..my battle stance..

last friday, i received a call, from the unlikely city of Jambi, unlikely caller, my godmum. and moments later, a man spoke. a voice from someone i haven't seen for 18 years. if david found his soulmate in jonathan, i found mine 18 years ago in a boy called samuel. i loved to fight while he loved to accomodate. i was selfish while he was selfless. so i found him interesting, i guess. and my heart decided to make him my only friend. honestly i dunno if he felt the same, or if he still remembers me that much. but at least for me, that was the only time in my life i felt that way. so it's still interesting to expect our encounter come this November. and somehow there is this lil voice inside telling me, david will eventually meet samuel.

so the classic question for the above 25 singles popped up again yesterday. were they too fast in making up their decision, or am i too slow? well.. only time will tell (or probably stats will do). i am not sure if there is any research done to show the percentage of happy couple (the early vs the late decision makers). but so far i have been quite happy to give it a 'pass'. maybe only less than five times in this whole life i find myself thinking, 'sigh.. i just miss it' ^^

Posting ini jadi berasa kaya walking down memory lane hehe. Can't find clip for megaloman, pdhl pelem nya lmyn bagus ^^ Space Sheriff Sharivan!! Sayank ga pernah ntn Gaban gua.. Getter Robo! Anu... candy2 ^^ Ga semuanya Japanese.. ada jg TVRI punya pelem ky Mask And I haveeee.. theee... powerrrrrr thunder thunder thunder cats.. the cool silver hawks Dan sentai satu2nya yang gua cinta.. goggle V

Lion Maru.. my first encounter with pegasus Voltes v!! Nuff said. Chu Liu Xiang aka Pendekar Harum ^^ while i kind of give up my intention to be a mangaka, i haven't given up on the idea of being a wuxia writer.. thx to him

very likely, she is my next vocal sensei heh. (similar name, never seen the face before, so 70% chance) never had female teacher before. i was particularly interested because this lady wrote this song: have had short course with two gurus before, and i kinda prefer my first guru, though we only had two sessions ^^ i like him coz he is a hardcore rocker who looks like Wu Bai. too bad he went on to cut album and became busier as his fame rose.

I didn't really like SHE.. but over time, I guess the affinity grows and they are quite entertaining to watch at times =) unoriginal, yes. but entertaining. A poke at Jay Chou's here (No, the guy in the clip wasnt Ah Jay) And responding to Mayday's song there.. (the guys are fahreinheit's boys) Ermm.. not sure what they are doing here.. but quite nice as well Naturally, i like Hebe the most. Typical? Who cares? =)

- every dog has its day - a broken clock is right twice a day morale of the story? even if your last 364 days have been miserable, it could be that today is YOUR DAY. expect greatness!

Oh Aerith.. the definition of beauty ^^

ne.. ne.. if.. and only if.. i begin to smile foolishly, at the idea of us being together, what will you do?

the other day talked to my fellow 'captain', i am sorry capt.. that it didn't work. but at least, i hope you got it now when i told you that.. there are just things that are so fundamental that i can't tolerate. that's when we know for sure we'll never end up with this or that person. even if he/she has tons of other plus points. on the other hands, he/she could have tons of minus points but if the crucial points are there.. why not? =) aye capt.. keep going!

in football manager game, we have young players with amazing potential and ability, we call them wonderkids. now if you look at our arsenal kids, how they trashed the blades 6-0, with their average age of 19! how many wonderkids do we have? i am sure at least, there is one in carlos vela ;)

Yasuko to Kenji another entertaining dorama on mysoju. recommended. (though not as good as 'My Boss My Hero').

oh the dinosaur of boysband.. New Kids on the Block Prove that you are somewhat past your teen days? if you love this-> CLICK more than Summertime, their new song.

from Nyongi's nick: 'good judgment comes from experience, experience comes from bad judgment' how true is that =) i thank God that i got somewhat 'cheated' in my first business venture. that's business' 'hello world' for me. it underlines the stark difference between writing a programming code, and running a business. but it is in such uncertainties that God shows me what it means when He says He goes to battle on my behalf. alfred, my client and friend, asked me, "it feels like going to war isn't it, everytime you go into a meeting to close a case?" i never thot of that.. but yeap.. that's very true. every bad judgment that we made, every battle that we lost, taught us something valuable. and it proves to us that God may allow his children to run into troubles and enemies, but never to surrender to them. temptation to give in will test our resolve every day. but.. aren't we children of the Mighty One? let your knee bow to no on...

Heh my sodara gave me this link -> CLICK now this song is good! the kind that i dun mind listening to all nite long ;)

many times we wonder why a woman could fall in love, and stay in love with a man that doesn't seem to be compatible for her. vice versa. and i begin to wonder.. if that's hereditary. it's in the gene.. because our God himself.. has loved us. regardless of everything. and he stays in love with us.

Read the part of 'Facing Your Giants' on david and jonathan's friendship. i read the story some years ago, and couldnt understand, how could jonathan's friendship meant more to david than anything, how could his love for david was far more wonderful than any woman's love. but i read it few days ago, and i guess i could somewhat understand it now, partly. a true friendship like jonathan's is precious, very. it's not something defined by the number of weekends you spend together, or the number of sms you send each other daily, or the number of pics you take together. it's something that goes beyond your mutual social circle, or mutual interest. it's the willingness to walk with you irregardless. and maybe.. not everyone could provide such friendship. it takes certain character. it takes a jonathan.

One year from now. God.. open up the path. I want to make another leap of faith. Yosshhh!!!!! I can do ALL things thru Christ who gives me strength.

I dunno how i missed this drama but now i got chance to catch its replay whenever i found myself relaxing at home during the weekend. It's like one of the best, the very best, mediacorp drama i have watched so far. Good storyline and strong casts. And felicia chin certainly shines in this one heh.. she exudes that kind of aura that makes her special. and if you compare that to her character as "mei ren yu".. she has quite a talent, I must say. The wonderful thing about this drama is that most of us will root for Jin Long, the main character who joins the 'dark force' because we could see the color of his heart. That's what good drama supposed to be, in my opinion. Yes Jin Long is a bookie, and a pimp at Geylang, but he has code of honour. And Kai Qie (I hate this character ever since he was still a boy), is a policeman with skeletons in his cabinet. And the worst thing you could do to this drama is to make Jin Long turn away from his dark path, becomes a polic...

tear has to fall, we have to grief, heart has to break, we have to part. hope has to rise, we have to stand, life has to shine, we have to love.

I dunno how many people read this manga, but to me.. Shura no Mon (titled Ashura in indonesia) is one of the very best. The main character is Mutsu Tsukumo (translated to er.. Paddy.. in Indonesia- crazy translator -_- ), the last master or Mutsu Enmeiryuu, the legendary killing martial art techniques. Tsukumo himself is an interesting character, constantly looking for stronger opponents, as if he wanted to be the world no 1. But deep inside, he was constantly tortured by his past, having accidentally killed his supposedly more talented older brother. Possibly.. all he was trying to do was to find someone who was strong enough to kill him. I literally shivered as i flip from page to page of this manga when it comes to its fighting scenes. The drawing strokes somewhat bring alive the emotion, the coldness of heart and warmness of blood was painted beautifully.

finally got to start reading Max Lucado's book on David, thanks to KON for lending me. i am inspired by ko harun's habit of reading book for one and half hour everyday. well half an hour is good enough for me =) the book begins with question that startles me, bringing me back to the point i have often forgotten. why is david, a man with so many flaws, is the only one in the entire bible, called as the man after God's own heart. and Christ, of all possibilities, was called the Son of David. what an honor.. it brings consolation to the tired Christians who may wonder if they have done enough in church ministries, if they have passed the 'holiness benchmark'. the fact is.. God looks not at what is visible outside.. He examines heart. and in david, He found a heart that was ever longing for His heart. i read today in newspaper that New Creation Church's business arm, called 'Rock Foundation' i think, upped their investment stake to a staggering figure of $50...

seems like everyone are going crazy over the latest financial havoc.. good thing i am not in banking. the only investment book i have ever read (and not finished) is 'intelligent investor' , written by the so-called warren buffet's investment guru. written by the guru of the richest man around, it's surely worth reading. if you'd only want to read one book on investment, then probably you could consider this one. if you notice the investment tips on the MRT lately, most of the points are mentioned in the book, if not all. when i read books or listen to people (incl sermon), i always look for the defining punch-line that hits me hard. the book afromentioned (what an outdated bombastic word), teaches me few simple stuff that hits me hard and change my way of treating my unitrust from then on. first of all.. investors are not speculators.. those who buy at the sign of low point and sell at the sign of high point are speculators. and when such action is not based on sou...

maybe you just have to wait till a man is 30 before you could tell for sure.. whether he is destined for greatness.. or mediocrity.

if you were my baby - Rick Price This song played on the radio today, and i decided that i kinda miss this song. Indeed oldies songs are soothing.. somewhat representing the simpler, slower, gentler era of the past.

Good movies to catch this weekend: My Mighty Princess, Mirrors, Youth without Youth.. and dare I say it...Mama Mia!! For Kurosagi fans, the movie opens this Thursday as well. But having watched on the net (not helped by the poor quality streaming), I think its inferior compared to the series. And our sweetie Horikita Maki doesn't appear much as well. For those who have not watched Kurosagi series, it's a good 'welcome to the adult world' series to watch. Many of the swindling tricks used in the movie actually happens in real life.

Surprisingly she is quite good hohoho.. Britney wannabe but hey.. not bad. Tapi yg berikut ini.... ohh tidakkkk...

"Believe half of what you see and none of what you hear" I will always remember this advise, spoken by Myles Palmer's dad. It gotta be one of the most fitting advise for today's world of media circus, where people can make up sensational stories and make it big, thanks to the internet. If we were cheated, we only have ourselves to blame because we don't like listening to plain truth.. we prefer sensational stories. we don't like plain and boring sermon teaching us biblical truth, we want charismatic and hillarious preachers telling us wonderful stuff they made up with their talent. I guess in this world of lies, we just have to be wise and discerning. Anyway.. When it comes to things we are unsure of.. I sort of believe in the golden rule that the less you speak, the less chance of you embarassing yourself.

why must I bid you farewell honorably? all i ask for is to let me walk away in silence. this kind of heart, this kind of generosity, i am not born with. no it's not broken, half this heart is just not beating well. if i say few nice parting words, will that makes you remember me better? well if 'few nice words' are all that matter in the end, maybe what i need is a greeting card actually it don't matter how you remember 'us', because i think 'we' don't matter much to begin with and it don't matter if i am wrong, because being right doesn't change a thing. why must i sing you a happy song? all i ask for is to let me sing this song to myself ***yeah the first few words are shamelessly taken from 'an jing'.. but at least i think the following are pretty much on their own. one day i will come back to these words, make them chinese, and make a song out of it. So God.. a partner who plays keyboard please ^^ ***

Must admit that this movie exceeds all my expectation. Glad I decided to watch it. It worths the $8 tic, where else could you find yourself watching a girl knocking out a bear with her little punch? Only in manga-inspired movie like this. The Japanese version 'San Chai' turns out to be much better than barbie hsu. But the F4 are.. oh well.. let's just say that they look less 'flower boys' compared to the Taiwanese. I like the actor who plays Xi Men, only because I watched 'Liar Game' and liked his character there. Now for the best line in the movie (i dun remember the exact phrase), coined by 'San Chai'.. "when you share the bad things, it will make the things look half as bad. but when you share the good things, it will make the things feel twice as good."

and so it is.. the conference ended. great job for everyone who do their best.. well, as sam put it, lets just forget all the unhappiness. life is too short and God is too big for us to keep all these little unhappiness, at least that's what i am trying to tell myself. i just hope that we have better planning, better use of resources next time ( and less of blind ambitious plans ). well.. on my part, my present role is to support, and that i will give my best. for all the amazingly blessed members.. another great great effort by you all =) yes we won the title last year (against better teams), but we definitely have done something harder this year. that's what progress is rite? ^^

today was certainly a strange one for me, and for a heavily melancholic person, was certainly a tough one. to begin with, i had to deal with this guy who, dunno why.. though he has no intention to piss me off.. hmm.. lets just say that we just don't click totally. sorry God.. and then came the test for my decision, now i know the truth of this saying 'going up is not the hardest part of mount climbing, coming down is..' the song 'heart of a servant' is much needed heh. now i know what it feels to be dragged in, to fill the space, to make the number, just so that the main characters could shine. clinging to the cross.. I'll follow you... I'll follow you

"if you don't have anything good to say, shut up" i guess i really need to put this lesson into practice now. coz i am really struggling to find way of being positive towards these folks. "be generous, and you shall receive generousity" i also really need to put this into practice now.

Robots are sexy heh. following wall-e, i went to watch cyborg she with mbun. moviexclusive warned that the movie is nowhere near its predecessors, 'my sassy girl' and 'windstruck'. Yeap this movie came from the same guy who brought us the two unforgettable movies. But for $7, I think 'cyborg she' is quite a good movie to catch, mainly because: 1. Ayase Haruka is hot. 2. In her cool cyborg suit, she is even hotter ^^ If you like ayanami rei (evangelion), you will appreciate the comparison made in this movie betwen ayase and ayanami 3. The soundtracks are nice. One of japanese movies with better ost i think. the jokes are not original, the love story is minimal, overall its quite ordinary but then.. it's one of the movies that i come out feeling good watching it. =)

Another top notch movie from Pixar, imo. Though not as consistently charming as Ratatouille, i think Wall-E is actually a harder movie to make. It's not too difficult to fall in love with a cute lil mouse. But an ugly looking robot? Having heard dian's comment, I think it's important to note that unless you are able to appreciate the idea of a robot falling in love with another robot, you should avoid watching wall-e. For me, i was touched seeing how wall-e hesitantly move closer to Eva (who I thot was actually quite sexy heh), how wall-e's shaken hands were trying to reach Eva's cold steely hand. The simple beauty of holding hands. It draws better emotion for me, compared to those humans in other hollywood movies who lock lips, strip and charge straight to their bed at any given time.