Rise

this is my prayer in the harvest
when favor and providence flow
i know i am filled to be emptied again
the seed i received i will sow.
- desert song (hillsongs)



there are times when it seems like this life doesn't make much sense.
things falling apart. or just don't work out no matter what.
and you wonder if there is truly a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.
or if that pot of gold is truly worth waiting for after all.

like now.

and i ask God.. what to do with this chaos?
it seems though that His solution is always counter intuitive.
in the end, all I can do is to worship Him.

and somehow, worship recaptures the wonder.
the wonder and beauty of God himself.
worship shifts my focus from my worry to his glory.

and so God.. in this season,
I pray that You will strengthen my conviction.
and You will give me an undivided heart.
that all I see is You. Just like Uriah.

Uriah said to David, “The ark and Israel and Judah are staying in tents, and my commander Joab and my lord’s men are camped in the open country. How could I go to my house to eat and drink and make love to my wife? As surely as you live, I will not do such a thing!”
- 2 Samuel 11:11