regretefulness

interesting that a blogger coined this word in her blog.
learning to be grateful over my regrets.
so she said.

Isn't it easy when we, worship leaders or cell group leaders,
tell everyone how God tells us to come as we are.
How He loves and embraces all of us, our goods and our bads.

But we are humans. We can't embrace someone as he/she is.
We have emotions. We have hearts. fragile ones.
And we have perceptions. values. belief. pride. self-worth.
God is beyond all those. that's the difference.

and that's why it is so hard to deal with our past mistakes.
some mistakes leave us with scars we have to live with for the rest of our lives.
some sins have consequences that simply have to come to pass.
for reasons only God knows why.

saying sorry doesn't change anything. so the blogger said.
a shameful scar is a shameful scar.
you can't beautify it thru your sorry or whatever you do.
and that acceptance you are craving for.. it may forever be an elusive one.

but still I have to rejoice.
still my soul .. you gotta arise and sing.
for He is good. and His grace is enough. yeah..
again I say to my soul.. arise.