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Lifetime Marks

I was walking home for cellgroup yesterday. I almost reached my flat when I saw that. The very thing that reminded me of the big big mistake I have made in the past. It is not very encouraging when you are reminded of that scar just an hour before you get to lead your cellgroup.

But that is life, God says. We used to trip and injure ourselves many times when we were small. Some of the injuries would heal and leave no trace. Some will leave marks that will never go away. Just like the scars on my right and left hands. I will put up the pictures of them when I got time haha... They look almost identical.. I got the scar on the right hand years ago, an accident. Then my left hand.. well just remember my advise, don't ever ever scratch any part of your body when you got chicken pox. Resist it! Any scratch could potentially leave you with lifetime mark.

Okay, back to topic. Yeah.. some mistakes will leave mark that stay with you forever. I felt a bit down.. I looked up to the sky. And I asked of God.. please make me worthy. I haven't officially receive any punishment for those mistakes I did, although I have received His forgiveness. I tremble whenever I think of that.

Then He showed me the dark cloud and teach me something.

His forgiveness, it is like the morning sun that will never fail to rise. It will always be there times and again, unfailingly.
But His punishment, it is like the cloud. Of course there could always be moments when His grace does wonder but most of the times, the cloud can't just vanish into thin air. It has to rain. You can't avoid it. Sometimes it rains cat and dog. It hurts. But His healing love, it is like the rainbow. It will bring smile to your face.

I can only pray that His mercy would spare me the punishment. But do you know why David was punished that severely for his sin? Because he was David. Because God loves him way too much. And He is the Father who disciplines the son He loves.
Sigh.. that is God for you. His wisdom is unfathomable but even more is His mercy.

No matter what you do, always remember this. Some mistakes will leave you with lifetime marks. They stay with you. But even so, walk on. No, run on! And don't look back. Never ever. All the glory and failure of the past, I consider them rubbish because of the great friend who I know is waiting for me at the finish line.

my best friend, my lover, my everlasting, my treasure, my saviour, my redeemer, my refuge, my fortress, my tower of strengh, my guiding light, my hero, my guardian, my captain, my cheerleader, my soulmate, my idol, my primadona, my sheperd, my dancing partner, my duet partner, my father, my lord, my king, my god, my everything and anything

my Jesus

Comments

i am amazed.
period.

look forward to have more time with you again, sharing and talking....
phoenix chix said…
yupz.. we can always have the second geylang summit after my japan trip bro lol ^^
yes bro i am waiting for that..also to hear all ur stories and see all ur pics..

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