..my battle stance..

it occurs to me just now that.. indeed more than physical beauty, what matters most for two persons to fall in love, and remain in love, is their compatibility when it comes to the things unseen. the way they appreciate the beauty of those abstract entities. the way they could laugh together, and shed tears together. and when you find someone like that.. even if you can't find the red thread that connects the two soul, i think you are still very lucky. i think i am very lucky

When I think about my friends.. When I think about the one I like.. There's something important that's always just out of sight.. Is there really anything out there I can count on? ******* Another sad quote if you watch the movie. Maybe because I am a guy, it is one of those feeling that I don't normally have. So Hikari, you want the quotes to come up fast, or slowly? ^^

There's so much I want to tell you, There's so much I want to hear. But if after learning everything, our love breaks... Then I'd rather be as I am now. ****** Actually, this is probably a pretty sad quote. It's just that.. I had never taken that path before. I had always taken the path of telling everything, and end up burning whatever little bridge that could have brought us together.

You can't put your true feeling into words, I can't express my important feeling. If the two of us could exchange the feeling in our heart, would we see.. Would we see that destiny was on our side? ***** to the anonymous friend who ask for the remaining quotes of Akai Ito.. well honestly the remaining episodes don't have too meaningful quotes (to me, personally). either that or sometimes the quote would only make sense if someone watch the movie. but since i have started it.. maybe it's not a bad idea to finish it. after all.. the last episode's quote is quite sweet.

heh google analytic turns out to be quite a fun stuff to have. i have had it on my blog for a week. though i have neither the ambition nor the attractiveness to increase my blog's visitor rate, but it is fun to look at the statistics, like.. knowing that the no. 3 highest visiting country is France. i am really not sure how i got someone from France end up at my blog.. since i don't really mention anything french here. And they spend average of more than 2 minutes on the site (more than those from Singapore). then.. the most popular entry for the last one week (apart from the main page) is the one on Kungfu Dunk's OST. Oh well.. Jay Chou seems to be the main attraction -_- I got visitors from 21 countries including South Korea, Estonia and Russia (I must have mentioned Arshavin).. but I have zero from Japan ^^

is a mentor. a visible one.

base on their performances so far, it is quite obvious that the top four of this season's idol can easily be all boys. matt, danny, adam, and kris (his sis looks prettier lately, and i am glad the camera knows that!). with a lil bit of luck, anoop would probably be the fifth and they can go and form a boys band. i think they will make it big. ^^ adam wasn't outstanding with his falsetto last night but in my personal opinion, he is a notch above danny because with adam, you have this curiosity, asking 'what's next?' he is ever willing to throw away everything that made him looked good the week before and try something that is completely new. i feel sorry for michael who is out of depth, but am proud of his comments. you are indeed blessed, big bro.

we used to joke that our batch 5 are cursed with singlehood. but it appears that the 'curses' has lost its power now. this is only march and we already have like.. 3 of us got married? and some of them are quite unexpected. this is beside the other who got married last or last last year. the rest.. many also has gotten into relationship. wonderful. congratulation guys!

I remember iwan, my nus friend, used to take entrepreneurship courses at nus. we worked on some business plan and we almost worked on a startup company together with darvin. one of the most important things in the business plan, as most entrepreneurship courses would tell you, was: the exit strategy. the aim was to get investors to invest in our startup, make the company big in the shortest time possible, and then exit by selling it off at good price, or if you hit jackpot, you go public- the home run dream of many startups. another concept that was mentioned in the book. again.. nothing wrong with that plan. everyone wants to be rich. but to make the exit strategy our goal, is to say that we are not really passionate about the business plan. we are only passionate about the money it will bring. the point here is not to forbid anyone from making the get rich business plan. the point is that.. there is other option. "if you could instead work on a business plan, doing stuff that re...

the name of eguchi yosuke persuaded me to try watching this suspense drama. the first two episodes are confusing, intriguing. eguchi yosuke, for those old enough to have watched tokyo love story, is the freaky long hair playboy in the legendary drama. i used to love watching him but in Triangle, the 42 years old looked out of place.. somewhat unconvincing and at times irritating. i have never been a fan of ryoko hirosue. so i can't say much. but overall i haven't found any character to like or root for in this series. despite its unconvincing cast selection, i decide to watch on as the story has potential to be interesting. a good suspense plot.

I have tried several different jobs, and I observed people, and come to conclusion: Whatever path you take in life, whatever job you choose.. if you want to be successful, it will never be easy. That includes serving God. And this is why we need to recognize where our passion lies. Many times.. we are confused between ' drive ' and ' passion '. Drive.. is the power that PUSH you to fulfill what you need to do. Passion.. on the other hand, is the power that PULL you to something you can't resist. You wake up in the morning for work, you have sales target to meet, deadline to met. You may not be too happy with your work but you are raring to go. You tell yourself, "think about the holiday, think about the year end bonus, think about the promotion". And when all else fails, you tell yourself, "in whatever you do, do as if it is for God." that is drive. Make no mistake, drive can and will bring us success. Drive emphasize on the goal. The goal outwei...

caught this clip in vivy's blog. i love the song, the melancholic twist and the color of their voices. and .. here is 366 nichi, the OST to the dorama 'akai ito'. the song does sound like some other songs. And i am in love with Nao chan.. who in a way bear resemblance with Noriko Sakai, which mean, i have consistent taste for the last 14 years.

This song has nothing to do with the drama Akai Ito that I just watched. But this song is here because vy mentioned it, and there is Aragaki Yui ^^ Oh well the first part by Kobukuro is really good but her part is.. sigh.. let's just say that I prefer her talking rather than singing (just like Alexis grace). The drama Akai Ito is a different stuff altogether. it is based on a hit mobile phone novel and just like 'Change', it is one of those drama that got me hooked. Not a very original story, but engaging. Simple, but sweet. Sad, but sweet. There is drug addiction, suicide attempts, and violence date there but.. not as painful as Last Friends.. so i can bear to finish it. and just like many good ol j-dorama *spoiler alert* it ends with many warm afternoon scenes, and happily ever after couples.

Ada yg aneh dgn muka dia.. tapi.. gua suka ^^

Ahaa... salah satu misteri yang gua kurang paham, terpecahkan hari ini. Apa beda lamb and mutton? Meat from young sheep, not more than 1 year old, is called lamb. Meat from older sheep, nahh.. that's called mutton. tralalaa... trililiii!! *i want my good ol cute agnes monica back*

our path has grown further apart. and i can't afford wanting you. neither am i trapped in the past. because as i said many times.. we don't even have a past. but you see.. it just becomes clearer, and clearer each day, that to be so much in love, with you and your every breath it was more than just a consequence of any ordinary encounter. it was a destiny in itself. it was a miracle..

Why is it? Why is it that we think it's so important that we live without hurting anyone? I wonder..

I am currently reading this book that I have been aiming to read for the last 1 year. Here is the summary of what I've read so far (some words are my own opinion): Many people try to live their life in two stages: 1. Do what I need to do , and when I successfully complete the first stage, I could 2. Do what I WANT to do . many of us believe that our first aim is to achieve the holy grail, that is the financial freedom . and in order to achieve that, we will have to do what we need to do, even if it is not what we want to do. that's the goal of the 1st stage. be it climbing up the corporate ladder, or joining the brigade of high-flying bankers, or like me.. becoming a property agent hoping to close some huge deals in 3-5 years and achieve that holy grail. now.. nothing wrong with that plan. it is reasonable and logical. but as you know.. many times things don't happen the way we like it in life. ask yourself this question: what if i never get pass the 1st stage? i am sure ma...

Our first encounter was by chance. Our second meeting was destiny. But if this is true, is it also our destiny to pass each other by?

What is the boundary between being friends and being lovers? perhaps you'd only figure that out once you've crossed it. Akai Ito #2- The Chocolate that Heals Loneliness

On my way back from bt gombak, saw someone with the most lively and alluring pair of eyes. and a pair of sweet dimples.

God tied you and I together by your little fingers with a long red string. This bond of destiny cannot be seen.. and there is no map to you. So I will fall in love with you when I meet you.

woah after countless trips to the north east end, and many times caught running under heavy rain. i could finally see the first fruit. God is good.. and i pray that everything will go smoothly with this one. after all.. they are my good friends =) this is the season to toughen ourselves. even if others sometimes don't even sympathize with our ordeal, we just gotta keep going and let God be our only hope and strength. now i understand.. it's better to give than to receive. because when you give, God's mercy flow and you are blessed. but when you expect to receive.. you will most likely be disappointed my bro is playing the song 'running after you'. and i am saying amen to what the song says 'i don't care what people will say.. i am running after you'.. keep going.. keep going.

Detroit Metal City!! but before that.. God help me close deals hoho! yoshh!!!

the paper today had an article on the german boy, Kretschmer, who went on killing spree few days ago. he shot at least 15 people dead. the police said that it was expert shot on the victim heads. the guy was apparently depressed because he thought no one recognized his talent and everyone were ridiculing him. a magazine described him as a boy without quality. many would probably be talking about how they could have reached out to him and show some care. but what these 'unremarkable' people need are genuine appreciation for their existence. they are not merely objects for others to practice their religious duties. but our appreciation are only for those with remarkable talent. well.. always a little bit too late, aren't we?

ohhh.... i almost found myself appearing on channel 8!!!! sedih sekali -_- i was walking past our singapore pools branch at braddell, and then this guy approached me with a microphone. he wanted to interview me on youth gambling. then i told him, "i can't speak mandarin".. in chinese. and he looked puzzled. he must have thought i was an idiot. then i clarified that my mandarin was really bad. and me, hoping to get somewhat closer to felicia chin, asked him if i must be interviewed in chinese. sigh.. too bad.. it has to be chinese. if only.. and i almost won something for toto too!! usually i only got 2 numbers right at most.. this time i got three. but still.. won nothing.. 1.5 mill leh!!! but no one won last round.. so here we go monday!!!

mmm... uda lama ga liat chae rim. she's the first korean actress that i like. and her series, i think entitled 'dating now'. something like that.. is the first korean series that i watch. membingungkan sekali.. cewe cantik seperti dia dan megan amidol bisa juga end up in divorce. btw.. gua sedang suka sekali dengan ellen deGeneres. i can imagine dating 51 years old, if that person is ellen. dia menyenangkan sekali. tapi sekali lagi saya bingung.. kenapa wanita semenarik dia itu lesbian -_- kena breast cancer pula. mereka semua lebih menarik dari tika panggabean. tapi rasanya idup si tika lebih diberkati dari mereka. life is indeed interesting.

the IT guy of taiwan entertainment world at present. and this is the guy he used to idolise ;) well.. fast forward to 2008.. he does it a lil bit cooler, but less nostalgic arghhh tapi jeansnya.. -_-

i can never fully grasp, the meaning of eternity, or the extent of your boundless grace. but this i understand.. for you so love me that you gave your beloved son. my hands are empty, my heart is tainted, my life is wretched. in all honesty, i don't think i am good enough for anyone. and still.. my savior lives in me. coz in his eyes.. i am an irresistibly beautiful little thing.

is it her beauty? or is it the resemblance?

"last day promotion.. tomorrow no more" thats the common sales gimmick that you find everywhere. like the title i use here.. some online news site use such titles to attract clicks. and why do they use such trick? because they know that it works for 80% of their target customers. by creating sense of urgency, they 'help' you to make decision that you may never make otherwise. sometimes it is for your own good.. because humans tend to procastinate. sometimes it is not. i don't use such trick and i hate it when someone use that to me. i didn't join California Fitness simply because the sales girl used too much of her sales trick on me. but honestly.. if the stuff is something that i know i really want.. i would end up listening to them. and i am not blaming these people, because they are not pointing their knives at me. i made my own decision. i have myself to blame because i am not any better or any wiser than the 80% of the society.

Just watched the fift episode of Kiina, a detective j-dorama. and interesting that.. the latest episode is about a case where a nurse supposedly committed suicide by jumping from the fifth floor. i found it somewhat similar to the case that we had recently here. the investigation is ongoing, and i guess it's time to stop blaming and hating.. given that no matter what, we indeed do not know the truth. but as someone once said.. a crime.. no matter what the truth is.. the outcome will still be sadness.

without death.. life would lose all its meaning

you'd have made more sense to me.. if you don't always try to say the right things all the time. because i am kinda tired of listening to those sugarcoated stuff. but maybe i am audio-diabetic. don't mind me.

when elizabeth became pregnant, she went for seclusion for five months. (luke 1) though it is only interpretation, but i like one of the explanation given to her seclusion. the bible described zechariah and elizabeth to be well along in years. biologically, it was not possible for them to have child. so although they still prayed for a child, zechariah was no longer expecting answer. so much so that even gabriel, an angel, wasn't able to convince him. to him.. having a child was but a dream that would never come true. but soon afterward, elizabeth became pregnant. an answered prayer. ideally, their neighbor would have rejoiced over this miracle. they would have praised God for such a wonder. but none of such thing was mentioned. there was only a record of elizabeth praising God for His kindness. well.. again this is only interpretation. but possibly.. instead of being happy for her, the neighbor could probably have come to her and expressed their concern over her. after all.. to be...

Devi used to recommend this drama and only now do I get to watch it. Rainie Yang is very very funny there. I can't stop laughing at her. And sorry elsa haha.. but it really reminds me of you, in a good way =P Her character has the power to make someone laugh, comforted, and forget about his worries. that's a good similarity to have =) and that kind of person.. is one in a hundred millions.

our very own captain and general. and we wouldn't trade him for any player in the world. but if you throw in Messi and Kaka.. maybe we will consider =P

long before the earth was created, he had you in his mind. and long after you leave this world, he remembers you still. every day of your life, every little laughter, and every drop of tear that you have, nothing escapes his watching eyes. and his loving arms keep you safe. a father who has no idea how to give up on you, a friend who never get tired of you, a lover who has no way of loving you any lesser. ... so in the darkest of valley, and wildest of storm, my lips will find praise, and thanksgiving will flow from my heart. and even when my eyes begin to betray me, and doubt clouds my heart, my lips will find praise, and thanksgiving will flow from my heart.

Meskipun partly I think since the person is gone, we could probably do everyone a favor by letting the case end, but since I have said something on it.. let me at least finish this by quoting what David's close friend said, because I believe if there is truth behind this, it needs to prevail. It is surprising when I read his friend's comment, that according to the boy's parents, they had seen his body, and there was no wound on his wrist. instead, there was wound on his neck. I do not claim that to be the truth, since I dunno either. I am only saying what the guy said. And I admire his friend's willingness to stand by what he said and be accountable for it. If he was right, obviously it will be a totally different scenario. And obviously.. the newspaper is telling a big fat lie. I suspect it is not difficult for the authorities to investigate, base on the room's condition etc.. whether David did stab the prof. but seeing the biased articles on the media, I am afraid...

it's freaking tiring today. i thought i badly need a car. but i guess i badly need a change, be it my perspective, be it.. whatever it is.. geez..

si mahasiswa NTU yg bunuh diri itu denger2 namanya david. sigh.. mgkn final year presssure was too much to him. jadi inget masa2 kerjain final year project, tinggal 3 bulan dan gua maseh blank. untung ngga masuk berita ky dia. life is a funny thing. well since there is a chance that this may not be a simple suicide, lets not assume so. maybe there's a truth behind this. duh.. jd inget kalo di conan trus dia bilank, "ini bukan bunuh diri.. ini adalah kasus pembunuhan!" jadi serasa mao jadi detektip -_-

Ijo Nashi..

one of the greatest things about this country is its excellent governance. sure they may not always come up with popular policy, and they don't support the jobless the way some of the western countries do. but their policies are directed towards nurturing resilient and competitive Singapore citizens. and they would make sure that as long as you are willing to learn and work hard, the path to a decent future is always affordable and available to everyone. want to have an unpredictable future where sky and hell is not even the limit? that's my country ;) well i am not paid to speak up for Mr Lee's government, but i recently visited WDA's website on darvin's recommendation. I went thru the list of skill upgrading programmes offered and geez... there are so many interesting ones. and WDA are prepared to pay for 90% of the course fee should you get into one of those courses. so far the most interesting ones for me are the scriptwriting course and the restaurant manager c...

Great show, could have done better with some cutting here and there but overall.. i thought the SMU students have done well. My bro's hardwork paid off, i thot he did really well for the limited air time he was given. the jokes works, the rocker impersonation was good. and Valesca the main character charmed us with her lovely voice and bubbly personality, as well as her heart-piercing screaming of pain. though did not stand out in the same way, Ilenne the other main character portrayed a confused and powerless mother admirably. the question that struck me, 'if to live means to hurt like hell, would you still want to live on?'