiar. Ya ceritanya pas jumat malem diajak ke starbucks di Thamrin, sbrangnya mcdonald legendaris itu. Ada oh la la juga disana, yang ngebul banget dalemnya. Gua kaga ngerti gmn cara menikmati oh la la ditemani asap rokok. oh well.. they just ruined my favorite cafe there. Starbucks is much better soalnya ada tanda dilarang merokok di dalem. Though tempatnya kynya ngga dipenuhi dgn crowd yang sering dinamai 'anak selatan'.. they r quite a cool crowd I think. Cukup enak buat ngobrol2 disana. Sebagai orang indo, you know that ada tempat2 tertentu yang no matter how good the design n decoration is, you just won't feel comfortable there bcoz of the wrong crowd. N semua terasa lengkap waktu kluar dari starbucks,...

A week break does wonder really. I think I was really homesick. My bro finally got a chance to study here, something he has always wanted. He had the chance to join the bridging program at SMU and if he manages to score high in his SAT come May 2007, he will be offered a place at SMU. I thought NUS or NTU are better coz he would stay in campus, that's more fun. But SMU is a good univ. and I can only be thankful to God. He was really down when he found out that he couldn't get to NUS but now he got the chance to give his best shot to get into SMU. God certainly opens the way, He certainly provides. I learned to walk by faith, even when my dad was out of job and my family was struggling. I learned to challenge God to provide for us. But the learning process is still ongoing. I still need to learn to trust Him for my future. And I really need to put in more effort.. It's great to be back home, to be surrounded by people who mean the most to you.