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Fish Liver Oil

Do you like going Spinelli? Do you like Spinelli's ice chocolate? Well.. someone told me that she loved their ice chocolate so much. It's the non blended ice choco. I tried it tonight. It's really nice, sinful though.

Have you ever taken fish liver oil? The soft capsule one? Well.. the same person told me that she loved biting the capsule and let the oil spread in her mouth. She likes the fish oil and she likes biting the membrane of the capsule. She would take four capsules everyday coz she likes biting it.

So I tried biting my fish liver oil last night. It really is fun. I wonder how many people eat their fish liver oil that way. One thing for sure, no one else has ever told me to try that.

So it makes me smile whenever I think of all her strange ideas. It makes me smile whenever I bite my fish liver oil. And I would not miss biting it every night, coz it makes me smile.

Do you like to daydream and create some stories in your head? Well.. I do. And so does that person. She loves to come up with unfinished stories. Stories without ending. Because she likes uncertainty. No one else has really told me that kind of stuff either.

When I sacrificed and did something stupid for someone I care about, often it went without them noticing and never had anyone asked me "Why did you do that?" the way she did.

Similarly, no one has ever told me to entertain her for seven hours because she couldn't sleep on the plane. And she ended up teaching me playing Super Mario 3 and we even played that thumb game. No one has done that before.

No one other than my mum has actually showed concern about my face, asked me to see a skin doctor and recommended me one. And no one other than my mum has told me to do something with my hair.

No one else has told me that she also believes that it's such a nice feeling to look at someone's msn, holding back the desire to call that person, pretending as if you never see that person online. No one else told me to let our beautiful memory stays as it is. That we are not supposed to meet if that will ruin it. That when we bump into each other we would say "Hi, how have you been?" and smile as if we miss nothing.

But she is no angel. Sometimes her words can be so direct that it hurts. Sometimes she can turn fierce and the other times she is as adorable as a cat. Maybe her imperfectness is also a beauty.

Do everyone who fall in love become stupid? Am I a fool since I fall for that person because of all these? I know that I am in love when my mind turns creative and I start thinking of many stupid things I want to do for and with her. I know I am in love when I start writing all these. But well.. it may just be infatuation after all. I don't know. I turn dumb in the last few days.

But I am not for her and she is not for me. That much I know.

I have earlier on stated a reason why I am not for her but I have to say that that is a lame excuse. I guess only she can tell why I am not for her.

On the other hand, there is one word which is the reason why she is not for me. One word that I have decided to keep it for myself.

I never knew that holding back can be this hard. I never knew that I would still miss that person despite me trying not to. I guess I will just have to bite more fish liver oil whenever I miss her badly.

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