..my battle stance..

......hurrmmm......

"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me- watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly." (Matthew 11-28-30, the Message)

everything about tonight was the first for me =) let's hope and pray that months later, i would happily return to this post and say a lil bit more heh. but.. no one could tell about the future. at the end of the day, i guess we can only surrender the future to the Author of our lives. the only thing i can tell is that..

ternyata begini yg namanya insomnia.. atau kah ini jet lag.

Jesus sent his twelve harvest hands out with this charge: "Don't begin by traveling to some far-off place to convert unbelievers. and don't try to be dramatic by tackling some public enemy. Go to the lost, confused people right here in the neighbourhood. Tell them that the kingdom is here. Bring health to the sick. Raise the dead. Touch the untouchables. Kick out the demons. You have been treated generously, so live generously." (Matthew 10: 5-8, The Message) I was like.. Wooww... that's awesome. And Judas was among the twelves who was sent. Apparently.. Judas had done even far greater things than what I had done. Hmphh...

These leaders of the great churches have one similarity, they started very small. Some started with 10 people, a lil bit more or less. Jesus started with 12. I used to think that it was amazing how they could grow into thousands. but today i learn that it's equally or even more amazing how they could gather those 10 ppl who share the same vision and hunger for God. it's not easy. even to have 5, let alone 10 such comrades. maybe it all starts from within, from ourselves. if you do not take the first sacrificial and radical step, no one would. so it helps if you have a wife and some in-laws (according to the girl with many titles).

Is Daniel (the bible fellow) a EUNUCH? For those who dunno what eunuch is, you gotta watch more wuxia (pelem silat). Can start from one of my favorite story with eunuchs, Wei Xiao Bao (the guy with 7 wives =P ) Biblical reference (Daniel 1:3 Amplified): And the [Babylonian] king told Ashpenaz, the master of his eunuchs, to bring in some of the children of Israel, both of the royal family and of the nobility. Lawrence Khong argued that.. because these royal family members (daniel and co are in this group) are brought in by the master of eunuchs.. most likely they were also made eunuchs (that's how it was in those days). of course there is chance that thru some miraculous ways, daniel and co were not made eunuch (or God reversed the effect of the 'cutting'). but the bible did not record any offspring or family of daniel and co.. all the four of them. so it seems possible that Lawrence Khong's theory was right. Anyway, his full msg was wonderful.. I will post that one late...

I walked to the usual CHC service hall this morning, the smart me didn't bother to drop wibi any sms. i thought he could have gone to the Sat service and I didn't want to trouble him. But there I was.. alone.. gasping in amazement.. CHC seemed to have vanished into thin air. No CHC, not a single sign of their existence. And the fear of stupidity struck. When I was on my way there, I did wonder if they even had service today. But i thought.. oh well.. what's the chance of that happening? Well.. it 'happened'. SmS wibi.. no reply. So I had to choose.. 'guai guai' return to hyatt. OR.. walk into FCBC service next door. (Yeah.. they don't vanish together, thankfully). Oh well.. heck care.. I thought. I am here anyway. So here's my first.. first attending FCBC service. My chronological observation on my first visit (hoho just casual remark ya, peacee wid, john^^ ): 1. 1st song- Let Everything That Has Breath. (Wah.. quite oldie hor) 2. 2nd song- The time ...

And I will pray this prayer.. one day ;) It was by 'accident' that I come to know this song. It was accident in my eyes, yet it was definitely not in His. My dad was far from being perfect. Yet.. I wonder sometimes.. whether I can even be as good as he was. He was totally flawed, yet.. to my five years old eyes, he was a great man. Because he told me wuxia stories every night, I come to love writing and story-telling today. Because he always encouraged me not to run away from fight, I have the courage to stand my ground against the odds. I am not sure what sort of legacy I will leave, but today I am assured that there is one thing that my dad never had, one thing that i could do for my child-to-be, i can pray this prayer for his sake every day.

Another interesting piece from Mr Brain: "Amygdala is the area of someone's brain that shows tremendous reaction, when he is shown someone he loves. before you can think about anything, this area would unconsciously react. that reaction.. detectable thru MRI.. is probably the best physical evidence and form of love." I suppose.. if that statement is true, those people who have doubt, wondering whether "i actually like him or not"... could just go for MRI.. look at his picture, and see whether your amygdala reacts ;) but frankly speaking.. i don't think that's necessary ^^

Dan siapakah Rinn Charles? Erm.. tampaknya yg ini gua yg lupa deh.. opss.. my apology. abis ga jelas di potonya. ^^

gomen ne..

Zhong yu zuo le zhei ge jue ding Bie ren zhe me shuo wo bu li Zhi yao ni ye yi yang de ken ding Wo yuan yi tian ya hai jiao dou sui ni qu Wo zhi dao yi qie bu rong yi Wo de xin yi ji wen xi shui fu zhi ji Zui pa ni hu ran shuo yao fang qi Ai zhen de xu yao yong qi Lai mian dui liu yuan fei yu Zhi yao ni yi ge yen shen ken ding Wo de ai jiu you yi yi Wo men dou xu yao yong qi Qu xiang xin huei zai yi qi Ren chao yong ji wo neng gan jue ni Fang zai wo shou xin li Ni de zhen shi Ru guo wo de jian qiang yuan shi Hui bu xiao xin shang hai le ni Ni neng bu neng wen rou ti xing Wo sui ran xin tai ji geng hai pa cuo guo ni

Zaenabb!!

oh my gosh.. it slipped my attention.. i did wonder for few secs when we met the other night, if that guy was going to be somebody special. but i just heard tonight that he turned out to be. heh.. so you are finally out of your tower =) i hope the news is reliable. and if it is.. i am praying with all my heart, that this will be your truly ever after. truly the serendipity we have been believing. congratulation my dear friend =)

sekalian deh pasang klip ini kembali.. achaaaa ^^ Arghh.. i wanted to sing this song when i was interviewed the other day. but i FORGOT THE LYRIC! -_-

Niatnya sih mao nyari inspirasi buat bikin script si nasi bungkus. Jadi nyasar ke klip yang used to be one of my very favorite. Dulu si dendry kirim satu mp3 yg judulnya track12. begitu diputer.. terdengar lah suara gitar yang melankolis, dilanjutkan dengan suara mbak dian sastro yang menggugah hati. diakhiri dengan lagu yang menyayat hati. dan seperti si cowo yang duduk terpana memandang si dian, begitu lah dengan saya.. Track12 ini dulu diputer dan diulang sampe berpuluh2 kali kdg2.. it's simply brilliant in my opinion.

To be falling in love is already a lucky thing. To fall in love with your best friend is even luckier. But.. you don't usually go that direction with your best friend. It just won't work somehow. But that is not necessarily a bad thing. Because maybe.. you can be even luckier than that. You could fall in love with someone, and as you walk together, hand in hand.. both of you become the best-est friends ever. that is probably the luckiest we could ever get.

Yellow world! I hope you are having a great monday, eat some good stuff, and smile a lot. It's a good thing to start my monday morning at office. Coz that means I did some business the weekend before ;) Anyway.. I discovered another potentially greattt j-dorama. MR. BRAIN!!! if u love dorama like Galileo and stuff.. u gotta check this one. There is Takuya Kimura, then the guy who played Zettai Kareshi (not the robot), and the sweetie Ayase Haruka. The story revolves around Takuya Kimura, a neuroscience researcher at the police department who uses his knowledge about how brain works to solve crime cases. It's not a heavy dorama though. It's entertaining and you can learn some interesting stuff there, like.. 'when you are lying, your brain work hard to come up with logical and consistent information (because you are making up story, not recalling). this role belongs to your left brain. it is well known that left brain is used to process information received from your righ...

i read somewhere today.. it says that if you and I were to die today.. our company will not miss us much. they will easily replace us with someone else. and they will move on. but our family and loved ones will miss us badly. for them.. we are irreplaceable. so .. why then.. are we investing most of our times on works? be content with your daily bread, which God.. your Father.. provides for certain. that way.. we will have enough time to invest on our loved ones. the investment return will be a lot more than all the bonuses and promotion we could ever get at work.

phew.. another case where i only had one card on my hand. one card to show and one faithful couple. that was enough for God. thank you God for the daily portion. thank you friends for being faithful. and thanks to you for the prayer =) now.. i pray that despite the house's little problem here and there.. let this be another house that will bless two of you, ten folds of what you have blessed me with.

Ini lagu rekomendasi dari oknum yang menemani saya hingga matahari nyaris terbit hari ini =P Bapa Kau setia Takkan meninggalkan Dan kupercaya Engkau milikku Dan ku milikMu Kerinduanku Tinggikan namaMu Karna ku tahu Engkau dalamku Dan ku dalamMu CHORUS Ubah hatiku seputih hatiMu Setulus salibMu KasihMu Tuhan Biar mataku seperti mataMu Pancarkan kasihMu Ku mau jadi SepertiMu

i have nothing to say, because i have too much to say. i dunno where to start, but i know anywhere is good. i am not sure how to end, but i know anyhow is wonderful. this is exactly how i dreamed it, this is how serendipity should be.

It's a little bit too late coz it's June. but i just want to see how many 'first time' stuff (big and small) i manage to do this year heh. So starting from this Friday 13 June 2009. I take Circle Line for the first time!

now i remember.. what it means to be head over heels.

I traced back to the last half-baked story i wrote here, and turn out that it was end 2007. So i have not finished any half-baked story for 1.5 years.. so much for dreaming to be a writer -_- i used to read and write during my office hours, now i have all the time in the world but somehow.. i lose the drive to write. i haven't read any wuxia novel as well.. i like my Untitled #7 best.. for some reason. dunno why. maybe because it's inspired by bible ^^ mm.. let's see if we can get another half-baked story done this year =)

the last 2-3 weeks hv been challenging business-wise, rite after i decided to throw away my parachute. if the previous months hv been somekinda autopilot, we r now back to the 'what's the next step God?' state. and it is proven that, maintaining your hunger is very difficult when you have enough ransom. but still, i hv to work this out- or i will never make the next leap. having said that.. i did ask God for a short break. so probably this quiet business is how i could justify my july trip to jakarta.

Siapakah Kim On?

'Turn Left Turn Right' is one of my all time fave drama. Sometimes we wonder.. if amidst the sea of crowd, the rushing train, the left turn that i take and the right turn that you take, we will still end up meeting, accidentally. Just because.. all along this love story of us.. it has been written. I hear winter leaving I am awaking in some year, some month I think, I wait, I am expecting But the future can't be prearranged Cloudy evening outside the car window In the future, someone is waiting for me Look to the left, to the right, to the front How many twists and turns will love take before it comes to me? What conversations will I have when I meet her? The person I'm waiting for, how distant is she in the future? I hear the wind coming from the subway and a crowd of people I line up, holding the ticket with love's number I fly, fly across an ocean of time We are so often hurt by love I look at the road, the entrance to this dream is a little narrow Meeting you is...

As of June 6th 2009, I have broken all my personal queue record. I queued for 10.5 hours (630 minutes) this day. And now I look like tomato. As of June 6th 2009, I have made a breakthrough in my life. For the first time ever I appeared on TV (ch 5 for 1 sec). Hoho.. not bad..

senyummu juga sedihmu, adalah hidupku, kau sentuh cintaku dengan lembut.. dengan sejuta warna -gigi, 11 januari naluri berkata engkaulah..

i foresee a long day tomorrow. but i am not excited or worried or anything. i learn from someone recently that you can actually join a competition without thinking of it as a competition =) i think it's the case for tomorrow. come what may, i will walk away knowing that we have tasted the experience.

Selalu Untuk Selamanya - Fatur Selamanya cinta - Yana Yulio CINTAKAN MEMBAWAMU KEMBALI - DEWA pengennya yg ini, tapi sekali lagi, skill kurang memadai Sempurna - ANDRA AND THE BACKBONE

The Distance - Evan and Jaron Stay the same - Joey McIntype bingung....

to many, you are a beautiful fairy. to me, you make my life a fairytale. to some, you are the irresistible sweet little thing, to me, you are the irreplaceable little part my heart can't beat without.

Cakep!! =)

Aaron Kwok is always nostalgic for many reasons. He was like.. the Zac Efron or the metrosexual vampire or the Super Junior of our era ^^. And that was like.. 1990? *shivers* he marked our teen memories with his hair style (most neighbourhood saloons will have his poster on their wall). i have a friend who liked Aaron so much that she also cut her hair Aaron-styled. my memory used to be much much better, so i used to be able to sing quite a number of his songs, like the ones here. Starting with my favoritest piece.. Dao Di You Sui Neng Gou Gao Shu Wo - Aaron Kwok Wo Xiang Tou Tou Dui Ni Shuo Wo Ai Ni - Aaron Kwok Qin Ai Bao Bei - Aaron Kwok Wo shi bu shi gai an jin de zou kai - Aaron Kwok And tadaa.. the ultimate Aaron signature song 对你爱不完 (Dui Ni Ai Bu Wan) - Aaron Kwok