..my battle stance..

interesting that a blogger coined this word in her blog. learning to be grateful over my regrets . so she said. Isn't it easy when we, worship leaders or cell group leaders, tell everyone how God tells us to come as we are. How He loves and embraces all of us, our goods and our bads. But we are humans. We can't embrace someone as he/she is. We have emotions. We have hearts. fragile ones. And we have perceptions. values. belief. pride. self-worth. God is beyond all those. that's the difference. and that's why it is so hard to deal with our past mistakes. some mistakes leave us with scars we have to live with for the rest of our lives. some sins have consequences that simply have to come to pass. for reasons only God knows why. saying sorry doesn't change anything. so the blogger said. a shameful scar is a shameful scar. you can't beautify it thru your sorry or whatever you do. and that acceptance you are craving for.. it may forever be an el...

So I came across this in Path. Of course.. a sister path it. Naturally.. some other sisters nod frantically in agreement. "If he hurts you and hinders your walk with God, remove him ..". That part is fine. Damn fine! But what about the analogy? "If your shoes are hurting your feet.." Well.. I wonder why we never do a "brother to brother" version. Coz you see.. we hate shoes that hurt us too, if not more. While ladies would put up with the pain of wearing high heels, many of us would give up. But imagine.. if we, the guys, also think of finding life partner in the same manner, the whole universe will be looking for that 'right shoes'.Nobody will take the 'shoes role'. That won't do. Yet.. even if I were to take the shoes role.. I can't imagine finding the "right pair of feet" being the equivalent of finding my right partner. Unless I am marrying Cinderella. So.. this shoes analogy just doesn't make se...

Some of these words by Jesus in Matthew 16.. they are simply profound. Ask myself.. is this what my church is preaching? Is this what my heart is believing? Do I treat His words with utmost importance? Every single sentence would be life-changing if only we live and breathe it. 24  Then Jesus said to His disciples, If anyone desires to be My disciple, let him deny himself [disregard, lose sight of, and forget himself and his own interests] and take up his cross and follow Me [ [ p ] cleave steadfastly to Me, conform wholly to My example in living and, if need be, in dying, also ]. 25  For whoever is bent on saving his [temporal] life [his comfort and security here] shall lose it [eternal life]; and whoever loses his life [his comfort and security here] for My sake shall find it [life everlasting]. 26  For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his life [his blessed [ q ] life in the kingdom of God] ? Or what would a man give as...

last year April i was asked when I would get married. so casually I said, well.. 1st March '14. That is 1-3-14. Which in Chinese sound like yi sheng yi shi. Means.. till death do us part. Or in short.. forever. That sounds like a perfect day to exchange vow. And it's Saturday too. Predictably, I miss that timeline. Still haven't figured out what's the next best date. Love 1-3-14 a lot! Couple of years ago me and my NUS mates also said we would go to Brazil for World Cup 2014. Doesn't seem like it's going to happen. Unless.. miracle (or TOTO) happens. And soon I will get to the magical age. Jesus was crucified when he was 33, so they said. Always believe that something very very important gotta happen by the time someone reach 33. Well.. here's hoping that it will not just pass by without a single life changing moment. And to all my penggembira (read: single) friends who are also on the verge of reaching this magical age, let's march o...