..my battle stance..

"Let's take a stroll." "Bad idea". She lowered her head. "Alright..." I gave in. With a soft kiss on her forehead. "Why.." she stared at me. "My love is as simple as this." She sighed. We walked. Words of two weary lovers. Words we learn as we turn into adults. "I know you don't like to take this walk." her tone was apologetic. "You don't know my price..."This time I sighed. She certainly never thought of this matter. "Your price..?" I nodded. Subtlety were not her forte. So I took her tiny hand. And I kissed lightly. "Hmm..?" "But never mind that. My love is as simple as this." She sighed again. She still didn't get it. "I haven't changed you know." "Me too.. " "Do you know how our future would have been?" Finally a good question. I like that. That's better than asking me what's my plan for our...

I used to wonder why some of my friends could go from being so on fire in their ministry.. to being so detached from anything that has to do with church ministry. well.. it can be due to many factors obviously. but there is one that particularly amuses me. They had to choose between their loved ones and their ministry. And they chose the former one. Well.. I thought the deeper we are in church ministry the more we will serve and care for people closest to us. but no.. it seems that it works the opposite way. maybe the Old Testament's king david and the Korean's Pastor david are such classic example. and now I am learning thru my own life experience too. it doesn't help that in some churches, your leadership status is "celebrated". You are being inducted into some elite group. and they say.. with great power comes great responsibility. and before you know it.. its ministry over relationship. It's "God's work" over God's love. ...

ga berasa.. 3 mingguan lagi. utk pertama kalinya.. deg2an sm pemilu. pertama kali jg.. so much is at stake. dan gua sangat amat ingin untuk ada di indo. gua ini a nobody. tp gua sgt excited sama 5 thn ke dpn. 10 thn ke dpn. changes seperti apa yg kita bakal alami. dan kalo kita bisa ambil bagian.. sekecil apapun,. utk suarakan perubahan itu.. why not? seperti tiap kali gua ngomong sm staff toko gua. gua selalu coba ubah paradigma mrk, coba ajar mrk utk ngerubah mental mrk. ya.. tentu aja mostly in vain. tapi gua consistently challenge mrk utk berubah. i think we can all do our part. bicara capres lagi. nah.. buat yg masi belom 100% yakin.. mgkn boleh di list down pro dan cons nya mrk berdua. tp pake fakta ya. atau observasi pribadi. jgn andalin media gebleg ky inilah dot con. coba observe.. sengerti apa kamu sama program si capres. program sekeren apapun.. ujung2nya di pelaksanaan. trus.. kalo bicara karakter.. amati cara dia ngeresponi serangan ke dia. liat.. ap...

Democracy in its liberal, western form, that is. To some it's praiseworthy how Indonesia have 'progressed' as a democratic country. From three political parties in Soeharto's days to dunno how many parties now. But to me.. democracy is always a danger. I didn't know that Ahok mentioned the Jesus-Barabbas story too in Imago. That's always my favorite example of how democracy can go wrong. I look at our nation, and I see Nineveh. I see the Jews. Millions of people who do not know left from right. Now we got only two candidates. Wowo and Wiwi. Pretty good chance of getting it right. But how do you expect 200 over million people to vote wisely? Ok.. for argument sake.. let's assume 90% of us are going to follow our heart to vote. So.. no foul play. And we follow our belief. But where does that belief come from? From what we listen to. Which is? Media, people around us, etc etc. Even national tv channels are now used for political agenda. I fi...