..my battle stance..

i already have one. 'be like a good singaporean and always pay for my parking coupon'

Luv dis song! would have wanted to put up the clip but it is apparently too juicy =P Womanizer - Britney Spears If Britney could make such a comeback, well.. so could we! ;) Like her, we might have missed a dozen of opportunities, wasted our life away, made bad decisions and a big mess.. though may not be that close to being insane like her ^^ but knowing that we are still breathing, we can confidently say, 'it's not finished!' as we learn from Ratatouille, not everyone can make a loud comeback, but such a comeback could come from anyone. having followed the Arsenal for 12 years, i suppose this is the first time i have to admit that my team is in a mess. to put it bluntly, 'they are lousy'. but i wouldn't bet against them making a comeback. people close to me, some of them are in deep mess, as deep as being drug addict. and me.. i am not much better either. but if Britney could pull it off, so could we! so with God's grace, i am looking forward to an excitin...

I closed my 2007 with 'Wild at heart' in mind. Obviously my 2008 has not been 'wild' enough. And as if i am being given a reminder, my 2008 will close with 'Yes Man' in mind. Jim Carrey's latest movie is a purposeful movie that reminds us of the good ol message. 'ships are not made to decorate the harbour'. and men are not made to play safe. who is to decide that photos must not be blur? who is to decide that life must be lived in certain way? everytime we say no to a challenge, we keep away from danger and along with that, opportunity. and when we say yes, we expose ourselves to risks, and along with that, opportunity. But Yes Man's biggest lesson is not that we must learn to say Yes. The challenge is to be able to say what your heart believe, even if others say otherwise, even if your mind says otherwise. it's true that by being different, we risk losing our allies and supports. it's true that we risk making the wrong choice and being m...

hah, am watching CNA and out of sudden, an amusing latest news popped out: 173 People Trapped in Singapore Flyer. Heh.. I wonder how it feels.. I wonder if anyone is making his 'marry me' proposal inside. it must be memorable. but it has to happen at one time or another. in fact this was the 2nd or 3rd time for Singapore flyer to halt. and in a positive note.. it makes for a good image. it exudes 'unpredictability'.. something singapore is somewhat lacking. it gives you that extra expectation when you get inside the flyer, "woah.. i wonder if the flyer would go haywire and i woould get trapped" that's the beauty of life rite ;) just like how Arsenal would win a trophy this season heh

The God I Know - City Harvest Church One of the most wonderful songs I ever heard. Lyric: when the stage is bare tonite there's noone else just you and me when the curtains close behind there's no pretence i'm on my knees i'll lay down my life for this love sacrifice You gave to me its all because of You all because of You the God i know righteous and holy the God i know is faithful and true the God i know my tower of refuge Hearts are healed Christ revealed.. the God i know light of the city the God i know strengthens the weak the God i know Your heart beats within me As You are, so are we.. This is my cry my one desire more of You more of You the church He knows righteous and holy the church He knows faithful and true the church He knows a tower of refuge Hearts are healed Christ revealed.. the church He knows light of the city the church He knows strengthens the weak the church He knows is strong and mighty as He is, so are we..

When I have spare time, I read thru some silly debates that take place in one of the mailing lists I joined. The debates are not worth participating, but I am quite interested to express my thought on certain stuff. "Indon"- due to the origin of the word, 'indon' (short form of Indonesian) is deemed offensive. many Indonesians are unhappy being called indon and make noise. Well.. I am one of those who don't bother. Why? I grew up getting used to be YELLED AT, 'Oi Cina, Cina!'. Do you see us Indonesian Chinese getting mad and post our concern in all the forums? No.. we choose to focus on getting better. though originally 'indon' had that bad meaning, when Singaporean call us indon, they simply call us that because they assume that's the right word (and i believe it sounds more natural to them, compared to 'indo'). because the word 'indonesian' also ends with 'n'. but when our fellow Indonesian call us 'Cina'? it...

not reading news lately, but picked up on the madoff story: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bernard_Madoff heh we got the same bday. madoff is somewhat similar to kiyosaki. everyone thought he was a brilliant investor, turned out to be a brillian liar. the difference is.. kiyosaki did not break the law the way madoff did. kiyosaki also didn't 'steal', he only pretended to be rich when he wrote his famous book (of course he is really rich now). so how do these people trick everyone? well.. because the majority of us tend to believe that all those high-flying investment bankers & investors really know what they are doing. and because we all want to be rich and richer. there is a good article on sat paper that mentioned madoff. of course not that people will learn from this. proof: no matter how many time the pyramid scheme comes out, people will still rush for the scheme, and got cheated in the end.

the other day i went to our somerset home for cleaning. there was only one room occupied that day, a room occupied by an Indian family. a man, his wife, and his mum. i was surprised when i saw a bible-like book on the table. i flipped thru the book, and saw a dove picture, i thot, "a bible indeed". it was noon and the mum was the only one at home. we talked while i cleaned. and after a moment, she asked me what i ate for breakfast. i ate pasta.. devi's last cooking for me bfore she went to airport (and missed her plane =P ) then she asked me if i wanted to try south indian noodle. afraid of being served a strange meal, i turned down her offer politely. but mums being mums.. they always know how to make you say yes. so finally.. i agreed. indeed the noodle tasted weird =P thanks God i was taught not to be picky on food, so i could finish it ^^ at least i know now how the original south indian noodle tastes. and then she said something that touched my heart. "i cooked ...

at the corner of your casual smile is the inevitable farewell.. at the end of your gently spoken words is the unanswered question.. are you too fast to leave, am i too slow to let go? are you too fast to break a smile, or am i too slow to hide this tear? i could have sang a thousand songs, and could have played a hundred acts, only to realise that i am singing the same tune, and i never walked away from that stage. not because i can't see beyond the fence, only because.. you are my sky.

because it's Christmas (and in Christmas time you tell the truth) to me.. you are perfect and my wasted heart will love you.. still

Classic Kungfu Movie! Standard storyline but the fighting scenes are.. aaowwweeesomeeee... Makes me want to learn Wing Chun ^^

the challenge now.. is to be able to regain the gentleness of heart, while retaining the coldness and soundness of mind

"Being in politics is costly.. in order to do something good, you may need to stain your hands. But I.. I do not want to teach the children that there is 'necessary evil' in the society!" - Asakura Keita (Kimura Takuya). CHANGE- A politic dorama I am starting to watch. From the first 10 minutes I knew I would love this one. Hmm... politics... what is the chance of us, the children of the Almighty, stepping into politics and make a difference?

1. Free your heart from hatred 2. Free your mind from worry 3. Live simple. 4. Give more. 5. Expect less. and above all.. have Jesus in you.

From the first time I heard from Linda, I suppose at least three years had passed. Maybe more. And only tonight did I get to watch the movie.. I know it's only a movie, and 999 out of 1000 couples that I would know may not have come together in the most serendipitious way. but if only there are two persons who bet on the 1 in a thousand chance.

astaga... ampe ga inget klip aslinya lagu legendaris ini tuh ky gini..

because rainbow seldom appear in full circle, because moon is crescent for many nights, because falling in love isn't always a fairy tale, because we could have so naturally.. fallen for each other.

that's my theme of the day. there were many things that i see and i dun quite understand today. as we walked out of the church, we saw three persons, and i mumbled 'i dun understand'. dian laughed and asked me what i dun understand. obviously, for some reasons that i also dun understand, dian often seems to know what i am thinking. 'i dun understand' how this man was hanging around with that lady and her boyfriend. but maybe dian was right, there could just be some reasons to that. yeah i know you won't understand what i am saying either. we had our lunch at nana thai, and as we walked out, ah girl asked me, "so how is my friend, is she interesting?" her friend is the type of girl that, in my opinion, is not especially pretty but particularly interesting. there is another type of girl who is pretty but not attractive. i also dun understand why. but the biggest mystery of the day was the TWILIGHT! okay.. maybe the novel was suppose to be much better. i ...

Why is it alright to call someone fat, ugly, or stupid.. but it is not okay to speak of his race?

"in this very short time we are living in.. we have to find one thing. that is.. a dream that is worth fighting for" - W, the super hot coach. it struck me that I am 28 soon, meaning.. I have lived almost half as long as my dad does. in 2-3 years time, I will probably be stuck in the whole process of marriage and family. and in 20-30 years time, there is chance that I would sit down, wondering how I have wasted my life.

Sharing my umbrella with a sweet Myanmar girl- who speaks very good English, on my way to SMU. And playing 'ugly doll' with batch fivers at settlers cafe.. its fun guys ^^

Disclaimer: I am only putting down the email I receive because I thought it was amusing. I would like to strongly advise anyone who read the stuff below, not to be interested and purchase their product. Please don't be greedy, don't be a thief, and most importantly, don't be stupid. Here's the amusing email: Kami menawarkan kepada Anda sesuatu yang luar biasa, yakni Kartu Kredit Bebas Akses (KKBA). KKBA merupakan selembar kartu yang dapat menarik uang tunai ( CASH ADVANCE ) di semua ATM berlogo Visa di mana saja dan kapan saja, tanpa harus mempunyai uang di rekening Bank manapun. Namun sebelumnya perkenalkan diri saya terlebih dulu. Saya adalah seorang mantan karyawan sebuah bank ternama di Asia . Selama bekerja, saya ditugaskan untuk membuat kartu kredit dan kartu debit untuk para nasabah. Setelah 6 tahun saya bekerja, saya dan beberapa rekan kerja di berhentikan dengan tiba-tiba. Dengan penuh kecewa, maka kami bertekad untuk "balas dendam" pada perusahaan a...

A beautiful song, recommended by vivy. Any singer who comes up with an album title like 'we sing, we dance, we steal things' must be special. Mraz is. And the last sentence spoken on the phone at the end of the song is interesting: "youre an island of reality and im an ocean of diarrhoea"

i have spoken of my dreams so many time but.. at the end of the day.. it is the result that counts. even if i stand in front of mirror everyday and claim to be the next warren buffet, i don't think it would happen this way. not without a dedicated strong mind, not without an undivided heart pumping with faith, not without the thirteen knights, time to silently arise and build.

for the last 20 minutes, i have been staring at the blank blog template, pondering from topic to topic. i realise i have nothing i really feel like saying. well i do have quite a number of stuff to criticise (i always do heh), but it's thanksgiving season, it's december.. it's not time to bring anyone down. and i have not been jealous or angry with anyone as well, i am disappointed with some people that i love but.. it's thanksgiving season, so thanks God that they are still around me. thanks God.. yeah I guess that's the only thing worth mentioning tonight. that God has been good. He has been insensibly, unreasonably, unconditionally, unfailingly good. thanks Jesus.

despite all the sweet talks and inspiring speeches, many of us would end up surrendering to the thought of, "if only i have lots of money.." and it's sad that it's a fact, though as the wise say, "fact is not always truth" there are few type of persons who could see beyond this fact, the very little kids who do not know the value of money, the warring third world country civilians who would not even know if they will live tomorrow, and probably, the very old folks who have tried and seen it all.

well.. i thought for some of you out there who have been downloading or streaming naruto over the past three or four years like me, those who have been enjoying the excellent work of those dattebayo folks.. you may like to go to their website and read the press release on their intention to stop subbing the series. they have made some prank releases but this one appears to be the real one heh. and even if it is another fake one, i thought i would just like to say how thankful i am to these people, whom I never meet.. but have given me something to look forward to every thursday. anyway.. here's the press release:::: Welcome my friends, my enemies, and those whom I do not yet know. Let's sit and talk for a while, you and me. We haven't talked in some time. Let's explore the past a little, and chat about the present and future. Naruto has been around for a very long time now. When I started downloading fansubs in early 2003, Naruto was already past its 20th episode. I use...

they all try to say it beautifully, but why.. why do i only long for your voice? the beauty of your every word, and your silence..

we had unexpected guests today. two women from the church of holy mother came. one middle aged korean and one somewhat younger chinese. if only they sent a pretty korean like bigung mama, i would have welcomed them in and listen to their preaching heh. after a few rounds of banter, the korean knew that she would be wasting her time convincing me. and i know that i will be wasting my time too educating her. because she will listen but will never understand. but at the end of the day, i can only feel ashamed.. that these people, totally clueless about the God they worship, yet fully committed to preach their 'good news'.

i will divide my sense of longing, into thousands of pieces, and fold them into paper planes.. sending them to you, hoping that you will come to me with the other half of the moon. - corner with love -

let's roll the dice once more, let's let the earth dance for two more rounds, let's see if our fate is really entangled. take the chance, shall we?

'do you want that badly to fit in?' the girl asked niko. that is the issue in 'sexy voice n robo' last episode. 'i will always think of myself as my own ally.' that is robo's final statement. 'maybe someday in future, just like stars that drift closer and then further apart from each other, maybe one day.. i will draw closer to him once again.' that is niko's final statement, even though she was almost in love with the man. in this world, there are people who are not meant to fit in. people who do things differently, love differently, and live differently. we may have walked our separate ways. but one day we will cross paths. because we share the same destiny.

i have not gone to blinky mummy's blog for more than a year. when i was working at ebooksys, i would check out her blinkymummy.blogspot.com every day. i thought she was one of the more interesting lady bloggers around. dun always agree with her, often disagree, but still.. she belongs to the category of ladies i tend to admire. the first time i read her blog.. she was a regular smoker. the last time i read her blog.. she was well in the process of quitting, living happily with her 'good fren' and cats. and today... well.. i was expecting to see a post of her usual daily life. only to find out that she is now taking her MBA at the UK with her 'good fren'. fwah.. i is surprised. sometimes you take it for granted that something would remain the same for yonks, only to find out that.. that is simply not possible. and it better be. because life is an adventure.

because my idea of year end movie is something like 'cape no 7'. and my idea of meaningful holiday is a train journey to tibet, or a road trip across new zealand. and my perfect home is a ranch or a vineyard. so i guess i will wait for the unlikely.

i love my country, but if my country can't be bothered, what to do? *shrugs* May God heals their chronic stupidity. and blesses them with at least half of Solomon's wisdom.

i like the pianists!!!! ^^

Great event, professional, great crowds. CHC being CHC, they even provide dinner for registered participant and free drink for all. Let's skip on the part we don't realy like about their way of doing things heh. Went last night, True Worshippers led the opening worship, and they did a great job. Don Moen sang two songs, followed by some testimonies.. and a supposedly famous Swede singer called Carole sang two songs as well. They sang a wonderful song titled 'the God i know'.. from CHC latest album. What I like about their songs is that they carry the vision of the church. Ulf Elkman was the preacher of the night, never a great fan of him but he is an energetic speaker with powerful anointing. Glad that he touches on the silly idea that is quite common in charismatic church. He said that you need to have relationship with someone for his annointing to be imparted to you. You can't just go to a Benny Hinn or any great man of God that you don't have any relationshi...

ask yourself whether you have truly been humble, or have you been intentiously humbling yourself, knowing that others will respond with compliments to you. because even if most people can't see the difference, some people could, and honestly.. when you do that too often, it's quite sad to watch.

one of human's biggest enemy, is his/her insecurity.. i'm fighting my own insecurity all the time. in the past, some bad remarks or insults would hurt me. i was also easily affected by people's reaction.. friska's sharing today reminds me of that. i could have given up the ministry i love most.. and also my dreams. but i believe now that my days are secure in His hands. and that no matter what they say, it won't stop me from running my race of destiny. i am learning not to be concerned with what others think, and to fix my eyes and heart on what my Potter thinks. in fact i welcome all the humiliation and grinding, a chinese proverb says, 'iron continuously grounds become a needle'. with persistence, through trial, we will achieve greatness.

A b C D E F g h i J k L m n O p q r s t u v w x y z eight out of 26. and of all letters, C seems to be of the highest occurance.

no matter how hard you cry, no matter how much it means to you now, no matter how you promise, you will forget. as much as you'd like to make it forever, time will prove that you are simply being naive. because the world will forget. even if it acts like it cares.

few days ago darvin was telling us stories about the author of 'blue ocean strategy', the man who gave advises to Nintendo when they intended to create a new console to rival playstation. sony's console was definitely winning the lion shares of the market then and nintendo was living in its past glory. they could have come up with something as good as playstation but then.. the author argued, what's the point? so he advised them to target different segment of market- the working adults and even older folks probably. the result of his vision was.. Nintento Wii. I guess it's a wonderful thing to see the aunties and professional adults unwind after their hectic days with Wii. the console has its own strength that neither playstation nor xbox could touch. well done. blue ocean strategy itself is a business strategy book that promotes a systematic approach "for making the competition irrelevant". sounds awesome. it's clearly a departure from chinese' bu...

all birds have eyes, but an eagle has vision. we heard about vision thingy many times, but pst daniel chua's sermon today was inspiring, and i pray that as kong hee always says.. let those words not only be inspiration but a revelation in our lives. because i have had enough of all those motivational talks, all those pep talks in camps, all those tears and fire that only last for few months. daniel chua's two days sermons are both heartwarming and heart-stirring. it's important to have vision. without vision, we will just be drifting along. and tonight we come up with a silly vision when we ate at "founder" bakkut teh. the vision is to have my photo hanging on that wall in three years time =P whatever it takes ^^

"hero is just adult's fantasy of someone they could never be" -niko (sexy voice and robo) this movie sure has many side points that are interesting, though may not always be totally true.

the measure of our strength is not tested through victories, but through defeat. the best soldiers are not those who never fall into trap, but those who have what it takes to overcome traps and falls.

.. .. because people will only listen to what they want to hear..

went to bayshore park today to meet a client. at the clubhouse where there is this canteen called.. erm.. dolphina? and it feels like.. ages and ages ago. oboiteru?

phew.. ilodge has been running and leaping, what began as a small project has started to become bigger and bolder. when we started, we had to say it times and again, "we don't own any room.. we are just facilitating the booking!" we don't earn much from those bookings (like $10?), we are pretty much helping people heh. but now.. we are about to have our first unit HERE TAdaaa!! no complicated business proposal or cashflow analysis or best-laid plan bla bla bla. three of us just jump into it.. oh boy.. we gotta start praying ^^ but i believe in the business that was founded with people in mind. i believe that when you conduct the business with good intention, God will take care of the cashflow, the money will come. and i will forever remember the advise by some guy interviewed by strait times. he said his mum used to tell him, "follow your passion, and the money will follow". well said.

Fun. With lots of wonderful casts and some babes ^^ Vanessa Hudgens could kill with her eyes and smile. Ashley Tisdale is entertaining. But if it were me.. I would ask Olesya Rulin to go prom with me instead. I guess Hudgens would be Lana in Smallville, while Rulin has that Chloe-ness in her. Not a fantastic beauty but yeah.. my kind of girl i guess. Final words: I don't know where to start but I know where I want to end. At the stage. The centre stage. Some people just come alive on the stage I guess.

my manager keeps telling us the same thing.. focus on the big thing. focus. focus! and i keep making the same mistakes, i waste my time on small things, on cases that aren't worthy of all the effort put in. because.. i guess when the small things are all you can see, it's difficult to let go of all these small things you are holding, in order to pursue a big goal that you have yet to touch and taste. many facts in this world seem to reflect truth in our relationship with God. often, we also need to be able to give up the small things that fill up our life, in order to give space to the bigger plans that God has for us. it takes a sound mind, and a big heart.. to do that. sigh..

Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom (Psalm 90:12) Some say that the question for david is not: "why did you sleep with Bathsheba?" but rather "why were you not among your armies in the battlefield?" so it's not the question of "why did you do that?" but it's of "why were you even there?" But maybe, even more accurately.. it's not "why are you here?" but.. "are you supposed to be here now?" Many times the question is not whether we are in the right place, it's not whether it's right for us to be or not to be in certain place.. but whether.. it is the right time to be or not to be there. there is time for everyting, it is said. there is time for kings to rest, but definitely spring was not the time for david to rest. it was the time for war. there is time for us to be seen in a pub or bar or night club, trust me. there is even time for us to be absent from church, heh...

today i went for my haircut, again. so naturally.. i met caely, again. and i notice that she got a ring on her right hand's finger, whatever that means. ^^ and i realise that.. i really love watching her expression, when her eyes brightened up occasionally as she focused on her work. or when those lively pair of eyes blinked. i have weakness for lively eyes, they captivate me. she is a bit too skinny but.. i like the way she dress up everytime i see her. i love watching her thin fingers moving as she cut my hair. her makeup is alright, and i like the curls of her hair. isn't it good to be able to appreciate someone like that, without having any agenda or plan. sometimes it's good to be free. but i would love to fall in love soon. because it's better to share this world.

there are few things i can never understand.. a no-no in my dictionary. and this is one of them =P

Arghhh I am so gonna watch this moviee!!!! I must be crazy if I miss them... Still Together.. still Lost! what a poetic catchline.

if i have a time machine inside my drawer, i will ride back to the morning, of the day i would be meeting you.. and i will tell that 19 years old boy, you will soon be meeting, the little fairy of your dream. i will tell him,, you'll be meeting the only angel who could make you smile like a free sparrow. if i have a time machine inside my drawer, i will ride back to the morning, of the day i would be meeting you..

Sexy Voice and Robo. (japanese dorama dari mysoju, as usual) meskipun judulnya gituh, pelem ini sangat jauh dari kemesuman huehuehue. jadi buat yg nyari pelem mesum, pelem ini akan sangat mengecewakan. tapi buat yg pernah ntn geisha the movie, dan fall in love sama si anak kecilnya itu, spt saya contohnya, you might be interested to find out how she looks like setelah sdikit lbh gede. ga seimut dulu seh.. tapi tetep manis somehow. baru nyadar kalo dia lahir taon 93, jadi lebih muda dari member genk imut yg terimut sekalipun. dan cowo pemeran utamanya.... you will be surprised to find out who he is. Emank hebat aktor yg satu inih. tiap episod ngebahas hal yg berbeda2 ttg kehidupan, ada yg ttg cinta, ada jg yg ttg makna idup. "is it better to have unique talent and being different from the rest of the world.. or is it better to be ordinary, just like everyone else, with nothing special about you?" begitu kira2 salah satu pertanyaan si cewe ini.

just another thought on our behavior, being human. its a fact that we all know actually. humans tend to care more when they are given important position and responsibility. in an organisation, you can often see the huge difference in someone's attitude when he/she is handed an important role. well.. there are those who can't handle important roles of course.. but there are those who can only be at their best when they have such roles. the true blue sanguine who live for spotlight moments. the ones who usually don't attend regular meetings, are now the regular attendants, even encouraging others to join. the ones who talk about quitting are now cheerleading. =)

I think my bro's wedding gonna be the last wedding I attend this year. So sorry to Torisu-Chan that I won't be able to attend her wedding. Sorry sis.. i gotta be back here earlier than expected. gomennn... It's quite funny to have an uncle that is only 4 years older than you. and when that uncle is closer to your heart compares to your cousins, that is even more strange. And when that uncle marries your hiskul mate, and now you are calling her 'auntie', that's a total chaos heh. i think this uncle of mine, who i address 'bro'.. is an interesting person. he has his own shortcomings, and along with that.. his virtues. a filial son, a playful boy even when he reaches 30, a good heart, a cunning mind.. he can befriends anyone- from the light or dark side, never too bothered about pride or status. maybe he is a true wanderer at heart, a linghu chong. the wedding ceremony was okay.. him being him.. he wasn't too bothered with the details.. as long as it...

"My friends, there are no friends"- Coco Chanel. taken from oline's msn nick.. i thot that was an interesting statement. any woman who comes up with such statement is definitely worth observing, worth respecting. because beyond the laughter and everything.. friendship is often only as thick as a dollar note. do you think it's a coincidence that many businesses that begin with friendship, end in animosity? we would be making a big mistake if we throw the 'friendship factor' into equation when we start a business partnership. 'friendship' shall never be in. it is never an asset. and at times, it can be an liability. but when you treat it as a possible liability, i am quite sure you will be much safer. simply put.. in the eye of friendship, business shall never be made important. and in the eye of business, friendship shall never be made important.

so which is worse, to mock at your friend, heartlessly undermine him/her, or to lose your cool in certain situation and accidentally curse (at no one) with the four letter word? if you are inside a church, i believe the later is considered the greater sin. because those church leaders are excused to come up with cynical comments, they are excused to make a sad joke out of people, they are allowed to be unreasonable and boastful (as long as they got the skill).. but they shall never say any of those dirty words- they are dead meat if such words come out from their mouth in the public. no wonder the outside world call us ____________

there are stars that never fail to shine, and you don't even need to search for them, because no matter what, you will never fail to notice them. well.. you are that kind of star. happy birthday jend!!!!! =) may God blesses you with greater faith n wisdom, and assurance in the fact that.. you are the very precious princess of His, and He is well pleased with you.. may God blesses you with greater talent, and along with that.. generosity and humility, be a faithful servant of His. and may His will be done in your life, completely.

1999 was in many ways, one of the greatest years in my life, if not the greatest one. graduated from high school, the only family trip that we ever had, to taiwan (and all paid by the boss), got into UPH's Teknik Industri for 6 months, a great 6 months.. and God captured me there. ultimately.. got the scholarship and come to this island. And during the prayer session tonight.. something.. like a small voice.. struck me. something about.. 2009. OH AND I CLAIM THAT BY FAITH! 2009.. will be my next greatest year! I dunno what will happen in 2009 yet. But I know it will be the greatest year ever.. Just wait and watch! God.. once again.. let's go for overdrive!

Ternyata elsa bener.. pertama dgr ga suka albumnya. setelah dgr 2 kali, jadi find out ada some outstanding songs in the album. I think the best one would be 'Nu Er Hong", judul aja keren Somehow ky ada unsur K-pop nya, but i am not sure too. heh. And the next one jadi ingetin gua sama fa talent show taon lalu. Darwin's fa and their doraemon heh. jay chou ga jelas jadi apa.. kynya deskisugi, tapi gitarnya ada doraemon seh

this is what i notice.. neither alarm clock nor morning appointments could make me wake up early. even when i work 8.30-6pm for govt, i would be late for work. and the reason i sleep a lot, including during office hour, is neither obessity nor laziness. (though it contributes a lil bit there) it's the lack of expectation. the absence of excitement for everyday's wonder. in short.. i was bored. i had been bored for a long.. long.. time. but over the last few days, i would wake up on time, even when i turned in late the night before. because every morning, there is just this strange expectation in me that drive me out of my bed. "today is gonna be great".. that kind of thought. not that anything has changed.. but it's like there is this joy that God wrapped inside my heart. may this excitement stays forever =)

Wah.. drinking ice water can actually help reducing weight. I got hope! ^^ Good article here

astaga.. imut sekali dia..

Hari ini saya baru percaya, kalau ternyata ada cewe yang semanis itu, dan lebih tinggi dari gua!! @_@ dan.. orang MEDAN ^^ *almost-love-at-first-sight-mode*

listening to this song, i wonder why it makes me sad, elsaaa... lu recommend lagu yg ngga ngga wakaka =P eh cewenya cakepppp btw, cewe gua banget lol

Twenty two years old of us, full of expectation and dreams, we promised to be happy.. Thirty two years old of us, barely recognising each other's voices, we made promises.. are we happy?

kadang ngerasa lucu aja ngeliat kebiasaan manusia, atau ini cuman especially berlaku buat orang2 indo ya? kayanya beberapa taon lalu, gua ngga pernah tau ada cara pemakaian bahasa indonesia gini: "gua seh okay aja nonton di vivo SECARA gua kantornya di sekitar sana" ntah emank aslinya emank bisa dipake kaya gitu, ato ini salah satu contoh fenomena org indo. kalau dipake rame2, pokoqnya tau2 gaya bhs ini jadi resmi aja. yg lebih ajaib lagi, gaya ngetiknya you-know-who, makaNA, biasaNA.. gua ga tau jg benernya gaya ini sapa yg nemuin, tapi tau2 ini gaya jg jadi memasyarakat (di sekitar gua doank seh).. bahkan ada cowo yg ngetiknya ky gitu jg. ermm ga tau seh.. kalo cewe somehow gua rasa okay, tapi kalo cowo.. err.. kynya kalo cowo mending jgn ilangin Y nya ^^ but who am i to say that yah well, kynya intinya seh.. asal rame2 ngelakuinnya, apa aja okay deh

we all know that we could never turn back time.. we are smart enough to know that. but.. if only.. if only we can relive the moment, even if it is for one deceiving night. wouldn't it be something?

this is the last chance to make it right..

didn't know that i would be that tired last night, cold sweat was all over me by the time i reached home, and my sleep was far from comfortable, i was struggling to breathe at 4AM, the one thing that crossed my mind when i woke up in the morning was.. "i gotta sms CK or whoever it is, and ask him to replace me.. " but the next thing that crossed my mind was ko omar's sermon on Your house. even if i wasn't serving today, even if i am not doing a good job.. how could i not long for Your house? as it is written, "the zeal for Your house consumes me", so it shall happen.. i thought. forcing myself to shower, i felt that strength started to flow in. i know that it's You. even if the strength was only enough to carry me thru the service, that was enough. for i would rather boast in my weakness, instead of my strengh. for in my weaknesses, Your grace shines thru. when You let the lowest of them all to stand in Your sanctuary, what else could i ask for? noth...

oh my gosshhh.. mao pingsan rasanyaa @_@

Feb 2008, I wrote this on the blog: entering 2008.. I asked God what is in store for me this year. not many clear hints but.. something inside me told me that there would be more travelling. well.. maybe. if i return to my hometown for YOUR wedding! hah ^^ or if i also make the trip to Makasar for Iwan's. and if the Israel trip does take place. but now.. i sense the storm. no, sense is not the word. i see it. And here we are, Oct 2008. The israel trip didnt take place but i am surely travelling a lot this year. the storm? Just check out the newspaper =P the storm in every sense of my life. so this is how it feels.. when you are stripped off every little treasure that you have. what can i say? this is what i will say.. God, He freely gives, and He freely takes, Glory be unto Him.

there is a time when there is absolutely nothing to write, you just sit down and.. phew.. blank. anyway.. as we all know, kong hee has indonesian root, and yesterday, i read that kong hee graduated from NUS's computer science at 24. Well.. sounds similar so far. but at 27, he earned his 'master of divinity' title. that's where the path began to look different. not that i have interest to build a megachurch like he did, and it's not my calling and talent anyway, but.. must admit that this guy is someone i look up to. paul says that you can have many teachers but one father, spiritual father. hmm... i dun think i have found mine. and i have no plan to be a chc member as well.

some common facts i find in my job: - if someone call and ask you to find her a property, and never follow with sms/calls to ask you how the progress is.. the chance is that she engaged many agents. - if you got a client who would sms/call you every day asking for update, and suddenly one day she does not respond to your sms for more than two hours.. the chance is that she has found her unit. - the number and detail of questions a client ask you before she agrees to a viewing appointment shows her level of trust. the more she trusts you, the less she asks. - being nice is not good enough, being good is. u simply have to be good in your job, and coldheaded in ur judgment. - it's only business.

one will never know what it means to make God his all, until he reaches a point where God is all that he has.

It's a movie with stylish plot that creates mess out of nothing. The wonderful thing about the movie is that it doesn't pretend to be a smart movie, it plainly admits its absurdness and nonsense. I was struggling to understand the movie for the first 20-30 minutes. I found the early part of the movie to be rather tedious. But once we get to the part where Brad Pitt talks about their new discovery, a top secret 'shit' that could change his fortune- I knew I was on for a fun ride. The story is mainly about ordinary people who try to be better and happier folks, using their own ways and means. And in reality, some people truly go thru crazy and absurd ways just to be better and happier.

"I thought you might be worried...about the security...of your shit" (Brad Pitt in Burn After Reading). More on the movie later..

I still remember the first time I met your mother. Went to your house with my first Christmas gift for you. Then, I was only a melancholic young boy who was simply too easily hurt, just like them. Never good with presents, a Christmas-tree-shaped-chocolate was all I could think of. I don't remember exactly what was said between me and your mum. I only remember you weren't home, and I remember that she was nice. That was almost.. seven years ago? Apart from that moment.. I don't recall any other time when we spoke one-to-one. So how fitting it is.. that the next moment we spoke one-to-one, was on your day. This one.. I remember very clearly. I wasn't sure that she really knows or remembers me. So I was surprised when my eyes met her friendly eyes. And as we shook hands, she warmly held my hand, not letting go. She smiled and asked, "When is your turn?" And I was as dumbfounded as I would when I were with you. I wonder how much you told her, but it seemed like s...

i said it before, didn't i? i didn't have such talent.

i wish the spaceship from Wall-E's movie suddenly appear tonight, decide that i am an important specimen to their whatever study, and take me off to wherever as long as its not on earth... for a week or so. let's put it that way.

"She is not too bright. She is not a looker. She is slow, stubborn.. Sometimes I don't know what to do about her.. Dakedo.. To me...She is the best woman in the whole world. Because for the one she loves, she is willing to sacrifice anything." Kenji speaking of his imoto, Yasuko. Cheesy lines.. but it got me thinking.. if I ever.. ever.. fall in love with such a character.. I guess I also dunno what to do about it. Oh well..

For [it is] not [the man] who praises and commends himself who is approved and accepted, but [it is the person] whom the Lord accredits and commends. 2 Corinthians 10:18 If we'd like to take credit, let's take credit for God. for what is the significance if we praise ourselves?

She was one of those girls who was neither ugly nor outstanding. In the big city where she lived, a girl of her characteristics was not too difficult to find. Her house was just as common. You would've missed the small alley had you walked a little bit faster. And once you walk into that small alley, you would have difficulty in recognising one house from the other. But for her family, a roof was all they could ask for. Ever since they migrated to this city, they were only counting on her income to keep them alive from day to day. She had not been too successful in her job as well. The high flyers in her profession dealt with important clients, enjoyed luxury living and stayed at one of those posh houses downtown. Luck came to her once in a blue moon. Luxury was something she couldn't afford to dream of. All she wanted was a stable income to feed her family. So to have two wanted men hidden in her house was not exactly what she had prayed for when she asked for blessing. And ev...

Lesson of the day: If a more talented fella humiliate you, take it as a motivation to better yourself. And remember not to do the same to the less talented people. Anyway.. no viewing this afternoon means i could watch Golden Path, and wow.. it was the last episode heh. i expected everyone to die so i was ready for the tragedy. and glad to know that at least felicia chin's character didn't die. and she still loves Jin Long to the end. that's how it should be ;) never settle for the next just because you gotta move on. Golden Path's OST felt bad for mr J for another missed case. well bro.. its alrite.. overtime, such experience teaches us how to qualify our client. some are worth your time while the others are only wasting your time. it's better to have one client who trusts us, rather than five who don't. no hard feeling to the clients, coz at the end of the day.. it's only business =)

this week has been my most physically active week for quite some time heh. two session of doom2 (i won't propose dance performance anymore for anyone's wedding after this =P ), one session of sembawang flyer throw, and job-wise, has been here and there, Choa Chu Kang and Changi, south and north, and finally, 'dropped dead' today at 8 pm right after another round to Choa Chu kang. And now i am awake -_- For buffet hunter out there, if you wanna try something different, you may want to try wake up early on the weekend, and stroll to delifrance outlet for their morning bread buffet (8-10AM, fri-sun) at $8 only. u must know that when a buffet from such a famous chain come at $8, u shouldnt expect much variety, but at least.. u can expect quality. yeah i am thinking of doing that tomorrow, somehow. but considering that i am awake now.. the chance is small. other than delifrance, at below $10, u could also go to rajah inn at tiong bahru during lunch time.. not so much of qual...

Watched till the 8th episode, and each episode always has its touching moments, as well as silly moments. Not a spectacular drama, but a good one for sure. And the guy is a mangaka... oh no.. the dream that was buried long time ago... Go to mysoju.com if you'd like to watch. Amagasa - Yasuko to Kenji OST, by Tokio soo ka.... Tokio also sang My boss My hero's OST, Sorafune I think i like this band

buat yg ngerayain.. mohon maap ya kalo ada salah kata =) kangen sama makanan yang biasa dikasi sama tetangga padang kitaa.. terutama rendangnyaa .. gila ngiler....

last friday, i received a call, from the unlikely city of Jambi, unlikely caller, my godmum. and moments later, a man spoke. a voice from someone i haven't seen for 18 years. if david found his soulmate in jonathan, i found mine 18 years ago in a boy called samuel. i loved to fight while he loved to accomodate. i was selfish while he was selfless. so i found him interesting, i guess. and my heart decided to make him my only friend. honestly i dunno if he felt the same, or if he still remembers me that much. but at least for me, that was the only time in my life i felt that way. so it's still interesting to expect our encounter come this November. and somehow there is this lil voice inside telling me, david will eventually meet samuel.

so the classic question for the above 25 singles popped up again yesterday. were they too fast in making up their decision, or am i too slow? well.. only time will tell (or probably stats will do). i am not sure if there is any research done to show the percentage of happy couple (the early vs the late decision makers). but so far i have been quite happy to give it a 'pass'. maybe only less than five times in this whole life i find myself thinking, 'sigh.. i just miss it' ^^

Posting ini jadi berasa kaya walking down memory lane hehe. Can't find clip for megaloman, pdhl pelem nya lmyn bagus ^^ Space Sheriff Sharivan!! Sayank ga pernah ntn Gaban gua.. Getter Robo! Anu... candy2 ^^ Ga semuanya Japanese.. ada jg TVRI punya pelem ky Mask And I haveeee.. theee... powerrrrrr thunder thunder thunder cats.. the cool silver hawks Dan sentai satu2nya yang gua cinta.. goggle V

Lion Maru.. my first encounter with pegasus Voltes v!! Nuff said. Chu Liu Xiang aka Pendekar Harum ^^ while i kind of give up my intention to be a mangaka, i haven't given up on the idea of being a wuxia writer.. thx to him

very likely, she is my next vocal sensei heh. (similar name, never seen the face before, so 70% chance) never had female teacher before. i was particularly interested because this lady wrote this song: have had short course with two gurus before, and i kinda prefer my first guru, though we only had two sessions ^^ i like him coz he is a hardcore rocker who looks like Wu Bai. too bad he went on to cut album and became busier as his fame rose.

I didn't really like SHE.. but over time, I guess the affinity grows and they are quite entertaining to watch at times =) unoriginal, yes. but entertaining. A poke at Jay Chou's here (No, the guy in the clip wasnt Ah Jay) And responding to Mayday's song there.. (the guys are fahreinheit's boys) Ermm.. not sure what they are doing here.. but quite nice as well Naturally, i like Hebe the most. Typical? Who cares? =)

- every dog has its day - a broken clock is right twice a day morale of the story? even if your last 364 days have been miserable, it could be that today is YOUR DAY. expect greatness!

Oh Aerith.. the definition of beauty ^^

ne.. ne.. if.. and only if.. i begin to smile foolishly, at the idea of us being together, what will you do?

the other day talked to my fellow 'captain', i am sorry capt.. that it didn't work. but at least, i hope you got it now when i told you that.. there are just things that are so fundamental that i can't tolerate. that's when we know for sure we'll never end up with this or that person. even if he/she has tons of other plus points. on the other hands, he/she could have tons of minus points but if the crucial points are there.. why not? =) aye capt.. keep going!

in football manager game, we have young players with amazing potential and ability, we call them wonderkids. now if you look at our arsenal kids, how they trashed the blades 6-0, with their average age of 19! how many wonderkids do we have? i am sure at least, there is one in carlos vela ;)

Yasuko to Kenji another entertaining dorama on mysoju. recommended. (though not as good as 'My Boss My Hero').

oh the dinosaur of boysband.. New Kids on the Block Prove that you are somewhat past your teen days? if you love this-> CLICK more than Summertime, their new song.

from Nyongi's nick: 'good judgment comes from experience, experience comes from bad judgment' how true is that =) i thank God that i got somewhat 'cheated' in my first business venture. that's business' 'hello world' for me. it underlines the stark difference between writing a programming code, and running a business. but it is in such uncertainties that God shows me what it means when He says He goes to battle on my behalf. alfred, my client and friend, asked me, "it feels like going to war isn't it, everytime you go into a meeting to close a case?" i never thot of that.. but yeap.. that's very true. every bad judgment that we made, every battle that we lost, taught us something valuable. and it proves to us that God may allow his children to run into troubles and enemies, but never to surrender to them. temptation to give in will test our resolve every day. but.. aren't we children of the Mighty One? let your knee bow to no on...

Heh my sodara gave me this link -> CLICK now this song is good! the kind that i dun mind listening to all nite long ;)

many times we wonder why a woman could fall in love, and stay in love with a man that doesn't seem to be compatible for her. vice versa. and i begin to wonder.. if that's hereditary. it's in the gene.. because our God himself.. has loved us. regardless of everything. and he stays in love with us.

Read the part of 'Facing Your Giants' on david and jonathan's friendship. i read the story some years ago, and couldnt understand, how could jonathan's friendship meant more to david than anything, how could his love for david was far more wonderful than any woman's love. but i read it few days ago, and i guess i could somewhat understand it now, partly. a true friendship like jonathan's is precious, very. it's not something defined by the number of weekends you spend together, or the number of sms you send each other daily, or the number of pics you take together. it's something that goes beyond your mutual social circle, or mutual interest. it's the willingness to walk with you irregardless. and maybe.. not everyone could provide such friendship. it takes certain character. it takes a jonathan.

One year from now. God.. open up the path. I want to make another leap of faith. Yosshhh!!!!! I can do ALL things thru Christ who gives me strength.

I dunno how i missed this drama but now i got chance to catch its replay whenever i found myself relaxing at home during the weekend. It's like one of the best, the very best, mediacorp drama i have watched so far. Good storyline and strong casts. And felicia chin certainly shines in this one heh.. she exudes that kind of aura that makes her special. and if you compare that to her character as "mei ren yu".. she has quite a talent, I must say. The wonderful thing about this drama is that most of us will root for Jin Long, the main character who joins the 'dark force' because we could see the color of his heart. That's what good drama supposed to be, in my opinion. Yes Jin Long is a bookie, and a pimp at Geylang, but he has code of honour. And Kai Qie (I hate this character ever since he was still a boy), is a policeman with skeletons in his cabinet. And the worst thing you could do to this drama is to make Jin Long turn away from his dark path, becomes a polic...

tear has to fall, we have to grief, heart has to break, we have to part. hope has to rise, we have to stand, life has to shine, we have to love.

I dunno how many people read this manga, but to me.. Shura no Mon (titled Ashura in indonesia) is one of the very best. The main character is Mutsu Tsukumo (translated to er.. Paddy.. in Indonesia- crazy translator -_- ), the last master or Mutsu Enmeiryuu, the legendary killing martial art techniques. Tsukumo himself is an interesting character, constantly looking for stronger opponents, as if he wanted to be the world no 1. But deep inside, he was constantly tortured by his past, having accidentally killed his supposedly more talented older brother. Possibly.. all he was trying to do was to find someone who was strong enough to kill him. I literally shivered as i flip from page to page of this manga when it comes to its fighting scenes. The drawing strokes somewhat bring alive the emotion, the coldness of heart and warmness of blood was painted beautifully.

finally got to start reading Max Lucado's book on David, thanks to KON for lending me. i am inspired by ko harun's habit of reading book for one and half hour everyday. well half an hour is good enough for me =) the book begins with question that startles me, bringing me back to the point i have often forgotten. why is david, a man with so many flaws, is the only one in the entire bible, called as the man after God's own heart. and Christ, of all possibilities, was called the Son of David. what an honor.. it brings consolation to the tired Christians who may wonder if they have done enough in church ministries, if they have passed the 'holiness benchmark'. the fact is.. God looks not at what is visible outside.. He examines heart. and in david, He found a heart that was ever longing for His heart. i read today in newspaper that New Creation Church's business arm, called 'Rock Foundation' i think, upped their investment stake to a staggering figure of $50...