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And my birthday just past. And I am now 25. And I am really grateful for these people who have SMSed or MSNed or called or come to celebrate my birthday. Here you are in almost chronological order (my bad memory) and DEFINITELY not in any other kind of order. I am sure I will miss out someone but I try not to. - Sharon - Sista - Bombie - Iot - Riky and Hilda - Andre and Olip - Biena - Iwan - Linda, Owen, Edwin, Vivi, Erik, Plank, Rita, Mbun (the midnite troops) - Vera - Min - Ica - Henry - Dian S - Fenny - Darvin - Dian W - Oline - Vivy - Rani - Daya - Trisna - Cupang - Felicia and Irwan - Irwan Y. That makes it 22 sis and 12 bros. A 'healthy' ratio lol =P How that ratio never turn into a 'concrete result' is beyond me =D Thanks ya.. especially the nine kind souls who have made the effort to come midnite. Love ya.. I am sorry that I have not been participating in the midnite celebration this year. I never record this kinda thing before but I guess doing it will be good ...

Didn't blog much lately, other than some references to this and that, not because I have nothing to say, just that I can't understand what and how I feel lately. I can't quite tell whether I am happy or sad, content or discontent. Jio Mbun for buffet tomorrow, not because I so much crave for buffet.. heck I will be just as happy to settle for Seoul Garden, which was a place we often visited few years ago. I just want to.. I don't know what I want either. Maybe stuffing myself would help lessen the anxiety. My digestion system will have to work so hard that my brain will switch off for a while.. so the theory goes. It's like you got so much to say yet you don't know what to say. You want to break loose but.. break loose from what? I don't know. But I know that if I got a car and driving license with me now, I would speed down the road to.. I don't know, somewhere, anywhere. I remember sometimes ago I wrote almost identical thing. I was still working in my...

Pronunciation: (dē"ku-thekt'), [key] —v.t. to withdraw one's feelings of attachment from (a person, idea, or object), as in anticipation of a future loss: He decathected from her in order to cope with her impending death. source: www.infoplease.com

Good things happen recently ^^ Not so much for me though lol. Well, my NUS fren got engaged last week. She has been with her boyfriend for quite a while. Both are genius.. congratz2... Then yesterday was the most shocking one... coz I always thought all was just jokes.. congratz to the two FA frens of me. Surely love works in the most unpredictable ways. Of course the previous couple from FA was also shocking to me for different reason haha. Anyway, glad to see them happy. I dunno if Friday's dinner is gonna be good thing but I know that this is really going nowhere. Sigh.. so it seems that we are going nowhere while the others have moved on. Anyway, was having a great FA session last night. Eve shared on how God used her the night before to help cast out demons for her friend. So she was sleeping over her friend's house, they were chatting till almost 3 AM and then the topic became serious and her friend wanted to be set free from the devil spirit inside her. At first Eve was ...

Sometimes ago I watched an anime, where there is one funny character, who has always been on the search for the 'best place'. A place where he can live in peace and be happy. I thought I have found such place. A very nice place where I could seek refuge and find great companions. I thought so because the master of that place is indeed the best and the only refuge you could count on. So I thought the place must be the best place. I saw the old residents of the place; they looked happy and strongly bonded. I was never good at blending in but well, this place should be different. So I gave it a try. Time flew. Some of the old residents are now gone. Some of the newer residents have become as happy as the old residents I first saw. I am neither out nor in. Some residents are really nice; just like the master. But like every other place, a person like me would encounter some people who would give me those unfriendly stare, those 'you are good for nothing' stare. Well what ca...

Was talking to bro wanderer about the great servants of God, among them was Smith Wigglesworth, who God used to heal so many people but he himself wasn't healed from his kidney illness. Then there was John G. Lake whose wife died due to malnutrition. How could the God who provides for the sparrow abandon these servants of Him? I was thinking and asking God as I prepared an article. And as I was doing my favorite business in the loo, which is essentially my place of enlightening in many occasions, it occured to me that, well not to say that this is God's answer whatsoever, but it just occured to me, an illustration that might explain the above cases. It all began when I read this: Smith was saddened in the last month of his life, as he commented: "Today in my mail, I had an invitation to Australia, one to India and Ceylon, and one to America. People have their eyes on me" Sadly, he began to weep: "Poor Wigglesworth. What a failure to think that people have their e...

Thx to Mbun for this link I have not seen fann wong in tv for quite a while. It seems that her age start to show. She is 30 something. Not everyone like her, some people think she isn't pretty, some people even bitch about her being two-faced etc. I never understand how people love to bitch about this or that actress' bad character when they don't even know the person, as in personally. You can criticize her physique and that's fair coz you can see that. But her character? Anyway, glad that she will play in the next 9pm drama. I don't watch much of TV lately but then, I'll try to catch a glimpse of her once or twice a week. Oh and the new movie "Just follow law", I confirm will watch one. Sigh.. how fast time flies. It has been six years since I first and last talked to and shared stage with Fann Wong haha. Darn.. should have 'gan gan' kissed her! ^^

dia yang slalu kuingat takkan pernah hilang dari relung jiwa mengapa tak pernah dia sadari getar rasa di hati yang kurasa kini takkan ku bina semua rasa cinta ku padanya walau apa yang kurasa cukup pedih dan membara takkan ku paksa dirinya memberikan cintanya karna ku tau dia takkan bisa tinggalkan cintanya ohh and now kusadari ku hanya orang ketiga tapi rasa ini tulus akankah semua berubah ************************* ngelink dari sini

Baru denger dari dd gua soal pernikahan glenn n dewi sandra di bali. Pas dewi sandra masuk, glenn nyanyi 'you are my everything' nya.. pas wedding vow, artis2 ada yg ampe nangis.. fwah.. kynya dramatis banget =P Like that, I also want leh ^^ Unlike other stories, this time it is dewi sandra yang jadi kristen. Quite unexpected I would say. Jadi mikir.. ah.. uda deh.. jangan mikir!! =) Wish both of them all the best. Ga gampang buat menyatukan dua keluarga dengan latar belakang religion yang beda. May God bless their marriage! Sekarang lagi demen banget denger lagu 'Singgasana Cinta' nya Ada Band. Lirik n melodinya, ntah napa berasa mirip lagu Kamulah satu2nya si dewa19. N i like that kinda song ^^

So this fren of mine, LL, was down with flu yesterday.. this morning I suddenly got an sms LL : Can you ask me hw m i feeling today? Lol Me: Ha3 u r realy one of a kind, erm.. Hi LL, do u feel better today? Is ur nose stil painful? LL : Hmmm ok this is better.. Hi hi phoenix.. Yes i'm fine. Better today. Thks.. Lol lol She is amusingly funny sometimes ^^ One of those who do things juz coz they feel feel like it. Impulsive. And heck care about all the rules. Anyway that is a compliment ya. Get well soon, my fren.

I remember that sometimes ago some people in our very own Indon' students forum were discussing Singaporean's ignorance towards politics. Some pointed out that the lowly educated bus drivers in Indonesia are generally more aware of their country's politics than the white collars here. And some of my fellow Indonesians are so damn proud of that. Politics. What a big word. Those youngsters who had the chance to meet Lee Kuan Yew brought up the same issue. They fear for the country's future as Singapore's young generation nowadays are mostly clueless with regards to the country's politics. They blame the PAP's dominance and they ask for a level playing field to allow opposition parties to grow. This world is all about finding the unlevel playing field where you gain advantage over the others. But I won't dwell on the naive questions they brought up. What impressed me was LKY's remark on that word, politics. What is politic? Is battling it out with oppos...

Thanks to bro wanderer for asking me something about my Fish Liver Oil story ^^ Which made me realise that I was just making excuses with regards to "I am not for her" thingy. So I took that part away. But that one word which is the reason she is not for me, at least for the moment, is not just an excuse. It is one thing that I would not trade for anything this world can offer. Yes not even 18 years old Noriko Sakai would do, mind you. A song says that to give that up I'll be a fool =) So we are friends now and that's all about it. We went to watch Ice Age 2 today and I felt comfortable so I think we are cool. Yes yes.. we break the pact to not meet with each other =P But really, that's all about it. So I guess that's the end of Fish Liver Oil saga. Good things do happen when Spring comes =) Thanks God ^^ Anyway, went for my first wakeboarding try out last weekend and as always, I am slow at mastering this kinda stuff =( It's okay, will try harder next tim...

Do you like going Spinelli? Do you like Spinelli's ice chocolate? Well.. someone told me that she loved their ice chocolate so much. It's the non blended ice choco. I tried it tonight. It's really nice, sinful though. Have you ever taken fish liver oil? The soft capsule one? Well.. the same person told me that she loved biting the capsule and let the oil spread in her mouth. She likes the fish oil and she likes biting the membrane of the capsule. She would take four capsules everyday coz she likes biting it. So I tried biting my fish liver oil last night. It really is fun. I wonder how many people eat their fish liver oil that way. One thing for sure, no one else has ever told me to try that. So it makes me smile whenever I think of all her strange ideas. It makes me smile whenever I bite my fish liver oil. And I would not miss biting it every night, coz it makes me smile. Do you like to daydream and create some stories in your head? Well.. I do. And so does that person. Sh...

Would record down my day by day travel story somewhere else, hey I got to make use of blogspot unlimited blog ^^ Maybe it's this hard to part with Japan coz I have been wanting to go there for as long as I can remember. And I just love their culture there. It's sad that the young people there, especially in Tokyo, they are just so vain. But their traditional culture is smashing. I love going to onsen soo much. I love how they serve the dishes in small plates. I love the way they greet every customer with enthusiasm, unlike those Sakae Sushi employees here who just shout "irasaimase" with no respect whatsoever. I love to see that they carry out their job with total devotion. In Japan foods are expensive often because of two things, the excellent service and the beautiful packaging. It is no secret that I also like japanese girls. Nihon no kanojo. But there is a misconception among my friends that all I like about Japanese is the girls. Girls are girls. What makes me li...

yes.. it's good to be home BUT NOOO..... I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE JAPANNNN!!!!! will post the trip detail once I feel better haha ^^ life goes on..

Satu lagu lama yang always stays in my heart:: Ya Tuhan ku.. Aku hendak bernyanyi bagi Mu, selama ku hidup Ya Allah ku.. Aku hendak bermazmur bagi Mu, selagi ku ada Inilah yang kurenungkan setiap waktu, Nyanyian pujian dan pengagungan kepadaMu Biarlah manis kau dengar Tuhan, manis kau dengar Tuhan dan hatiku bersuka karna Mu :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Untuk Allah ku, yang tak tergantikan.

I dunno why I feel like putting up this on the day I am about to go to Japan. But I am still so touched by the part of Chinese Paladin I watched last Saturday. So I will talk about this wuxia series. I don't really follow the story in TV coz I never really like wuxia with all the animation effect like Wind and Cloud. That is despite the fact that those series usually are filled with all the pretty girls. The Chinese Paladin is adapted from game. Yes, PC game. The story is partly wizardry with all the demons and partly romance. The romance part is about the main character who as usual is torn between two pretty girls. The girl in smaller pic, supposedly the most beautiful girl in the story, is the one the hero ends up with. The girl in bigger pic (Yue Ru) is actually the one who sacrifices the most for the hero (the stupid guy whose face was also in the pic) and ended up giving her life to save him. We guys are sometimes stupid and always go for the girl with smaller pic. Sigh.. Any...

I put up the link bcoz: 1. I like the song 2. I like the parody done by the "two chinese boys" on the song 3. Upon seeing the clip, I think the girl is quite chio. She got round eyes, round face, fair complexion, and not that tall; so she passes my "chio qualification". Easy ya. thx to oline for giving me the link. congratz for that ehem ehem that is coming to you very very soon.... I am so very jealous of you.

"It's the law of equivalent trade. In order to get something, you have to sacrifice another with equal value." Some anime make me laugh, some cry, few make me cry and laugh altogether. Among these few anime is Full Metal Alchemist. What is alchemist? Alchemy is a study on chemistry transformation. Many people think of alchemy purely as a ridiculous attempt to turn lead into gold. Well some of the alchemists do live for that goal but many contribute to the world with their discoveries of medicine, potion, etc. The anime itself revolves around Edward Elric and his younger brother, Alphonse Elric who are alchemists by trade. It begins with the scene where Edward and Alphonse, still kids then, perform an alchemy ritual trying to revive their mother. Life transmutation is said to be the most forbidden practice. Anyone who try to transmutate life will be committing an inerasable sin. Edward loses his right arm in process and Alphonse loses his entire body. Fortunately, or unfor...

There is this ad that pictures a woman with her husband (or future husband) on the bed, and she goes "I want to start a family" To which her husband replies "Let's do it with James!" And I go "What the heck? Threesome?!" Sigh.. my polluted mind. Eh but you know, I was amused really. Who is James? Since when do you need a third party to do this "thing". I guess that's the ad's intention after all but it's a bit inappropriate I think. It sort of kills the brand's image. Okay I was just spurting nonsense. I know nothin about marketing actually. Anyway, they now come up with the sequel which I think is much better. A girl sitting in the restroom cubicle talking to her friend who sit in the adjacent cubicle. She asks "How could she afford going holiday?" And her friend replies "She is using James" Now that gives better picture of what the ad is all about right? For many people in SG, "someone" like Jam...

Today I proudly proclaim that I have finally learned to have faith in queue ^^ Yes. Whenever you see an unusually long queue in Singapore, you just have to believe that there is something good and cheap or even free up for grab. Singaporean don't queue for nothing! Kiasu? Nah.. that's called nose for opportunity =P I have wanted to come up with my argument to support this whole kiasu issue, and have actually typed them down. On second thot, I can't be bothered. I just want to say that despite kiasuism being something that is not exactly noble, people have to really stop condemning those who practice it. And more importantly, realizing that there is that kiasu gene in almost everyone. In the event where the resources are scarce, that kiasu spirit would awaken. Homo homini lupus, is that the term? So yeah.. don't think too highly of ourselves, the 'generous' and 'gotong royong' Indonesian. Anyway, I was actually talking about the queue in front of Ngee Ann...