..my battle stance..

ru guo xi huan shi mei you bu dui de, na wo hao xiang rang ni zhi dao cong na tian kai shi, cong di yi chi ni gen wo shuo hua yi jing you le na ge xi huan yi ge ren de gan jie xi huan man man de bian chen an lian ru guo an lian shi mei you bu dui de, na ni zhi dao ma? an lian ni yi dian dou bu rong yi, xin tong ye shi ping chang ye xu ni wan mei guo du le, er wo dang bu cheng ni de bai ma wang zhi an lian ye man man bian chen teng ai wo xiang teng ai ying gai shi dui de, shuo yi xi wang ni zhi dao ni qian de bu shi wo de shou, wo bu guan ye bu zhai hu wo de ai hui hao hao de pei zhe ni de xiao rong er yen lei yong yuan gai bian bu liao de

kalo sejak hari itu.. dia punya satu tempat yang teristimewa di hati ini tapi pasti dia ngga tau.. dan ngga perlu tau

'To love and to be loved aren't necessarily direct ratio I know getting hurt is also somekind of blessing'- Too Bad It Isn't You (Fish Leong) Just love this song =) maybe it's one of the biggest lessons I learn in 2005. Just wrote two paragraphs on this but deleted it. Will ponder on this when I have time. I was hooked to that song probably because on July 7th I coincidentally wrote this: --------------------------------------------------------------------- dan na ge ren bu shi ni.. sometimes.. i wish u r the one i can call when i feel like talking to someone n i wish u r the one whose voice i want to hear when i am down or i wish u r the one who i can ask to come n accompany me when its tough.. dan na ge ren bu shi ni.. i wish u r the one who know me more than anyone does it doesn't even matter if i am not the one you know the most n i wish u r the one who remember me more than anyone does it won't matter if i am not the one you remember the most or i wish...

okay its early but this is my evergrowing list.. let's see by the end of 2006.. how many are accomplished =D 1 . back to my manga drawing learning 2 . back to either my chinese or japanese course ~ tough one 3 . go to japan ~ kinda depend on mbun n my supervisor but come on God.. it's time 4 . finish up the cerpen project.. ~ this one have to 5 . regain fitness n lost weight lol ^^, nuff said 6 . complete a gud RPG ~ hey i know this isn't important but i juz need to do that 7 . write at least 12 episode of jejak angin ~ i managed to write 2.5 episode in 2005, so tough one also lah 8 . okay this is weird, but relating to goal no.7, learn about accupoints =P 9 . later..

isn't it strange? dreamt of Arsenal winning 4-0 last night and when i woke up, i found out that arsenal did win 4-0 last night.. shoot.. had this dream came a night earlier i would have found a way to pay for my japan's trip lol.. but well.. God is kind enough to make sure that my luck sucks when it comes to lucky draws, betting or whatever. so here are three things that i realize, as bad ass as i want to turn into, i can't do 1. drink - coz of that stupid allergic skin 2. gamble - er.. can't even win any lucky draw.. what u expect? 3. smoke - hurm.. juz can't stand the smoke.. that time at genting, the room was so full of smoke and after few hours, i felt pain in my lung.. now imagine if i were to smoke myself @@ well.. dunno if this is weakness or blessing but i guess it's a blessing. anyway.. dian n the gank are going to South Korea today. i didn't feel like wanting to go there previously but somehow i regret a bit now. sigh.. my chae rim ^^ i really real...

I miss tabulas's "currently listening to" feature.. anyway skrg lagi dengerin "Hebat"- nya tangga.. kau membuatku, merasa hebat... ^^ sebenernya personil2 tangga itu ga keren2 bgt seh.. ky penyanyi2 kafe yg kita sering liat.. maybe it's fate, ato erm.. hardwork.. anyway their songs are nice kok. jadi pengen lanjutin khayalan tadi siang =) on second thot.. laen kali deh =D 'mungkin butuh kursus merangkai kata, untuk bicara, dan aku benci harus jujur padamu.. tentang semua ini'- pelangi di matamu aneh juga.. waktu dulu sma, 'love' was all about that stupid phone call, and letters, and valentine's choc. jadi inget dulu, pas ikut LDK, somehow had a crush on anak kelas 3 smp. maseh inget namanya, carmelia!! heuehehe. pas itu 2 sma seh. trus yah..biasa d.. sesama cowo di kelas.. joked about it and all that. then tau2 satu hari ketemu dia, dia tersenyum malu2 gitu. uda mencium bau2 ga beres seh. ternyata the day before, my classmates rembukan ng...

gudness i've been itching and scratching like monkey for three or four days.. that's it!! my first found new year resolution: i shall drink no more than two glasses of whatever alcoholic at one time!! not that i like alcohol that much.. bleah.. okay.. i do like cocktails, champagne, ice wine, and barleys but.. i can live without them ^^ are you still touched when you realize that God has prepared for your tiniest need every day? i was without umbrella yesterday and it rained so hard as i came out of the mrt. i met mbun to get a dvd and he asked me how would i get a cab. before i knew it, my mouth has uttered out 'we'll see'. and as i walked away.. it crossed my mind 'He will provide' but moments later, i stood there, feeling hopeless. no taxis around and rightly so, that place was never a taxi stand. surely a pretty girl can bet on a chance that a desperate guy offering her to share umbrella but not the other way around @@.. so my only option was to walk hom...

The 23th Watched Narnia on the Friday nite, thanx Jo for the treat =D Well the movie is not that bad if you can set your mind to think the way a 12-year-old would, in fact it would make a sweet fairy tale. But for adults the movie is just too straightforward and plain. I like Lucy though. And I like the part Aslan walked away after the coronation of the four kids. Lucy had wanted Aslan to stay but Tumnus told Lucy that Aslan isn't a tame lion. He comes and goes as he wishes. But one thing for sure, He will definitely be back. So is God. He is not a tame God who you can order to bless you as you wish, whose presence you can demand as you see fit and so on. But one thing for sure, He'll be there in your time of need. The 24th Had a good lunch at Siam Kitchen with housemates and ended up spending er.. 21$!! Well the food is not bad though. It's not cheap but then the six main dishes should guarantee you a full stomach. Initially planned to watch Guo Jing and whatever vcd/dvd I...

"Tapi kamu ngga pernah nulis tentang dia" kata seorang teman. Aku ngga pernah nulis tentang kamu, dan aku ngga ngerti kenapa. Jadi aku coba menulis tentang kamu. Aku selalu berpikir, yang namanya cinta, harus bisa membangkitkan satu rasa yang ngga biasa. Jantung yang berdetak lebih kencang, atau yang seakan berhenti berdetak. Waktu aku memikirkan kamu, seharusnya aku akan tersenyum, atau menangis. Dulu.. pernah kualami itu, karena kamu. Sebenarnya, setiap kali kamu lakukan hal yang terkecil untuk aku, aku alami itu. Ada sms yang ngga pernah aku rela hapuskan. Ada percakapan msn yang ngga pernah rela aku hapuskan. Tapi itu pun sudah kuhapus. Aku percaya, diantara dua orang yang saling cinta, ada satu yang lebih banyak memberi dan ada satu yang lebih banyak menerima. Satu yang lebih peka dan satu yang kurang. Satu yang memperhatikfan dan satu yang diperhatikan. Dan perlahan waktu akan mengajar yang kurang untuk mengimbangi yang lebih. Mungkin.. kita ngga akan pernah bisa bersam...

Yesterday, me and some of my cell-mates went to help out with the Katong Hostel Christmas Celebration. Our church team up with CornerStone again. I like CornerStone people. They are humble and passionate. So I was paired up with Ethan to take on block E of the hostel. The block got 2 level and I suggested to start with second level for no particular reason. As it turned out, NOBODY wanted to join the event. Ethan was quite anxious by that point. He kept saying 'oh no.. we have finished this level and no one joining'. Maybe those NUS days got me used to rejection but somehow even during the prayer time, I can feell that overflowing joy. I was so sure we will get someone. But I said nothing. So we walked down to the 1st level. And ain't God sweet? Suddenly we got a Cambodian who signed up. He in turn informed us that his friends also want to join. Five of them in total. And there is another one joining later on. All from the first level, the last level we went to. Out of curi...

Hmm let's see.. I like tabulas but the image hosting limit is really a drawback so here I am with my new home I know the name phoenixsphere is a bit hard but its okay. Not meant to be found and known. And coz I still feel a lot like posting the two characters from the very impressive Final Fantasy Advent Children.. so here they are: Tifa Lockheart who looks a bit like a J-pop star but i couldn't exactly point out who And of course.. Yuffie Kisaragi who is as kawaii as ever with her shuriken