..my battle stance..

Finished watching Kurosagi, following Liar Game. That's two J-dorama in a row. And I guess it marks my return to J-world. The two leads are Yama-P and Cuy2's fave, Horikita Maki, who were both in Nobuta wo Produce. The story is revolving around the world of swindlers. A young boy Kurosaki(Yama-P), is the main character with revenge mission. His family was victim of a swindler and he intends to bring down every swindler in the world. His nickname is Kurosagi (black swindler). Horikita Maki plays Tsurara (what a kawaii name) who happens to be a law student and Kurosaki's love interest. She is constantly torn between her ideal of justice and Kurosaki's version of justice. Yama-P is too pretty to be a mysterious black swindler and Horikita Maki is too cute to be a prosecutor wannabe. Kurosagi, dubbed the legendary swindler in the opening scene, is nowhere as impressive as Shinichi Akiyama (Liar Game). But Kurosagi is superior in terms of its character development, love stor...

that I caught on YES933.. Romantic Princess' OST- nice song, too bad Angela Zhang looks more and more superficial to me nowadays. Show's new song I loveeee this lil fish lady ^^

Your sweet presence is all that I need, for I find home in Your dwelling place, and I find comfort beneath Your steady wings. Even as I find myself surrounded, I know Your might hands will deliver me. Neither sin nor death, neither wealth nor sickness, neither fame nor failure, could ever separate me from Your throne of mercy. Through high and low, peace and storm, laughter and tear, David's soul will sing you love songs, and his heart delights with praises.

---- *don't read if you refuse to be offended by someone who is simply practicing his critical mind by taking the devil advocate role, against anyone who thinks that hady doesn't deserve his title. i am supporting Mike, that's for sure. I am supporting Mike's big heart in congratulating hady. I am proud of that ^^ ----- "To see beyond the glory is the hardest thing.. for a hero's strength is measured by his heart"- Hercules OST Sometimes I wonder whether it's better to be... A winner who is condemned unworthy by all spectators.. or a loser who is deemed worthy of winning by all spectators. Hady, though returning to Singapore in glory, is under strong criticism by spectators from other countries. Presumably we Indonesians are among his strongest critics as everyone thought Mike clearly deserved the title. But we have learned from that food critic guy in Ratatouille, it's always easy and costless to be critic. But no matter how good your arguments n ...

the ultimate battle stance =)

Woah.. this song is nice.. can we sing this in YRC, WLs? ^^

Present suffering may pass Lord Your mercy will last As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand And my heart will find praise I'll delight in Your way As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand In my life.. Your will be done!

I will run the race, and I will fight a good fight not by might, not by power, but by the Spirit of God.. - a sparrow's faith -

Probably on the same train all along, But now is not the time for us.. To see, to touch, and to fall in love With one another. Not yet..

Morning at the office - this guy (prop agent) was talking with someone on the phone. He was saying, "No.. property agent 'bu xing' de (cannot). I am an agent myself and I can tell you, agents are not honest. He can't be honest to both side of clients. He has to pick one side coz if he tries to be honest to everyone, he won't close any deal." Maybe the person on the other side was goign to ask her child to become or to marry a property agent =) It has been an intense battle every day. And I am constantly finding myself, torn and tempted. But it's something I do with fire in my belly. I have NO intention to be prop agent forever. And that's why I need to learn and complete this mission fast! Ganbarre!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Late afternoon- stupidly leading Rancu, her mum and Nisa's mum to cross a street while the pedestrian sign is 'red'. So this police officer with 'kayu' face called us over and wrote down our particulars. Co...

Liar Game is not great because of its tricks (which are good), or its plot (which is sort of average, even cliche). It's great because I think it really throws you a question that Nao Kanzaki asks, "Being stupidly honest, ikemasen ka?" I find Nao Kanzaki, the innocent main character, extraordinarily frustating and infuriating. But that only shows that I.. have given in to the notion that given chance and situation, anyone will be able to betray you. I have come to believe that in this world.. there are simply too many wicked people. So I couldn't stand her innocence, the way she was tricked over and over again. Eventhough she is really cute ^^ And having dealt with so many property agents in the last few months.. my belief has grown even stronger. People can be shockingly cruel and selfish. But lately I have also begun to understand a very powerful part of the famous Sermon on the Mount. "Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy!" If you show me...

She's inexplicably sweet, 'doncha know'

Batch 5's 8th reunion yesterday. And only eight of us attended. Record low! Well.. it's expected. Eight years down the road, probably only a handful of us who still consider this reunion as important as it was. Not many would admit that, but facts speak for itself. So.. gotta thank Vivy for her consistent effort in making sure that we have a reunion every year. Vivy is.. another person whose commitment, words and promises you could safely bet on. I think I have repeated myself too often but really.. I dun care if you are super nice or whatever, what matters most to me is to know that if you say 10 words, at least I can safely trust that you really mean 9 of them.

if you think i have lost myself, i am sorry. but rest assured, i haven't. i simply need to catch up with lost times, and keep going strong, because... i won't let you down.

is born today!!!! Heh heh.. May God bless the first born, and use it for His glory. Beyond imagination and boundary of dream. Welcome to my world, "Red & White House".

When I finally make my trip to Israel, I thought I would like to make a trip to Jordan River and by chance, I would probably be walking down the path that David took as he collected his little stones prior to the legendary battle. I wonder if I could feel what the little boy felt that day. Was he calm? Was he shaking in excitement? Or was he trembling with anger? What about fear? Was it there? How could he not fear the giant? And doubt? How could he be so sure he would defeat the mighty Goliath? I have seen warriors preparing for battle. Some would drink liquor to boost their courage. Some would meditate to calm their mind. What was he thinking that day? I am a very normal human. I would either be wondering if I would lose this crazy battle (or why was I being such a busybody to challenge that big pile of muscle), or be thinking of the glory that I would get when I defeat Goliath. How could this little boy think of nothing but to punish someone who humiliate his mighty God? No fear, no...

This song often plays inside my head, yet I never knew what song it is. Come across this song incidentally in yutub =)

but they only know how to judge us, while they haven't been to our battlefield, let alone fight alongside us. not even once. yet all is well, all is well.. for i shall feast before my enemies, and i shall reign over their mockery surely mercy and goodness will follow me, all the days of my life. and i shall dwell in Your house forever more.

A fairy tale, fated encounter, or serendipity... A princess , fair lady, or damsel in distress. If they don't carry your smile, then it's none of the above.

My ex-boss, affectionately known as 'bos ayam', has this habit of asking this in her job interview, "What is the difference between Efficient and Effective?" Anyone in our Corp Development Dept must know how to answer that question, unless you are interested to attend her one hour lecture. So.. it was kinda nostalgic when I read today's Strait Times and saw this Time Mgt article which, I believe, is inspired by many books my ex-boss also use to teach us. Rite.. what's the difference? *taken from Strait Times* Efficiency means doing things right. Working efficiently is doing things with the least amount of wasted effort. Effectiveness means doing the right things, doing things that yield results. So.. which is more important? Which one should I work on first? Answer is.. 'Effectiveness'. Focus on effectiveness means you are focusing on the result, rather than being occupied by the process. Simple example: If a salesperson is focusing on his efficiency, ...

Twenty blades. Twenty one empty cups. Twenty two dead bodies. Jiang Zhi had been standing at the middle of the restaurant hall for the last half an hour. "Something is wrong.." He had been saying the same sentence for at least five times. A sturdy man with officer uniform walked into the hall. "Everything is wrong. Before yesterday, our village had not seen any swordsman for the last twenty one years." The man was about fifty years of age. His voice was clear and commanding. He continued, "These swordsmen, they appeared out of nowhere yesterday. That was already very suspicious. But now.. their death is even more mysterious." An old man had been sitting at the corner of the hall all this while. He had now stood up and walked towards the door. "Old man Jiu, what do you think?" Jiang Zhi asked. Old man Jiu could only sighed and walked away. "Have you found any clue?" The sturdy man asked while picking up an empty cup. "Yes.. there ar...

Was strolling down the street, out from the office. At one point, I noticed that there was a lady walking by my side. I took a glance and so did she. First glance. Second glance. She seemed to find me familiar. And I, inevitably, felt that she also looked familiar. Can't believe that we glanced at the same time twice but then.. Third glance. She smiled to me. And I.. had to smile in return. So this friendly looking lady indeed knew me, I thought. And she went, "IT right?" I nodded like a dumb. I used to be working in IT line but I just couldn't recall this lady. She introduced herself, "Direct sales." So tonight, 'IT' officially made acquintance with a nice lady whose name is 'Direct Sales'. 'IT' was still in daze, wondering if he had really forgotten such a friendly person. 'Direct Sales' seemed to understand this and explained "You fixed my laptop". To which 'IT' replied, "Oh.." It was getting wei...

Today on my way to office, saw those ladies from the Heavenly Mother Clan. So what is this Heavenly Mother stuff? Basically they (named Church of God), believe that there is this 'hidden character' that is only revealed today, towards the Second Coming. And this hidden character is the 'Heavenly Mother'. They argue that this world's family system (dad, mum, child) is an image of heaven's family. So we know the Father, we know the Son.. then where is the Mother? The Mother, they argue, is the bride mentioned in the Revelation (diff from bride in the Gospel). So my questions were simple to the lady who approached me. 1. So will someone be saved if he doesnt know this heavenly mother? She was struggling for a while before finally saying 'No'. To which I rebuke strongly, coz this claim is definitely against many verses in the Bible. But then I suppose she can't really say 'Yes' rite? 2. The Bible says that whoever believes in Jesus will be saved....

Orang suka bilang.. "Yah gua seh support ajeh sebagai temen..." Ato... "AYoo loe pasti bisa.. " Sambil dalem atinya ngeraguin whether it is actually possible. Mungkin it sounds better than jujur bilang "Gua ga sarankan seh ituh.. " Ato... "Kaynya loe kudu lebih realistis seh." I suppose it's really better to encourage rather than discourage yah. Irregardless of perasaan ati kita sendiri. Tapi di saat kita semangatin tuh orang dan di waktu yg sama, ga rela ato ga berani untuk melangkah bareng dia, ga punya nyali untuk stand by him.. dan lebih parah lagi, ever ready to tell him "Tuh kan... benernya gua uda ngerasa emank ga mgkn sehh..." di saat dia gagal. What I call the "I told you so" brigade. Then.. I guess... Itu bener2 pathetic. Ada waktunya kita bilang "Gua support elo!" cuman di waktu kita berdua ama dia, dan di waktu kita dikelilingi orang2 yang go against him.. kita bakal turn around and say "Benernya...

So the little girl is somewhat few phonecalls away from getting attached. a miss or a skip? Well.. it's a right decision.. that's all I can say.

Congratzz elsa.. for your ROM hehe!!! You said "ini lagu lu banget".. I say "cewe di klip ini.. lu banget".. Haha.. I suppose you really know me. So this song is dedicated to you ^^ ..kan bu jian ni de xiao, wo zhen me shui de zao..

in time of need

it rains today.. just like then. love you all, folks.. just like then. happy 8th anniversary batch 5- the most precious first 24 people I knew in this little red dot called Singapore

-for to be modest is to know your worth but conceal it- interesting point. some people love to boast and look down on others.. while some people love to fake modesty, criticizing themselves in order to get praises from others. people say things for different reason, and some say a lot of things.. but do you really need to say anything to show that you are modest? do you even need to show that? i suppose, modesty is sometimes best described in silent assurance. *learning*

Theme song of the hugely impressive movie, Stardust. Rule the World by Take That Not many were interested in Stardust when I brought it up, so I was surprised that Ata asked me if I wanted to watch. I missed out on 'Triplet of Belleville' as well as 'Lars and the real girl', sadly. It's always difficult to find partner to watch non mainstream movies. But gladly, I watched my Stardust. Fantasy, jokers, witty lines, romance, climax, and 'happily ever after'- the movie has it all. Heard that the novel itself is even more fascinating than the condensed movie. Claire Danes's character, Yvaine, is one the most adorable fairy tale's princesses I have ever known. Can't help falling in love with her. Charlie Cox's Tristran is.. sigh.. so well developed, from a naive young boy into a dashing young man.. you can't help gasping in disbelief just like Victoria upon Tristran's return from Stormhold. And Robert de Niro is Robert de Niro.. playing a ...

Back from Jkt (someone pls do sumting bout the busway.. the jam was.. horrible!!).. with lotsa things to catch up with, and lotsa things on my mind. No wonder I see more grey hair sprouting on my head recently. Nyway.. glad that we (me, jend and bie, and 2 other strangers) made the trip to bandung and met Ivan. His parents were so nice and he was our host for 2 days. He surely brought us to every place we wanted to see, even in the midst of heavy rain ^^ Thanks Van.. upahmu besar di sorga =P And I like your car ^^ For the first time in almost 20 yrs.. I went to a dentist n I kinda agree now that dentists are monsters. They got so many scary tools and yukz.. but thanks God there was nothing serious with my teeth. One lesson my family is learning lately: God truly makes way when there is no way. It's just amazing how He planned everything and made sure that we will never have to worry for our daily bread. Another lesson I learn from my investment game lately: Greed kills.

is probably... a soul that love the Creator above everything, a gentle heart and a wise head that know not only what to say, but also what not to say . everything else is.. I guess... negotiable.

There is a place of quiet rest, Near to the heart of God; A place where sin cannot molest, Near to the heart of God. —McAfee

his rebelling wings refuse to bow to the relentless wind how could there be a shelter for a sky dweller please don't bother he won't stay any longer

All of you are..

In the world of anime and manga.. There is probably not many who can be compared to Son Goku. (even though Son Gohan is my favorite) In the world of J-Pop.. There is probably not many who is as subtle and charming as Izumi Sakai of Zard. (even though Noriko Sakai will always be my number one) You are right Vy , she is something special.. always.

www.toeltoel.com hueehe.. thats either another trick or.. a very interesting website ^^

So I was on my way back from another day full of walking and searching.. Another typical day of a new property agent.. Behind me was almost two months of effort and zero closed deal. But somehow my steps were light and so was my heart. There was no rose to smell.. no victory to be spoken of. But there was eternity in my heart.. that eclipsed all doubt. And there was smile on my face.. that defy all fear. And from my mouth... a song came out.. Oh I feel like dancing ^^

Yet another one who I thought love freedom more than I do =P but is now happily settled with a lovely wife. Congrats Wan, Cath.. Wishing you two many happiness in life ^^

Haven't read his book, heard that it was very good Knew that he was a big fat liar who made people believe that he was a rich dad.. Still they said it didn't take away the fact that his book was very good. And I kinda agree that he got many good points there. But honestly speaking, I am geting tired of having a friend, whom I have not seen for yonks, suddenly calling me, And with super sincere tone ask me to come out for a dinner, Only to finally expose his/her true color by sharing with me.. their MLM thingy.. and Kyosaki's religion. I have nothing against MLM, in fact I would probably want to try it.. But I am just so sick of their old trick which make use of your friendliness to trap you. The next time someone I haven't seen for years suddenly call me up for a dinner, I think I should ask that person if this has anything to do with Kyosaki. Hmm.. maybe I should just take this latest offer and try to prove if you can succeed without practicing that sickening trick.

Some people are too wordy, That's me sometimes. Some people think too much of themselves, That's me sometimes. Some people critize too much, That's me sometimes. Some people are too laidback, That's me sometimes. Some people want everything, That's me sometimes. Some people think you will always be most beautiful, That's ..

TO EVERYTHING there is a season, and a time for every matter or purpose under heaven: a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing..

"He who asks is a fool for five minutes, but he who does not ask remain a fool forever." - Chinese Proverb I felt so embarassed that being a property agent, I didn't really know what TOP means.. at least I wasn't really sure. But I couldn't think of a way to ask without losing my face coz u see.. even those who are not property agent know that terms. But I decided to take the risk, and asked another agent today.. turned out that she was also not sure what TOP stands for lol. But at least she confirmed my thot of what TOP means. So at least from today onwards, I know what TOP is. What a good proverb. You don't have to get it right. You just have to get it going Actually I think those who have gone for marketing seminar would be familiar with this terms. I had my first presentation last Sat n I made a mistake in telling the owner, of all things, that I don't get any comission for helping them to buy flat while the truth is I will get 1%. How on earth was I ...

the short, unfinished story of you and me and may your marriage be a happily-ever-after one

geez.. had the time but not the inspiration to update my blog. couple of stuff going on.. but first and foremost.. thank you Jesus for the amazing, amazing surprise. made my round to distribute my flyers to buildings nearby my area. knew that my flyers were not really outstanding and gosh.. people are distributing colorful and pro flyers while mine is an a5 black and white lol. what to do? pray of course ^^ asked for His favor and tadaa... today, as i was attending my internet marketing seminar (more on that later..), i was called by a girl who told me that her parents want to sell their house. i was shocked and for the next couple of hours.. couldn't think properly. should i get a pro agent to accompany me tomorrow? should i do this and that? in the end.. i decided to go on my own and give my best. it began with grace.. and should it work out tomorrow, and i got my 1st listing.. then it will also be by His grace, and not by anything else. really appreciate herman's guidance ju...

Looks like a good dorama

This book never fails to amaze me. It is just amazing, things that are written there. Pick any random verse and the chance is, you are getting yourself a priceless advise that could change your life (and take years to master, by the way). Tonight I was reading Proverbs 23 and I find myself reprimanded, verse after verse. ANd if you read 'The message' version of the bible, its even better ^^ Reading this part: "Don't be afraid to correct youg ones; a spanking won't kill them. A good spanking, in fact, might save them from something worse than death." reminds me of the spanking I used to get when I was much younger. I still don't get it.. how my dad could be that 'cruel', spanking me even when I was crying and begging him to stop. But I am glad he didn't stop. Coz the pain and marks would be gone after few days.. but the lesson was learnt for a lifetime. Actually, looking back... I think all the teachers that make the difference to me were the on...

Saw the song from linda's blog, last week. The more I listen to this song, the more I find the lyric deadly. You are warned! ^^ Dun really follow American Idol but I did root for Chris when I saw him performing. After all, his voice is something I would love to have heh.

have come to love watching naruto because of.. well.. naruto. always dislike sasuke but at the end of the day.. i find myself, my way of thinking, more of sasuke than naruto. there is sasuke in me, and gaara in me. but not naruto, unfortunately.

kita akan mengerti, satu hari satu masa nanti, arti semua cinta yang terhenti dan sebab setiap retak hati dan tentang kita..

Taiwanese All Stars

The fragrance of your smile.

Went to Andre's new house last Saturday.. wow.. he surely done up his house. The decor was really nice and lovely, perfect for a newly wed (or almost there one). you can tell the couple are loving their home. Feel good for them. So a friend who we thought would be the last to settle down *cough*.. has actually settled down nicely. And today, went to Cath n San's house which is.. awesome. It was all white, with wallpaper that looks.. grand. The feel is different, more castle-like. The design is quite different from the typical warm and comfy design that we often see in Singapore. Though there were few things that I, in my most ignorant opinion, feel out of place, I guess it is one of the best friends' condo units I have been to- turn out that their dad is an architect. bella's four season unit is another great house I have seen but that is a two-storey penthouse that cost probably 5 times more expensive. I know nothing about interior design but I just love to see houses ...

October end.. China beckons.. Hmm.. Wonder if I can make this trip ^^

Makes you stronger. I suppose we are all familiar with that phrase. There are times when I feel so depressed or sometimes sad, seeing how some friends make the wrong decisions. Especially when they actually know the truth, what they should do, and yet.. they follow their heart, emotion, hormone, whatever it is. Being among youth who are sometimes eight or ten years younger, you just couldn't help feeling sorry for them when they took the wrong path you had taken when you were younger. You would sometimes try to advise them. But it doesn't always work. And that is the moment you come to understand the pain in your parents' heart when they saw you made those mistakes in your teenage days. But I am now slowly learning to remind myself that sometimes.. it is the mistakes that God allows to happen. The best way to learn is sometimes to make mistake. It would have been ideal if everyone could follow Paul's advise for Timothy. We have heard it times and again. Preachers are te...

Even if I decide to stand still, the world will still slip away. Even if I refuse to move, the world will move on. Time wait for no one.. indeed.

To you.. I hope you are alrite.. and happy. And be back on your feet and smile soon, sis. God is faithful and u are precious.. that's all I can say.

It is so exciting, everything about this open-ended journey that I embark on. Even the risk of failure and the opportunity of making a glorious comeback. Though I am praying that God.. you would lead me into success after success. To wake up every morning and say.. God.. let's work on some plans today.. amaze me today, surprise me, make me speechless in wonder. That is priceless. Everything in front of me is unknown. But I know that there will be clouds of hope in my tomorrow's sky. Yes I am empty handed now but I am so alive in Your hands. I am 26 and I am alive!! Yoshhh...

So I will guard my heart with all my strength and Your boundless grace. Coz I want to wait, for my season.. season to love.

it started with a kiss...

Woot.. its bible camp today!! Nuff said.. lets get rolling!!!! ^^

woot.. days without job are quick to pass by. deadly. but slowly God starts to open ways and paths for me. I am praying that this "new thing" that appear is really something that He is planning for me. it sounds good and promising ^^ that "new thing" apart, I still got some other stuff that I promised to do once I quitted. maybe after the camp. Wait.. not 'maybe', but 'definitely'. at least I had fulfill my promise to do some exercise heh. I finally swam last Mon. now.. the ever classic topic: love department. ehem.. funny that I never recall an occasion like this.. where it's like.. almost everyone around me is dealing with this issue, in one way or another. Some have quite serious problem with that while some.. well.. can still manage to treat it like an extra in their life. but.. don't you agree that it's wonderful to be in love? =) as for me.. I think I have finally learned to be genuinely happy to see the person I love, happily in lo...

lalu bila dia tertawa...

So broken, and shattered.. I drag my bended knees closer to my Savior's feet. Won't You make me whole? Won't You breathe in me? Stay with me.. my Savior friend. And I will be alright.. And all is well.

Nice sweetie song.. Heh.. the song is gud but more importantly, got Ariel Lin ^^ I guess I really like this girl. "Wo men tai jue jiang, lian tian dou bu ren fan dui" We're so stubborn that even heaven can't bear to go against us and.. the best japanese dorama OST, for me personally.

--OST of Tian Wai Fei Xian-- The bridge in front of the restaurant, maybe we both can't get there A bitter laugh with no reason, only torture The embrace that I've practices for many times, we can't see after sunrise Can't stay by yours side until you're old, until you're old I don't know, who else can you rely on like me I only hope, you will remember how good I am After sunrise, I can never hold your hand anymore After sunrise, I will gradually leave your dream I don't dare to say, I just can't say goodbye After sunrise, what reason do I have to make you stay After sunrise, the only thing left is loneliness Don't be sad, let all the pain be silently withstood by me I thought I would be able to achieve it, hold you until the sky and earth turn old Loving you, I feel proud, anything is good Anticipating your embrace, maybe the chances are too slim Pouring tears with a bitter smile, how am I to escape? How can an empty dream write our "from n...

It ain't what you don't know that gets you into trouble. It's what you know for sure that just ain't so. - Mark Twain Sometimes the most annoying people are not those who do not understand you. It is those who are so sure that they understand you but they actually don't. And often, we don't realise that we are actually playing that annoying role. If only we always remember to speak less. It is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt.- Mark Twain

Heh remembered that day, having dinner with some subroto fa mates.. n linda was saying that my type is someone like "usagi tsukino". It's one of the strange things about me that some of my dearest friends would know. Just rewatched some of her clips in youtube n hey.. I still adore her =P But all my life.. I have only one friend who is an 'usagi tsukino'. I never had any doubt that she is my favorite. And she.. is not an option, anymore. Or she never was. Will there be a second one?

LOL... Cath.. kawaii datte bayo.. thx to ivan for the photos... ^^

One of those men who defined my teenagers' music ^^

dan jangan berakhir..

Here.. is an essay written against John Eldgredge's controversial book, Wild At Heart. The essay is quite heavy on theology, but it certainly worths reading to balance ourselves if we were to read Eldredge's book. I believe Wild at Heart is one of the best books I have ever read but all the same, I always felt that it is also one of the most dangerous ones. John Eldredge is one of those blessed with talent to come up with words so powerful you will nod your head in agreement without digesting them, most of the times. And that's why I love the book so much. But I suppose Eldredge is only human. He, like many other servants of God, has the tendency to swing towards the extreme of his own belief that sometimes, they (or we) fall into this trap of 'creating God in our own image'. I believe that the essay in itself has flaws and my own opinion, definitely, also has flaws. Geez I am not even a Theologist. But ultimately, none of us has that complete wisdom to understand G...

You shouldn't be too serious about the shame that comes with your failure. Or the glory that comes with your success. But in repentance, and thanksgiving, that is where you shall put your heart into.

Woah.. thankss to Owen for the tic. Got to watch Glenn's concert last Sat. I missed about four songs thanks to the dumb fireworks and everyone else who jammed the traffic =P As for the concert.. I must say I was impressed. I mean I know he is good but all along, I sort of thought that his main strength was his very high range and good falsetto, that's all. But man was he GOOD! ^^ ANd the crowd was definitely great, Glenn even had to stop singing many times.. they were juz uber loud thruout the concert. When Glenn sang 'you're my everything', the musicians were pointing their fingers heavenward, and so do we =P For a moment, it felt like a worship session lol. And I just remembered how much I love to watch concert. To see those singers singing and expressing their emotion onstage, and how the crowds are jumping to the beat, that sort of atmosphere is always kinda magical to me. Oh and one shocking fact we learned that nite.. Taufiq, that Sing Idol fella, is tall and ...

The rain had just stopped. The wrenching sound of raindrop had also faded out. Calm.. But the heart.. It was still beating. Sorrowful heart of the man. It had to continue beating. And as long as it beat, the man had no choice but to endure the pain. Amidst the pain, he smiled. The girl was still stood there. Motionless. Her tear had been washed away. But her pain.. Rain certainly could not stop a heart from beating. She was also in pain. Amidst the pain, she also smiled. Before them was a priest. Marriage. They were ready. Yet they had to wait, painfully wait. Because the world was not ready. Not before the 13th hour. Thus they waited. They simply refused to let go. Not before their heart went to rest.

"It will be strange if a woman makes up her mind and does not change her mind afterwards." - Gu Long

A j-dorama that I love. An ending that I love. You will hug me. You will leave. Not with me. "Take care. Be happy." At the end.. the simple wishes are the only words spoken. Coz all the most important feelings, all the words that I am dying to cry out.. they are no longer relevant Taking that picture from behind.. I suppose I love that bittersweet feeling. The flavor of 'ending'. One day I will love.. someone who's by my side.

Exodus 15:3 The Lord is a warrior ; Yahweh is his name! I always remember the scene towards the end of Narnia where Aslan was making his way back to wilderness with such grandiose pose. He was majestic. The children had wanted to make him stay but were told that the lion is never to be tamed. Our Lord is a wild warrior. And we.. are the childrens of the Great Warrior.

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. Whoever came up with that line.. he was a genius =P Woohoo.. my boss has turned against me now that I am quitting. I have been so close to strike back but.. I know I will lose my battle if I do so. Hmphh.. humility..

inilah yang kupunya.. hati sbagai hamba, yang mau taat dan setia padamu Bapa. kemana pun kubawa, hati yang menyembah.. dalam roh dan kebeneran, sampai slamanya. This song has been my favorite song, lyric-wise. It is the song I will sing everytime I feel mistreated, or angry. Especially when it involves my fellow church mates. In all honesty, church is not much different from working place. Let me rephrase this: adults church is not much different from working place. We bring what we have learned in our workplace to the church. We operate church like an enterprise. But this song.. it reminds me that after all.. I am only His servant. This is a lesson I keep learning, now and then. Because my ego is not dead yet. Neither is my pride. I am battling them every day. Sometimes I lose. Sometimes I win. So when I am on the verge of losing.. I will sing this song. This is all I have Lord. The heart of a servant. And all I really want.. is to obey and be faithful to my Father.

Lalu terpikir pagi ini, tersadar dari mimpi tengah jalan. Rasa yang kamu simpan, bukan yang ku nanti. You don't see me that way after all. All the wrong hearts I have been longing for. Why can't I be a lil bit more special to you?

the koreans.. I wonder if they ever thought of the chance of getting kidnapped when they volunteered themselves. The hostages are all ill now and some of them are seriously ill. That's what the taliban said. I was thinking of naruto's ninja squad when I read the news about how these kidnappers break themselves into small groups. As such, it will be very difficult for the rescuers to free the hostages altogether. It will be great if we have konoha ninjas to save those hostages heh. But obviously we don't. And for a good reason. There is God. This story of Paul came to my mind as I prayed for these hostages. So I prayed that just the way Paul was set free from the prison, God would deliver them. Each and everyone of them. That those Taliban would see how our God moves the earth to save His people. Let's pray together for them. I don't really believe in online petition. But I truly believe in God's mighty hands.

I am so not going to let you go. I don't even want to consider the probability. Aku suka dia.. banget ^^

hmm... I begin to wonder.. if I have high blood pressure. I am easily worked up lately.. much easier. but I still find it funny how high blood pressure could result in you getting emotional. and i am still not going to let this rage control me. darn...

I am reading the book "Wild at Heart". One of the most striking points that the author made was that of how many, if not almost all, men are most severely wounded by their own father. You would have thought that your dad will be the one who believes in you when everyone else is doubting you. You expect him to do so. Coz when he does, you know that it ain't matter even if the rest are against you. So when it turns out that he is siding with those who doubt you. It hurts the most. It kills off your hope. It strips you off your courage and belief to be a real man. Because the man who is suppose to show you how to be a real man, the one whose approval matters the most.. does not side with you. He loves you.. yes. But a father's role is not simply to love and nurture. He is more than just that. He is your assurance, stronghold, strength. He leads you into adventure, he fights with you side by side, he shows you how to rescue a beauty. When your father of flesh and blood ca...

I felt sad and sorry somewhat. I knew I have failed their expectation. I thought I will be uber excited once I tendered but turned out that.. I felt sorry. After all.. this has been the best job I have gotten into. And my tough bosses have been the most life changing ones. Funny how all those tough people are the ones who change our lives. But I felt that this is the end of my learning here. I have to move on. Whatever that next step is, I have to make my move now. What if I got it wrong? I dunno. I can only ask God to lead me. A lil bit scared, a lil bit excited, a lot of uncertainties. Sounds like an adventure ^^ "Daddy.. tell me everything gonna be alrite". The Lord is my sheperd....

Was browsing through my photos folder. Looking back, I thought 2005 was a wonderful year. It's not that kind of "how I wish it stays the same" thought. It's just that.. I am feeling grateful. For all the friends who were once there. And are still here.. somewhat. How I never realised that 2005 had been such a wonderful year. For example, I never realised that my most memorable bday was my 2005 bday. I suppose I have to, once again, thank you all who were there. You know who you are. In a way 2006 has also been wonderful. After all, I went to Japan that year. But still, 2005 felt slightly sweeter. That's ironic if you consider the fact that I was jobless for 5 months in 2005. I wouldn't have believed that I would say this today. Everything is beautiful in its own time. How true is that. 2007.. I will want to look back in 2009 and says.. 2007 has been unforgettable. I have not grown much for the last 3-4 years. But this year, I have grown somewhat. I have learne...

silver maiden of night sky, aimlessly floating, scarlet shadow of wounded earth, endlessly pursuing.

intriguing. The more I think about this, the more I find it amusing. Little monkey is a special case. A case I have not encountered for the last 26 years. It is the case of perfect madness, of impossibility. I suppose by now, many people would have thought that I am in love. And they would have thought that little monkey is the culprit. But that.. is not quite right. Little monkey, you see, is an adventure. When I am in love, I seldom hide it. But little monkey, is not the case of being in love. Little monkey is a fascinating, dangerous adventure. It is a challenge to my sanity and logic. I am afraid no one will be crazy enough to be my comrade in this adventure. And therefore I could never share this little secret now. But I can promise you this.. My heart is still roaming in the wilderness.

Miracle after miracle, goodness after goodness. God has been doing great things in our life lately. And I see this in the lives of our church friends as well. This season has been a shower of grace and blessing. Now God.. please do not let us rest on our laurel. Instead, spur us to leap even higher. We still have about five months left in 2007. I am still expecting something greater, the grand finale. Limit break. Overdrive. *This is even better than romance*

Hohoho thankss God for the gift ^^ It certainly feels good ;)And much needed.

This... is a pretty good insight to the life of footballers. I know that footballers live in their own crazy world but still.. I feel sorry for any decent woman who marries a footballer like those Man Utd players. But then.. those footballers would have divorced any decent woman they were married to, switching to some pretty models. Anywayz.. Went to company's D n D last Friday. Was sabo-ed by my colleagues to get up on stage and dance to some bollywood song. And since I dunno most of those staff, and who cares about CEO =P... so I danced. Geez.. I still can't believe it. And it seemed like an effective bad publication coz today, I realised that many Indian staff who I didn't know smiled to me and told me they enjoyed watching me. I am not sure if that was a compliment but hey.. like what my boss said.. "send out positive energy"! =D Monday.. as usual.. has been a tough day. I felt that I was losing my heart lil by lil, working here. God.... please make this fast...

If you have no wings to fly I will dive to reach you.

I think I have had too much of this superficial world at times. The latest antique that I couldn't resist having a dig at is this "Wearing Green Campaign". So we are supposed to wear green for two days and in doing so, campaigning for the climate change crisis. Erm.. how exactly do you do that? I can understand that it is going to be cool to see this sea of green tshirts on the street. And I have no issue with that. But the earth? The earth gains nothing from this campaign. Well.. if everyone who commit to wear green this weekend will also 1. change all his house's bulbs to energy efficient bulbs. 2. change his electric appliances to energy efficient ones. 3. reduce his use of air-con by 50% 4. take public transport 5 days a week, whether he has his own car or not. 5. live a 'green lifestyle' in general.. Then yeah.. it works, it helps. So just.. stop.. telling everyone that we contribute to the better earth by wearing green for two days. That by doing this, w...

And again!! God has proven that He is never too late. He put into this heart that the answer will come by this Friday. And He taught this mouth to speak it out in faith. And He delights this heart by fulfilling it today. Unfailingly. Unwavering. His faithfulness. Congrats bro!

TW youth... kok rasanya ga beda2 banget ama kita2 huehehe. Harusnya kita juga bisa donk ^^ nah kalo yg inih.. ehem... ada 'sedikit' gap dan ini.. oh well.. being fat wouldn't be that bad it seems.. if I can sing like he does ^^ and shall we end with my planet shakers all time fave song (so far)..

little monkey.. could we ever make the leap? i will wait for you.. in the future.

It is one of those movies where I found myself sitting down in satisfaction and awe as the end credit rolled. The last time I watched a cartoon and felt this way was when I watched "The Incredibles". This movie epitomised everything I love about anime. The drawing style, the characters, even the soundtracks. Anime at its naive best. I thought it was much much better than "Howl's moving castle", even if it is much much simpler. Probably its simplicity is also its beauty. I won't waste my time arguing with those who will try to point out that its CGI is nothing to boast about, and neither is its plot. Coz anime is most beautiful this way.

Woah.. blogging is a luxury nowadays. And when I eventually got myself to sit down and blog.. I dunno what to say anymore -_- So many things have taken place.. but looking at the big picture, nothing much have really changed. Btw I like the preaching by ko Erwin last Sunday (ko Erwin is like one of my fave fulltimers in our church, besides ko Irwan btw ^^ ). It's a simple message that remind us to use our tongue wisely. There is power in our words. And when we speak them out with faith in God, our words can truly move the mountains and command the blessings. Though I have listened to the same kind of message many times, and I know about the water thingy, still.. a message delivered in God's time will always be life changing. And I think, from my personal POV, the message truly awaken me. I remember watching Al Gore's Inconvenient Truth last Thursday (a great movie, btw). He said that we have all it takes to stop global warming. Human have what it takes to save our own earth...

Hana Kimi Ost.. Nice song.. Nice clip. And the uber cute.. Vivian Hsu ^^

God deserves a better you. And a better me. Don't you think it's time for us to return to the battlefield?

Never a fan of David Beckham, football wise. As Myles Palmer put it, Beckham is never a great footballer. But England will have to stand up and notice this: "Beckham was dropped from England squad after the World Cup. Everyone thought his England career was over. But in the last two games, he was brought back into the squad because they needed a 'David Beckham'. So England scored 4 in 2 games and Beckham made 3 of them. He is 32 and he is never as good as Frank Lampard or Steven Gerrard, but Beckham is the only player who could give you 'David Beckham'." There are players who often bottle it when it comes to important matches, someone like ehm.. Thierry Henry. But there are players who take on the stage and shine when it matters the most. Beckham is one of those. What he lacks in skill, he makes up for them with his character. Myles calls him a quarterback. Zidane, Kaka, Riquelme, or Figo are great football 'quarterbacks'. Well.. Beckham does not have ...

The ones left out from the battle are not those who lack strength. They are those who lack resolve - Kuchiki Rukia (Bleach)

After 3 good years of staying in Far East Mansion with Iwan and Darvin, I have finally moved. I would say that I have not made too many of such decision lately. It would be easy to just agree to join Mbun and all, but I decided to follow my heart and not my laziness. So yeah.. here I am. Once again our faithful God provides. The days of uncertainty when we were looking for a new place were certainly thrilling. And thanks to our beloved cellgroup mates who prayed for us. We are now nicely settled in the new place with a good owner. He is kinda clean and neat freak but then.. that's good for me and my bro. It forces us to up our standard of cleanliness heh. I said that my aim for 2007 was to improve my quality of life. And so far 2007 has been full of learning curves and nice, little breakthrus for me. I am still considering CFA.. on one hand, that is the path to the financial industry where you earn big bucks.. on the other hand, I think I know that financial industry is never my dr...

I am.. missing.. that little monkey.. somehow.. Sigh..

Good morning world!! It's Sunday, it's sunny.. and it's inevitable that on a day like this, something beautiful will happen. We are without place to stay but on a day like this, God will provide us with the place, even better than anything we could ever imagine. I haven't got my voice back properly but on a day like this, God will annoint my throat to serve Him with all my best. I still got loads of homework to do for Monday but on a day like this, God will enable me. On a day like this, we will celebrate the Lord ^^

One of the most memorable camps I ever had. God's presence and work was so real even from the first nite. Can't really write them down but gosh... ain't God awesome??! We were praying that each and everyone of our cell members would experience awesome presence of God and from what I could see.. we all were so blessed by the camp. Someone got the baptism of holy spirit but she said it's still a secret =P Too bad we didn't have the chance to see Rancu acting hoho =D Oh but Alex... you rock man ^^ For rancu it gonna be her first and last before she goes to malaysia so I hope you had a great camp yah =) As for Liana.. we believe that God always has His plan and perfect time. So be patient sis! And the following.. is about the three daughters of God who made such a brave decision to follow Him undignifiedly The second nite, after the annointing session, we felt the strong urge to ask the four members of 'genk imut'-our ever so adorable cell members, whether they ...

if You can use anything, won't you use me?? Take me and break me and mould me and make me! You died for me so I am living for You.. I am living for You.. living for You!!

It's funny how I watched Spiderman 3, with all its teaching about choices, and I ended up only remembering this line Peter Parker said in the beginning of the movie: "And I am in love.. with the girl of my dreams" So.. ga penting.. but well.. that's the most memorable line for me ^^ Maybe coz I had been dreaming strange dreams lately. Heh. Or maybe.. I thought it will be surreal to wake up one morning and finding yourself in love with the girl of your dreams. What's the chance of that happening?

A sweet song by Cao Ge and this sweety that I never seen before. The way she says 'wo yuan yi bian chen ni de zhu ying tai", especially the 'zhu ying tai' part.. is wayy.. adorable. The song itself is a no-brainer stuff, about two persons wanting to confess their love. They cross Romeo-Juliet with Liang San Bo- Zhu Ying Tai, which is not too original either. But then.. my ears quite like the sound of it =)

It was 10 PM, three of us were sitting there, inside the empty office. And my senior, whom I thought was enjoying her job all this while, mumbled: "I feel so tired.. yet I keep working. Sometimes I wonder; what am I doing here?" To which I replied.. "Good question".. and we laughed. It was unspoken.. but we both know.. our cheese is not here. What I couldn't understand was that.. how did she survive her two years here? Over the past two years, 9 out of 10 times she took MC, she would still come for work. Maybe the pay was good. Maybe she needed that for her wedding. But now that she was married.. and she had to keep her husband waiting for her till 10 PM to have dinner together.. she started asking that classic question. I used to tell this to friends who work overtime, stay over at their office.. I used to tell them that it's not worth it. My other senior colleague put it this way: "You sacrifice your health for wealth, so that you can use your wealth ...

there are times when people are being kind, coz they try to make up for something. you could have told them 'there is no need to do that'. but maybe sometimes it's better to pretend that you don't know what they are trying to do. so that they would feel better. and life goes on.

26. It's like the 2nd chapter of life. Asssuming we live for 75 yrs.. I am now embarking on the next 25 years of life. The first chapter was about parents, childhood, sibling, school, puppy loves, loves, and a lil bit of work. The second chapter.. I guess its about family still, and work, love, marriage, children and money. Well that's the typical route. But I still hope that its really about dream fulfilled, a life partner, and all the best of my time with God. If I were to waste my life for Him.. this is truly the time- it is probably the best part of my life. Coz I really want to live to be remembered. Even if I am not THAT outstanding today.. I still want to live to be remembered. Back to the word 'birthday'.. Last year I listed down all those who wished me happy bday but this year.. its kinda tough coz it happened to be Sunday and met a lot of ppl and u know.. anyway.. Thanks to everyone who remembers.. I know I am lousy with this kinda stuff.. I often forgot peopl...

I am very sad today @_@ Took no. 54 as usual to my office.. halfway, a mother with her 4-5 years old lil boy got up and the mother sat beside me. Anddd.... the boy started grumbling. "I dun want to sit with the UNCLE" AGAINNN and AGAINNN and AGAINNN..... and its not like he was whispering lor... everyone nearby could hear that and the girl sitting on the opposite side moved in to give space. AND I dunno why his mum took so long to move him there. ALSO, why did she need to specifically ask: "do you want to sit there?" Of course that lil boy nodded. Darn.. I would have smacked down the boy if we are in a cartoon world -_- Heh but seriously.. maybe its time to admit that I am slowly but surely stepping into the realm of 'uncles' and 'aunties'. Now.. I only need to make sure that I got to marry a beautiful auntie.

So here are few holiday options we can go for: 1. Guilin and Yangtze river, China 2. Scandinavia 3. Caribbean Hmm.. why does option 1 sounds so out of place? Yet it could be the one I go for.. coz no 2 and 3 would do much more damage to my saving. We gotta see another part of the world this year. And by another part, I mean somewhere beyond south east asia.

I am losing my melancholic sense lately. Seriously. And I just couldn't give myself a time to sit down and blog away without worry. Jobs and my ministry commitment are always on my head. I kinda miss the part of my brain that supplies me with all kind of wonderful, useless, and amusing thoughts. At this rate, it will be tough to be the next Jay Chou before I reach 30 ^^ Missed out on '300' but nevermind.. we watched 200 pounds beauty and believe it or not, the biggest reason I wanted to watch the movie was the scene where Kim Ah-Joong got up to sing Maria heh. But overall its a very good movie heh. Quite touching also towards the end. My only complain is the relationship between her and the guy.. it was never convincing. Had our first blessed' bbq last friday at rancu's place. Woah tanglin view is sooo nice... thxx ran for being such a good host. Love the folks. Love the food.. and our chef was certainly doing a good job. So sad that some of you will have to leave t...