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Heart of a Warrior

When I finally make my trip to Israel,

I thought I would like to make a trip to Jordan River and by chance, I would probably be walking down the path that David took as he collected his little stones prior to the legendary battle.

I wonder if I could feel what the little boy felt that day.

Was he calm? Was he shaking in excitement? Or was he trembling with anger?

What about fear? Was it there? How could he not fear the giant?

And doubt? How could he be so sure he would defeat the mighty Goliath?

I have seen warriors preparing for battle.

Some would drink liquor to boost their courage.
Some would meditate to calm their mind.

What was he thinking that day?

I am a very normal human.
I would either be wondering if I would lose this crazy battle (or why was I being such a busybody to challenge that big pile of muscle),
or be thinking of the glory that I would get when I defeat Goliath.

How could this little boy think of nothing but to punish someone who humiliate his mighty God?

No fear, no glory.

It reminds me of Yoshitsune's faithful servant, Benkei.

When he fights, he never thinks he would lose.
When he fights, he never thinks of any glory.
He only fight for one reason, Yoshitsune.

Maybe this is the heart of a warrior.



I was not born with that. Or I have lost that somehow.

So I was thinking..
Maybe if I were to make my trip down to the city of David,
I would find a piece of that warrior heart in me.

Comments

Anonymous said…
I guess he was just a little kid. He didn't think too much too far. The kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these...
Anonymous said…
It's nowhere but inside ur deepest heart..
phoenix chix said…
wakaka ini anonymous sapa ya.. is it u bro?

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