..my battle stance..

It was raining today. Pouring. Hard. Were you afraid? Were you enjoying it? Did you see what I saw? Did you feel what I felt? Do you..

http://www.asiaseed.org/ayfj/ Could this be the path to return to the very land I love?

Eh.. my first interview coming this Thursday. pray for me ya =D my usual prayer statement: "God if this is the best, make it happen. If this is not, make it fail by all means!" Well I have always said that I wanted to stop being programmer but this job is kinda interesting coz it seems to be a very good place for me to start pickin up .NET, something I never learned before. And the environment is one of the places I kinda like, a hospital LOL. I guess it's not that I like hospital, but my family has always had such strong connection with doctors and hospitals that I might as well learn to like them. Anything that you can't afford to get away from, you should learn to love ^^ Of course it's not like I will get the job for sure but anyway, thx to Sista for forwarding the email. And you know what? IT's KK HOSPITAL!!! OMG... Me being slow recently, I didn't notice that it's KK, as in KK. I knew the name sounded familiar, very familiar. But I was still won...

All credit to fastclock who translated one of Gu Long's novel, Jiu Ye Ying Fei (Flying eagles in the ninth month) here I only help to promote the novel here in case someone cares to read. Coz I find the story beautiful. And this chapter in particular is beautiful. Rated: M18 (some sexual reference ^^) Chapter 22: Four great princes The night grew deeper as the light became dimmer. There were only a few stars here and there. Under the dim star light, the shadow of the person ahead seemed to glimmer in the distance. Although she pursued quickly, this person was actually quicker. By the time she went through the window, this person had moved away by ten meters. But she certainly did not want to give up, she knew perfectly well that she could not force this person to stop but she must pursue him anyway. She used her whole strength to move forward. The distant place was darker, and nothing clear could be seen. In the intersection there was an ancient oak building with a single burning l...

Hah I didn't work today. Why? Coz I dun feel like it. Once in a while, I will decide how my Monday gonna be. And today I wanted it to be a holiday. So I took one day leave ^^ I guess I was rather exhausted too coz I slept till 12.30 PM. Even my dream was strange @_@. Sometimes in my dream, I experienced spritual warfare. Last night, it was quite a big one =P I dunno, it was rather overwhelming as I prayed in spirit and fought and the funny thing is, as the battle intensified, somehow two of my colleagues made appearance LOL. I dunno how these two got inside my dream and the truth is, one of them is the one I er.. dislike the most. Yeah.. I dunno why he didn't seem to like me and all his sarcastic comments got him into my dislike-list. Well but they were there to help (in my dream). They prayed with me and as the three of us prayed, we prevailed and the battle ended. Hmm.. I wonder if it's just a dream. Back to reality. I guess I will have to work tomorrow, followed by cellg...

It was one of the strangest things really. I was asked if I would come to a friend's farewell BBQ last Saturday. I was not interested at all since I knew that my throat won't be able to take it at the moment. Knowing that I just recovered, BBQ was really a self-destruct. But I thought that it's a farewell so I went. Guess what? It was a miscommnunication. It was never a farewell. That friend just felt like having a BBQ and last night all who attended was sent an email, asking for the money for the BBQ. So now I turned into one of those who wanted to have a BBQ gathering. It's certainly not about paying or anything. It's just kinda funny. I didn't know what I was involved in, not even after I walked away from the event. The whole thing was miscommunication, misunderstanding, misinterpretation, whatever. It's like making friends with someone for so many years and one day you realize that that person is really someone else, or that friendship is not what you th...

He has retired few months ago, playing his last game against Brazil. He may not be the most popular Asian player ever. He may not be a legend. But he has been the inspiration for many young Japanese schoolboys who love football with all their heart. He has probably been the inspiration for the mangaka who wrote Shoot!, for the main character in the comic was a boy named Toshihiko Tanaka. He made the Asian believe that on football pitch, they are more than able to compete against anyone in the world. He is not perfect. In fact he is so human that I think he gave up professional football so that he could relearn to love the game from the bottom of his heart. You can read his parting message here His name is Nakata Hidetoshi. Remember that!

I made a brief mention regarding Smell of Rain, a local production. You can go to moviexclusive.com to check out some interview and review on the movie which was given 4 stars there. They earned 4 stars not because of the quality of the movie but because you can 'smeel' their honesty and sincerity in producing the movie. I found that description rather surreal considering today's world. It's all about money, ask Chelsea! But I check out their main website here And I do find that sincerity, I guess. The director took 10 years to accumulate the needed 150,000$ fund to produce the movie of her dream. It's only fitting, therefore, that the movie talks about hope and courage. Do I have the courage to pursue a dream that will take 10 years to accomplish? That woman did not even know if she would ever get to produce the movie 10 years ago. But she lived her dream and she made it. Ah.. amazing people. moviexclusive.com has this to say: In fact, this 92-minute movie is fille...

I proudly make my exit. Even if I am escaping, I shall make a grand escapade This wounded beast will soar This abandoned wolf will never plead. Rather than settling for half the happiness, It's better to become a lone star. Embracing the coldness of the boundless sky, it's better than your murderous silence, your innocent cruelty. Betrayals have often been my meal. And lies have often been my drink. Yet I still breathe hope. I proudly believe, and proudly hope.

Heh have a change once in a while. There is this Chai-Lai Angels movie showing now. A Thai movie. I am not an avid Thai movie fan but I did brave myself to watch Ong Bak on my own and I never regretted it. In terms of the fighting, the movie was one of the best action movies I have watched my entire life! And I am the type who says that the glass is half empty. Yes I know Bruce Lee is great but he is of different era. Anyway I also watched "The Bodyguard", it's not shown here but I bought the vcd. It was very funny, Stephen Chow like. So my general impression of Thai movies is quite positive one. I guess Chai-Lai Angels will be quite a fun ride but I don't think anyone would want to watch it so I will give it a pass, I guess. Oh and who is this girl? Erm she is one of the angels. Dunno how to pronounce her name. But ain't she cute? Yes she is 100% girl. Physically she belongs to Jennifer Love Hewitt group, if you know what I mean. Ya I thot she is the cutest one ...

Thank you vy for the link again!! =D Love that girl-next-door-to-Prada comment =D my dear Fann U r still the best ^^

The last J-pop singer that I kinda rooted for. And the last time I listened to her was like.. 4 years ago? Oh my..

Ah when was the last time I really listen to J-Pop? I guess it's time to do some catching up. Out of my guilt feeling, I am embedding a soundtrack from Umizaru 2:Limit of Love. It's not that great a song but hey... it's a start =D Yuna Ito - Precious

Cath told me there is this Japanese movie, 'Love Letter' that I should watch, coz it's my type of movie. So I was curious, what makes it my type of movie? 'Well its sweet, hurting, and confusing'- Cath said. Hmm.. somehow that surely sounds like me LOL. But.. how could Cath tell that? Is it that apparent? I must be a very blue creature apparently. And maybe that's why I am helplessly stuck with you. Don't you know that you have always been my Yellow? Yellow makes me smile, it makes me believe that I have a reason to smile.

Ah.. seems like there will be many good Chinese movies coming. I dunno why the title is so melancholy but basically here are the casts for the movie which is dubbed the Chinese movie of the year (2006). This, and 'The Banquet' will be two biggest Chinese movies for the year. 'Confession of Pain' is directed by Andrew Lau, the man behind Infernal Affair and Initial D. In fact Confession of Pain is going to be something like Infernal Affair. I think it gonna be good. Even if it's half baked, I will watch it coz I like Tony Leung. Basically I enjoy watching all the male casts there. Chapman To did a great job in Initial D. My only problem with Kaneshiro is that he is a bit too handsome. Darn.

Something is wrong. With me. Physically. Mentally. Something is not right. I must be rather annoying these few days. And I am easily annoyed by many things at the moment. I.just.can't.help.it. Dragging myself to meet the end of the week.

The name is Shi Jian(means: wait upon a sword). Not many parents would name their daughter Shi Jian. Not many parents would expect their daughter to 'wait upon a sword' after all. But she has no parent. The name was given by her master, so was the life. Ever since she was a baby, she was with the master. Ever since she was a little girl, she has learned to wait. She would wait upon her young master, Leng Jian (means: cold sword), who was few years older. She would follow him whereever he go. She would tend to his every need. She would wait upon him no matter what. The young master would grow into the most fearful swordsman in the realm. Shadow of death and scent of blood followed him day and night. He would go into places even beasts wouldn't dare to invade. So would Shi Jian. The sheath's existence is determined by the sword it envelops. Without the sword, it's just an empty sheath. The sheath takes pride from the type of sword it contains. Leng Jian is definitely ...

LOL Vietnamese song, now this is new! =D thanks to Vy for introducing the song sang by some singer named Nguyen Cardin, but then almost all Vietnamese got this Nguyen name I feel. the song is here She's So Beautiful - Lyric She like to watch the sun rise And gazing out of space to find her peace of mind She'd cry to any romantic movie And fantasize about how she'd be dancing in th erain Once in a while, she would take a little chance Once in a while, she would put on her favorite dress CHORUS And she doesn't know She's so beautiful She doesn't know even when I look at her Still so oblivious though I let it showed She doesn't know That I'm in love with her She like to be by herself Instead of hang with friends like most girls I know She is the real life Cinderella Stuck between a fairy tale and the real world Once in a while, she would take a little chance Once in a while, she would put on her favorite dress CHORUS And she doesn't know She's so be...

Told you it was good! *at least for me, it was =D Initially Ata and I wanted to watch Crazy Stone (another movie which get that 'what kind of stupid movie is that?' response). We were all set for the 9PM show at PlaSing, the only place that shows that movie. Ata managed to drag his kind housemate, Fitri, and Darvin who just came back from Bangkok. We had our Carls Jr., were full and ready to buy the ticket. And to my horror, it wasn't showing yesterday! =( I made a blunder, a BIG one. Can't explain how bad I felt. I checked the website but didn't check the date. We were dumbfounded. Fitri came in the name of solidarity so she was quite alright I think. Then she said she wanted to watch Hard Candy. Woohoo! The only problem was to convince Ata it was not a horror and Ata, in the name of solidarity, finally gave in. =D A low budget movie with only two relatively unknown main casts and one setting, an ordinary house. Darvin pointed out that even the transition between s...

Goodness.. I can't stop recommending this album. I am loving it. Okay probably it's just me being so thirsty for some great Christian songs lately and then came this album but but.. there is something different in this one. I am not an expert with music thingy but I felt that there is certain degree of freshness in their composition, structure and color of the songs compares to previous albums. Ya.. something like that. Okay I shall not give more details on the music coz I may well be misleading. Let's talk about the spiritual side of the album. The slow worship songs here are really powerful. They are not just sweet and nice but there is strength within. Get hold of the lyrics and sing along. More than just being touched, your spirit is lifted up. More than just love, you are brought to the atmosphere of total surrender and submission before the Highest One. They are talking about nations, they are declaring boldly their intention to sing praise for the risen King. They do...

Oh I can't believe this, me writing about my son and daughter in future =P Sad to say but I am still having this doubt on having children. I prefered not to have children I guess. So far I have been scolded by different parties for having such thought. They say: - Who would take care of you after you grow old? (though its not given that your kids will take care of you anyway) - Your marriage will turn sour after years and kids will be important to give you that goal, that fresh problems, that achievement. (I admit defeat on this one) One thing for sure: I like children. Otherwise orphanage won't be part of my little dream. So the reason of not having children is external rathar than internal one. Now I am sort of neutral, I can picture myself having few kids. Eh but that's not the reason I started this post. Actually many of my friends would have known by now that if I have a daughter, I would name her Audrey. Yes.. credit to Audrey Hepburn and another Audrey whom I once kn...

EZANN LEE!!! Yes yes.. I have finally chosen Ezann Lee to take over from Fann Wong =D Well.. gotta have plan B mah should Fann Wong out of the blue got married and choose to quit the showbiz. Jeanette Aw is sweet but Ezann has that 'P-factor' (phoenix's factor) in her ^^ I first took notice of her when she appeared in Mediacorp's Christmas show, wearing blue dress I think.. she was so chubby and cute there =D Hm.. can't find any proper pic of Ezann so for the moment I will have to content myself with watching her on the 9 PM channel 8's drama now and then. But her hair is all curly there and I prefer to see her straight straight hair mode.. like the one in ABC DJ, but I very rarely have the chance to catch that show in channel 5. Ezann is now involved in a project where she would play alongside Fann and that will be SO PERFECT!

As I randomly scanned through the list of songs in iwillworship.com I came across a song entitled 'Micah 6:8'. I was curious; what is Micah 6:8 saying? And it turns out.. I dunno.. I find this verse.. very very beautiful =) Amplified Bible version: He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, and to love kindness and mercy, and to humble yourself and walk humbly with your God? The Message version: But he's already made it plain how to live, what to do, what God is looking for in men and women. It's quite simple: Do what is fair and just to your neighbor, be compassionate and loyal in your love, And don't take yourself too seriously— take God seriously. Why do we trouble ourselves with so many unnecessary rules? Why do we hurt our brothers and sisters with all those judgment and condemnation? Can we not strip off all these and love Him in all truthfulness? It's quite simple, really.

If my heart has grown cold, There Your love will unfold; When I'm blind to my way, There Your spirit will pray. Oh Lord You've searched me, You know my way; Even when I fail You, I know You love me. Everyone needs compassion, Love that's never falling, Let mercy fall on me. So take me as You find me, All my fears and failures, Fill my life again. At the cross I bow my knee, Where Your blood was shed for me, There's no greater love than this. You have overcome the grave, Your glory fills the highest place, What can separate me now? You tore the veil, You made a way When You said that it is done. Now I surrender, In my life, Your will be done. *taken from the three best worship songs (imo) in Hillsongs' Mighty to Save album: - Mighty to Save - At the Cross - Oceans Will Part Not every old man is the same, only one of them is my father. And I can tell the difference. Not every gods is the same, only one of them is my Father. And I have lived the difference.

Now that Bro Wanderer commenting that my previous entry was kinda harsh.. I think maybe I went over the top somewhat. Maybe because it was the topic that was close to my heart. If ever you feel that I was being harsh with women in my writing, you might have missed out the main point I was making, that we, men, are the main culprit. I was actually being harsh with men, being harsh with myself. And you might have forgotten that the only reason I got angry was the poor fate of the wife. And it frustated me because I simply don't want to hurt my future wife.. I did say that women are the true expert in lying. But that is not to say that all women love to lie. Just that they are better at that. I said that women don't go by rules. This one.. you have to accept haha. Have you ever seen girls fight? In any case, it's not good to strereotype. So let's just scrap those theories altogether =) I don't plan to promote them anyway. It's just based on what I have seen and ex...

Blinkymummy took on the fidelity subject and she linked up to this story. That story.. it made me mad. I was really angry. I AM ANGRY. We, men, are really stupid. S-T-U-P-I-D. In God's eyes, of course any kind of betrayal towards your marriage is wrong. But let's take a look at this from a human's eyes first. There are some guys who are called 'players'. These men who are categorized as players, they are easy to spot. They are usually good talker, good looking, and have good income. They are heartbreakers and dangerous but girls can identify these players. But cheaters.. you just can't tell. The man you marry may well be a nerd but even a nerd knows how to cheat. Heck even a pastor knows how to cheat. Some cheaters are smart, but some are plain fool. Of course they are all wrong. Biblically speaking, the smart cheaters commit even more sins I think =P Those who go to Geylang for few hours 'fun' are the smarter ones. Better still if they remember to chec...

Well.. I am not a boysband lover but I love many songs sang by BSB and Bryan is my fave personnel for no particular reason. I seldom have reason for liking something. Just like this song. Not a very extraordinary song but gotta love the lyric. Any prodigal son would love the lyric. =)

Batch 5 has 25 people (hey, miss you Erfingo). November 15 1999, we met for the first time. The perfect 7th anniversary is drawing near. In seven years, three of us have gotten married. I think there was one point of time where ALL the 25 of us were SINGLE.. erm yes.. there has to be that period if memory serves, sometimes during our stay at Eton Hall (ugh.. Lin Ting's name pops up heh ^^). Anyway, the frontrunners.. It's Martin -> Dolly -> Lukman. Congratsss mates.. glad for you. Three of the most unlikely culprits if you ask me hah =D I feel obliged to link up Lukman's wedding site here I like the way they met. I should really considering pets. All the best ya =)

Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, (Song of Songs 8:6)