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How old are you?

When did we come to existence?
Was it the day we were born?
Or was it the moment when the glorious sperm of our father swept our mum's ovum off her feet.

I was singing that song "Hati sebagai hamba",
(if you have no idea what this is, pls repent heh)
Anyway yeah.. it's an old song, but I love the sincerity of it.

The lyric starts with,
"I come to this world with nothing. And I shall leave everything when I eventually return to heaven."

And I ponder..  RETURN?
As if we were there before.

But I thought of some verses like,

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.” Jer 1:5

"For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. "- Rom 8:29

"even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love he predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will",- Ephesians 1:4-5

I knew that we were somewhere inside Adam when he sinned. And therefore we have all sinned.
So we existed back then. But that was not Heaven. That was the earth.

But Adam came alive thru God's breath.
And within that divine breath, I suppose.. there was us- the super seed version of us.

I am not a theology expert, so I guess I maybe saying the wrong thing after all.
But I feel like even before the foundation of the world, we have already existed in Him.
He knew us, He chose us, He predestined us even before the world began.

And so this journey is never about reaching a foreign destination that we never know about.
This journey is truly a journey back to our home.
Where we once were, billion and billion of years ago.

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