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from audrey to hillary

it feels awkward to read our own old post.
like this one.

yeah that was the first audrey that i knew.
she was from Ursula, a famous all girl school in Jakarta.

the year was 1999. Hand phones were not that smart yet.
and it's freaking expensive to call someone from your hand phone. 
so i would go to wartel (public phone er.. warong?) to call her.
that was my first uni day crush.

and then i came across audrey hepburn at NUS.
she was unforgettable in My Fair Lady.
a classic movie which I think every human being should watch at least once.

so 'audrey' has been my favorite name for a while.

but recently i find that hillary is very wonderful name too.
no I have no friend with that name.
i had a prospect property buyer with that name though.
and coincidentally, she is quite sweet. but engaged.

i guess we can and will change.
the person and name which means nothing a year ago could mean something now.
or the other way around.
it's remarkable the difference a year can make.

if anything, i learn not to hold too tightly to anything in this journey called life.
because nothing that i possess now truly belongs to me.
if i do not even have the control to stop a single strand of my hair from falling,
why must I be so stubborn with everything else?

i suppose i just need to trust my Buddy up there,
He who knows even the number of hairs on my head.
and to learn to trust again.. and again.
every single day.

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