..my battle stance..

current fave songs! Love Song, the 2nd song, is particularly.. hmm.. how do I put it?

Fukuyama Masaharu-  Kazoku Ni Narou shiawase ni narou yo...

I was happily exploring my new S3 while the guy couple of my seats to my left was busy with his ipad. Typical good looking young professional with some snobbish attitude. Kinda remind me of someone who married one of our friends hah. And beside him was a lady in her 20s. A typical Indonesian Chinese, fair and sweet. The lady was talking to him about someone. He was quick to point out that he disliked that person. In a snobbish tone, while keeping his eyes fixed on his ipad. And then they had more conversation which I didn't bother to pay attention to. At one point, the lady caught my attention as she suddenly spoke in a loud voice. She was pointing at his head in a caring way while uttering, "Dari mana siii otak sejahat iniii??" Yeah, with a caring, loving tone of course. She couldn't believe that her boyfriend (or spouse) could have such an evil thought in his mind. Yet.. it didn't seem to matter much for her. I guess.. as long as he cared for he...

somehow my friend's words keep ringing inside my head. he said.. 'enjoy all these while you can.. " by 'these'.. he meant, all those things that may seem like troublesome tests at the moment but will eventually turn into precious memories by the time we 'graduate'. in this context.. marriage is the graduation day. it's like how I would speak to some of our juniors in the past. how I would tell them to enjoy those exams they were wishing to get rid of. how we kept telling them that they would definitely miss their school days. my friend misses his pre-married days. so when he watched 'Friends with Kids' movie, he thought, "hey, this is perfect!!" and he told his wife that heh. he was really upset when the guy ended up marrying the girl in the movie. i couldn't really agree with him on that part. but at the same time.. well in the context of relationship.. i just feel there is too much bullshit that we tend to be...

there used to be a bestselling book with that title. a far cry from today's motivational or success coaching books. chicken soup was simple and rather than altering our mind, it nourishes our soul. such was my conversation with someone I could call a 'good friend' tonight. maybe I have been too proud to admit that I need such a conversation. to admit that I have been fooling myself and I need some trashing. well.. some good trashing from a true friend. i almost missed out this meeting, and am glad i didn't. God does have everything under his control. the talk affirmed so many things I have been afraid to admit. aren't you glad for such a friend? in my friend's words, I need someone who is willing to break into the walls I build up in order to find the true me. in my words, that would be the true me, along with all my vulnerabilities and stupidity. to me a true friend is not just someone who is there to support, but that person is there to do the ...

For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking but of righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. (Romans 14:17) I have been to a "Reform" type of church last weekend. As expected, the teaching was almost an opposite of what we are hearing from people like Joseph Prince and Joel Osteen. A good sharing to ponder on, nonetheless. Because any of us who seriously consider how we should live to imitate Christ will undoubtedly feel the pull from both side of the camp. But somewhere, somehow.. I believe lies the answer to this struggle. Between the so-called 'prosperity gospel' and the..er.. I dunno what the opposite camp is called. But irregardless of which camp we side with, or maybe we stand somewhere in between.. I suppose we must always remind ourselves that our gospel is not defined by the visibles. Neither the abundance of wealth nor the lack of it. Neither the existence of suffering nor the absence of it. I suppose.. our gospel and...

gua deg2an kalo lg bertemu dgn peluang bisnis yg..kalo org medan bilang.. 'ngeri ngeri sedap'. tidak lain tidak bukan, adalah bisnis berbau ponzi scheme. ngga tau napa, sering ditawarin bisnis ky gini. gua pikir biasa yg suka ditarget-in itu ibu2 rumah tangga -__- trakhir wkt itu ya si bisnis emas 'gen ne va' itu. yg mana byk bgt yg curiga, tp byk jg org sekitar yg bnrnya diem2 uda taroh duid disana :P biasa kl 'ponzi' itu kan dlm 1-2 taon si pelaku bakal kabur. nah tp sampe hari ini si bisnis emas ini masi berjalan. mskipun sgt disayangkan gua ga punya cukup byk duid utk diparkir disana. utk yg si emas gen ne va ini, gua rasa intinya si dia bkn ponzi. tp pastinya dia punya resiko gede dlm bisnis dia. jd, know the risk before you play the game lah ya. hasil 2% per bulan itu uda trdgr sgt gila kan. cuman kalah sedikit sm untung nya ah long. hrsnya para ah long bertobat aja dan taroh duid di sini. ga perlu manpower, ga perlu modal cat, ga perl...

I'll never forget the trouble, the utter lostness,    the taste of ashes, the poison I've swallowed. I remember it all—oh, how well I remember—    the feeling of hitting the bottom. But there's one other thing I remember,    and remembering, I keep a grip on hope: God's loyal love couldn't have run out,    his merciful love couldn't have dried up. They're created new every morning.    How great your faithfulness! I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over).    He's all I've got left.  (Lamentations 3:19-24) I believe in Him who breathes life into the dead. He who breathes spring into the freezing winter. He who takes and breaks and molds and makes new.. the Potter, the Director, the Creator. Even when I am crushed to the bottom of the valley, I know I can still look up to Him, hold on to His Words, and call on the Name that is above it all.. Jesus.

I promise you this, trust me. So.. Let's start with some background here. Arsenal- a football club in England for the rest of us (who don't support Man U). Just like Apple, the computer for the rest of us (who don't support Windows). Gunners- terms for Arsenal football player. Gooners- terms for Arsenal football fans. so finally it comes. the news that break the hearts of, literally, millions of gooners. we are on the verge of losing our best player, again. on top of that, our captain. the man who we think, may be different from the rest of them who left earlier. Last year I wrote something about Cesc Fabregas, my then all time favorite Gunner. He left for the club that must not be named. He was captain too, then. I thought he was different too, then. Now it's Robin van Persie (RVP). His no.10 shirt was once worn by a Dutch maestro called Dennis Bergkamp. Just like Dennis, we brought RVP from a club where he failed to shine despite his talent. Just l...

to hurt and to be hurt. it's not the question of if, or who. it's the question of when. so.. the real question is.. will love fail.. or will love prevail?

It was the moment before dawn. I made a walk to the kitchen. For a drink. For a look. I was quite sure what to expect from the water I was drinking. But I wasn't really sure what to expect from the world outside my kitchen window. Sometimes you would come across some people who just walk back to their home. And you try to guess what they were doing all night long. Sometimes you would come across fighting couples who shout at each other. Well.. that's pretty common. This time it was the full moon that caught my attention. Bright and alone. It was most beautiful. But nobody was around to appreciate it. Because they have works and life to live under the sun. Nevertheless.. there it was. the moon. it shone. for everything. for nothing.

For some reason posting lama ini muncul jd top visited post hari ini. Ngga tau kenapa tiba2 ada org2 yg mencari title ini. Mgkn krn lagunya hari ini diputer somewhere, whether itu di media, ato itu in the mind of someones out there. indeed. kebenaran yang sangat benar. so here's what the post was saying: abis baca cerpen nya si dewi lestari. cerpen yang menemani lagu terkenal itu.. malaikat juga tahu. dan si penulis mengungkapkan satu kebenaran yang erm.. sangat benar. si wanita dicintai dua pria. pria pertama yang mencinta dia lebih dari sepenuhnya, pria pertama yang mencinta dia tanpa punya pilihan untuk kemungkinan yang lain. dan pria kedua yang mencintai dia.. mungkin sepenuhnya, pria kedua yang memiliki pilihan.. lalu memilih dia. si wanita mencintai satu pria, pria kedua yang memiliki pilihan dan memilih dia. karena si wanita tidak ingin dicintai oleh seseorang yang tidak punya pilihan. sekalipun boleh diadu cinta kedua pria itu, malaikat juga tahu, siapa...

i thought of this conversation we had on Sunday afternoon. on victoria secret show. girls must think that guys would love watching that show. i don't even need to explain why right? but er.. no. i think, and i would be surprised to be wrong.. guys are not into this show. okay, if our habit of messing around with remote control happens to incidentally bring us to a channel that is broadcasting that show, we would probably pause for a moment. a moment that lasts not longer than when we pause for, say.. spongebob square pants show. not because his square pants are more appealing than victoria secret's. obviously. the sames goes to this event that was organised by one of the churches in Jkt. it's called CONNECT, strictly for 25yo and above SINGLES, and it's NOT a matchmaking event. Yeah..RIGHT lol. According to a first time visitor that I interviewed, this church seems to have many good looking guys and girls. So you would think that guys would jump at t...